My heart felt like it was hurting to the point I feel my chest tighten when I recall the image in Abby's hotel room, Why am I crying over him!?

My eyes were watering and non-stop tears kept falling out of my eyes, I was weeping quietly. It all happens so quickly that I was never meant to push him so far to make him go to Abby's arms

This is my fault, this must be my karma

Then there was one word that went into my head Home

"I want to go home" I said to myself

But where could I go? I can go back to the penthouse but that would only be temporary since Cloud would return, I can't go back to my parents home since I think they're still upset and disappointed in me

Haha I'm homeless

Suddenly I can hear Cloud knocking loudly at the door "Angel"

"Angel please open the door"

"Please"

I decided to ignore him as I put on headphones and play soothing music to comfort myself while tears kept falling down, I hugged the pillow all throughout the night imagining that it would be Cloud beside me

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I opened my eyes slowly, there might be a way I can go back to get my things and disappear but I need Aiden and Daisy's help

I groggily sat up to check the time, it was 6:47 AM

If I can disappear I can live the way I want and I can redeem myself in another place and in another school, that would make a great plan

My hand went to grab my phone and I see that Aiden is awake since he was active

Hey Aiden

Morning Pip, I heard what happened you alright?

Yeah...

Aiden I need your help to runaway

...You're joking, right? Please tell me you're joking

I don't want to stay in that place anymore, I wanna go somewhere else can you please help me?

I can but do you know where to go?

I know a person

Kay, meet you down at the lobby before 7:30 we better hurry so you won't be seen

Thank you

I hurriedly got ready and packed my bags, before I opened the door to leave the room I admired it for the last time since I might not be able to visit a place like this ever again.

I was thankful that Aiden understood me and wanted to help, Aiden was at the entrance of the hotel with his luggage waiting for me "You ready?"

"Yes I am"

It's time to leave, we hopped into a car that droves us back to the train station while waiting for Aiden to buy tickets there was an old couple that walked by in front of me who were chatting happily

Once I live the new life I can find someone I can grow old with

Aiden booked two seats on the train that will arrive in 50 minutes, he sat beside me on the bench and watched as many people from all walks of life passed by us "Are you sure about this decision Pip?" He looks down at me with such worried eyes, the same eyes that always looks out for me when I was younger

I smiled up at him "I'll be fine, the people I know where I'm going are good people and I can work for them"

"It's just, I don't want you to regret your choices"

He's right but I feel like this was the best I could do for myself, I wanted to be selfish just for once. I want to live for myself

"The moment I don't leave I will have regrets for not trying"

Who knows, maybe I can enjoy life living on my own being with Daisy and eating ice cream on the beach every day or spend my sunsets at the field of dandelions. I didn't want to leave like this especially I don't want to leave my friends but I hope someday they'll understand me

The train finally arrived and Aiden helped me with my luggage, we went to our seats and I sat beside the window. While being on the train ride I messaged Daisy

Hey Daisy

Penelope! When are you coming here to visit? *crying puppy emoji*

Soon :)

Soon? Do you mean by tomorrow?

I'm not sure yet but I'm planning to live there, is there a place I can stay for rent?

You can stay with us! Why what happen? Why do you need to find a place all of a sudden?

I'm planning to run away, I hope that they would never find me

I don't know what happened but my Mom and Dad would always welcome you with open arms, You could stay with us and we can be sisters!

I chuckled at her for being excited, I explained to her about everything in all details since she is the only one I could confide in these hard feelings I've been keeping inside. I would be lying if I wasn't excited

Leaving home and everyone is hard but it feels suffocating that I need to get away, Aiden always kept amusing me on our train ride. The train we ride in has a place for us to sleep so the ride would continue until we reach home, we both played games, listened to music, and I even talked to his friends from Korea on his phone

"We can still contact each other right?" He asked me and I look up at him

"We can, please don't tell where my location is promise?"

He nodded at me then patted my head "Pip is now a big girl going out alone in the big world" he teased me

I looked at my messages to see that 99+ messages are from Cloud and the rest are from either Nick or Nikki. My sisters started to message me. Since everybody kept messaging me I turned off my phone

Looks like I can use the money I earned to buy myself a new phone and a trip to the seaside, using this phone would only lead them to me

Just like the way to Banff, the way back also took us three days.

We finally arrived home after three days and it felt like I could breathe again the familiar air from my home, it was not all that cold here like in Banff just perfect. Aiden and I needed to move fast because by now my family, Nick, Nikki, and Cloud must've already known I am missing in my room and are already heading back here to look for me

Aiden called up Peter and Yara the people I told him that could keep a secret, Peter brought his car and Yara was sitting at the shotgun. Yara rolled down her window and told me

"I don't know what went on with that brain of yours but we're supporting you bitch let's go" she was hyping me up about running away and I don't if it's weird or touching

I grinned at her as Peter and Aiden helped put our luggage at the back of his car before we went to Aiden's home to leave his luggage making more room in the trunk and backseat, Yara told me she will help me pack the rest of my clothes while Aiden would buy me a new phone

Aiden went to the mall as fast as he could using his car while Peter and Yara helped me with my luggage in the penthouse, I was able to use Cloud's key card for the final time

We went into the walk-in closet and used my luggage and another bag to pack all my things in it, I walked around the penthouse to search for all of the things that I have laying around because I will make sure that it seems like I was never here

Every corner of the place keeps reminding me of him and it pains me so much. His smile, his hand, and everything

"Do you have everything you need, there's nothing left?" Yara asked me as she held my backpack while Peter was pulling my luggage

I looked around and my eyes landed on a paper and pen on the coffee table, I slowly walked close to it "Just a sec, you guys go first"

They nodded and hopped in the elevator to go down, I turned my attention to the pen and paper

I should make a letter to him and my parents

Thanks for everything, I'll make sure someday when we meet again I'll repay my debt. I hope you will be cured of your insomnia and live happily as you should

And for my parents, I'll put down

Sorry for being a disappointment, I hope when I meet you both again you'll be proud of me.

P.S. See you all someday, I love you guys

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Author's Note:

Apparently, I got so mad on her behalf that this is how I end up writing her next move