I fucking hate this, the party ended 2 hours ago. I'm still in my dress and the only thing on my mind is him, I hate how he's invaded my mind without even knowing...

Ares took Ivy to their room and they never fucking came back, we all know the shit that's going on in that room. Athena had to go teach some new hires or something and I don't even know where Sebastian went.

But after he walked away he didn't spare me, or the brunette wrapped around his arm a single glance. She kept touching him, had her claws all over him and was fucking smirking at me half the time, don't even know the bitch and she wants to glare.

I'm starving, but I can't eat. It's not that I don't want to cause I do, I really do. But whenever I try to eat I just can't. It's like whenever I swallow the food I feel like throwing up, or I just lose all my hunger when I have all the food in front of me.

It's now been 4 days since I ate, it's 3 in the morning and my eyes are shutting on their own but my hungry stomach won't let me sleep. Why the fuck does it let me drink? Like I drank the whiskey, and water before so why not food?

I grab all my hair before pulling it up into a bun at the top of my head as my curtain bangs fall out slightly before I cover my mouth with the back of my hand when I yawn.

Should I just try to eat?

Yes.

Yes.

Did I mention yes?

Deciding I'll change out of this dress when I get back, but my heels were discarded on the floor right as I steped into the room.

I open the door and sigh as the cool air hits me before I start walking out of the room and heading downstairs towards the kitchen.

Tomorrow me and Athena go with Ivy to pick a wedding dress and I couldn't be more fucking excited. She asked me to be her maid of hounor and then Athena and Mason are her brides mates.

God I still can't believe she's getting married...

I walk into the kitchen before flicking on the lights and muffling another one of my yawns with the back of my hand as I pull open the fridge.

I grab a water and look for anything light to eat, I like fruits, let's give em' a shot. I grab a apple and shut the fridge with my hip before washing the apple under the tap.

I look at it as I lean against the counter, before I could take a bite my phone rings and I jump a bit. Quickly I pull it out of my bra, it's convenient.

Smiling a bit when it's one of my model friends, we were together in modeling school. She's one of my only friends left in New York. I slide my finger across the screen and pick up the face time call, I see her face in her pillow as she groans.

I raise an eyebrow looking at my tired friend as she turns her face to look at me, she mutters and I almost wince. I feel bad now.

She's been walking the runway for almost a week straight, they never let the poor girl rest. "Sorry babe, but I think we're even now" I give her a look before looking towards my apple and she lets out a small giggle.

She's gotten drunk so many times and crashed at my place, okay maybe really good friends.

she murmers into her pillow and I hum, she flinches right up and I chuckle when I hear her mom yelling for her to come downstairs. she shouts back, whenever she talks to her mom she makes sure to do it in Japanese or else she'd get her ass whooped. Her words not mine.

she mutters and before I could even take a breath, Akira hangs up.

In modeling school, it was Akira, Rachel and I as a trio. And me and Akira have stayed friends, wish I could say the same about Rachel. We all know trios never work...

I get a call from her and I pick it up holding it to my ear, she mutters and I hear her running down the stairs.

I look to the apple in my hand and take a deep breath before taking a bite out of it, a weird tingle going through my body as I bite it

I hear her mom, Ryujin. She's nice. I smile and swallow the bite as Akira tells me her mom said hey.

They talk back and forth in Japanese as I stand here trying to eat, Akira asks pausing her conversation with Ryujin. It's probably at my place.

But before I tell her that she starts arguing with her mom again, I roll my eyes and take another bite of the apple. Whenever I talk or listen to people it's a lot easier for me to be able to eat, I have no idea why but sad thing is it won't always work.

"Akira" I call opening my water bottle and they ignore me.

"Akira" I call her name louder this time but they chose to ignore me, A-fucking-gain.

"Babe" I call and hear a giggle. Akira answers and I scoff before I hear voices and footsteps walking towards the kitchen. If it's him I will fucking hide in the oven.

"Check in the room you've claimed at my place or in your backpack" I mutter taking another bite of my apple, watching as Ares and Sebastian walk in. They set eyes on me and Ares gives me a small smile, Sebastian fully ignores me as they sit on the stools.

Is it too late for the oven?

"Shouldn't you be asleep? You've got dresses to opinion on tomorrow" Ares raises and eyebrow and I hear Akira choke on whatever the fuck she was drinking, she mutters and this time, I chose to ignore her.

"I was hungry" I bring my apple up a bit and he nods, "Stop choking" I let my eyebrows furrow as Akira keeps on choking, it's annoying.

she chokes on her words and I smile, dumb bitch.

I nod to the guys but only Ares acknowledges me as Sebastian looks at something on his phone, "I'm going to sleep" he states getting up and Ares yawns.

She asks letting out a breath and I roll my eyes, "Go find your laptop, babe" I sigh walking out of the kitchen as she rambles on about how she forgot it was in her backpack this whole time.

But before I walked out, I didn't miss how Sebastian's whole body went tense and his jaw clenched. He was angry and pissed all of the sudden, why?

If she met Ivy, let's just say that no one would survive...