Rehan's pov

The way Sania called Sierra 'JAAN' made my heart flutter...I wonder what will she call me when she will start loving me..I hit my head and thought..'What is wrong with my brain...? Why does it wants pet names from Sania..?'

I instantly stopped my running horses, and focused on driving..We went to the store, and Sania was checking each and every products ingredients, to be sure if that was safe for Sierra...She will be a great Mom to Sierra.. After buying some baby products we proceeded towards home...

Whole time Sierra was clinging to Sania,'like koala to a tree...' I thought and laughed on the choice of my words..haha..

The way Sierra was addressing me 'Dadda' was giving me so much happiness and contentment..I was so in love with this baby...But I am also noticing my growing closeness towards Sania...

I wont lie, I do have feelings for her, Not since today but from the day she was lost on that street, when she went for grocery shopping...I thought I will do anything just to find her... I wanted her back safe and sound...

And when that bastard said to fuc**** trade her, for business..I completely lost my senses..I would have literally killed him there and there..Only I know, how I have controlled my anger and just punched his ugly face..

I have this unknown feeling for her in my heart.. which I did not have for any girl..I feel the need to protect her from everyone, as she is too naive and innocent for this cruel world...I did not felt this way before, not even for my bit** ex. Who I was in love with 'according to mee...'

I have slept with so many girls.. Girls literally throw themselves on me...I treat them not more than a pleasuring toy.. I never in my life touched a girl without her consent..They come and approach me for one night stands...

But when it comes to Sania..I dont want to touch her without loving her...I dont want to lust over her...

Because she is too pure for a beast like me..

She deserves someone who will love and cherish her, the whole fuc**** life...And not someone like me... 'A playboy..' I thought and chuckled sadly...

Thats why I unnecessarily started a fight with her, so that she starts hating me and even disgust my presence...even at the entrance of her rooms door I know I was too harsh, and I did that purposely...

I made Sierra sleep on my lap and saw Sania coming out of the Restroom..She was tired but still managed to look pretty... She wore a pink colour simple kurta as her night wear..And her hijab was still present on her head.

I then noticed her eyes they always shinned when she was happy..her pointed nose..her pink and plump lips which look so tempting..her perfectly aligned teeth were like muaah..!

I was literally drooling over her like a college teen boy...

I immediately stopped my starring session before getting caught, and gave her my credit card..but I totally forgot that she is Sania...

'She has biggest self respect in this whole universe..' note the sarcasm...

From our wedding till today, she did not asked me for a single penny..She works from home, and earns on her own.. And manage her expenses..

So she declined me politely...

"This was a good time to show her my Arrogant side so that she starts hating me..." I thought and smirked in my mind..

I held her wrist and pulled her towards me..She was so close to me, Her sweet smell was intoxicating me.. I felt like hugging and kissing her and never let her go...but I took hold on my wild thoughts and started shouted at her..I even said that Sierra is her daughter only on papers...

I know that for now Sierra is her sore nerve, and I used it to hurt her..She cried in my hold and I was feeling her pain in my heart every time, fresh tear escaped from her eyes..

I have promised myself that I will not repeat the same mistake which I did in past..I twice did a mistake... first of trusting my own mother then, my ex girlfriend..After that I learnt a lesson to never trust any woman..

But that day what I did was completely unacceptable..I raised my hand on her and slapped her..I am still ashamed of that action of mine till todays date..

My baba has not raised me like this..He had taught me to respect women and never hit them...

I curse bad words, I dont follow Islam and dont pray Namaz, I drink, I even sleep with womens.. but I will never abuse a woman..And that day I even did that to her..I feel disgusted of myself..

That day I promised myself I will never ever hit her again... I will ask her forgiveness and ask her to give me some punishment aswell.

I know, I am a broken person and Im living my life with very much difficulty...If i get broken this time, I dont think i would be able to mend my broken pieces..

I spat words angrily on her face and she got completely lost..I looked at her one last time then kept my credit card on the side table and left the room...

I was feeling terrible.. "Im a stupied, Idiot, duffer, assho**, pig, and all those names which i can give to myself... why just why do i have to give her so much pain..?"

"But if she will be attached with me, she will forget her own identity and will only focus on mending my broken heart...Which I will not let happen...I cant be selfish...yes, yes that is right..." I thought in my mind..

I was continuously repeating in my mind..I dont know how, but my feet dragged me towards her room..And once again I was batteling with my inner soul wether I should check on her or not...

"I am checking on my baby Sierra..And not Sania" I tried to reason myself.. and pushed the door a little... I saw Sania talking to herself looking towards the sky..I only heard her saying 'Aryan'..My heart ached to hear his name from her mouth..'Due to my rude behaviour she still remembers him.. He used to listen to her and ease her pain..And I am the one who is always the reason behind her pain...' I thought in my mind...

She was still crying and because of her sob Sierra woke up..Sierra asked her the reason for her cries..but she reasoned that she misses her Mom and dad..I immediately had tears in my eyes...I am the reason behind her tears.. but she did not take my name...

I went back to my room with heavy heart..I could not sleep the whole night...

Whenever i closed my eyes Sania's crying face was coming in my vision..

Whole night I just turned left and right on my bed...But could not sleep...

Soon it was morning, and I decided to go to my office before Sania and Sierra wakeup...I changed my night wear to my suit and directly went office...

I reached office and directly went to Rizwan..I told him everything about Aryan's death.. Aryan's love for Sania and also Adoption of Sierra...

He was shocked to hear that Sania was Aryan's long lost love..

He was also very proud of me when I told him about the adoption...

I then told him about how i shouted at Sania last night...

He got angry and said, "Im warning you Rehan..you better understand her worth, before she is gone.." Rizwan said angrily..

"No Rizwan I cannot trust on anyone now... I have had enough of my lessons, all my life...And Im completely broken buddy...

And Sania deserves someone far more better than me.." I said, and Rizwan chuckled at me.

He then said, "Will you be able to see her with someone else..?" asked Rizwan..

I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out from my mouth..and just that thought was enough to make my blood boil...

"Fuc*off " I muttered irritated left his cabin and directly went to my office...The entire day my head was paining due to lack of sleep..and I could not concentrate on anything...

Rizwan noticed my condition and advised me to go home early..I also accepted as I knew Sania and Sierra would have gone for shopping...

I immediately left office and went towards home...As i reached home I was very exhausted and was tired and hell...

I clicked open the door and directly went inside..I heard some sounds from kitchen..Who might be at the kitchen...and what is this voice...?

I could not hear clearly as i was standing towards the door, which was pretty far from the kitchen area..

I followed the voice and came towards kitchen..There I saw Sania was singing while cooking something.

"But waitt...Sania was looking different today.." 🤔🤔 I thought.

Oh my God..! She is not wearing that hijab on her head....

her back was facing me, so she did not knew I came home early..

And was standing right behind her...

Her hair were open and reached till her waist...they looked so smooth and silky...that I had the sudden urge to run my fingers through them..

And what the hell is she wearing..? Is she wearing a pakistani dress...?

It is so beautiful..And her curves are clearly visible throught her kurta...

The dress is white and is so elegant..She is not looking less than an Angel, directly sent from heaven..

I like her choice alott because, though she does not wear short and revealing clothes...She still manages to look beautiful and very pretty..

Woahhh...!! She is dancing near the kitchen counter, on song "Closer" by Chainsmokers..

I know it breaks your heart...

Moved to the city in a broke-down car, and

Four years, no call...

Now I'm looking pretty in a hotel bar, and

I-I-I can't stop..

Nooo, I-I-I can't stop...

So, baby, pull me closer..

In the back seat of your Rover,

That I know you can't afford

Bite that tattoo on your shoulder..

Noo, I-I-I can't stop..."

She was singing so happily and was swaying her hips while singing... I noticed her action and gulped the lump formed in my throat...

Ughh..! She does not even know the effect she have on me...

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So here is your todays update muffinss...🤗🤗🤗

Rehan is not that bad..It's just that his past was not good...😓😓

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