"What are you doing?" He repeated himself, he was shirtless, sweaty and his hair was damp. He looked like he ran all the way to my house. "Emily," he called my name, sounding calm and angry at the same time.

Charlie looked down at me and I glared at him. Why the hell did he have to kiss me? And I was just about to shove him when Adrian walked in.

I looked back at Adrian standing near the door, tight jaw, clenched fists, gun metal eyes looking back and forth between Charlie and I.

"Okay." He shut his eyes and ran a hand through his damp hair, "I'll ask one more time, what the hell were you just doing?" He asked, raising his tone a little.

I felt a tear roll down my cheek and something grip my throat. I knew I couldn't explain it and even if I could, he wouldn't believe me.

"What exactly did it look like? Bro." Charlie smirked.

Oh my God.

"Motherfucker!" Adrian took long strides towards us, fisting Charlie's collar t-shirt and slamming him against the wall so hard I jumped, Charlie pushed him back but Adrian came back with a punch to his jaw, he was about to punch him again but I quickly slipped in-between them and his fist ceased in the air.

He looked at me with a pained expression, his jaw twitched and his fist tightened, making his knuckles look white. He released Charlie, shoving him away and cupped my jaw, tilting my head up to meet his eyes but ended up looking elsewhere before meeting my eyes glancingly, his look was so cold I felt shivers on the back of my neck.

"Let go of her." I heard Charlie speak behind me.

"Did you fuck him?" Asked Adrian, ignoring Charlie. I squinted my eyes at him.

"Excuse me?"

"Did you fuck him! Emily, yes or no?" He growled, his eyes getting colder by the second.

"No." A sob escaped my lips and he retrieved his hand from my jaw.

"Jesus Christ, you psychopath." Said Charlie walking around me to get out of the room but Adrian stood in front of him.

"You're dead meat, Morrison, I swear to God, I'm gonna fucking kill you with my bare hands." He said through gritted teeth, sounding determined.

Charlie didn't respond, he just walked passed him and left the room.

Now it was just us.

I stepped closer to him but he took a few steps back, running a hand through his hair, running a hand down his face and then bringing his hand to his chest and started beating it against his chest, "You're making it worse." he leaned his forehead against the wall, shutting his eyes and hitting his forehead against it, once, twice, three times. like he was in some kind of pain.

"Making what wor-"

"Were you going to fuck him then?" He asked, his head still pressed to the wall.

"No. Never." I shook my head, tears pricking my eyes.

He rolled himself over on the wall so he was leaning his back against it and looking at me, "Am I a bad boyfriend?"

"No."

"Bad kisser?"

"Adrian."

"Horrible friend?"

"Don't be ridiculous." I rolled my eyes.

"What is it then? What could have possibly made you kiss him?" He asked.

"I-" I paused.

"You what?"

"I thought he was you." I blurted out the most horrible lie which was much worse that the truth. I hoped he didn't hear me but judging by the look he was giving me, he did hear me.

He laughed, a very long sarcastic laugh, looking elsewhere and shaking his head at me like my words disappointed him.

"What is this? Another romantic movie for you?" He looked at me.

"No, Adrian, he was just saying these things me and then he said he loved me and then-"

"He said he loved you and you kissed him." It wasn't a question, "Wow, I've heard enough. I'm going home now." He pushed off the wall and started walking out.

"Adrian, wait, listen-"

"No you listen, Emily." He walked back to me, standing so close I had to stumble back. "I didn't sign up for this shit. I was cool with screwing whoever I wanted, whenever I wanted, I didn't ask for a fucking relationship with you and when I did get into this relationship, I never signed up for shit like love and I definitely did not sign up to see you making out with that asshole behind my fucking back and I didn't sign up for any fucking heartbreaks, okay?" He shouted angrily. More teared welled up in my eyes.

"I'm sorry." Was all I could say.

"Sorry? It's not a magic eraser, Emily, it's just a word that can't help me tear the image of you and him out of my fucking brain." He tried to walk away again but I held onto his arm.

"Let's just talk about it, Adrian." I pleaded. He paused, looking everywhere but at me.

"I fucking liked you, Emily." He met my eyes, his tone low and husky. "You have no idea how much I liked you." I could see actual pain in his eyes.

"Liked? Why passed tense?" I asked in a brittle tone, I didn't want to hear his response.

"Why not passed tense? You're a lying little bitch and as of right now, you are fucking dead to me. so why not?" He looked me straight in the eye.

"Asshole." I shoved his chest, suddenly feeling angry. "You know what? Maybe that's the problem, maybe I don't wanna be with someone who's not capable of loving me or anything else for that matter. No wonder everyone at school thinks you're a heartless broken asshole cause guess what? you are!" I wiped my tears away.

He touched his knees then he had one hand on his chest again like he was having a heart attack or something. "Fucking coke." He mumbled.

"Are you okay?" I asked, he took a heavy breath.

"Heartless huh? That's what she really thinks of me. I always wondered but I guess I know now." He said it more to himself with a laugh, his hands still on his knees.

It wasn't what I thought about him but of course, I didn't tell him that.

"Cause why else would you not believe in love, You little shit." I said, he looked up at me almost immediately and scoffed.

"I do believe in love, you little shit." He repeated after me and stood up straight, "I'm just not in love with you." his eyes surveyed my body from head to toe.

My heart ached and broke into a million pieces, a rock sat at my throat and I failed to swallow while my vision became blurry with tears.

"Fuck you!" I banged my fist on his chest, he stumbled back a little as he looked to his side.

"But then again why would you care if I didn't love you back? You obviously have him to do it, right?" He looked at me.

"Selfish prick." I raised my hand to slap him but he held my hand before my palm could ever reach his cheek.

"I'm the selfish prick?" He shoved my hand away.

"Yes, you are. And I can't believe I let myself fall for someone like you." It came out of anger. He shut his eyes and I could see that my words stung him.

"Don't." He warned, shaking his head.

"Don't what?"

"Say something you might regret later." He said.

"I promise I won't, so here it goes." I crossed my arms over my chest. "I regret the day I decided to speak to you and I regret ever asking you to fake date me-"

"Emily..." He warned but I continued...

"I regret the first day you kissed me, I wish I never asked you to do that, I was drunk the first time we had sex and I'm glad I don't remember it, and yes.." I averted my eyes from his with a pause, "Charlie is a better kisser than you." I looked at his chest because I couldn't look into his eyes.

"Was this your plan all along?"

"Which part?"

"Make me fall for you and then go back to him in a second?"

"Yes, Adrian, it was part of my big master plan." I said sarcastically but I guess he didn't catch the sarcasm cause as soon as I said those words, he took one last look at me, and walked out without looking back.

The room turned silent and my words replayed in my head.

I regret the first day you kissed me.

I was drunk the first time we had sex.

"Why the hell would I say shit like that?" I asked myself and realized my stupid mistake a little too late.

Better kisser than you? Who was I kidding?

I decided to go after him for what it was worth, when I reached the bottom of the staircase, I spotted Haley and Charlie in my living room.

I rolled my eyes and rushed to the front door, opening it only to see his car speeding off on the street.

Fuck. My. Life.

He was gone.

I walked back to the living room, glaring at Haley.

"Your psycho boyfriend just threatened Charlie." She informed me.

And I hope he kills him for this.

"Did you call him?" I asked her.

"What?"

"Adrian, did you call him?"

"No, why would I do that?"

"Because you're a bitch." I walked towards her.

"Whoa, hey, calm down." Charlie stood to pull me back.

"And you, what the hell? Why did you kiss me?" I shoved him angrily.

"Why did you kiss me back?" He asked.

"I didn't! Why can't they understand. I didn't kiss you back." I raised my hands in the air.

"Emily, I was there. You did kiss me back." He pointed out.

"Asshole!"

"That's no excuse, sweetheart, and haven't you stopped to think that maybe you like both of them?" Asked Haley.

"Fuck off, Haley, and no I don't like both of them, I like- no, I love Adrian, what I feel for that guy can never compare to what I felt for Charlie and I'm not saying that I didn't love Charlie cause I did, maybe I always will because he was my first love but still, it doesn't measure up and y'all just ruined it for me." I said honestly.

"Or you just ruined it for yourself." She plastered a fake smile and her words got to me.

"You need to leave and probably never come back." I pointed to the front door.

"But-"

"I'll tell Montgomery to give you another tutor." I assured him.

"Emily, c'mon now." He whined and I almost killed him myself.

"You know, I was so naive to ever think that I could ever fit in with you guys. I thought I was your friend but all you did was use me for homework and shit like that. Then he dumped me and I talked to Adrian and little did I know that he would end up being... Everything my life wasn't when I was with you." I looked at Charlie.

"I never used you, Emily." He said.

Fact.

"Yeah but you did dump me like trash right when I needed you the most." I pointed out, "So please, Charlie, let this be the last time you try to ruin my life or my relationship with Adrian, cause honestly, you're starting to embarrass yourself." I knew my words were a little harsh but I honestly couldn't care less.

He nodded like saying I understand, Haley grabbed her stuff and walked out.

Charlie came to stand close to me, I took a step back, not because it affected me but because he disgusted me and just being that close to him made me feel like I was betraying Adrian all over again.

"You love him?" He asked.

"Yes." I nodded, wiping a tear falling down my cheek.

At that moment, I realized exactly what Adrian meant to me, he wasn't just a boyfriend I fucked and had fun with. He was my best friend, my person, hate to say soulmate even though it felt like it, hate to say I couldn't see myself living without him even though there was a time when I did live without him, he was no longer the quiet mysterious boy in headphones in the back seat of every classroom, he was Adrian Mackey, my favorite drug.

I finally realized what he meant by that even though it was a little too late.

"Okay, I'll leave you alone. For good this time." His tone sounded genuine and honest.

He also walked out and I was left behind in an empty house with a broken heart.

I leaned my back against the wall and slid to the floor.