A few birds chirping in the distance is what shook me from my deep sleep. They got louder as I came to and when I rolled over to hug Landon he wasn't there. That's when a million memories that I experienced all in one night came flooding into my head. I sat up in a quickness but, hands on my shoulders refrained me from shooting up too fast. I hadn't even opened my eyes fully but, when I did.

Landon's face was the first thing I saw and I felt my eyes welling up all over again, "Hi love." his thumb caressed the side of my mouth with a small smile and I noticed just how exhausted he looked.

"Hey." I breathed, feeling my tears slip from my eyes.

"No." he wiped away my tears, "None of that." I shook my head, trailing my eyes down, "Hey." he picked my chin up, "Guess what?"

"What?" I questioned, suddenly feeling a sense of happiness through the mate bond.

"Two of the pups made it and their alive." he stated and I felt my jaw drop open.

"What?" I asked, grabbing the blanket to pull off of me so I could see and touch my belly.

Landon's hand came over mine on my round bump, "Paul said he doesn't know what happened and that it's a miracle only one of them went." he explained, rubbing my belly.

I felt my heart well up with happiness and I smiled down at my belly, "Their alive." I whispered, hot tears of joy sliding down my face.

Landon cupped my cheeks and brought my face up to look at him, "They are but, I'm so sorry that one of them isn't, while you were out Paul went ahead and did the ultrasound." he frowned, his eyebrows creasing in distress, "One of the boys died." his tone was influenced by pain.

It hurt still, it hurt that I didn't have one of them when I was so already used to the idea. I was so used to buying everything in two for the boys. I was used to the fact that I was going to have two of them. But, I was so entirely grateful that the moon goddess didn't take all of them from us.

"I'm sorry." I whispered, looking down and feeling my tears fall.

Landon got into the bed next to me, wrapping me in his arms. He placed his chin on top of my head as he held my shaking body. The sparks were flourishing from his body to mine. And I leant into his for comfort, his hand rubbed the side of my arm and the other remained against my belly.

"You don't have to be sorry love it happened and it wasn't your fault." he explained in a hushed tone moving his hand up to stroke my hair, "I know that it hurts." I heard him sniffle and that only hurt me more knowing he was hurting, "But, I'm right here with you and we're going to be here for each other okay?"

His reassuring tone, his words made me relieved because, he was here, "Okay." I breathed, turning myself to push my face into his chest to inhale his scent.

He kissed the top of my head while I tried to calm my racing thoughts, "I'm right here for you." he rubbed my back and I melted into him.

I as always believed him.

"Are you okay?" he asked, for almost the millionth time this morning and I smiled with a light nod.

"Yes I'm okay." I said softly, grabbing his hand to make him sit on our bed in front of me, he eyed me warily, "I'm a little tired still but, I'm fine." I reached up to cup his face with my palm, "How are you?"

He sighed, closing his eyes and leaning into my touch, "I was so worried about you and then when Paul said those words I didn't think that anything could be worse than dying." he stated.

When he opened them his orbs were filled to the brim with tears and I noticed bags he had underneath his eyes. He was frowning with pain written all over his features. I didn't know what to say but, I understood how he felt.

"This is going to be really hard for the both of us." I murmured, "But, like you told me this morning we're here for each other, I'm here for you." I swiped both of his cheeks with my thumbs when some tears trailed down, "And we still have two pups to think about right?" I forced a smile, thought's of my pup that wasn't with us surfacing.

He smiled tightly and leaned down to kiss my lips softly. He put hidden passion behind it and I'm sure that this kiss was our saddest one yet. But, it let me know that he was here, that he loved me. When he pulled away he leaned his forehead against mine. Our eyes locked on one another's as he placed his hand against my belly.

Then he looked between us at it with a hint of happiness in his eyes, "I'm so happy two of them made it." he grinned sadly, running his hand along my belly and I smiled.

"Me too." I whispered.

Suddenly the house was filled with a chime throughout the walls from the doorbell. I looked up at him curiously. He smiled a little, gesturing for me to stay put. Landon also didn't want me up and about just yet so now I was anxious. It took only about a minute for him to come back upstairs but, he had company with him.

It was Jacob, when I seen his face it was as if all of my sadness came back. He was smiling sadly walking over to me and giving me a tight hug. It was gentle filled with how sorry he was for me. I let a few tears stream down loving the comfort that he was bringing me.

When he pulled away he met my eyes, "I'm so sorry that this happened." he frowned, somber in his tone and I finally noticed Genevieve was also here.

So was Audrey who was hugging Landon right now, I felt how sad he was from here. I pulled my gaze back to him and softly smiled.

"Thank you." I mumbled, looking down at my belly, "But, at least two of them are here." I felt Genevieve come closer and lay a comforting hand on my shoulder.

The air was filled with a thick sadness and everyone knew it. Comforting energy moved around the room and when Jacob got up to talk to Landon. Audrey hugged me and that about made me break. She had always brought me a sense of safety since I met her just like a mother would. And having her coconut scent wrapped around me made me feel a type of way.

After she pulled away I sniffled, noticing Dawn wasn't here, "Where's Dawn?" I asked, trying to lighten everything up.

"We told her to wait downstairs we didn't know if you'd be up to seeing her." Jacob smiled tenderly and I frowned but, loved that he was being so cautious around me.

Landon came to stand next to me as our wolves wanted to be extra close right now. Mia hasn't even spoken a word since what happened and I was so sad about that. Jake would try to talk to her but, she wouldn't reply, I felt how sad that made him. I hoped that she wouldn't shut down but, I just knew deep down she needed time.

"Could you bring her up?" I questioned, really just needing to see some joy in this room right now.

A few seconds later I heard little patters on the floor and Dawn burst into the room with a big grin on her face. She ran up to me and I swooped her up from underneath her arms to hold against me. She fixed herself on my lap and wrapped her arms around my neck. I smiled, rubbing her back up and down, glancing around to meet Jacob and Genevieve's eyes.

"Hi aut lay!" she greeted, pulling away and I cupped the side of her face.

"Hey sweetheart." her eyes looked up beside me to meet Landon's and she smiled waving her hand.

"Hi unc." I laughed at the way she pronounced it, Landon laughed as well, "What?" she asked, clearly confused at the small laughter that was now going around.

"Hey darling." Landon smiled and I stared at him for a while, realizing that I would in fact get to see him be a father.

When he caught me smiling he gave me a sly wink and I felt heat rush to my cheeks. Then I looked back to Dawn who had a strand of my hair between her tiny fingers. Something about seeing her little face brought me a sense of serenity. She scooted back to press her tiny hands against my bump.

"Pups like mom?" she asked, a smile on her face and her brown eyes shining bright.

I nodded, "Yeah." I replied and she clapped her hands together, "Pups like mom." I glanced to Genevieve and her belly with a small smile that she returned.

Landon placed his hand on my shoulder for comfort and I couldn't be anymore grateful that he was here for me, he always would be. After a while Jacob, Genevieve and Dawn had left making sure to give Landon and I lots of hugs. I know how much they wanted us to feel their support and love, I could tell how much Landon appreciated it a lot just as I did. Audrey had stood behind to talk with Landon and I, which I thought was very sweet.

"How are you feeling?" she questioned with somber in her tone as Landon scooted closer to me for stability.

"It hurts." I breathed, "It's like I lost this small part of me but, I know that I should be grateful because, I still have two of them." I explained, feeling my eyes well up and she grabbed my hand in hers, grabbing Landon's with the other.

Our pain was clashing together violently.

"You have every right to be sad, you both do." she glanced from me to Landon who had his head down, "You lost one and that will always hurt no matter if two survived." she reassured us with truth to her words, "Before I had Landon, I had miscarried and I couldn't even think of having another but, I'm glad I did." she smiled warmly and my heart hurt for her at the new information, Landon looked up in surprise.

"It will take time to adjust." her hand left mine to come up to wipe away a tear that fell, "And you'll always, always think about him but, even if he's not with you he will always be right here." she pointed to my heart with her hand and pointed to Landon's with her other, "What will help you a lot is that you have each other."

Her words had caused a flood to come down my face and Landon had immediately scooped me up into his arms. They made me feel safe, protected and as if he could take away all my pain. At some point Audrey had left us alone to comfort one another. I didn't know how long I sat in his arms crying but, I did know he cried with me. The fact that two of our pups were alive was a major relief. But, the fact that one wasn't tore us both apart.

One thing though that I was also relieved about was that I didn't have to worry about the consequence anymore but, I did hate it.