"Today the family of Daniel Peterson has come together to mourn. Not only are they here to mourn, but to reflect and remember Daniel." The priest says.

I sit in the front row, and Alex holds onto my hand and rests her head on my shoulder. Brendan is to my left, and next to him is Vanessa. The both of them wear the same forlorn expression on their faces as they look at the casket. My mother is hysterically sobbing, and my grandmother holds onto her tightly.

"Daniel Peterson lived a long life. His journey began when he decided to be an entrepreneur and start his own business. He was extremely successful, and there's no doubt about it. Shortly after he started that manufacturing business, he met Emmanuelle. Daniel not only was an amazing businessman, he was an amazing father as well. His three children Brendan, Rian and Vanessa were raised by two incredible people, and they are incredibly lucky to have had a man like Daniel as a father." The priest continues.

I still cannot believe this is happening.

I imagine us all at the table, laughing and being together as a family. Differences aside, we would all still have him, and it hurts so much to look at that casket.

The tears fall out of my eyes, and I feel Alex give me a quick kiss on the cheek. It's taking so much in me to not bawl my eyes out, but I'm getting close.

"Daniel was extremely wise, generous and strong. Even during his darkest days, he never let that stop him. The cancer never took that remarkable shine out of him. Although he may not be with us now, his presence will always linger and will remain in our hearts."

Just like that, a loud sob forces its way out of me, eager to escape. My chest is heavy with this inexplicable feeling of guilt.

I'm a doctor, and I could've looked into this so that he could be cured somehow, but it's too late.

I bury my face into Alex's shoulder as I cry, and she carefully strokes my back while shushing me.

"Shh, it's okay. I'm here." Alex whispers, and she repeats herself multiple times.

One by one, the priest calls up everyone to make their speeches. My mother talks about how much she loved him, and that he was a great father to the three of us and how great of a husband he was. My grandmother hands her a copious amount of tissues, and keeps a few for herself.

"Daniel was the most amazing man I've ever known, and it hurts to let him go after all of these years. I just—, don't know if I can go on without it hurting so much." Mom wails, and she begins to shake her head before walking away from the microphone.

Everyone claps, and I stand up, giving her one of the tightest hugs, and Alex hugs her as well. My mother cries and cries and cries for what seems like an eternity, and she finally pulls away and returns to her seat.

"I can't finish my speech, I'm sorry. I can't do it, this is just too much to deal with." Mom shakily adds, and we all nod.

"Sweetheart, it's fine. You don't have to finish it if you feel like you can't." Grandma reassuringly says.

Vanessa goes up to the stage next, and just like our mother, she's too grief stricken to speak. She tries to talk about how excellent of a father he was, but every time she says his name, it forces a sob from her throat each time. Even when she tries to bring up a funny memory that she had with him, it pains her to even say it.

God, how am I going to finish my speech when I'm so susceptible?

I know I won't be able to.

"I wish cancer never even existed because we would still have him! I just—, I'm sorry." Vanessa exclaims, unable to finish her speech as well.

Vanessa has a high pitched sob, and she almost sounds like a little girl. She constantly sniffles, and her breathing becomes convulsive. After a while, so much crying causes her to have a coughing fit.

"V, just take Mom and Grandma outside or to the bathroom so you can take a breather." I suggest, and she shakes her head.

"I'm not going to miss your speech or Brendan's!" She stubbornly exclaims, and I groan.

"It doesn't have to be a long breather, but please just go. For me, Nessa." I beg, and she sighs.

Her auburn hair gets in the way of her eyes, and she carefully tucks it behind her ear. The makeup streams down, and her eyes look smudgy and dark. Vanessa's eyes are bloodshot, her nose is runny, and she deeply breathes in and out.

"Fine." She finally says, and I briefly smile.

"Thank you." I say, and she nods.

After Vanessa, Mom and Grandma walk out while holding hands. I hear my name get called out by the priest, and Alex immediately looks at me.

"Do you want me to go up with you?" Alex asks, and I nod.

"Please."

I grab her hand, walking up to the stage. I stand there for a moment, staring at the audience.

Here we go.

"Family, friends, my heart is broken as I look at all of your faces because when I look at you all, I think of my father's life. He was the best father you could ever imagine, and he loved us all very much. I remember all of the lessons that he taught me, and I definitely hold those in my heart. In his last months, I knew that he was trying to remain positive because he was a naturally optimistic person. In almost three decades, he gave my mother unconditional, real love that she deserved." I say, and I look back at Alex.

My heart and my mind are a kaleidoscope of memories.

Alex rubs my back and kisses my cheek, and I smile as she's there to support me.

"Our father gave Brendan, Vanessa and I the best childhood, and I'll be forever grateful for that. In the last few months, he got to meet my girlfriend who he admired. My father wasn't perfect, but that never mattered. All that mattered to me was that he was here with us all to make us laugh and appreciate the little things."

My father was selfless, kind, intelligent, and a plethora of other amazing things.

That's what made him amazing, and I'll never forget him.

~~~

After the burial of my father, our grandmother decided to come home to comfort and support her daughter. Alex and I walk upstairs, just to try and relieve some stress from today.

Alex takes off her veil and places it on the dresser. She takes off her heels, almost toppling over as she does. After she does this, Alex walks over to me, and hugs me from behind.

"I'll be here for you, baby. I'll do anything you want that'll make you feel better." Alex whispers into my ear.

"Anything?" I ask, quirking my eyebrow.

"Anything." She repeats.

I turn around so that I look at her, and we stare at each other. I realize how when I'm with her, the tears subside. With my family, I'm a hysterical mess.

God, I just want to forget this day.

The only person who can make me feel better is her.

She's like a bandaid to a wound.

Those dark brown eyes stare intently up at me, and her eye makeup is still intact. Now that the veil isn't on her face, I can finally see her beauty without something getting in the way of it.

I want to lose myself in her beauty.

"Make love to me." I blurt out, but I don't regret saying it.

Alex's eyes widen, and her cheeks turn pink.

"Are you sure? I remember the talk we had a while ago, and I explained that I didn't want you to have sex with me for a personal benefit or if you want to hide an emotion." Alex reminds me, and I nod.

Baby, I would never do that.

"I wouldn't use you like that, Alexandrianna. You know that, too."

"I know, but you're emotionally wounded right now. Believe me, I've been craving some intimacy lately, but I can't engage in it if I feel like you're not completely into it." Alex says.

God, I'd never use her for sex.

She knows how much I despise Austin for doing that to her, so why would she think that I'd repeat his actions?

"I understand that, Alex. I'm craving some, too, and just being that close to you and getting the chance to love you is all I want right now." I say, licking my lips.

I can kind of see why Alex would question me, because my father was buried today, and she thinks that I'm trying to jump her bones. I love her, and I couldn't even try thinking of having sex just for my own pleasure. It needs to be mutual.

"It's not to try use you so that I get to have sex or to temporarily stop my sadness about my dad. Those feelings won't go away, and I know that. I just want to hold you and love you." I continue.

"Are you sure?" Alex asks.

I look into her eyes, and the chocolate brown looks black due to how wide her pupils have become while she stares at me, and her lips are aching for mine. Without hesitation, I lean down and kiss her, and my hands cup her face as I do so. Her hands hold my waist, and her lips gliding across mine makes every nerve in my body tingle with a strong wanting. We pull apart abruptly, and she stares at me with astonishment.

"If I wasn't sure, I wouldn't have done that." I say, and she smiles.

"Okay, I believe you. I believe that you're sure."

"Now, I need to know if you're sure. One hundred percent sure that you're mine and only mine for tonight."

"I'm always yours, babe." Alex smirks.

I pin her against the wall, unceremoniously, and she gasps. We kiss again, and our lips move perfectly. Not one moment do we fall out of our perfect synchronization, and the kiss becomes more and more intense after each pause to catch air into our lungs.

My mouth latches onto her neck, and Alex sighs before carefully biting my earlobe. I pull back and look her deep in the eyes, and the intensity drives me insane as I go in to kiss her luscious lips again. Our lips smack together, and our hands roam freely, casually going wherever they please.

I want to try something a bit different.

"Turn around," I instruct, and she immediately does it.

My hands grip the zipper of her dress, slowly moving it down her dress until there's no more of it left. Alex removes her arms from the lace sleeves, and the dress falls off of her skinny frame.

I take the bobby pins from her hair, and she carefully removes her hair tie, and she tosses her hair back, and it whips me in the face. That familiar aroma of her shampoo and conditioner fills my nose, and my eyes trail down to where her long hair ends.

I take my hands, and I carefully grab her shoulders before nuzzling my mouth into the crook of her neck. Her skin is warm underneath my thick lips, and I move my lips upward and begin to nibble and suck on her earlobe. My tongue briefly glides along the sensitive skin behind her ear, and Alex shivers before biting her lip.

I smack her butt, and Alex gasps as I turn her back around to look at me. I grab her by the throat, and kiss her so passionately that all of the air is drained from her lungs.

My free hand caresses her butt, and I gently suck on her bottom lip before biting it and tugging gently.

We stop, and our breathing is heavy. The both of us tend to lean in to kiss each other, but then pull away. Alex's breathing hitches, and she runs her tongue over her teeth as her body is quivering with excitement.

We switch positions, and I sit down on the bed while softly running my fingers over her smooth skin.

"Take off your bra," I instruct, and Alex turns around, and slowly removes the hooks one by one.

She looks over her shoulder at me, giving me a naughty grin before dangling her bra in the air and letting it drop to the floor. Alex swings her hair as she turns back around to reveal her plump breasts to me, which sends the tingly feeling to my groin.

Alex sits on the edge of the bed, staring up at me, waiting for me to undress.

I face her, slowly removing my tie. I toss it to the floor along with my suit jacket, and I begin to unbutton my shirt.

Alex bites her lip while watching me intently, and she watches it fall to the floor. I unbuckle my belt slowly, and I walk towards her and stoop down to kiss her again. Alex begins to stand, but I place my hands on her shoulders and gently push her back down onto the bed.

Alex watches me as she lies down, and I slowly remove my suit pants. My entire shaft throbs at the sight of Alex's almost naked body, and it soon begins to hurt as I watch Alex begin to touch herself.

She read my mind. That's my girl.

Her hands started by just caressing her breasts, but slowly worked downward until her fingers were moving in a slow circular movement. Alex has a coy smile on her face, and she begins to softly moan.

I'm going to make her moan harder than that.

I don't even care anymore that my family is downstairs and that they might possibly hear us.

I'm going to make her .

Slowly, I move myself so that I'm over her body. I reach down and grab Alex's hand, slowly sucking her taste off of her fingers. Alex bites her lip before giving me a naughty grin which sends my blood rushing to my head.

"How do I taste?" Alex seductively asks.

"God, you taste amazing. You get sweeter and sweeter as time goes on." I rasp, and she giggles.

Alex moans as I begin to kiss her neck while simultaneously playing with her nipples. My fingers gently squeeze, and Alex's body squirms underneath mine. My mouth makes their way, and her nipples are erect. My teeth graze them carefully before biting, and Alex gasps almost instantly. Nibbling, licking, sucking and kissing on them causes her to become more than excited.

"You like that, don't you? You like it when I do this?" I ask against her chest, and she moans in response.

"Yes, baby. Do whatever you want." Alex begs, and I smirk.

I kiss down her body, and all control flies out of my body as I roughly grab her lace thong and rip it off of her. Literally.

The thong is torn, and Alex gasps as I casually toss it to the floor.

"Open your legs wider for me, Alexandrianna." I demand, and she smirks as she hears her full name.

Alex's legs spread, and my kisses inch closer and closer to her sweet warmth. I gently begin to suck, and Alex runs her hands through my hair, eventually she tightly grasps onto it. I devour her, enjoying and savoring her taste.

She begins to grind against my tongue, moaning out my name. My fingers move around rhythmically as my mouth sucks on where she's most sensitive. Alex's body squirms, and she constantly begs and cries out my name in ecstasy. She tries shoving my head away, but I won't move, and my tongue moves circularly over where I was sucking.

Her wetness drips down to my chin, and my tongue moves in every direction to drive her crazy. Alex's legs begin to quiver, and my breath is almost taken away. Her feet are planted on my shoulders, and her toes curl.

"Rian!" Alex moans loudly, and I smile before continuing.

God, I love how she moans my name.

Her whole body turns into an earthquake, and her breathing is so hard that it might cause her to break. My lips soon inch back up her body, and Alex looks like she's about to pass out, and I smirk to myself.

"Come here, come taste yourself on my lips." I raggedly demand, and she kisses me without hesitation.

Our mouths crash together, and Alex holds my face in her hands. Alex suddenly pushes me down, and she climbs on top of me. Alex kneels, planting tender kisses all over my body, and each kiss makes me want to do so much more than I intended.

Her sultry, warm lips wrap around my throbbing length. Alex slowly licks up and down my entire shaft, and one of her hands move with her mouth while the other is cupping and caressing. Her saliva covers my turgid shaft, and my heartbeat increases when she intentionally slows down to torture me.

"Swirl your tongue around the tip like that again." I instruct, and she giggles before following my command.

Alex moans as I hold her head in place, and her moaning sends a vibration throughout my straining erection. I lick my lips, and I begin to moan as her mouth moves up and down. She nearly gags on my length, and that causes me to smirk.

"Let me look into your eyes. Let me see those pretty brown eyes of yours, babe. Look at me." I moan.

Everything seems to move in slow motion as she looks up, and she slows down the rhythm of her sucking. Alex moves her tongue up my shaft, and our eye contact is unwavering. A moan causes my body to shake, and I lay down while running my fingers through her hair.

God damn.

Each suction makes me groan, and she takes all of me in. Her wide eyes look overjoyed, and my moans shake my chest. As she pulls away to get air, her smile is wider than before, and her slippery hands slide up and down as she looks at me. Her eyebrow cocks, and she bites her lip.

"There's so many fucking things that I want to do you, Alex." I groan.

"Like what?" Alex asks, giving me a wink.

"Come over over here and I'll show you exactly what."

Alex seductively crawls up the bed, back onto my lap, and her warm tongue makes its way through my smile. My hands rest on her sides, and her hair hangs low. Alex places her hands on my broad chest, and I smile while I look up at her.

"You're so naughty, and I adore it." I moan, and I reach up and hold her warm breasts in my hands.

"I'm your naughty girl." Alex adds, and I bite my lip.

God damn.

Slowly, I enter her, and she gasps as she takes all of me in. Alex licks her lips as her eyes scrunch shut out of pleasure, and she rotates her hips. My hands continue to massage her plump breasts, and I lean upwards so that I can kiss them. As she moans, I smile against her chest, and I lay back down.

"Bounce up and down on it, baby. Fuck me like you mean it."

Some of the things I've said even surprises me. Same goes for Alex, and we both smirk at each other.

I really wasn't playing when I said that I wanted to try something different.

Alex's hips move like waves, starting off slowly, but soon moving desperately against me. My hands guide her, and I begin thrusting as she continues to move. The sensation causes us to both moan, and Alex's nails dig into my chest.

"Yes, baby. Like that."

"Oh, my God!" Alex moans.

Alex and I look at each other, our breaths are shaky and our hearts pulsate rapidly. The feeling trails throughout my whole body, and I grunt while forcing myself to move faster and harder.

Without warning, I turn her over so that she's on her hands and knees. Alex gasps as I spank her, and a red mark covers her butt. Before I enter her, my tongue dips and swirls into her. She moans in surprise before giggling.

"I love it when you do that." Alex desperately moans, and she grips onto the sheet.