This doesn't feel right.

My inner self likes to make her presence known in the worst of times. Unfortunately to the point where people actually know she exists.

You should thank me. Without me, you'd be making some really stupid mistakes and who else would you have to talk to?

I really have to get that checked.

Ben clears his throat and I snap out my thoughts looking at him.

He smiles. "Everything okay?"

Was it? Everything was literally perfect. We were eating in a fancy restaurant lights dimmed with some romantic R&B playing in the back ground. He was dressed so nicely in his button down shirt and jeans with a leather jacket. It was the most perfect date, everything I'd imagined and more when I would have my hopeless romantic thoughts. He'd even given me a rose when picked me up from the door.

But why did I feel so out of place? So out of it?

Had I made a mistake coming here with Ben tonight?

No... because he actually cares about you.

"I'm fine." I smile and drink my glass of water.

After we eat our dinner and have the occasional conversation catching up he paid for our dinner and we walked outside and leaned against his car taking in the night air.

"Thank you for taking me out tonight, it was great I had a good time." He was sweet enough to put so much effort into this night which just made me feel worse for feeling so out of place.

"I'm really glad you gave me a chance. I want to show you that you're worth changing for." He smiles and reaches for my face stroking my cheek and I smile softly.

Why don't I feel anything?

Maybe I should make the first move, try.

I lean closer in to Ben giving him a soft kiss on the lips. He smiles against my lips and suddenly his arms come around my waist pulling me close.

Please feel something... anything...

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"How much farther?" I run a hand through my hair.

"Look I am already speeding and haven't you ever heard of patience is a virtue?"

"Haven't you ever heard of shut your mouth or I'm going to knock your teeth in?"

Trip finally shuts his mouth. I didn't want to be too late. I want to do this, she's got to be there.

What if he took her home...

Just that thought made my blood boil and I have to take slow deep breathes to control my anger enough not to take over the driver's seat and run over that Ben with this damn car.

"Have you even thought of what you're going to say?" Ryan chimes in from the back.

"Of course I have." I haven't. I sigh and groan rubbing my face. "What am I supposed to say? I'm so incredible sorry for being the world's biggest jerk and I am in love with you so please go out with me?" I sucked at words. I was always being the one serenaded or persuaded, never the other way around.

"Look, don't think too much about it. When you see her, you'll know what to say." Luke assures me.

Considering though he's single as hell, I'm not so sure I should be taking his advice, but considering that's also the easiest option right now, that's what I am going to do.

Pulling up to the restaurant I lower the mirror and try to fix my hair and maybe the collar of my shirt... do I even look good enough for a serenade right now?

Chuckles and giggles erupt in the back of the car from seeing me fix myself in the mirror. "Shut up! All of you!"

Finally pulling in I start taking deep breathes.

I can do this.. I can. I love her, and nothing can stop me.

"There they ar-.." Ryan spots from the back and I look frantically looking, "Where?"

"There..." Luke mumbles and I see it.

I see Ashley.. My Ashley pressed up against her so called date leaning against the car in a full on make out session. In a moment, my chest hurts and I think I'm having a heart attack, but I think its something else.

I think it's a heart break.

So much for being destine to be together.

"Get me out of here." I barely say and nobody moves or say anything.

"But Bain.."

"I said, get. Me. Out. Now."

I don't even know what I was thinking.

Happily Ever Afters Don't Exist.