I'm insane.

As I stood there in the shower, thought after though ran through my mind and none of them were appropriate. All of them involved Bryan coming into the shower and doing... things with me.

Whyyyyyyyyyyy what is wrong with my mind???

I tried my best to shake away the thoughts and continued with my shower.

I'm not a hormonal teenager anymore. So why are my thoughts all of a sudden so jumbled like this? This isn't the first time it's happened either. This whole week my thoughts have been corrupted.

Every single time anything can even be taken sexually, I somehow manage to do it. I'm not sure if this is supposed to mean something, but damn if it didn't make me nervous as fuck.

I tried to clear the thoughts from my head as I finished up in the shower and got out. Taking extra time to dry off and put on my clothes, I took a good long look in the mirror.

The woman who was staring back at me was not the same woman who stared back at me when I first came here.

This time the woman who stared back at me was practically glowing. My skin tone was brighter and more even than before, the dark eye bags that had once been under my eyes were now gone, and my eyes were happier than what they were before.

My mind wandered to my hair salon. It had been so long since I had last seen my regulars, and I'm sure they were getting irritated with me for being closed down for so long, but could I bring myself to move all the way back over there after I had finally found my happiness here?

Maybe I could open a hair salon here? It's not like the salon back home was in the best shape, I was going to have to put thousands of dollars into repairs for the place, so why not just put that money towards a new, better place? Of course, I would have to talk about this with Bryan, but I'm sure he wouldn't mind. Especially since I would be making money that I could also use to support the club as well.

Although they would probably make me take someone with me for protection, which is irritating but understandable, the thought of being able to open up a salon and work again lit a fire inside of me that I didn't even realize had died out. I didn't even realize that I had missed working in my salon until now. Seeing the happy faces of the satisfied customers as they left my salon always was a highlight of my day, but now I don't get that interaction each day anymore.

Maybe if I asked Bryan he would let me open up a salon? The chances were very low considering what the club is going through right now, but it is at least worth a shot.

I shook those thoughts away for the time being considering I had just been standing in the bathroom staring at the mirror for quite some time now. Quickly I got dressed and walked out of the bathroom, coming face to face with a concerned Bryan.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"You were in there for quite some time after you shut the water off. Are you okay?" He asked. My heart swelled. Before meeting Bryan and the other men in the club, I had only ever had Kali and Spider who truly cared about me. Feeling the love from someone who wasn't them was foreign to me, but it made me feel so warm inside.

I laughed and hugged him. "I'm fine, I was just thinking about some things is all. Nothing to be concerned about."

I smiled as he wrapped his own arms around me and hugged me tightly to him. Closing my eyes, I inhaled the smell of his cologne and practically melted.

"Do you just wanna watch movies for the rest of the day?" He whispered into my ear.

I looked up at him confused. "Don't you have certain duties to attend to?"

He shook his head. "The guys already practically ordered me to spend the rest of the day with you instead. They said that they can handle it. So with that being said," he said suddenly as he lifted me up with ease. "We are going to watch movies for the rest of the night, sound okay?"

I blushed and nodded, too speechless to do much else as my mind went to my earlier thoughts about him and I in bed. He chuckled and set me gently down onto the bed before grabbing the remote to his TV and turning on Netflix.

Briefly, the whole "Netflix and chill" thing popped into my head, causing my cheeks to go even redder but I abandoned the thought as to not raise any suspicions with Bryan about what was going on inside my head.

"What do you want to watch?" He asked, gesturing towards the screen. Looking through the options, my face lit up when I saw Tarzan . I took the remote from Bryan and quickly selected it, ignoring his small chuckle as the movie began to play.

"I take it you like this movie?" He asked gently.

I nodded with a small smile as I watched the screen. "Tarzan was one of my favorite movies growing up, and it will always have a special place in my heart. I could probably recite this whole movie by heart if I really wanted to," I laughed.

He hummed and pulled me close to his body, practically using me as a blanket as we both watched the movie together. No matter how many times I have seen Tarzan, I always get so invested into the movie so I was grateful when Bryan didn't really speak the whole time and allowed us both to watch the movie in peace.

When it was over I turned to him smiling, only to see him already looking at me.

"You know, I think the best part about that for me was when you sang along to every song," he laughed. I rolled my eyes and playfully punched his arm as I tried to fight off my own smile.

"Did you just hit me?!" He gasped. I could see the amusement in his eyes.

I laughed and tried to roll away but he held me in place.

"I have no clue what on Earth you're talking about."

"Oh really?" He raised a brow with a smirk and I got extremely cautious at his change in moods.

"Yes?" I said, coming out as a question without meaning to.

The last thing I saw before he lunged at me was his smirk, and the next thing I knew he was tickling me in all of the spots I had previously told him about a few days ago.

As long as he doesn't tickle my sides-

I exploded into laughter and tried to move away from him as I felt his fingers brush against my sides. Tears were running down my face from how much I was laughing and through my blurry vision I could see Bryan's huge smile.

Finally I was able to get a hold of his hands and pull them away from my sides, even though I could tell that he let me move them so I could catch my breath and calm myself down.

As I caught my breath I became increasingly aware of the position we had moved ourselves into. I was being held down on the bed by him straddling me, with our hand entwined together against the bed. A strong blush covered my face and I could tell Bryan knew exactly what I was thinking about when he smirked and let his eyes roam across me.

I was still panting, causing my chest to rise up and down rapidly and when Bryan's eyes skimmed over that area he bit his lip and I could see a hint of desire hidden in his eyes.

Oh boy.

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