[Adam POV]

Why is it my heart aches, and I'm not feeling so good today?

Is there something happening to Nea?

The last time I check she's doing good, not great, but good because she's busy with studies and her quickie jobs.

The boys, Sara and Leia always say that I should give in and don't do anything stupid that will cost me, like losing her. I know that I don't want to lose her too, but I want her to fight for me. Say that she wanted me like how I wanted her. I wanted her so bad that I'm easily hurt when she pushed me away. I know its ridiculous to feel jealous of Luke, but I can't help it.

"There's a girl looking for William just now, she looks nervous and almost trips herself just by standing at the door just now. She must've had a crush on William, can you believe it, William." Emily yells from the living room.

She's currently visiting for a while, as she's waiting for her fiance who's in a business meeting. She's pregnant for 3 months already, but she still looks the same as before. When she appeared out of the blue after the boys went out this morning, I was surprised. But when her fiancé came in view, I became to relax and he just left an hour ago to his meeting.

"William got a lot of crushes, just so you know," I yell back and I heard Emily laugh loudly.

I shake my head a few times as I unlock my iPhone. Nea's smiling face popped out as my phone wallpaper. I had taken this secretly when she's looking at the view when we're at our secret place awhile back in spring.

I miss her, so damn much. I know I'm being stupid and stubborn now, but I want her to find me. And by the words from the boys and Sara, Nea is trying hard to reach out to me. I'll just wait for her patiently until she comes to me.

I'll wait for you patiently, Nea.

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I heard the front door opens and I walk out to the living room. The boys and Sara are laughing and are holding a balloon and a few foods. I look at them weirdly and they smile brightly.

"What happens? Is there a special occasion?" I crossed my arms and I pointed to the balloons and the foods.

Sara and the boys look confused. Then Emily got out of the bathroom and she greets them happily. I can see a different expression on each of them. I jump in front of Emily when Sara tries to attack her, but damn Sara is strong.

"Wait! It's not what you're thinking, seriously Sara cut it out!" I stopped her raging.

"Then what is happening? Tell us, Adam." Alex sounded angry.

"What is she doing here?" Lucas and Noah ask coldly.

"Where's Nea?" William spoke as his eyes wander around. I put a hand up as I explain to them.

"She's visiting only for a few hours until her fiancé comes back from a business meeting, besides look *pointing to her baby bump that shows a bit* she's 3 months pregnant." Sara and the boys look at Emily who's hiding behind me. She then comes out a bit to show her baby bump.

"Is she here when Nea came?" Sara looks at me straight in the eye.

"Wait, for what? No, Nea didn't come, at all." My heart began to race and I feeling uneasy.

"No way. Nea came here this afternoon, looking for you. We even get out of here because she wanted to have a private time with you." Alex tries to make sure of it as Noah, Lucas and William nod agreeing.

"The only one who came is a girl, looking for William, isn't it?" I look at Emily and she nods.

"But, she did look surprised to see me and she trembles a lot," Emily said as she remembers.

"How did she look like?" I ask urgently.

"She's fair and her hair was let down. She wears a big white hoodie and she wears spectacles" Emily explains and my heart skips a beat.

I quickly unlock my phone as I show her Nea's picture and her eyes widen, "This is she! Oh my god, Adam. I'm so sorry!" Emily covers her mouth with her hand as she started to cry, her pregnancy mood swings cause it.

My head throbbed and my heart aches. Sara and Lucas shake me out of my daze, "Go and find her Adam!"

I run out of the house and look for her everywhere. The boys and Sara helped me to find Nea too. Emily decided to wait for her fiancé in a nearby coffee shop as she keeps on apologizing. I couldn't care for her words anymore as my head only consists of Nea.

My memories of her replays automatically as I run frantically tries to find her everywhere. I went to her dorm first and I quickly go to her room only to find Kris puzzled face when I barged in. Kris looks at me and her eyes turn sad, "She's gone, Adam."

My heart stopped and I look at Kris, "Wh..what are you saying?"

Kris pointed to Nea's side "Look! Not a single thing of her belongings are there. When I come back, she's already gone."

"No. No. No! She wouldn't.." I shake my head profusely and my tears fall continuously as I ran to find her everywhere in the University.

I found Luke who's currently laughing with his friends and I walk up to him, "Nea... Nea's missing."

Luke's eyes turn frantic and he pulls me away, "What do you mean???"

"I went to her dorm, all of her belongings are gone. She didn't pick up my calls or even replying text." I said desperately as I hold my head trying to remember anything or anyplace she could possibly be.

Luke let out a gasp and he quickly went to find Nea. It's been an hour we've run around to find Nea. A call goes through my phone and I pick it up not looking at the caller id, "Nea??!"

"No, it's Sara. Come home, Adam. There's something for you." Sara's voice sounds sad and I quickly ran back home, as fast as I could together with Luke.

The door's open wide as soon as I come back and Luke follow suit. The boys and Sara are sitting on the couch as they all are staring at the white envelope on the coffee table. I look at the white envelope and there's familiar handwriting with my name on it.

I shake my head and I look at Sara who's now crying in Lucas's arm and the boys are all looking gloomy. Luke falls to his knee as he looks at the white envelope and he keeps muttering, "No, it can't be."

I sigh as I open the envelope slowly and my heart stops when I see a letter with her handwriting all over it. My tears start to drops without any hints to stops. I read silently.

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Dear Adam,

I'm sorry for everything. I wanted to open up to you, lots of time, honestly. But, my mind and heart contradicts each time and makes me avoid it. I know I hurt you when you asked me if I trust you or not, I wanted to tell you that I trust you, but it's me, myself that I don't trust.

The root of the problems lies with me, not you Adam. I don't know how can I open up and talk to you about everything, but one thing for sure you have the power to make me open up to you unconsciously. I am glad I married you because I gain a lot of kind and nice people around me. All because of you.

You always make me happy, but I always make you unhappy. Do you see it? Everything started with me. I'm sorry Adam, I'm not running away because I wanted to, but I have to. Bella asks me to fight for you, like how you fight for me. I try to but I guess I'm too late.

It's okay because I want to see you happy, even though I'm not the one that makes you happy. I'll always pray for your happiness, be happy my baby hubby.

Thank you for everything, and I love you from the bottom of my heart.

Sincerely your forever baby wifey,

Nea Aryn Clark.

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There's something inside the envelope and I pull it out. The necklace and our wedding ring are shining in my hand and I start sobbing. All I know is that I've been crying like a child. Yes, I am a stupid human being, stands for my stubborn and how I wanted her to come to me. I should have gone to her like usual when I know she wanted to do the same. Now she's gone, my heartbroken to pieces as I sobs.

I can see the boys started crying and Luke also shed tears as they look at my state. Sara is trying to calm me down with Alex on my other side. I didn't realize how long did I cry until I passed out that day.

I'm so sorry baby, Please come back. I'll wait for you, please come back to me.

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