The moment I got up to use the restroom, I knew something was wrong. I felt it in my heart and I just knew. Especially when my eyes caught sight of blood dripping down my legs before I got in. I shut the door in a hurry and pulled down my underwear to see they were covered in blood. A million thoughts must have ran through my mind during this moment and all of them striked fear. My eyes watered as painful cramps hit me.

Whimpers broke through my lips and I collapsed to the ground. I didn't understand why this was happening and why it was happening now.

"Layla, love open the door for me." I heard Landon call, hearing his voice only broke my heart at what's happening.

"I'm so sorry Landon." I sobbed, wiping some blood from my legs and shakily bringing it up to eye it with fear.

"Why are you sorry just open the door." his voice was instilled with concern, "At least make sure you're away from the door because, I'm coming in."

The door busted open but, wasn't enough to pull me from the shock I seemed to be in. My eyes caught sight of a blood trail on the tiled floor as I moved my eyes up to meet his. They were wide with alarm, scanning the bloody area around my short nightgown.

"I'm sorry." I cried, feeling the tears flooding down my cheeks.

He seemed like he didn't know what to say and he cautiously stepped toward me, "Fuck love, no." he kneeled down beside me and cupped my face to wipe away my frantic tears.

I felt myself hyperventilating, "Why is there so much blood Landon?" I questioned, my vision blurring with more tears, catching sight of the blood on my legs, "There's so much." I whispered.

"I don't know, oh my god." he moved his hands from my face and slipped them underneath my legs and one around my back, "I'm going to mind link Paul, until then I'm taking you to him right now." his voice was fading away as I held my belly.

I didn't want them to leave me, I thought I was perfectly healthy. Every appointment Paul has told me that I was fine and doing good. Now I was bleeding and in pain, that I could only connect to the pups. Mia had once again gone silent but, I couldn't focus on her only on my pups.

"You'll be okay, don't worry." he whispered, my skin felt the cold night of the wind as he had stepped outside.

The arm I had around his neck securely held onto him as he started to jog a little. My other hand moved to his shirt to hold in a tight grip for comfort. I whimpered when the pain only increased causing cries to slip past my lips.

"I've got you love." he ran faster at the sounds of my distress and I could feel his as well.

I glanced up at the sky that was making loud noises, grey and black meshing together. It was starting to become filled with dark clouds until small pelts of rain started to fall. Soon it drenched us both just as Landon had finally made it to the pack house. He rushed through, slamming the door open. I watched our route ahead through blurry vision from my tears.

When we reached the doctors office, no one was here. But, almost as soon as he set my aching body down onto the bed. Nurses and doctors started to file in, they were all still in their sleep ware, yet got right to it.

"What's going on?" Paul questioned, coming straight over to my side.

"I don't know she was bleeding when I found her in the bathroom." I heard Landon speak urgently and I yelled out in agony, clutching onto my belly when a sharp pain went through me.

I could faintly hear the thunder roaring outside the walls, hitting against the roof chaotically. Mixed in with my painful screams it wasn't the most ideal sound for anyone to hear. Landon rushed to my side and grabbed my hand in his, I gripped it tightly. The comfort I felt from it already trying to consume the pain I was feeling.

"Do something." he growled at Paul and the surrounding nurses.

"Will give her some antibiotics and then perform an ultrasound to check on the pups." he moved over to me with an iv one of the nurses wheeled over to him, before finding a vein to stick it into.

I hissed in pain at the slight pinch, making Landon growl, "Landon." I breathed, gripping his hand in mine, "It hurts." his eyes bore into mine with concern and sadness.

"I know love but, this should take the pain away okay?" he assured me with a small smile and smoothed down my damp hair from the rain, "Everything will be alright." he leaned down to press a soft kiss against my head.

Which only made more hot tears slide down my face, "I'm sorry." I whispered, "I thought I could do this." I breathed and he pulled away to look me in the eyes.

He shook his head, "No." he stated, "Don't you dare say sorry, nothing's wrong." he firmly finished, glancing to a nurse who was lifting up my nightgown.

Just my luck it would be Rachel, her eyes widen with alarm, "Can you, uh tell me where it hurts?" she asked hesitantly.

"My abdomen and my back hurts." I groaned as yet another wave of pain crashed into my already aching body.

"Why isn't the medicine you gave her working?" I heard Landon question with venom in his voice but, I could feel how scared he actually was.

Paul moved swiftly to take Rachel's spot, starting to feel around certain spots of my belly, "I-I'm not sure." Rachel stuttered, moving over to the iv.

The thunder outside rumbled and cracked with the fitful rain against the house. Sharp wind had also picked up, blowing through the trees outside. I could feel myself breathing heavier and heavier by the second. Landon was gripping onto my hand, stroking my hair with the other. Until Paul had locked eyes with me and his were filled with sorrow.

"What?" I asked, a sob breaking through, "Is it bad?" I felt fresh tears well up in my eyes.

His voice wavered, "We can keep giving her antibiotics but, I'm so sorry it seems she may be miscarrying."

I sucked in a huge breath at the words that fell from his mouth. Before letting it out with the violent sobs that accompanied it. Landon's hand on mine loosened and he cupped my face to make me look at him. His hazel eyes were wide with unshed tears, the pain he felt, the pain I felt was crashing together.

"It's okay baby, it's okay." he repeated these words over but, they didn't fill the ache in my chest with hope, "Just look at me okay?" he questioned and I couldn't stop my endless amount of tears from falling.

"I can't." I closed my eyes, my body being consumed by this unimaginable pain, "I can't."

All I could think about was how much I already loved my pups. How much I was ready to meet them and be a mother to them. How excited I was for Landon to be a father. Now that was all just, a picture of an already destroyed frame. I didn't want them to die, I didn't want them to leave us.

We had already come so far and I couldn't believe that out of everything I've endured, I had to endure more. I didn't want too, I didn't want to feel the pain of losing them. It was all too much, a couple months ago I almost lost Landon now I'm losing my pups for real. In this moment I realized what was happening, it was the consequence and that's what made me break even more.

"Layla, open your eyes." I slowly peeled my eyes open, moving my hands to cup his hands that were on my cheeks.

For the first time I noticed just how heartbroken he looked because of me. His hair was damp from the rain and his once bright hazel eyes were dark with pain. They were wide with fear and I watched a lone tear slide down his cheek. I reached up to swipe it away as my sobs quieted down but, I don't think my pain ever would.

"I'm so sorry." I repeated, "I seen how well everyone else handled their pregnancy's before but, I guess just a ru-"

"Hey." he shook his head, managing to make another tear fall which I caught to wipe away, "You're not just a runt, didn't I tell you to never say that?" he let out a small laugh but, it wasn't light hearted it was full of pain, "You're still perfect and I love you." he smiled through it for me.

"I love yo-" I was cut off by my own ear pitching scream.

My abdomen was on fire with pain, it ached and so did my back. I moved out of Landon's embrace to curl up, wrapping my arms around my belly. I whimpered, squeezing my eyes shut and crying out knowing that my pups were one step closer to death.

"Their dying Landon." I sobbed, through the pain and he looked in distress.

"Isn't there something you can do?" Landon asked with an edge to his tone, like he could break at any moment.

"I'm sorry alpha but, their already gone and she's not far along enough to get them out surgically." he explained, his voice dripping with fear.

I groaned and clutched my belly where I knew my little boys and girl were. I hope that they knew I loved them so much. And that I never wanted this to happen when I begged the moon goddess to give me back Landon that day.

"At least do something about her being in pain." he growled, his hands pushing away my hair that fell over my face, "And someone get me a fucking blanket she's shaking." he yelled in anger, my mind not even registering how badly I was actually shaking.

I hope that my pups knew they would have had such loving parents and grew up in a family where they were loved. Where they could be anything they wanted, do anything they wanted.

"This is anesthesia, we're going to double her dosage so she can sleep through the pain." he grabbed my hand from my belly with my reluctancy and took the previous iv out for the new one.

Before I fell asleep, the last thing I thought about was; I hope that they knew how much Landon and I wanted to be their parents.

How much I will always love them.