I smile as he walks back towards me and away from the coffin, I can see his hands trembling but he keeps his head up to show himself being strong. He just gave his speech for Abuela, Nico gave his speech before.

He stands beside me while some people make sure the ground for lowering her coffin is good and ready. I hear him let out a shaky exhale the second I hold onto his hand and slowly interlock our fingers.

Carefully I grab the paper he'd written everything down on from his hands and lightly put it in the pocket of my jacket, my arm wraps around his torso as I slowly rest my cheek on his shoulder. "I'm so proud of you," my voice comes out in a small whisper.

His arm snakes around my waist and keeps me close although he doesn't say a word, everyone watches in silence as the woman we all love like a mother gets lowered into the grave that was dug.

The second they put her down I heard Seb let out a breath I doubt he knew he was holding, "she's gone." he mutters before I felt his head rest on top of mine.

My hand slides up and rests right over his heart before I place a light kiss on his shoulder, "she'll always be here, mi amant, always." I whisper right back to him and he lightly places his hand over mine.

It seems like it took a few seconds for him to prepare himself, but when he was ready he let go of me lightly and nodded at Nico to come forward. They both go stand in front of the grave that is yet to be covered before each grabbing a white rose.

"Nos vemos en otra vida, abuela" The Morales cousins say at the same time before simultaneously throwing the flowers into the grave.

[see you in another life,]

Seeing Seb come back to me right after while watching Nico go and stand by himself shatters my heart. I have no idea who his Aviana is, but I damn well wish she was here for him right now.

"Go," Seb kisses my forehead before I walk towards the roses and grab one, smiling lightly down at the grave as I think and remember the small amounts of time I spent with abuela.

I know we didn't really have the time to talk a lot about Abuela, but I know in the small amounts of time we did have, that you were the best mother to Seb and Nico. Even me for a bit, thank you. And like they said, nos vemos en otra vida abuela.

[see you in another life, ]

I'll take care of them for you, I promise.

I toss the rose in and nod for Ivy and Ares to come and do the same after Dominico, slowly everyone has said their last words to abuela. The second it comes to covering the coffin with soil Seb sucks in a harsh breath, "I'm not fucking brave, I can't do this, I'm waiting in the car." He doesn't even wait for me to say anything. He simply lets go of me and and strides away towards the cars.

I close my eyes for a few seconds before sighing.

It's been a day since the burial and funeral, Seb has thrown himself in work and it's not like before, this time he won't fucking stop. He didn't even come to bed last night, Ares told me he stayed at the office.

And god knows where Nico took off to after the funeral.

"If he doesn't come back in an hour, you should go to the office." Ivy states while munching on a chocolate chip cookie and rubbing her very, very pregnant belly. I hum, but what if he just wants to be alone? What if he gets angry with me and- "Without overthinking." She adds.

I roll my eyes before turning around in bed to look at her, "he's pulling away from me Ivy, I have no idea what the hell to do." I whisper and my eyes fall to the clock hanging on the wall behind her. 11:30, it's fucking eleven thirty and he's not back yet.

"I want him to share his pain with me, I hate when he thinks he's alone the second something goes south. He needs to know that I'll always be there for him." I murmur while staring at the wall and sigh stuck deep in my thoughts.

Before I could continue the door swings open and both of our heads snap behind me. Ares walks in with a McFlurry cup in his hand and as soon as he sees me in his bed with his wife his eyes form a small glare. "How was work, darling?" Ivy asks with a grin.

I roll my eyes before snuggling closer to my best friend, "Abby get out of my bed." Is all he says and I mock him inside my head before shaking my head and placing my head on Ivy's chest.

"Wait," Ivy gasps and both of us look at her with a raised eyebrow. She shrugs before meeting eyes with me, "why're you telling me all of this? Tell Seb," she sends me a smile and responds to my small rant from before assface interrupted.

"Yeah," Ares mutters while taking his blazer off and throwing it on the couch, "leave me and my wife alone." he grabs the McFlurry and walks towards the bed. My eyes flicker between Ivy and her blushing cheeks as she smiles like a goof while looking at Ares holding a Mcflurry for her as he waits for me to leave.

"Baby, be nice," Ivy sighs while sitting up in bed and I raise an eyebrow at her sudden change of mood, from being flushed to being annoyed with him. I look at Ares and he gives me a 'it's normal at this point' look.

Damn her mood swings are really knocking him out aren't they?

"Abby, please get the fuck out of my bed." He sends me a sarcastic smile and I narrow my eyes as I throw the covers off of my body and slide my feet into my cow slippers. This is why I call him assface.

Ivy grabs her ice cream as he sits in my spot. I build the will power to stop feeling more single then I should be feeling seeing these two and go to my man, go see him at his work or wherever the fuck he is.

Ares looks up and makes eye contact with me before his dark eyes soften, "can you please check on Seb? He won't talk to me and keeps kicking me out of his office," he asks me, his tone telling me he's genuinely worried about his best friend.

I give him a small smile before nodding and turning around, "goodnight" I whisper as I walk to the door. I'll get Dawson to drive me to Seb because I know damn well he doesn't plan on coming home tonight.

We're all staying at the house in Italy, or the new one they got because the last one was attacked.

But Seb had told me I'm not allowed to leave the house no matter what happens, but I miss him and he's hurting but won't let anyone help him. Not even Ares, he even pushed away the man he grew up with his whole life.

"Be safe, I love you!" Ivy calls as I open the door and walk out. I feel the corners of my lips tilt up as I look over my shoulder to see Ares rolling his eyes and getting comfortable with his wife. "Love you too, Ivy." I close the door on my way out.

Quickly I walk down the hall as I debate grabbing a hoodie or not since I'm just in a tank top and a pair of comfy night shorts. But I want-no I fucking need to be with my Seb right now.

Screw it, I walk straight down the stairs and shoot Athena a small smile as she looks at me while talking to a few guards about security, I won't lie, I missed everyone. She keeps talking to the guards as Goose sits up by her feet seeing I'm walking towards the doors, I give him a look saying 'stay' and he silently sits back down by her feet.

Thank god he was okay, Seb had found him as soon as he got home and got a vet to him. Although Goose's leg was fractured, over the few days it's been getting better so he can finally walk now with a small limp.

I hug myself as I walk to the front where I know D is at night times, walking past men who look down when I walk past at the orders of Seb. I feel a small smile set on my lips when I remember how Seb yelled at them to stop staring at me.

He's protective, no-sorry he's over-protective and I fucking love it.

"Abby, did you need something?" I see D walking towards me and I nod slowly. "Can you drive me to wherever Seb is?" I ask lightly and I see hesitance in his eyes, fuck, did Seb tell him not to take me out of the house?

Dammit, maybe I don't love his over-protectiveness.

"He asked to see me," I blurt out the first lie that comes to mind and his eyebrows furrow as he rubs the back of his neck as if he's thinking about what to do next. "He said it was urgent," I add on as I hug myself tighter when I feel the cool air rushing in.

He sighs and shakes his head, "I know you're lying," he looks up at me and I take a deep breath. Getting ready to emotionally blackmail him to take me to my boyfriend but before I could he speaks again.

"Fine, but only because I know he needs to have someone with him right now." D explains and I squeal before throwing my arms around his neck and hugging him close to me. I feel the man freeze until he's standing there like a statue.

"First Ivy, now you, why do you both want your men to kill me." He panics and I roll my eyes before pushing myself off him as he leads the way outside. Over dramatic.

My hand fists the bottom of my shorts when the door to his office comes to sight, "that's Mr. Morales right there, anything else I can help you with ma'am?" the young boy asks me and I look at him with a warm smile before shaking my head. He nods and walks away.

He won't eat you alive, Abby. Just go.

I nod as I convince myself that it won't be the old, rude and arrogant Sebastian I see inside, but that it'll be my Seb.

I bring my hand up before knocking three times on the door, "come in." He says from inside and I wince at the irritation hanging in his voice as I grab the doorknob and twist. Don't be a pussy, Abby.

Shut up consy.

Walk in and I will.

I open the door and walk into the room, my eyes meet those gorgeous blue ones of his and I see the cold, rude front he keeps on for others melt down slowly. I shut the door while walking towards him.

"I thought I told you to stay at home?" he asks lightly and I shrug as I look around the place, woah. He works at the top floor of the skyscraper and a whole wall of the room is full length windows allowing him to have a beautiful view of the city outside.

All the interior is sleek black leather, "I had a bad dream" I lie in a mutter as my eyes keep running over the office. This place screams nothing but 'power' and scares the shit out of you.

I can see why people are so scared of him now. If they meet him here, with the cold and rude Sebastian out to play, their fear is valid.

"Come here, you liar." He rolls his eyes while whispering the last part under his breath. I smile when I see him push his chair away from the desk and signal me over with his hand.

I walk to him with a grin on my lips, "I'm not lying." I defend but it only seems to amuse him. When I'm close enough he leans forward and grabs my wrist before pulling me onto his lap, a small gasp leaves my lips when I feel him wrap a muscular arm around my waist.

Before he could speak, I lifted my legs and placed my feet on his desk. He raises an eyebrow and I place a small kiss on his cheek. "Why didn't you come home?" I ask, resting my face against the crook of his neck.

I know he knew that I was here to ask him that single question, he was just wishing we'd avoid it. But he lets out a small sigh before running his hand up and down my bare thigh, I bite down on my bottom lip and ignore the butterflies in my stomach.

"Work," is all he says. I slipped a hand in his blazer before hugging him to me, "were you planning on coming back tonight?" I ask him as I look up to meet eyes with him, and the second his trail away from mine with a guilty look, I have my answer.

"Talk to me, amor." I place my hand on his cheek and sit up straight in his lap, forcing him to look at me. His jaw ticks the second our eyes make contact, "please," I almost beg him. I hate seeing him like this, I hate how he feels like he's alone.

He takes a deep breath to compose himself and then talks, "I feel so fucking guilty." Seb starts and my eyebrows furrow as my thumb rubs back and forth against the small stubble on his cheeks.

Just like at the funeral, his hand trembles against my thigh. It was almost a reflex for me to grab his hand and interlock our fingers before looking at mi amant.

His eyes flutter shut as he leans his head back, his adam's apple bobs up and down before he lets out a bitter laugh. "The only reason she is gone is because my father wanted to make me feel alone. To get back at me." I feel his grip on my hand tighten as he speaks with a bitter and upset tone.

"Seb this isn't your fault," I speak with a clear shock in my voice. I can't believe his father made him think that all this is his fault, that it wasn't the fact that his father was completely crazy and needs mental help.

"Abby-" I cut him off by grabbing his shirt's collar and forcing his eyes to mine. "Amor, no." I whisper with soft eyes that seem to make his eyes go glossy in an instant. "That man is insane, he needs help, none of this was your fault, all of it was a mind game of his." I tried to explain to him again.

I feel like killing his father for making him feel like this, hurt like this.

"The man is a psycho that belongs behind bars of a mental asylum, please Seb you need to listen to me and believe me when I tell you, your abuela would be beyond upset if she saw how you were right now." A tear drips down his cheek as I finish my words and I feel my heart shatter into a tiny million pieces.

Quickly I wiped his tears and kiss the spot it had been sliding down on, "what would she want?" I ask in nothing but a small whisper.

A small chuckle escaped his lips as he thought of something I bet she's told him before, "she told Nico and I to take our families, and go live in our houses in spain. Because that's where popz and her had always wanted me and my cousin to be." he rubs small shapes on my hand as he speaks, thinking of the memory.

"Then let's go," I lean up and place a small kiss on his lips as he leans towards me when I pull back slightly. I meet the eyes I'm so fucking in love with as the corners of his lips tilt up, "let's go home, amant" I add and he finally pulls me towards him before kissing me.

"Home," he mutters against my lips almost as if he's replaying me saying it and I smile. Our home.

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