[This chapter contains sexual/ mature content so skip the first part if you aren't comfortable.]

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The moment the words slip out of my mouth, Taehyung's lips catches mine as he undresses me with a certain urgency.

He settles between my legs, his arousal hard and straining against my core as his lips travel lower. I sink my teeth into my bottom lip, trying my best to stay quiet but my efforts go to waste the moment he slides a finger inside me.

He groans against my skin as he begins pumping gently at first but the moment a moan escapes my lips, something in him comes undone. He adds another finger and his actions go rough, frantic, all while his lips moulded with mine, drinking in my moans.

There was something about the fact that I was completely bare under him while he was still clothed that had me going crazy. It was as though he couldn't have me fast enough, a certain desperation with his movements.

He pulls away from me and our eyes lock briefly while his fingers still work in me and he kisses the tip of my nose quickly before lowering himself. It was an action so innocent and sweet, a complete contrast to where his lips were now.

I'm gasping, quickly spiralling as I feel my legs begin to tremble. The only sounds in the room were his grunts and my breathy moans and apart from that, the both of us had yet to say a word.

He rides out my high with his tongue and fingers and then he's returning to his position on top of me. His lips now red and moist as he brings his fingers to his mouth, sucking it clean. "So sweet," he murmurs right before pressing his lips against mine.

Taehyung's patient with me, like he's savouring every part of me and is in no rush. Soon, his clothes joins mine somewhere on the ground and he's ripping a condom open with his teeth.

He rolls it on before settling on top of me. My body's expectant and burning with need but he doesn't do anything. Instead, he's looking at me with dark and hooded eyes. "I want this, Areum," he lets out low. "And I'll only do this if you want this too."

There's a flame that licks at my heart with his words. Being wanted, that was exactly what I needed right now. But tomorrow, I had no idea.

That wasn't true. I knew what tomorrow would bring. Hurt, guilt and everything I didn't need, but right now. That was a different story.

"Areum," he whispers my name, eyes searching mine and as though he sees the hesitation in them, he lifts off of me slightly but and there's a certain panic that flurries through me.

Taehyung was the only person who has ever made me feel that way I do right now. What if I never felt this way again?

I coil my legs around his waist, keeping him on me. "I want this. Now." And that was all he needed to thrust himself inside me.

My toes curl as he buries himself all the way inside me. "Fuck." He groans against my skin. "This..." he pulls out, only to thrust inside harder. "You..." and he rolls his hips again, sliding in and out of me at a feverish pace. "Nothing's ever felt so good." He rasps as he pumped into me faster.

His words set me on fire and I'm rendered speechless, my head giving up on me as I'm overwhelmed with him and just him. My nails dig into his skin as pounds into me and he rests his forehead on mine.

He kisses my temple and the gentleness of his lips was the exact opposite of the frantic thrusts of his hips. His eyes find mine and then there's that sense of longing that my heart craved. It was written all over his eyes.

He already had me, he was inside me, yet it was like he was craving for more, something beyond the physical and my heart ached at the same time a warmth embraced it.

I wanted him too but I knew when the sun rose tomorrow, I had to face reality. The odds were against us. But for now, I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my lips to his.

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I feel something nuzzling itself into the crook of my neck and I squint my eyes open as I see the golden rays seeping into the room.

I move slightly, and I hear someone groan into my nape, arms tightening around my body. I feel my breath shorten, remembering the night before.

Regret crashes into my being but it's momentarily blocked off when Taehyung pushes his body further onto mine, holding me close as I tried to roll out of bed.

I bite my lip, thinking of ways I could slip out of his grip without waking him and suddenly a voice grumbled. "Don't even think about it." He let out, his husky morning voice reverberating through my eardrums, almost as though he were able to hear my thoughts.

"Taehyung," I trailed off and I hear him click out annoyance, pulling away. I finally sit up, holding the covers close to my chest as I stared at him.

He sits up right after me, his tousled bed hair falling over his forehead as he locked his eyes onto mine.

"I'm sorry, this—"

"Don't you dare say this was a mistake." Taehyung cut me off, closing his eyes as he shook his head.

"But it was." I let out and he nibbled on the insides of his cheek as he looked up at me. "I wasn't in the right state of mind yesterday and I'm sorry. I should've stopped you and I'm sorry." I said, burying my face into the palm of my hand.

"No, don't apologise." He breathed out, grabbing hold of my hand as he took it into his own. "I wanted this and I don't regret anything that happened." He tried to get me to meet his gaze but I pulled away.

"But I do." I said looking up at him, running my fingers through my hair. "Don't you see how messed up this is? You've been with my sister, but now I'm here." I motioned towards the bed.

"Aera and I never slept together." He responded almost instantly but I groaned, thinking about how hurt she'll be if she ever found out.

"This is bad, Taehyung. And Jae and I are still together." I said and the moment his name slipped out of my lips, I feel my heart sting. "I need to go." I said as I reached for my clothes.

"Wait," Taehyung tried turning my body to face him, "what just happened?" He asked, confused as he stared at my broken state.

I gulped as I turned back to look at him, "I just need to go." I said, refusing to blink to prevent tears from spilling out of my eyes but they eventually did.

I got dressed and rushed out to his door. "Areum," He rushed out of his room, pulling his t-shirt over his head and onto his body.

"What's going on?" He asked and I turned to him.

"I cheated!" I snapped. "Now I'm as low as he is. I-I have no right to be upset at him if I'm the same." I stuttered, a lump forming in my throat as tears brimmed my eyes.

"Jaesun cheated?" His tone softening as he looked down at me. I was an emotional wreck and I didn't want Taehyung to witness me break.

"I'm sorry, Taehyung. I have to go." But before I could reach for his doorknob, he holds onto me.

"I can't let you go like this." He let out softly, pulling me back with a sigh.

"Why can't you let me go?" My voice raised as I tried fighting his grip, tears making it's way to my eyes as my breath became shallow.

"You're hurting." His eyes searched mine as he held either sides of me, "I don't know what Jaesun would've done but I'm sure as hell not letting you leave like this." The moment those words slipped out of his mouth I feel a part of me break.

All I could do was fall into his chest as I broke down.

Taehyung pressed me to his heart, where I sobbed, my tears dampening his t-shirt. All my hurt and brokenness being poured out in the form of tears and he was there to hear it all.

His arm tightened around me like a belt, a sense of security embracing me while his warmth coated me like a thick blanket. I've never felt this safe in someone's arms, ever, so I allowed myself to indulge in it.

I buried my face in his chest as he stroked my hair lovingly, not showing signs of letting go anytime soon. Soon, the tears ceased and I was just finding comfort in his arms. My breathing stabilised and I got a hold of myself. I pulled away, taking in a deep breath as I face Taehyung.

He doesn't question me and my break down but instead he tucked a strand of hair behind my ear, "I'll prepare something for us to eat, you can freshen up first." He said and I simply nod.

As I walked into his room he spoke out from the living room. "Help yourself to my clothes!" He lightly chuckled after.

I gulped onto the air, guilty at the idea of wearing anything of his. He just broke up with Aera a month ago, but here I am stealing his clothes.

I washed up and used one of his shirts. I got out and was instantly welcomed by the sweet aroma of pancakes wafting through the living room.

"Hey," Taehyung smiled up at me as he prepared two plates of pancakes, "give me a second. I'll go wash up." He said as he rushed by me, giving a quick peck on my forehead right before disappearing into his room.

I stood there frozen in shock, taken aback by the little action. The guilt in me building up to the point it became unbearable.

"You haven't started?" Taehyung came out a few minutes later to find me standing in the same position.

"Um-" I breathed out, trying to string my sentence together. "Taehyung, we need to talk." I said and he nodded.

"We really do." He replied, taking a seat at the dining table. He motioned for me to do the same and I took in a deep breath as I made my way in front of him. I sat down and he pushed a plate of pancakes towards me.

"Well-"

"I think this, whatever this is, is incredibly unwise." I cut him off, needing to get my thoughts out. He simply waited for me to go on. "You just broke up with Aera and it'll kill her if she ever found out about what happened last night. And I'm still together with Jae." I began rambling.

"Not for long." Was all he said as he took a bite.

"What?"

"You're not planning on staying with him, are you?" He looked up at me, an unbelieving look washing over him.

"Of course not," I shook my head, almost as though I was trying to convince myself. "But it takes time to get there." I said and he simply remained silent, taking a bite into his pancake right after drenching it in maple syrup.

I finally cut into the fluffy pancake that sat on my plate and took a bite. "So," he breathed out, looking at me. "What are we exactly?" His brows knitted together as he looked at me.

"I don't know." I said, eyes glued onto my plate, watching the maple syrup drip down the piece of pancake I had in my fork.

"I don't think we can be anything." I finally meet his gaze, "I can't do that to Aera." I said and he sighed, dropping his utensils against his plate with a loud clang.

"Areum," he massages his temples right before looking up at me. "I don't think you understand." His brown orbs fixated onto me.

"I want you and I'm not going to let Aera ruin that."

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A/N: sorry, I know this chapter wasn't great.

I'm trying, really. I've been having writer's block & a lot of other shit has been happening.

Merry Christmas, sweets ♥️

[edit] A/N: lmao I added the smut because Y'ALL WEREN'T GONNA LET IT GO HAHA. dude the amount of messages and comments I got for omitting the sex scene in this chapter OH MY GOSH. okay well, enjoy, ya lil nasties. jokes. love u.