Chapter 31

His body stayed the same as the last two days. His chest rise and then deflated back to its original starting position. I felt like it was the repeat of the same scene. I sat their patiently, praying his fingers would at least twitch or he gave off any type of sound. A yawn a cough would even satisfy me. I had the urge to shake his body and pull him back to life, but i have to wait for nature to give out its call.

I took his cold hand into mines, staying strong for him and for myself. I shook it and squeezed his hands for my own encouragement. "Come on Adam" i whispered hoarsely.

I sighed when I received nothing back from him. I closed my eyes flopping my head down, losing confident and hope.

I felt a small twitch to the hand I was holding. My head shot up as I stared at Adams eyes which were fluttering, fighting to open up. I leaned in closer "come on Adam wake up" I chanted in my head and once out loud.

"Mariah" he rasped.

A smile of happiness spread across my face. "Adam, hang in let me-" i was cut off by the noise of loud beeps. I looked up to the source of the noise, my eyes widened. It was his heart monitor; it was because his heart's slowing down.

Adams breathing hitched as he wheezed. "Adam stay with me" I begged, looking at the steep lines. Tears began to sting forcing its way out.

I felt the door bang open doctors came ushering in, telling me I had to leave. I refused to move or even leave him, as I refused again the nurses grabbed me by my upper arm. I fought for freedom "let me go!" I growled. Adams eyes were fixed on me as he stared at me with a weak smile. I shook my head, "you're staying with me" I stated sternly. He weakly shook his head, chuckling then coughing up blood.

My legs were kicking them, i tried my hardest to run to him, but i felt my body felt weak, as they put this thing on his heart trying to make his heart work. But he was giving up, each time they placed it on his chest letting it take over, but nothing worked. His body bounced of the bed and then laid back and this happened couple times until the doctors fiddled with the monitors. And once again his body bounced on the bed.

Then the final beep occurred, as I started angrily at the machine making such noise. Tears finally poured out. He was gone. The doctors shook their heads as they wrote something on the clipboard, shaking their heads.

I let out a scream of sadness. Their voices turned to whispers and everything was now echoes. I was alone watching the doctors look at me worryingly, while I stared at the cloth put on top of Adam.

He was gone.

My body shook with fear as I sat up in my bed. My hair was sticky and wet, as i raked my hands through my hair. It was a nightmare. I thanked the lord silently. I really felt so frightened by the dream that I wanted to lay in bed. But part of me wanted to get up and visit him. i looked at the clock to see it was 4 in the morning. I groaned releasing that I had another 4 hours till visiting time.

It was a gut feeling. Like those bad feeling you get. I knew I had to visit him; I just wanted to make sure my dream isn't true.

Alina's gurgles and baby talk made me look towards her cot. I tugged my body so I was hovering over her. "Hey sweetie" I cooed. "Come here" I took her out of her cot and held her in my arms. Her tiny little hands grabbed the top of my shirt while the other fiddles with my hair, which was perfectly thrown to the back, so it rested perfectly on my back.

I looked into her eyes, those eyes that always captured me. I had to see him. And so did Alina. I wasn't being irrational when I punched him, because boy he did deserve it bit i was wrong for not let him in his daughter's life. I may not give in easily but I will allow him to see his daughter .I will make sure Taren would be their though. I may let him see her but I needed Taren to be their.

I hadn't spent much time with my little girl for a while, since moving to Miami I haven't taken her out or even taken her to the beach. I needed alone time with my daughter. Take a break from modelling and just pay attention to my daughter. "Let's visit Adam" I whispered.

She let out a soft giggle when his name was mentioned. I sat her on the bed as i made my way towards my wardrobe. I picked out a black fitted long maxi skirt and a hoodie. I took Alina's jacket and threw it over my shoulder. I quickly changed her diaper, washing my hand sand throwing it away. I put on her jacket and zipped it up. She suck her dummy in her mouth, it made me laugh at her. I picked her up so she sat on my hip.

"Ni Ni!" she screamed through her dummy. I laughed realising she wanted her bunny blanket. I walked over to her cot picking up her blanket. I handed over to Alina who cuddled up to as she rested her head on my shoulder.

I took my car keys which were also attached to this mansions house door.

I slowly crept up to my bedroom door, not wanting to wake up James or Taren who only slept few doors down. I put my index finger to my lips, instructing Alina to be quiet. She closed her eyes sucking on her dummy, like the cute little girl she is. I wanted to awe her loudly this minute but I didn't want to take the risk. I walked the passage way slowly as I crept downstairs, quietly. My flat shoes were near the doorway. I slipped into my shoes, unlocking the door and slowly stepping out.

I shut the door behind me using one hand to lock the door. I walked faster to my car, and unlocked is as, i planted Alina in her baby car seat. I buckled her up and kissed her forehead gently before i went into the driver's seat.

As i began to drive i felt nervous and scared. Nervous because Alina would meet Adam, again and scared to walk in and maybe find out he's dead. That is my worst's fear walking into an empty bed with a funeral to prepare. But I forced them thoughts my head and thought positive.

I parked my car in an empty car park. I shut off my car, unbuckling Alina and making her sit on my hip- making sure she didn't forget her 'Ni Ni'.

I steadily walked into the hospital; as I realised few paparazzi swarming near the entrance. I groaned internally I really thought by moving they would probably give up and not really find me. I don't really have problems with paparazzi I only make few appearances now and then, but i do my best to avoid them.

I put on my hoodie covering my face so the paparazzi won't know it's me. I slowed down my pace not wanting any attention from them.

I finally sighed in relief when i was inside. My concern was now Adam; the dream had really spooked me out. I knew he has done wrong, but he doesn't deserve all the hatred I'm giving him. He has become and man and owned up, but i won't be able to look at him the same, but i know Alina needs to know her real father. It's her choice to decide not mine.

I crept up the stair case and sprinted with Alina up the stair case. I walked into the private area which was only for the alphas. I was worried to see the bed empty but i had to think positive ocne again.

This was a hospital for humans, but there was also another floor just for werewolves, with only werewolves doctor. We didn't need the humans asking question about our fast recoveries or our blood samples. So that is the reason why we just have werewolves on different floor to the human. Half of the people in Miami are actually werewolves, so many understand what needs to be done, to stay hidden.

I took slow strides to the door. My feet were planted at the doorway, as one of my hands gripped the handle tightly and swung it open.

My eyes were wide as I saw Adams back. He was shuffling and standing up probably not able to do it himself. I smiled realising he was awake

"Adam you need your rest!" I stated sternly. I watched as his muscles tightened and his breathing became hitched. Adam fell to the ground, laughing hysterically at this clumsiness.

I ran up to him, and knelt by his side. "Let the doctors come first!"

"No doctors. Their annoying" he whined. He finally opened his eyes; a smile approached his features as his gaze turned to Alina.

I looked at Alina who was just smiling down at Adam, while Adam had on a goofy smile. "She's so precious" he whispered tilting his head admiring the little beauty in front of him. Alina fiddled with her finger nervously looking up at me for help.

"Alina say hello" I whispered to her.

"Ellow" she whispered shyly, covering her eyes with her tiny little hand. She peeked through the little gap smiling at him, showing of her growing teeth.

I cuddled up to my daughter kissing the top of her head. I could feel Adams gaze burning into me which made me look at him. A smile approached his features as he took in me and Alina; his eyes looked back and fro from us. His eyes were burned into Alina admiring every feature she had. Alina still had her eyes covered form shyness. She's normally never this shy, but because she had a run in and probably knows who he is, her shyness seems to be too bright.

He finally looked up at me smiling and said "We need to talk". His voice was pleading, but quiet.

"This is not the right time Adam" I said sincerely. I didn't want to cause a fight, him being in this state.

"Please" he begged. I sighed; he made sure to put his 'damaged body' card on me which made persuaded me.

"Okay, but get in bed first. Do you need a doctor?" he smiled, which made me smile to.

"No their useless" he chuckled. It was since to see him smiling and laughing. For me forgiveness and forgetting the past is long a way, but accepting one who has done an act of inhumanity, you have to look for changes. I knew being a bitch to him wouldn't resolve anything; in all honesty it would make it worse. I may not want anything to do with him, but I want Alina to.

I put Alina down on the chair, and helped Adam up. But him being so damn stubborn he made sure to do it all himself.

"Does it hurt?" I asked worriedly. He plopped himself, bending over on his bed. I walked forwards to aid him, but he waved his hand telling me he was totally fine.

"Not really it's just my body feels stiff, without no ache or pain"

"Well that a good sign" i smiled.

Adam rested his head down on his pillow and lay their interlacing his fingers, bas he rested it on his chest. He tapped his thumb on the back of his hand, looking up at the ceiling.

Alina stood up and jumped on the bed, hitting part of Adams body which made him groan but laugh. I shot up instantly, as she sat on his stomach, looking anywhere but me. Adams eyes were tightly closed; I knew he was in complete pain.

"Alina!" I scowled.

"It's okay" Adam stated waving his hand, but his features told me his pain was back. Lair told me it didn't hurt.

"Alina" I said her name sternly which made her give me her cute puppy eyes. I always fell for it, but she was still sitting on Adam, probably hurting him.

"Leave it, I'm okay. See" he said gesturing to his body.

"Alina say sorry" I pleaded. I didn't want Adam to think I was a bad mother.

"Sowwy" she said cutely. How can i be angry at that? She bounced on his stomach which made him wince in pain, and he shifted her slightly.

I walked up to the bed to pick her up, but Adam held her tightly so she still sat on his stomach while her feet were planted on the bed firmly. I held her again, but Adams grip got tighter and a growl vibrated form his chest. I sighed giving up which made him smile. Alina looked back at him lying down on his chest, so she slept on top of him. At first Adam was shocked and so was I. He didn't make no move just watched Alina yawn and cuddle his stomach, and moulded her head under his chin.

He smiled proudly and hesitantly moved his head towards her hair stroking it lightly. Alina shut her eyes smiling in her sleep.

Even though Adam had done wrong, i had to let him Alina's life. He may have made a big mistake, but that doesn't mean i can let his daughter see him. i will do it for Alina, I don't want a relationship with Adam of any kind, but i want him to be in Alina's life. She needs to make her own choices, and see what she wants in life. Because believe me in the future me making her decisions will bite me in the ass.

"Mariah I'm sorry"

"I don't care about it anymore. It's the past"

"It's not. You don't understand the guilt eats me alive. I feel like a monster. I know it's hard to apologise, but just let me in her life."

"I want you in her life. But I can't promise anything will work out between us." Some may say its harsh saying such words to him, but rape is not something that can be forgiven or seen easy. Adam may have understood his mistakes but for me to overlook them is header done then said. It's the fact that the images are scared in your mind forever. Those little things that can automatically make me think back to the rape.

"i want to be in her life, and i understand. I want you to be happy and if being with my brother is all it takes I'll stand by you. Sure it will hurt but my pain doesn't resemble yours. I want you to feel true love and Leo can give you that." I smiled at his rods. Adam s a great guy, if you wiped out his past he would seem like a great guy. I always knew inside there was still hope of this Aretha to come out, but i never seem to believe it. "He truly does love you. He never looked at Aretha in such a way. I know it kills me that eh left but he was in depression. I didn't realise the great pain it must have cause when she went, but when you went i understood. I hated him for so long and i was in denial that he did it to get treatment and help"

"You know he does love you. He made a great mistake leaving you. I know you both made mistake, but i want you to talk it out. Brother to brother"

We lapsed into silence. Not an awkward one, but a very comfortable one.

"Mariah?"

"Mhmm"

"You know when i was a little boy i was abused"

"W-what?"

He chuckled at my shocked face. "Nobody would be such an animal for no reason. I had a past which as terrible. Remember when I used to get bruises on my body?" i nodded remembering distinctively the bruises on his body. He would make stupid excuses and tell me to get out of his business. At the time I never pressured or brought up the bruises or the cuts on his body, not wanting Adam to shout at me and or be rude.

"Well i lied when i use to tell you I fell or was rude to you. You was such an angel that I didn't want to worry your little face, if i told you that smile on your face would be swiped off and you would be sad and in a sad mood, and I didn't want to worry you."

"Then how did you get it"

"Huh?"

"How did you get them?" I asked.

"Urm remember them men that always came to my house. And sometimes liked to play with you." He shifted in his bed uncomfortable, staring blankly at the ceiling and closing his eyes tightly

"Oh yes, Bob, Tony, jimmy and Calvin" he nodded his head, but i didn't mistake his clenched teeth and balled up fist.

I remember them men, there was always something smug and awful about them. As a child i was always friendly and when they had come up to me and asked if they could play with me, i didn't want to be rude so i allowed them to. But that wasn't a one off they would come and play with me nearly every day. They always gave me a bad vibe, but i seem to hold it back. The way they look at me and have conversations between themselves, while they stole little glances of me. That was what had made me shift awkwardly around them and hardly play much when they were around. I also couldn't help but see the fear in Adams eyes when they approached him, when we played together, or even when he saw me talking with them. He would bully me and tell me to stay away from them-harshly, at the time i thought he was benign mean but not very much now. Was he protecting me?

"Well it's going to be hard to believe when i tell you this since, you got along with them. They caused them"

"I knew something was odd about them"

"Huh?" he asked shocked and confused.

"I may have let them play with my only and make them have a tea party with me, but i always knew something was odd about them. They seem like peedos- oh no!"

Adam looked at my sadend face with my teary eyes. Adam reached his arm out for me, with a confused face. The he laughed, i think getting what i meant

"I wasn't butt raped" his laughter went down when he realised my frown.

"I thought you were." I whispered. They looked like paedophiles?" i scoffed which made us both laugh.

"Na they just were fu-dging abusive" he laughed, changing his words before he swore inform of a sleeping Alina.

"You need to tell someone. What they did is animalistic and illegal. Even in the supernatural world, it's harsh and cruel. Adam you need to let someone know. This is not something n you can forget" I said rushing through my words with worry. If they did that to an alpha, they could strike again, and maybe it may not be a boy at the end of it, but a little girl such as Alina. I felt my eyes stinging just imagining if something like that would happen to Alina. Not that I would make some strangers take care of Alina, I would teach her how to be an alpha.

"Its okay" he said soothingly, reaching out for my hand, but i flinched and stared at him apologetically, he nodded in understanding. I smiled at this Adam who is able to understand without getting angry.

"No Adam they might do it to someone else. If they've done it to an alphas son what make you say they won't strike again" this time I burst into anger, just imaging them sick men hurting some other kids.

"Believe me they won't. I have them sorted. If you think i fear them then you're wrong. I not only order them but I also own their soul" he stated calmly, like he was talking about a fairytale. The way he spoke was harsh but his tone gave me ease I knew Adam wouldn't let that slide, so I had trust in him there.

A soft snore interrupted out conversation. I realised it as Alina's, Alina was snorer in the family. It wasn't those irritating ones; it was like soft sound of music. She always had a rhythm to her snores, as a mother I realised it. It seemed to put me at ease as much as the others.

We both looked down at Alina to see her asleep on his chest. She was breathing, drool trailing at the edge of her mouth. We both laughed at that, which made Adam smile proudly at her then back at me. My eyes were firmly on Alina so i hadn't looked up to see that he titled his head looking at me adoringly.

"She looks like you." He said in awe voice. "And those stern faces she does make her look allot like your dad" he laughed.

"I know. The face when she's angry or too damn stubborn." I laughed remembering that face she always does. She mainly does that face when she's around James since, he's so easy to convince and easy to make him fall in her trap. With hat face she makes sure to make him know whose boss. My dad did the exact same expression as Alina. We knew when was serious or wanted something, so i knew it was easy to read Alina, as she's just like my father.

"She's a princess" he said, fighting his hold around her. "She's my princess" he mumbled.

"I know she is" I said assuring that she is much as his.