With my hands on my knees, I stood bent down and breathed heavily. I ran without stopping until I arrived to another road, away from their house. Then I finally closed my dress and waited to calm down before getting a taxi.

Once at home, I took everything off and threw myself on the couch, feeling a sudden flow of energy. I was entirely convinced that once everything is over I would regret it. But to the contrary, there is no trace of regret inside me, only an unusual form of excitement. A dumb smile keeps lingering on my face.

The event is supposed to last until late evening, and that is why I took a day off at the club. Now that I returned much earlier and have nothing to do, I will let Tom know that I'll come to work.

With hot water pouring over my shoulders in the shower, it is my favourite place to think. Images of Julian's body and his big hands on mine, ran through my mind and revived the feeling. I want more. But he said it himself, no strings attached. I wonder what he would tell me if he managed to stop me. Oh and Adrian saw it all, he must have realised what happened. Hopefully he did.

Although it made me happy that I made Adrian pay back, there are still some feelings for him inside me. There are quite a lot actually, but he pushed me away with everything he did. I became aware of many manipulative things he said. He made me sleep in a cage and I let him... I let him because I was stupid and naive, I believed we were being close and intimate. If he knew how to keep me, I wouldn't regret doing it, but he didn't. I also chased him, craved him and tried my best to have him, but it was all for nothing. He threw it all away, and what I did with Julian was my way of letting go. I am ready to move on.

Excited to have finally lost my V card, I decided to call Ellen to meet and tell her all about it. And that is when my mood dropped, realising that the man I slept with is the same one that played with my friend's feelings. I'm not sure how she would take it. The whole situation between them had completely slipped my mind and I didn't think of it before doing stuff with Julian. One thing is certain, I must tell her.

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Being a Saturday, the club is full and busy. When I arrived Tom was occupied with the guests at the bar, so I just waved at him and went in the changing room. I put on my dancing outfit and prepared to go on stage.

While dancing around the pole, with dim purple lights calming my nerves and taking me into another reality, I let them numb me. I cleared my thoughts completely and I didn't allow myself to overthink anything that happened. Not even about Ellen's possible reaction. I will deal with the problem when I come to it.

Eventually I stopped for a break and went to have a chat with Tom who poured me my usual drink. Something about him seems off.

"What's up?" I asked cheerfully, taking a sip from my glass.

"A lot actually. There has been an offer about the club." He answered, sparking my interest.

"What offer?" My expression became completely serious.

"It's too busy right now, let's meet tomorrow so we can talk about it. You can meet me here in the morning if you want." He suggested and I immediately agreed.

"Yes sure, I'll be here."

Then we talked about other things, mostly catching up on little every day happenings. When the bar got packed with guests again, I moved away and set on a chair in the corner. Something made search for Julian on Instagram and for the first time, I went through his posts. He has a lot, mostly with friends at some expensive nightclubs, fancy champagne bottles showing in the background. Many of them are videos of them having fun or traveling abroad, pretty girls in almost all of them. His friends seem to be around his age and even the girls must be in their mid twenties.

It is then that I realised how exciting his life actually is and what a small part of it I am. He is so busy and active that he probably couldn't care less about what Adrian and I do, but took an interest only to get his revenge on him. While on the other hand, Adrian and him are the main happening in my life. We both said no strings attached, but my heart sank when I concluded all this. It bothers me how insignificant I am to him and what an important role he plays for me by being my first. But it was a mistake which I made intentionally and there is no going back now.

One of the dancers approached me saying that there is someone waiting for me at the door. When I asked who, she just shrugged and left. I got up and quickly grabbed my robe before heading for the door.

The two body guards let me walk out and my eyes landed on Adrian. I became nervous, having to face him.

"Yes?" I asked coldly as soon as out eyes met and I stepped outside. His blonde hair was messy and his expression serious as usual.

"Did you sleep with Julian?" He fired straight away while the body guards watched us, so we moved to the side. I sighed at his question.

"Yes, I slept with your brother." I admitted, knowing how bad it sounds but he deserved it.

His reaction was disbelief mixed with anger yet somehow he managed to get a hold of himself even though he struggled. It seems to me that it hurt him to a certain extent as his face showed pure disappointment. Disappointment with me but mostly with himself.

"Why?" This isn't the question I was expecting, but I certainly had an answer to it.

"Why?" I repeated. "Because you are manipulative and for the second time you chose another girl. You knew you had me whenever you wanted so you took me for granted. I ignored all you red flags and tried to please you but it clearly wasn't enough. You seduced me, made me fall in love with you and then ditched me for a rich girl. I mean I don't blame you, but you made me believe I was special. Not to mention that terrible lie you said about Julian...I know everything and I'm done." I poured out everything that there was on my mind. Well not everything, but almost.

"I don't know what to say about leaving you for Crystal. I'm sorry." He had no argument. "But what you did with Julian is low." He tried to put it all onto me once again.

"No, it is the best mistake I ever made. Actually now that I think about it, it's more like a blessing." I smirked letting my cold self be in power and pushing all my emotions aside. He couldn't believe that these words were coming from me. Although my eyes probably told him everything, and that is how truly empty I feel.

"I don't have what to say to you." He turned to go towards his blue vespa.

When I noticed I realised there was another thing I had to tell him.

"Adrian there is one more thing." I stopped him and he paused, not turning around but letting me speak. "His dick is bigger." A huge smile appeared on my face before I went back inside the club.

Adrian 2 : Lana 10 (his brother counts as 10)

Lana lingers through my mind constantly and even when I make it a point to stop thinking about her, somehow she returns. I worked towards getting her to be intimate with me just to piss Adrian off, and finally make him pay for what he did with Crystal. And I succeeded the moment I took Lana's virginity. Not even in the wildest of dreams would it cross my mind that she was still a virgin. I know it very well that Adrian is obsessed with her, but as always, he has issues and hurts the ones he loves the most. It wasn't a problem for me to tell her that it's only a one time thing because I can't be with a girl who slept with my brother, it's simply a deal breaker. Except that Lana didn't sleep with him. I was her first.

"Why did that girl leave early?" Conrad, my dad, interrupted me while I worked in my study.

"What girl?" I pretended I didn't know who he referred to, as though to deny that she is on my mind.

"The one you introduced me to, that dancer." I sighed in defeat, seeing that there is no way I will stop thinking about her.

"Why would you care?" I fired but not angrily. He is the only member of the family I'm close to. I couldn't find a valid reason for him to remember her at all, let alone notice when she left and ask about it.

"She left quite an impression. I don't know, it may just be a halo effect, but she seems too innocent for a stripper." He remarked. I never saw him this interested in someone not important to him. "Are you with her now and what did she do with Adrian exactly?"

I took off my reading glasses and focused on my dad, not believing how many questions he is asking. He is usually very cold and brief, he doesn't even care to know what his wife does let alone someone else.

"She fell for Adrian who was nothing but a dick to her and played with her feelings. No I'm not with her but we slept together, and yes, she is innocent, she was a virgin." I told him openly as we are always honest with each other. One thing I never saw before until this moment is him being totally impressed.

Not taking his eyes off me, he spoke in awe, "So what are you waiting for? Give her a call." Leaving me completely speechless, he showed that he certainly doesn't share mother's opinions.

He left my study and I was unable to concentrate on work again.