I buried my head in the pillow as I thought how awesome it would feel to die right now.

I was beyond tired.

First, I was on my period which was trouble enough already and second, I had to go shopping after work which was definitely a stupid idea because now my back hurt like a bitch and the stupid pain killer wasn't kicking in already.

I heard some noise from downstairs and then someone walking up the stairs but I was too tired to put up a fight so I just waited for the intruder to take whatever he wanted and get the hell out of my house so that I could sleep in peace.

"I come bearing giftsssss," the intruder chirped happily...oh wait, this was Zach's voice.

Never mind then.

"I mean food but like it's the same thing so whatever," he mumbled to himself as he made his way inside my room.

"Did you just say food?" I asked without lifting my head up from the pillow.

"Yes my love," he plopped down on the bed beside me and I opened one eye to see him grinning at me.

With an annoyed expression on my face, I sat up and crossed my arms against my chest as I waited for him to present whatever he brought because right now the only thing that was more important to me than sleeping was...well eating.

"Well...?" I cocked an eyebrow as I looked at him to give me the damn food and go away already.

This was my period talking I swear I wasn't this much of a bitch.

"Geez what crawled up your ass and died," he chuckled lightly and picked up the paper bags from the floor as he sat them on the bed.

Great. Pizza was all I needed right now.

I gave him a small tight lipped smile as I picked up the box of pizza from in front of me and sat it on the pillow in my lap so that it was out of Zach's reach.

He laughed at this, "Don't worry. I'm full already."

"Good," I said and took a huge bite of the pizza.

"I love you," I said with my mouth full.

"I love you more," he said and laid down right in front of me.

"So how's everything?" he asked.

"Oh apart from the fact that I wanna die before Friday, everything is great."

This made him chuckle again, "Why, what's on Friday?"

"This ball I'm supposed to go to with my stupid boss," I said while gulping down from my water bottle.

"Isn't that a good thing..?"

"No?"

Zach still didn't know about my current situation with Mr. Rhodes and telling him right now didn't really seem like a good idea because I would probably start bawling my eyes out after ten seconds in the story.

"You're weird," he stated.

"I agree," I wholeheartedly nodded my head in agreement.

When Zach tried to steal a slice of my pizza I smacked his hand away and threw a series of profanities at him. Although I knew I couldn't eat the whole thing right now, who said we couldn't refrigerate it for later?

"Are you PMsing? What is this, like the seventeenth time this month?" Zach figured and started laughing and I threw a pillow at him as he made his way out of my room.

Stupid people.

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The next few days went by faster than I had imagined and before I knew it was Thursday night already.

I was so not ready for this.

I was still in the office and so was Mr. Rhodes because we were the only two here who didn't have a life and our one similar habit was to drown ourselves in work to ignore our problems.

I sighed and put my head down on the table. I was contemplating if I was supposed to talk to Mr. Rhodes about tomorrow's plan or just go home, completing ignoring the fact that I was his date for tomorrow and I didn't even know at what time we were leaving the office.

Or if I was even supposed to come to the office.

Last time I went on an event with him, they told me not to come to the office and take my time getting ready for the event but I wasn't sure about this time.

What if I ditch office tomorrow and turns out Mr. Rhodes gets angry with me and the next thing I know I'm jobless.

As I walked out of my office, I took one last look at Mr. Rhodes door and sighed before making my way to the other side.

I couldn't do it.

I still vividly remembered what happened last time. No matter how much I tried to deny it, he held this power, this dominance over me that how much of a strong facade I pulled off, he still somehow found ways to hurt me.

I decided to call Alex when I'd get home and ask him about the plans of tomorrow. Surely, he would know what was up.

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"What the hell?!"

"Yeah I know right," Alex agreed and I rolled my eyes.

"But how could you do this to me. You know very well that him and I don't get along anymore," I whined like a three year old as I heard Alex sigh on the other side.

"Trust me Belle, I really wanted to attend but I've got to go back home. There's an emergency.." he trailed and I massaged my temples.

"Yeah it's fine. I just don't know how am I going to spend the entire day with him. I mean it would have been a lot more easier if you were there, you know?"

"Yeah I know you love me and all but I'm sorry you only get to be the date of one sexy bachelor tomorrow."

"Fuck off asshole," I rolled my eyes but still there was a small smile lingering on my lips.

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Freak out session seventy-three.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Repeat repeat repeat.....Fuck it's not helping.

According to what Alex told me last night, I wasn't supposed to go to the office today and moreover Mr.Rhodes was going to pick me up from my place himself which wasn't something to freak about..at all.

It was like Mr. Rhodes had already told Alex every single detail about today, like he was expecting me to approach him rather than Mr. Rhodes himself. He knew the time we'd be heading off, he knew if I was or wasn't supposed to go to the office today, he knew how long it was gonna take to reach and when we'll be heading back home etc etc.

I had gotten ready an hour earlier because let's just say I didn't want to take any chances even if he showed up earlier...which didn't happen because we were supposed to leave at three and it was quarter to three already and there was no sign of him whatsoever.

As I made my way down the stairs, I tried my level best to not trip on my heels and die or worse... ruin my dress.

When I heard the sound of a car rumble outside, my heart picked up an abnormal pace and I did the breathing exercises they told to keep the anxieties at bay...which by the way were of no use whatsoever.

He was here.

And I was freaking out.

I paced and back in the living room as I waited for the bell to ring so that I could open the door.

I looked down at myself one last time.

Stunning dress? Check.

Nice hair? Check.

Gorgeous heels? Check.

Ding.

I was a mess.

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