*warning: contains some mature content...read at your own risk

BELLAS POV

I stare at the door as he walks out of it. Okay what was that?

"Well then," Devin awkwardly moves away from me.

"Has he said something to you?" I ask getting you from the couch.

"He's said that you've been different, but in my opinion it's both of you." Maybe I have been acting differently but I don't think I have. If anything Matt has been acting differently.

"I'm gonna go." I text Brian and he replied almost instantly saying he's on his way.

"Alright I'll see you later." He walks up his stairs and I walk out of his house.

Brian is there is 2 minutes. "I just dropped you off like 10 minutes ago."

"Yeah I know." I hold my phone in my hands thinking if I should text him or not.

"Boy troubles?" He asks and I just shake my head.

"I don't even know. It's just different between us."

"You guys will work it out. You guys are literally meant to be." Meant to be, huh. Sure doesn't feel that way right now.

"Yeah." I mumble looking out the window.

"Look I may not be the best person to talk to about this but I know that even if he hasn't said it, he loves you and I know you love him." He looks over at me and then back on the road.

"He did say it." He smiles.

"Well I told you. He's made you into such a great person. Not that you weren't before. But you've become a lot more confident and you kind of have this glow." I laugh at that last part.

"A glow? I don't think that's how it works."

"Oh yes it is, I see it." He counters back.

"Anyways it doesn't matter. He isn't really talking to me so I feel like I did something wrong." I look back out the window.

"Boys will be boys. They have their mood swings too, and we like to overthink things from time to time." But what would he be overthinking? I must have done something for him to overthink, right?

"Okay well I'll call him when I get home."

A few minutes later and I'm sitting in my bed, looking at my closed curtains and grasping the phone in my hand.

Okay I just gotta do it, don't overthink.

I press call and it rings a few times before he picks up.

"Hello?" I asked a little quieter than anticipated.

"Hey Bella." His voice cracks a little bit when he says my name so I immediately think that something is wrong.

"What's wrong? Are you hurt?" I get up from my bed and start pacing around my room.

"No no I'm good. Look I'm really sorry about earlier I was just in my own little world and I overreacted."

"You don't have to be sorry at all. I totally get it." I open my curtains to see if he's in his room but I don't see him. "Where are you?"

"Oh you know, just up and about." I hear my doorbell ring and I smile.

"Hmmm I see." I race downstairs and open to door and he's standing their with a little goofy grin.

"Hi." He smiles.

"Hi." I hang up the phone and hug him.

I hear him blow out a breath and then he wraps his arms around me and plants a kiss on my cheek. We stay like this for a minute before my mom yells at me to do the dishes.

"I'll help." Matt offers.

"Oh no that's okay I got it." He doesn't listen to me and helps me with them anyways.

"Mom is it okay if Matt comes up stairs with me?" She comes downstairs and eyes us up and down.

"Okay. I go out for a bit with Brian. Love you." She winks at me and I squint my eyes in confusion. Did she really just wink at me?

"Love you too." My mom heads out the door not looking back once.

"So did you wanna stay down here or go to my room?" I ask tucking a piece of hair behind my ears.

"I'm fine with either one. It's really up to you." I decide to go up to my room.

"I kind of wanna go upstairs if that's okay with you." He smiles at me and takes my hand leading me up the stairs.

It's nice like this. Just me and him, alone for once. I feel like it's been a while since we've been alone together and I missed it.

"It's nice being alone with you for once." He says practically reading my thoughts.

"Yeah I was just saying that." I reply as I sit down on my bed.

He looks around the room and decides to stand awkwardly against the wall while looking at me.

"You can sit down here, you know?" I pat the spot next to me and he tugs the back of his hair a little before sitting beside me.

"Sooo you wanna watch a movie?" I feel like that's all we ever do but I really enjoy it and I'm hoping he does too.

"Yeah what movie were you thinking?" He looks over at me while leaning back on my headboard.

"50 shades?" I say with a straight face.

His face turns a bright red and he shifts on the bed.

"I'm kidding." I laugh a little when I see how red his face is. "Unless you want to..."

"Oh well you know I'll watch whatever you want to." I scoot back a bit and take my laptop from beside me bed.

"I'm down." I pull up Netflix and I snuggle under the covers. I motion for him to do the same and he looks at me before doing it.

Lord knows how many times I've watched this movie and I have no idea how this is going to go.

I press play on the movie and move closer to Matt so that we are arm to arm.

"You know she has such pretty eyes." I say as I see Anastasia walk into his office.

"Yeah I agree but so does he."

"Mhm." I respond.

A while passes before the first sex scene comes on and as soon as it does I clench my thighs. Not because I'm like turned on or anything... I can feel Matt look over at me but I keep my eyes on the screen. Maybe this wasn't such a great idea. I look over at him and he's still looking at me.

"Do you wanna change the movie?" He asks.

"Yeah sorry." I quickly close the tab. "So what movie were-" I get cut off by Matt pressing his lips against mine.

I'm startled by the action at first but then I start kissing him back. Before I know it my mind isn't controlling me anymore and I'm straddling him as we continue to kiss. I slowly move my hips back and forth and I hear him suck in a sharp breath. I feel him underneath me and that feeling takes over and a small moan escapes from my lips. As soon as that happens he stops kissing me and starts kissing down my neck.

"I wanna do it." The words escape my lips before I can overthink it too much.

"Are you sure?" He looks at me with messy hair and pink cheeks.

"Definitely." I say. He looks like a little boy at a candy store when I say that but his face falls just a little.

"I don't have a condom." He says and I think for a few seconds.

"My brother definitely does. I'll go get one." This mag be a little weird but I get off of him and bring my phone with me as I leave the room.

I text Scarlet as soon as I close the door behind me.

Omg I'm literally about to have sex. I send it and look in his bedside drawer and sure enough there is a box.

Wtf are you texting me for?! But definitely tell me about it all afterwards;) She replied and I quickly take a condom and turn off my phone.

When I get back into the room I see him rubbing himself through his pants and I nearly have a heart attack on the spot. When he spots me with my mouth wide open at the door he stops and covers himself with the blanket. The was the hottest thing I have seen, like ever.

"I got it." I reply putting my phone down and sitting beside him. "But don't expect me to put it on."

He laughs at me and takes the condom. Okay this is actually happening. Holy crap.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asks me again probably realizing I'm looking away.

"Yes I'm sure." I give him a little smile and he returns it.

"Alright do you wanna do it on top of the covers or under. Because you might feel more comfortable under the covers but of course I would love to see you on top of the covers-" I cut him off before he blabs on more about the bed sheets.

"I think I wanna do it under." I reply.

"Alright sounds good." He takes off his shirt and his sweatpants. He then looks at me. "Do you want me to take it off for you?" I laugh a little bit and shake my head.

"I got it thank you." I take off my shirt revealing my lace black bra with a small bow in the middle. I then take off my leggings revealing boring black panties. He looks me up and down and licks his lips. "I wasn't really planning on doing this today so I didn't really prepare." I mumble.

"You don't need to prepare for me. Plus you look so gorgeous right now." He cups my face and plants kisses along my jaw.

He then moves so he's hovering over me. "I think if we do it this way it'll hurt less for you. Is that okay?"

I nod my head and bite my lip.

"Is it okay if I touch you down there?" I can feel my heart racing a thousand miles per minute and I feel like I'm gonna completely melt if he does.

"Yeah you can." I wiggle my panties down and I feel his fingers run along my inner thigh.

Slowly his fingers move their way further and further up until they are right there. He looks directly at me and he starts to move his fingers in a circular motion.

"Oh god." His eyes are still staring right at me and although it's a little creepy it's turning me on a lot.

"You like that?" He asks propping his other arm beside my head.

"Mhm." I reply gripping the bedsheets.

He leans his head down and starts kissing me. As if I didn't already have a hard time breathing. He keeps going and picks up the pace a little bit and my hips lift off the bed a little.

"Matt I'm gonna-" he kisses me before I finish my sentence and I dig my nails into his back as I moan in his mouth.

"Okay now we can have sex." He says with an accomplished smile on his face.

He takes the condom and rips it open. Matt moves up a little and throws his boxers on the ground while still underneath the covers. He looks up and I notice him bite his lip a little. "I'm gonna go really slow at first just tell me if you want to stop or if I'm hurting you."

"Okay." He starts putting it in and I wrap my legs around his hips. "Oh fuck." The words come out of my mouth and he stops what he's doing.

"What did you just say?" Oh my god I just swore but I didn't even do it on purpose.

"Uh it doesn't matter please continue." He starting putting it in again and the pain is soon cancelled out by the pleasure. I feel him stretching me out and his slow movements are killing me.

"Are you okay." He asks once again. I don't reply I just close my eyes and bite my lip while nodding my head.

"Holy shit." Matt says as he props both his arms on both sides of my head so as he thrusts in his chest clashes with mine and I can feel his face right beside mine. "Bella you feel so good." Just those words alone almost make me finish again. "Can I go a little faster?" He looks at me and I nod my head.

As he picks up the pace I dig my nails more into his back, probably leaving marks there. He groans next to my ear and I say his name while he starts kissing my neck.

"Tug my hair." He orders and I do as told. I grab onto his hair and pull as he thrusts in once again. "Fuck yeah keep doing that." I starting moaning again pretty loudly because I can feel myself getting closer and closer to finishing.

"I'm gonna cum." He pushes inside of me a little harder one last time as we moan each other's names and he collapses on top of me.

A minute goes by as we both catch our breaths and he rolls off of me. That actually just happened.

"Oops." I look over at Matt who is staring at my shoulder:

"What?" I ask panicking slightly.

"I may or may not have left a mark." Oh no. My mom can not see that or I will see my grave.

"I'll wear a hoodie." I reply smiling over at him.

"Was it okay? I didn't hurt you?" I shake my head and run my thumb along his jaw.

"You were great. I'm not gonna lie it was a little painfully but that was to be expected." He smiles at me and kissed my wrist.

"We should probably get changed before your mom gets home." He suggests.

"Thats a great idea." As soon as I start to move I feel the soreness between my legs.

"You okay?" Matt asks while putting on his sweatpants.

"Yeah just a little bit sore." I admit taking out a pair of sweatpants from my drawer.

"I'm sorry." He hands me my shirt.

"Don't be." I reply putting it on. "So do you want to watch a movie now?"

He laughs and opens the door for me.

"Sounds like a good idea."

A/N: yeah sorry for this really long chapter, but I hope you enjoyed it! I hadn't updated for a little bit so I decided to spice things up and I enjoyed writing this chapter a little too much...