Where did he go?

I decided to wait again for some time but was eventually bothered when he didn't come back even after 10 minutes.

So I just decided to go and check up on him.

I wore my slippers and walked to the bathroom before knocking on the door, since he could be there, but found it empty.

I walked out of the room going to the kitchen but it was empty as well.

I then decided to check his office room since he have spent some nights there and he could be there this time as well.

I stood in front of the room as I saw some lights coming out indicating he's in there.

I opened the door and looked inside as I found Taehyung sitting on the chair with his head resting back.

"Taehyung ssi?" I spoke, walking toward him after closing the door but he didn't say anything.

"Are you having trouble sleeping?" I asked him as I stood beside him.

He straightened his head as he looked at me.

"What's wrong?" I asked him but this time he pulled my hand and I accidentally landed on his lap.

He didn't say anything but just kept his head on my chest, keeping one of his hand on my waist and the other playing with my hand and fingers but eventually intertwined our fingers together.

I didn't say anything to him as I let him be close to me. But soon felt wetness on my shirt as I heard a sniffle from him.

Is he crying?

"Taehyu-"

"We didn't get the deal." He said as I frowned.

"Appa is so disappointed in me. I failed him and I failed his company." He said holding my hand more tightly as my other hand made its way to his back.

"Everything he did for me in all these years and I couldn't get one important deal for his company. I tried my best y/n ah but I couldn't do much for appa." he spoke as I heard him sobbing this time.

"I even failed you. I treated you so badly and yet I couldn't make it up to you for treating you like shit. I know I hurted you but I was hurt as well." I kept my hand on his back trying to comfort but he just bursted out in tears as he started sobbing a bit louder.

"I was so stressed because of work. So stressed that I became selfish enough to forget you and work like a crazy. But that night when you came and slept in this room, I knew I had to make it up to you." He said burying his face in the crook of my neck pushing himself further as he just wanted to hide from this world.

"I wanted to get the deal so that I wouldnt disappoint you or our family but I literally failed everyone. I failed to be a good husband. I failed to be a good son. I'm not even a good human being. Why am I like this? I wish that was someone else as appa Eomma's son. Someone else as your husband. Someone who wouldn't be a disappointment." He said hugging me tightly as he gently let go off my hand.

Why does think like that of himself? He's such a perfect man to me.

"All I did was treating you coldly but you never complain and bear with me always. I'm so sorry I failed to be a good husband. I'm really sorry I failed to be the person everyone wish and wanted me to be. I'm such a failure in life.

Please forgive me." He hugged me tightly sobbing loudly as I looked his face which was already red and wet due to his crys.

I rubbed his back with my hand as the other one massaged his hairs.

He just kept his face in my neck and cried.

"If I could go back in time. I'd marry you again without having a second thought." I hugged him tightly as he leaned in more.

"I don't want anyone but you. Why'd you think of yourself like that Taehyung? Its hurting me knowing you think of yourself as a disappointment."

"I know you worked hard. I've seen it Taehyung. You don't need to explain yourself to me here. You didn't fail me, Taetae." his sobs were really loud by now.

“You didn't fail anyone. I'm sure appa would understa-”

“No y/n. Appa was there with us in the meeting and I did see disappointment in his eyes. Disappointment for me.” He said like a little baby crying but it hurted my heart the way his voice was so hoarse.

“Taehyung he'd understand. I'm sure. Don't worry.” I said trying to assure him but he just shook his head.

“No. He won't.” He said

“I'm with you Taehyung. I'll talk to him from your side. I'll defend you. You don't need to worry. You have me always.” I said in a soothing voice trying to comfort you.

The way he keep snuggling in my neck as if he wants to hide away is hurting my heart.

He's so fragile. Why would anyone even hurt him?

“I promise it'll be all good Taehyungie. Just because you do not have a good result once doesn't mean you've always failed. You've done enough for us Taehyung. And I appreciate you doing so much hard work for others. But don't forget yourself.”

“You exist when you're you. Not when you forget yourself for others.”

“Don't leave me.” He said and pulled out as he looked at me in the eyes.

I looked into his teary eyes where I finally got to see some emotions after seeing them empty and cold.

“I would never.” I said caressing his cheeks as I felt my eyes getting teary while looking into his glossy one, “I could never even think about it. I'll be here as long as you need me.”

“I need you with me. Always.” He said but that broke my heart. He looked so much like a precious little baby.

I looked into his eyes as I couldn't say anything to him.

I wiped his tears that kept making their way out of his eyes. He leaned into my touch as he kept looking at me in the eyes.

His hand slowly left my waist as he held the back of my neck gently bringing me down.

My hands made their way to his shoulder as I held them tightly knowing what he wants right now.

He gently leaned my head down as he leaned in as well, still his eyes on mine.

He stopped as we both faced each other. His eyes showed innocence. But this time it was different than the first time I met him. He showed me more than innocence.

He opened his heart and showed his emotions to me.

The one he buried deep inside him.

He broke those walls for me.

He looked at my lips and then back to my eyes asking for permission.

I held his neck gently as I closed my eyes leaning in. Making the first move.

As I, in some seconds, felt his soft lips on mine.

He kissed me passionately as we tilted our heads to get better access.

I wasn't a very good kisser since I've never kissed anyone before but I still tried to follow his lead.

He kissed me slowly and softly as he caressed my neck gently.

I felt something wet on my cheek as I noticed his tears were still leaving his eyes. I gently wiped off his tears.

The kiss was soft and pure. I tried to show him care and affection though the kiss as he kissed me expressing his emotions.

After some good minutes he pulled out keeping his forehead on mine as we tried to catch our breathes.

He looked into my eyes again.

I didn't say anything to him as I let him do what he want.

He again hugged me putting his head back on my chest again feeling my heartbeat as he sighed, feeling a little calmer now.

I massaged his hairs as I pecked his head in a gesture to tell him that everything's gonna be okay.

“Let's go sleep, hm?” I said as he nodded his head, still on my chest as he looked like a little baby making me smile.

I felt a little embarrassed though as I was still on his lap but I shrugged it off since it wasn't a moment to think like that.

He needed me and I need to be there for him.

I slowly tried to get up as he held my waist once again, “Where are you going?”

“We need to walk to our room.” I said ruffling his hairs.

“Stay like this.” He said as he pulled my other leg making me wrap both of my legs around his waist and hug his neck.

He got up still hugging my waist as i hugged him back like a koala.

“Taehyung you don't need to. Just put me down.” I said as he walked upstairs to our room.

“Shh” He said as he opened the door to our room and closed it before walking toward the bed.

He put me on the bed as I laid down but not some second later, he quickly laid down beside me burying his face in the crook of my neck.

I smiled as I hugged him back with one of my hand patting his back and the other playing with his soft hairs.

“Do you feel better?” I asked him after some minutes.

He nodded his head, “hm”

“Don't worry about anything okay? We'll find a way together.” I whispered gently as he snuggled more into my neck.

“I'm right beside you always. I'll pick you up when you fall, okay?” He nodded his head again, still hiding himself in my neck.

“No matter how deep we drown. I'll always try to keep us up. I promise.” I said massaging his hairs gently again as I heard him sigh in relief.

“Sleep well.” I said for the last time.

We didn't say anything after that as we just laid silently in each other's arms in a manner to protect each other.

His breathing was calm as he felt my warm body near his.

I wish things would work out well.

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