"Are you sure you want to walk in there, Sel?" Genevieve and I stood in front of Grayson's room.

We both stared blankly into the door and Genevieve rests her hand on my shoulder. I gulped and started fidgeting with my hands. "I don't know if I can talk to him after everything I caused."

"You're still blaming yourself for that, Selena?" Genevieve stood in front of me and crossed her arms. "It wasn't your fault."

"It is." I pushed a strand of hair away from my face.

"Grayson's' parents texted me, they're currently down at gift shops. They left him alone specifically for you, Sel." She rubbed my shoulder in a comforting way.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. "I can do this."

"It's been almost five minutes, just get in there already," Genevieve gives me a gentle push and pounds on the door.

I gasp, smacking her arm. She smiles and mouths a 'good luck'.

I gave her a small smile before walking into the room. I look back and see Genevieve giving me a thumbs up.

I slowly move away the curtain and Grayson looks towards me. We meet eyes for the first time in a month and all the knots that have been in my stomach start to disappear. His eyes lit up and he smiles at me. I never realized how much I wanted to see him smile for a few weeks now.

I rush over to his side and hug him. I try not to squeeze him too tight but I can't help it. I finally pull away and sit next to him on the small space of the bed.

I feel my eyes start to brim with tears as soon as I remember everything's my fault.

"Grayson I am so sorry for all of this, It's all my fault.

I should've never let you stay to help clean and should've never let you drive home that night! It's my fault you were in a coma and my fault that you almost fucking died-"

"Hey," Grayson grabs my hand, trying to calm me down. "This wasn't your fault, Selena. It was mine, I fell asleep on the road. I caused the crash." He wipes a tear from my face and gives me a reassuring smile.

We sit there in silence but it wasn't awkward it was just...there. I don't even notice that we're still holding hands until I felt Grayson making shapes into my hand with his thumbs. The exact thing I'd do to him.

"My mom told me that you visited me every day?" He looked up at me.

I could feel myself turning red. "I spent the whole month blaming myself for all of this, Grayson, of course, I did."

He blushes and kisses my hand. "What'd I miss?"

"Nothing much. I mostly kept my focus on you." I smile.

I look down at his leg that's still in a cast. "How's your leg?"

"Broken." He says flatly.

He scoots over on the bed and I carefully lay beside him. He wraps his left arm over my shoulder and I rest my head on his chest. I drag my nail against his chest in silence.

"I missed you." I say quietly.

"Me too." He mocks my quiet tone.

"Promise that when you get back to normal you'll start tutoring me again. My math grade is going down again." I look up at him with puppy dog eyes.

He laughs and nods. It feels comforting hearing his laugh again and not seeing him in pain. He kisses the top of my head and I feel the butterflies in my stomach.

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"I just wanted to kiss him right then and there." I huff, resting my head against the window.

"Why didn't you, dumbass?" Genevieve snarks.

"I didn't want to do it right in that hospital room. He just woke up from a coma, I can't just throw it at him." I shrug.

"Well get ready for when he goes back to school," Genevieve warns.

I raise an eyebrow and look at her.

"All the girls are going to feel bad for Grayson and will keep asking him if he's okay and carry his books to his classes, you know all that dumb shit." Genevieve rolled her eyes.

Girls wouldn't do that, right? Right?

"Yeah but Grayson would never let that happen." I try convincing myself that.

"You never thought Calvin would do what he did, and look where we are now. You aren't his girlfriend, he can go and find himself one and you can't get mad. Why? Because you didn't tell him you like him or kissed him."

I cross my arms and pout. I hate it when she's right.

"You're mad because I'm right." She smirks and pulls into my driveway.

"Selena, it's almost December. Get your shit together, please." Genevieve groaned as I got out of the car.

I waved to Genevieve who flips me off as she pulls out of the driveway. I know, best friend goals. I laugh and walk inside.

"Gaby?" I tense up when I see Gaby sitting on the couch, and my mom handing her a mug.

"Selena, you can't keep on a grudge on Gaby and the baby forever." My mom gave me a disappointed look, before walking upstairs.

"Selena, can we please talk about this?" Gaby pleads.

I rolled my eyes and sit across from her.

"I don't know how many times I have to apologize for you to forgive me, Sel." She teared up, "I really regret making that mistake but I could never get rid of this baby."

"Apologies won't cut it. What you guys did hurt me in a way that I didn't think was possible. I trusted both of you and now you're expecting a child together? Then posting your pregnancy announcement and engagement on social media?"

"I know, I really do, but I don't want us to keep this grudge, Selena. My mom stopped talking to her sister after she hooked up with her boyfriend at the time, and now they hate each other and don't talk at all. I don't want any of that to happen to us." She sniffles.

"You don't get it, do you? What you two did hurt me a lot and then having a baby that will share both of your DNA and rubbing it in my face? How does one get over that, Gaby? Explain to me how one can easily get over it?!" I felt a tear stream down my face.

Gaby stays quiet and clenches her fists.

"I told Calvin all of this was a bad idea. When I found out I was pregnant, Calvin wanted me to abort it. I spent the rest of that night crying because Calvin wanted it gone. I told myself that even if I was a single mother, I would never abort it. Calvin's parents are the reason we're engaged and all. They made Calvin stay with me if I wasn't going to get rid of it. He fucking tried to pay me off so I'd keep quiet. He was really in love with you, Selena. I just didn't want to admit it to myself. I didn't want to admit that he didn't want me at all or this baby." Gaby cries out.

It took two to make a baby. I shouldn't be this harsh on her. After everything I learned through Grayson's coma, I shouldn't take anything for granted.

"I'm sorry. For all of this. I was a bitch to you when you needed me the most." I admit. "I am so sorry you're going through all of this."

"All I want in this world right now is this baby." She wipes her tears away.

"You'll get through this, Gab. I know you will." I reassure her.