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Shayan wanted to bring her little sister to my place and I really wasn't excited about the idea, I kinda like children but she was just a mini Shayan, she wasn't a regular five years old, she was just going to give me trouble like Shayan. I finally gave in to her coming and when she did I hoped she'd be nice.

"Are you hungry? Should we go to our room? " Shayan asked

"She can get her room if she wants to." I suggested, it was not like there wasn't enough room.

"No, thank you." she replied rudely and I gave her this what's wrong with you look while Shayan scolded her.

She mentioned something about the house being beautiful and when Shayan said it was mine she said it wasn't then stuck out her tongue at me. She was such a kid and I laughed at her childishness. I thanked her smiling and she said I shouldn't smile at her that she didn't like me and I just remembered Shayan.

My friend Carlos came over and I knew he and Shayan never got along but I don't know why.

"Shayan, how have you been?" he asked and she nodded, who nods to a question?

"You didn't tell me you were coming."

"Just decided to drop by. Do you have any food? I'm starving. "

"Why don't you drop by at the restaurant then? " she asked and I couldn't tell if it was out of pure innocence or?

And when I told Shayan to cook up something she said Shayan wasn't a maid. She might not be a maid but she'd was a wife and she had to do these things. They went to the kitchen together while Carlos and I talked.

When we started eating Carlos exclaimed drinking water and Evie started laughing. I had a feeling she did something to the food so I ate cautiously. Thankfully mine was okay. Carlos was screaming and jumping trying to soothe the spice drinking enough water. He might be my friend but it was funny. Even when I asked her she admitted to it like it was no big deal and when I told her to apologize she stubbornly refused. The girl was stubborn than Shayan, her parents shouldn't have allowed them to spend more time together. I laughed a little when he left. It was so funny I couldn't keep it in despite how angry I was.

"That is not a way to treat guests. I wouldn't tolerate your behavior next time." o angrily said leaving the table.

Later Shayan came to request for a nanny and the helps to return. I've been seeing how she'd have to clean and cook after coming back home late. I had to say she's hardworking. The little girl came out of nowhere asking if Shayan was my maid when I refused to grant her request. I swear she acted like she was Shayan's guardian angel or something. They came back to the kitchen later and Evie invited me to watch a movie with them but I rudely declined and she looked a bit hurt before saying she just wanted to be polite. I later felt bad for talking to her that way and went upstairs with a box of chocolates as a peace offering, she assumed it was a bribe but later accepted it.

I stayed behind when the movie ended, I wanted to just be around her. We talked about Evie a bit and I just stared at her. Gosh, she's beautiful, I wanted to lean in and kiss her, even if it was just a goodnight kiss on the cheek, I just wanted to touch her but I know she wouldn't react well and it was too soon to show my emotions. Instead I bid her goodbye.

On the day my mom invited us to dinner looked stunning and I wanted to compliment her but I just appreciated her beauty from within taking her hands. I liked holding hands and waist, any small touch with her was like a dream come true. Immediately my mom saw her she started accusing Shayan of not feeding me and Shayan said nothing so I came to her defense saying she did which she does and when my mom suggested another girl for me to take care of me in all ways I nearly laughed, she didn't get that I just wanted Shayan.

"Mom, I'm married to Miss West here, I don't need any other woman." I had meant it when I said that. She was the one I wanted, despite being with other girls my heart craved her the most not just my body.

After dinner my mom wanted to talk to me privately and so I followed her.

"I don't like that girl and you know it. " my mom felt like it was Shayan that turned me to a manwhore which she thinks ruined my reputation making everyone know me as a playboy.

"I'm not telling you to like her, I don't like her either but Thai doesn't mean you should look for ways to get under her skin. You should ignore her like I do."

She also talked about telling the twins about the marriage. I know it'd hurt Tess who believes we're soulmates and I feel like she wouldn't speak to me again if she knew.

When Evie and I spent some time alone it was kind of fun, she didn't act her age most times and talked sensibly. It amazes me how someone so young could be that smart. I talked to her about some things going on in the company, it was just easy to talk to her, she gave some suggestions that were pretty nice and we got pretty close that day.

What I wasn't expecting the next morning was to have Evie jumping on my bed like it was a trampoline. I was mad, I was having a dream about Shayan and I which she ruined. If it was a dude I would have taken my frustration out on him but she was just a little kid. I started tickling her and she was laughing in seconds, her laugh was contagious and I joined in. She asked a question that threw me off guard which was. "Why don't you and Shayan sleep together?" she was really inquisitive, she asked a lot of questions she answers to.

I said nothing and she asked another question, "you don't like her do you? " if only she knew.

She made us breakfast and it made me think she wanted us to be together. She probably figured our marriage wasn't the usual types she's used to.

The next morning I had been waiting for Shayan downstairs there was no breakfast neither was there a Shayan. Angrily I went upstairs to her room wondering why she was late, I had an important meeting with a client this morning and I was going to leave her if she wasn't ready.

"West why the hell aren't you ready? " I angrily asked barging into the room only to see her still laying on the bed.

Didn't she know today was a work day? I observed her and she looked to be in discomfort, as if she was in pain. I walked closer to her and asked if she was alright.

"I'm fine, it's just my..." she stopped and I nearly chuckled

"Your period? " I asked and she nodded a little. She was just so cute. There wasn't a reason to be embarrassed about it.

"Is there anything you need? " I asked hoping to be of help.

"No, no I'm fine thanks for asking."

She tried sitting up and I saw how uncomfortable it was for her.

"You're on your period, I know you're not fine so don't pretend to be. " I know she had the worst cramps ever and wouldn't come to school sometimes because of it.

I left the room to the kitchen to get her something to eat and came back to find her on the floor. I carried her to the bed then fixed her bath before bringing her in. She took so long in the bath and I kept on knocking but she didn't answer me. When I walked in and I realized she had been sleeping and chuckled.

She was awake now and as I walked closer to her she got nervous. When I started washing her hair I noticed she sighed in relief. I admit I was tempted to touch her knowing she was naked under the water but I just wanted to tease her.

"You have a dirty mind West." I said smirking. "But if you're thinking of me touching you so much I just might grant you that."

"You wish, you're not going to be touching me at all Adrios. Let that sink into your head." she angrily said

I moved closer to her and whispered in her ear. "No it should sink into yours that I get what I want."

It was only a matter of time before I had her. She was still being stubborn playing hard to get but could she really hate me that much not to feel attracted to me?

I didn't want to leave her alone in distress but I had a lot scheduled for today and it would be worse since she wasn't going to be there so I had to leave and sent someone to watch her. I was so mad when I came back from work later that night. Things with the client didn't go well and he pulled out last minute and I kind of took the anger out on Shayan when I got home, I later felt bad for it, I tried apologizing but I couldn't get the words out.

I wanted to surprise Evie when she came back from her trip and decorated a room for her princess themed. I figured she was going to stay for a while and needed her own space. The look of surprise on both their faces made me contented.

The little argument we had in my office got her so mad. It was very quick to get under her skin and she was always quick to react but what I didn't expect was for her to throw a mug at me.

"Fvck you Adrios." she angrily said

"I already did West." I smirked saying. "And you were the worst of the worst an inexperienced virgin."

Surely u didn't mean what I said I just wanted to rile her up but her throwing a mug at me was out of line. I wouldn't really tag her as the best but it was lovely because there was love involved and the fact that she had given me her virginity to me made me feel special. When I asked her if she knew how much it hurt when she threw the mug at me she angrily replied saying. "I don't give a damn Adrios cause it's not a teeny bit up to the pain you caused me." she sounded like I broke her heart when reverse was the case.

She was the only girl I really loved and to find out all those things about her broke me and the fact that she always denies it was annoying. She's the reason why I couldn't let any girl close because I never got over her, she was all that I thought of. She left after our argument and few hours later Maria called me that Shayan hadn't been out of the bathroom since she came. I was really scared and worried about her and I realized I cared about her more than thought. I rushed home and kept on knocking and it didn't open. I thought of many bad scenarios that could have happened and I was so relieved to see that she was just sleeping and then I was slightly mad. My thoughts have been going in all directions and she was just sleeping. I don't even understand how she took comfort in sleeping in the bathroom. I said a lot of things I shouldn't have said and just hurt her feelings more and I really didn't like that. I wanted her to like me not hate me more. I even apologized to her but she said nothing even though I knew she was awake.

The next morning she got sick like I predicted and I decided to skip work to take care of her, something I've never done for anyone. My time and work was very important to me but now that she's in it she's more important than that. I just hope that we move past this anger and hatred towards each other. I took care of her in every way I could send she kept on resisting my help even though she needed it. I knew she was grateful for me being there but she never said it.

On the day we went to the zoo I was really excited, it's been long I came out and saw the world beyond my office. When we got to the rollercoaster ride I was surprised to know that Shayan was still scared of heights, it was really funny. Even Evie wasn't scared while Shayan kept on screaming in fright. And when I was trying to win the teddy for Evie and told her to encourage me I was surprised she did and her called me babe literally set my head on fire and when I told her she was my prize I meant it. She was the only one I wanted now, I want to make things right for us that's why I was doing everything I could to make it up to her.

On Saturday, the day of the charity event when she came back from the spa she did something to her hair despite the fact that I told her not to. She even added hair extensions and straightened it. It looked good but I didn't like it that way and when I made a comment about it she threw a fit. It's like she just waits for me to open my mouth then starts to attack me. She has the weirdest temper. She gets mad at me easily whether I'm right or wrong and she's the most stubborn female I've ever met. I told Tasha the hair stylist to get rid of what she did. I knew she was going to be mad at me but then the deed would have already been done. Surprisingly she wasn't as mad as I expected.

It was cute to see her jealous when I was talking to Maggie but what I didn't expect was for her to go and meet Jason who was my ex best friend. The guy Shayan slept with so you can imagine my anger when I saw them talking. He even gave her his card hoping they can rekindle their romance but I wasn't going to allow that. She just walked away and I threatened him badly. I wouldn't hesitate to beat him up again if I had to.

Few minutes later I saw her coming out of the restroom adjusting her clothes. What happened in there? I was expecting to see Jason but instead saw Carlos. So she was doing this for revenge, trying to get my current best friend?

"What's going on here? " I angrily asked

"Well your bìtch here groped me in the bathroom and when I refused to play with her she kicked me in the groin." Carlos answered

"That's a lie." Shayan spoke up

Gosh I was so mad, I wanted to hit something, instead I took her hand and we left. Immediately we got home we said all the things we couldn't say in public. She kept on saying she was innocent of the claim, kept on insisting she didn't do it but why will Carlos say that out of the blue? He couldn't just accuse her like that but then I wasn't really convinced she did it. After the argument I resolved to drinking.

I woke up to Shayan cleaning the mess I made. We still had a little argument and when she said "I didn't do it, why would I want to rape a man much less Carlos. He was the one touching me and I only kicked him because of the lie he told you." the sincerity and vulnerability in her tone made me believe her and realize just how stupid I am. How on earth would she rape a guy, why would she even do that?

The bell rang and when she opened the door it was Carlos. She slammed the door on him the first time and when she opened it the second time he called her a bîtch pulling her hair. I wonder what his problem with her was, they both hate each other.

"I would leave her hair if I were you Carlos." I angrily said, he has no right to come over to my house, call my wife a bìtch and then pull her hair like it was a fûcking dog's leash. My wife shouldn't be treated like that.

I was mad at him but Shayan's anger, I've never seen anything like that. Carlos kept on trying to make it seem like Shayan was at fault and Shayan wasn't going to listen to anything. She threw a glass at him and missed me and I think that fueled her anger more along within calling her a psycho. I tried stopping her when she grabbed a bottle but wasn't fast enough, she threw it at him and it brushed his arm, the glass flying around the room. I haven't seen her like that before. She looked ready to kill and could possibly kill him but I get her anger. He tried raping her and still lies that she's the one that tried to. U can understand how she feels now, especially with me not believing her. I was supposed to be her husband but I didn't even trust her, not a bit. It was very bad of me and I felt like very guilty. I just gave her more reason to hate me. I just have to learn to trust her, I don't know if we're going to be like the way we were before but I was willing to try and so I started with an apology when he left.

"For? " she asked when I apologized

"Not trusting you, believing Carlos over you.." I listed stroking her hair gently. " I'm sorry. "

"I can't just forgive you Adrios." she angrily said, I knew it wouldn't be easy. "I told you all the things he did to me still yet you didn't believe me. Did you know how I felt when he touched me, do you know how disgusting and dirty I felt? You didn't trust me at all Kel, this was attempted rape, what if he had had his way, is that what it would have taken for you to believe me?" she sounded so hurt and I understood the gravity of my mistake.

I was the biggest fool for trusting Carlos words over hers. Hearing her talk about how he touched her made me mad at him and most especially myself and when she said "You didn't trust me at all Kel" that broke me. Like she was expecting me to but I just let her down and hearing that broke my heart. Hearing her say my name after so many years did something to my heart, it made me truly happy although I didn't like the circumstances at which she said it. Personally I had imagined she would say it when I finally get to kiss her or when we were having sex.

I had my bath and came down to her making lunch for me. I placed my hand around her and she screamed my name surprised.

"Gosh, I've missed hearing you say my name and when you did it gladdened my heart. There was this joy and I realized I missed it." I confessed and she smiled.

"Maybe I'd say your name often now." she said

"I'd like that." I replied smiling. I like the way we were not. I want to get to know her more, to see past her stubbornness and anger because I know deep down there's a girl that loves and cares and I wanted that. I want her to let go of every hatred she had of me because I was slowly letting go of mine. All I wanted was her, to make her happy, to make her love me again, to win her back now, to be my wife.

After lunch I left home for Carlos's. I was going to give him a piece of my mind. Getting to his house I rang the doorbell and he opened the door gracefully.

"Kel bro, I knew you'd come to your senses." he happily said. Oh I came back to my senses alright.

I threw a punch at him, all my fury coming back. "What the hell dude. " he angrily asked. So he's angry?

"You fvcking lied against her that's what." I gave him another punch on the face.

"And why would I do that?" he angrily asked still feigning ignorance which boosted my anger.

"You ask me." I seriously needed to know, I raised my hand to punch him but he dodged it.

"She's not good for you dude." he said raising his voice.

"You don't get to decide who's good and who isn't." I said kicking him in the groin. She should have hit him there more, the nerves of the idiot, what does he think he is and who gave him the idea that he could decide who's good and who isn't?

"You don't get to decide who the fvck is good for me, it's none of your fvcking business." I said picking him him from the floor throwing several punches at him.

"You know what ? I've had enough of you Kel." he said wiping the blood from his mouth attempting a punch at me which I quickly dodged.

"And I'm done with you Carlos. You don't fvcking touch my girl, you of all people should know that." I picked him up punching him.

Soon we had started a brawl, punching and kicking each other in the face and anywhere that was available to hit. I for one wanted to give him broken nose and ribs. He already had a black eye and I'm sure I had one too. We continued punching each other angrily. How could he have tried doing that to Shayan? I directed all my anger at him hitting and throwing him around. How would he try that, she is my woman, my wife and no one else is allowed to look at her inappropriately much less touch her.