I have never felt so bad for someone in my life than I do now.

I watch as Sienna walks through the hallway with a hateful look on her face as she clutching her books to her chest as she elbows her way through the crowd.

Yeah, you heard me right.

She is ELBOWING her way through the crowd. She has never had to do that while she was in the "it" crowd. Ever since Victoria dropped her, publicly I may add, she has lost that high status, that form of protection she had being popular.

She is a nobody now, just like the rest of us.

Someone posted the video of Victoria dissing Sienna in front of everyone in the dance and it has gone viral around town.

Yes you heard me.

Victoria has ignored her since and she has had Cartier at her side at all times because she refuses to be alone. She even told Cartier to stay away from Armani for a while because she doesn't want to be alone. Of course, Cartier was pissed about that. Victoria has taken the chance to glare or insult Sienna in the hallway as well and I can see Sienna break every time.

"Hey beautiful" I set of arms wrap themselves around me from behind and the familiar cinnamon scent floats into my nose. Issac plants a kiss behind me ear and then places his head on my shoulder.

"Hey" I respond and caress his cheek with my hand and look back out into the crowd at Sienna who has disappeared. I turn around and look into Issac's eyes.

"Why did you leave? I woke up and you weren't sleeping next to me. You were gone."

"Uh." A blush creeps its way up to my face. "I had to go home to shower, change, uh y-you know t-the usual."

"Really?" He asks and uses his thumb to stroke my cheek that is bright red.

I nod my head and a smirk plays on his lips.

"That's funny because you have clothes, a toothbrush, shampoo and conditioner, and all the basics at my house. AND I bought you a diffuser to keep at my house, so you could've stayed the morning. Are you the type of girl to sneak out of bed the next morning Bay?" He asks and his devilish smirk grows. I gasp and slap his arm.

"I. am. not!" I defend trying to bite down a grin of my own.

"It's not looking like that. I'm starting to think you don't want to-" I lean up and connect my lips with his to shut him up and stop him from finishing his sentence. He wraps his hand around my waist and kisses me back. We both smile through the kiss and we have to stop because we keep laughing.

"You are not funny." I mumble.

"I think I am." He responds cockily.

I roll my eyes and look behind him. Victoria and Cartier are walking over here. Cartier's eyes catch mine and she smiles.

'I have to talk to you' she mouths. I nod my head and smile back at her. She and Victoria turn the corner and go into a classroom before passing by Issac and I.

"So, I know we couldn't go to the horse stables on Saturday, so I say we reschedule for Wednesday since we are off."

"Sure, and sorry for that on Saturday."

"Oh what you mean your mom thinking that we were having sex in your room because she walked in on you changing your clothes while I was in the same room and then kicked me out the house, oh no need to worry about that." He says and gives me a charming smile.

"I'm sorry about her too."

"Nah, it's okay. I understand."

"You do?" I ask, surprised.

"Yeah, I mean if I had a daughter and I thought she was having sex in her bedroom with her boyfriend, I would be beyond pissed. I mean I would've done more physical damage to the guy, but eh, I understand."

Why are the butterflies in my stomach fluttering right now?

Why the hell is it so hot!

"You look like a strawberry." He laughs and pinches my cheeks.

"God, that's so embarrassing." I cover my cheeks with my hands after swatting his hands away. The bell rings and the students in the hallways start rushing off to class. Issac looks back at me with a smile.

"Wednesday?"

"Gotcha."

"Catch ya later beautiful" He says and kisses my forehead before running off to class.

....

Wednesday....

"Issac. I-I don't think I can do this." I hesitate as I look at the big black haired horse in front of me.

"I have faith in you plus this horse is specially trained for rookies so he won't throw you around and paralyze you." He says calmly.

I knock on the wood column in the stables. "Knock on wood."

"You got this. OK. Start off by petting her. Her name is Ebony." He says and pets the horse's mane.

I bring my hand out to touch the horse and it grunts and shakes its head.

"It doesn't like me!" I complain and hold my hand to my side.

"Ebony is like that at first. Don't worry."

I look up into his optimistic grey eyes and then back at the horse. I softly pet the horse ignoring the grunts she is making. Eventually the horse gets quieter and quieter and leans into my soft touch.

"Is she yours?" I ask.

"No, Avalanche is over there." He points and a tall white horse eating hay is housed inside a big stable room.

"Avalanche?"

"Yah, I call her Ava for short sometimes." He says and looks at his horse with a nostalgic smile on his face.

"Will I see you....you know do your... thing?" I ask, knowing the way I would ask my initial question would sound very veryyyy wrong.

It's all Zoe's fault.

"Do what thing Bay? He asks with a devilish smirk on his face.

"You know" I start doing a whole bunch of weird hand movements and he looks at me with a confused look on his face, but a mischievous glint in his grey eyes.

I know what he is doing.

"I don't follow."

I huff in annoyance.

"Are you going to ride the-"

"Now, I thought that was your job." He says mischievously with his signature devilish smirk on his face.

"I knew you would do that." I mumble and look at Ebony. I lift my leg on the thing where you should put your foot to get on the horse. I don't know the name. Hell, I don't know crap about horses besides the fact that they live in stables and they eat hay.

BUT

This is important to Issac, so I will try to learn.

I successfully make myself on the horse without breaking my neck and I smile in accomplishment.

"Good, lets go." He says and holds the leash of the horse and leads us slowly out on the field where a variety of obstacles are on half of the field. On the other half is an empty field.

"You ready?" He asks. I look ahead at the course in front of me and I nod my head, feeling confident that I could do this.

"Yeah, I got this. How do I uhh get the horse to move?"

"Just tap your foot lightly on her side and she will move or if you want her to go faster." He says and for the first time, he looks hesitant.

"I got this." I reassure him and look ahead at the course. I pull back some stray strands of my curly hair and put it behind my ear. I tap my foot against Ebony's side and she starts trotting on the assigned course. I hold onto the reins tight afraid I may fall off. As she walks on the course, I bounce up and down making me feel all weird.

What the hell was I thinking!

'I can do this'

STUPID! No I cannot. I am going to fall any moment.

Ebony jumps over an obstacle and I yelp out in fear.

Jesus Christ, help me!

Ebony picks up pace as she starts getting comfortable in the obstacle course. She jumps over hurdles. She goes over the bridges and through the big logs part where she has to jump over those and I nearly fell off. We almost reached to the free run until-

"RABBIT BAY STOP!" Issac yells out of nowhere. I look back at him.

"WHERE!!" I yell back, but I was too late.

Ebony starts going rogue and she starts neighing loudly. She starts jumping around and I look in front of her to see 3 white rabbits in front of us.

Frack.

Ebony jumps on her 2 hind legs pushing me back.

"ISSAC!!" I yell out, feeling tears prick my eyes as I hold on to Ebony's rein.

What the hell was I thinking?

I can't believe I am going to die because of a rabbit! A rabbit, god damn it!

Ebony drops down on her 4 legs and breaks out into a sprint.

I thought this horse was trained for rookies!

"BAY!!" Issac screams. Tears start rolling down my face as Ebony picks up pace and sprints past the course and down the field. The field where we are on is huge and Issac only used a small chunk for the horse course. He set up cones and fences and stuff for precaution, but Ebony jumped over it.

"Issac!" I yell through my tears. I pull the reins on Ebony, but it isn't stopping her. She just goes faster.

She is crazy. I am crazy. And for the first time ever, two crazy people will not get along.

We are nearing a lake or what looks like a river and with Ebony's crazy behavior, I fear that she will jump into the lake and we are both goners. My heart beat speeds up and the pumping in my veins becomes more violent making the knot twist in my stomach.

This is my end. And it is by horse.

Loud galloping from behind me snap me out of saying my last words and I look behind me to see Issac on Avalanche, his horse, galloping toward me quickly and he is catching up to me. Relief washes over me.

I may actually live.

I look back in front and see that we are only a few feet from the lake.

"Issac hurry please!" I plead and pull on the reins more hoping it may work, but it doesn't and I start crying over again. A white blur passes by me and before I know it Avalanche and Issac has stopped right before me. Ebony neighs out and falls back on her hind legs and I scream out. I grab onto the reins in time before I would fall to my death and crack my neck. Ebony falls back on her 4 legs and halts her movement. Issac hops off of Avalanche and runs over to me. He looks up at me and his eyes hold a sad, guilty look. He helps me off the horse and holds me bridal style. He places me on the ground away from Ebony and he walks over to her and ties her leash against a tree along with Avalanche. He walks back over to me and sits down next to me and scoops me up and places me on his lap.

"Issa-"

I get cut off when he engulfs me in a tight hug. A few tears slide down my face and drop on his shirt and I hold him as tight as my small self can.

I never thought I would be able to do this again. Hug him. Smell his cinnamon scent. Touch his hair.

I thought I would die. And that scared me.

"I am so sorry Bay. I shouldn't have pushed you to ride the horse. It wasn't your fault. Ebony is a usual calm horse, but when rabbits are around, she goes crazy. I thought I got rid of the issue, but I guess not. This is all my fault. You could've died." His voice breaks saying the last part and I feel my heart break, knowing that my usual happy Issac is sad, feeling guilty.

I hold Issac's face in my hands, but he doesn't look at me.

"Look at me." I demand. His grey eyes, filled with tears, look at me.

"I am not dead. I am not going anywhere. I am right here." I reassure him and I hold his hand in mine and bring his hand to my face. I lean into his hand and offer him a smile.

"I. am. here. With you." I mutter and close my eyes. His thumb strokes against my cheek leaving tingles on the area. I open my eyes and Issac is wiping tears from his face.

"I- I can't lose you Bay. I already lost my mom. I...can't lose another person I love. I....you. I love you too much to lose you. It would break me. Shatter me." He says and looks deep into my hazel eyes, almost like he is trying to look into my soul.

Little does he know, I do the same thing to him everyday.

"I won't go. I am here. You have me and I have you. No one is leaving. You are stuck with me." I promise him.

"How do I know that for sure?" He asks and looks down at our conjoined hands.

"Because I gave you my heart and I don't do that often." I stand up and hold my hand out for him. He looks up and takes me hand and stands up.

"C'mon Evans." I say and walk over to the horses.

"I am not putting you back on Ebony."

"I know. I am taking Avalanche." I say and admire the beautiful tall white horse. It's a horse for the gods, that's for sure.

"I love you, but Avalanche is my baby. You are a rookie."

"Can't Avalanche take care of me?"

"Yeah, but he has a lot of power."

"I can handle power." I tell him and hop on Avalanche. The horse grunts in response and I stroke its soft horse hair.

"I won't hurt her." I reassure him. Issac walks over to us and he bends down to Avalanche.

"Ava, take care of my baby. She's special." He 'whispers' and the horse grunts in response. He stands back up to his height and sends me a wink before hopping on Ebony. I tap on Ava's side and she starts galloping off quickly, but not too quick where I am screaming at the top of my lungs.

*cough* Ebony *cough*

We reach back to the stable house in 5 minutes with Ava's incredible speed. She has some serious power. Avalanche goes right to her stables and I hop off of her. I give her a soft pat and walk out her stable and lock it. Issac comes in not too long after and puts Ebony in her stable and locks it.

I walk outside and lean against the fence of the field and admire the field. Despite my traumatic experience, this place is actually really beautiful and it must cost a fortune. Issac walks up to me and looks out at the field just like me.

"Who was your grandmother?"

"She was a psychiatrist and a wonderful woman." He says with a nostalgic smile on his face.

"How'd she umm-"

"Die? Cancer." He says and looks down at the patch of white grass right at his feet. That is the weirdest thing. The entire field is covered in green grass and then there is that one spot of white grass. It doesn't even make sense.

I don't want to say I am sorry for your loss, but at the same time, what else could I say?

That's the point. Don't say anything at all, my inner voice says.

I move closer to Issac and embrace him in a tight hug that as he said, 'can put a broken person back together'. He wraps his arm around my waist to bring me in.

"I am sure she was an amazing woman. I can tell she had a big impact on you."

"She did." He says and looks out into the sun that is slowly setting.

"So what next near death experiences will you bring me on next?" I joke to lighten the mood.

He looks at me and says, "Really? From now on, you are under protection. No more risky adventures. We keep it simple. I can't have you getting hurt. Not a single bruise. Not even a damn paper cut. I am serious Bay." He says in his serious voice.

"Issac. The one thing that drew me to you when we first stared hanging out as friends was your unpredictable nature and how we would always do risky things because of the fun of it. The thrill. The moment when you feel like you were reborn again, like your taking your first breath again. If you take that away, you are not only hurting me, but you are hurting yourself. That is something that is apart of you. Don't not be yourself because of me. That's like destroying your whole world"

"Destroying my world is when you are harmed or hurt in anyway, physical, emotional, or mental. You are my world, so if you are hurt, my whole world comes crashing down." He says earnestly.

A small smile fights its way to my face and the hot red blood surfaces to my cheeks.

My heart needs to slow down before I go into cardiac arrest.

"No one has ever said that to me before."

"And I have never loved a girl like I have loved you before so I guess we are even."

"Not yet." I say and move closer to him. I stand on my tippy toes and wrap my hand around his neck. I look into his grey eyes that are, of course, darker than usual. I bite down on my bottom lip fighting back a smile that always wants to come to my face when I am with Issac. I look down at his lips and the grin on my face surface slightly. I then swiftly connect our lips.

You know when people say that the kisses in the books and the movies are fake and never happen. Well they are lying or they probably didn't find the right guy to make them smile when they don't want to or make their toes curl just by the guy smiling or looking at their lips, or cuddling with them in the cold of the winter, or someone who would just call you in the morning before school to tell you they love you just to tell you again when they see you at school.

Issac has done all those things and more and I am thankful everyday for him. Just being alive and choosing to love me, of all girls.

I pull away and lean back down with a wide smile on my face. There is a bright shine in his eyes that adds to the beauty in his eyes.

"Time to go." I tell him and gesture to the car. I walk in the direction of the car, but before I could make it far Issac's hand slips into mine and twirls me around and back to him. He holds me by my waist with our hands conjoined.

"'I met you in the dark, you lit me up. You made me feel as though I was enough. We danced the night away, we drank too much. I held your hair back when you were throwing up'" He sings in sync and sways us slowly. His voice is so soft, but at the same time masculine. Light, but still deep. I smile and rest my head on his chest, remembering the good parts of the Fire and Ice dance.

I never knew Issac Evans could sing.

"'Then you smiled over your shoulder. For a minute I was stone cold sober." He spins me out and then back to his chest. "'I pulled you closer to my chest. And you asked me to stay over. I said, I already told ya, I think that you could use some rest.'" He looks down into my hazel eyes with a deep emotion of a sort in there and I wish I could just climb into into his eyes, his soul and understand every detail and part of Issac Evans, but no matter how much I know Issac, he will always be a mystery.

"I knew you I loved you then. But you'd never know. Caused I played it cool when I was scared of letting go. I know I needed you. But I never showed. But I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old."

"Just say you won't let go. Just say you won't let go." I sing the last part softly like a whisper, feeling the raw emotion in the song and how well the song connects to me, to us on an emotional level. I rest my head on Issac's chest and we stand there just swaying and letting the evening breeze blow past us. Issac's heart beat is beating erratically just like mine right now and a smile spreads on my face.

So, it's not only me.

"Don't let go Issac." I murmur. He doesn't answer and I think maybe he didn't hear me, but-

"Cross my heart and hope to die to my lover, I'd never lie." He says and I grin at his use of one of the best relationship goals songs ever. He is so cheesy and on top of that, corny.

But he is mine.