"Madden kissed me" Those words came out of mouth before I could stop them and Carter's eyes darkened, his features barely recognizable.

"He fucking what?" He asked while trying to calm his breaths. I gulped as he took a few steps forward until there was no reminding space between our chests.

"I'm so sorry!!! I-," I spat too quickly before being stopped by his hand around by throat. I didn't dare to move, with my back against the wall. His fingertips started to examine my lips and his black eyes followed their movement.

"Did you fucking love it? Did you stop him?" He questioned before tightening his hold on my throat and my eyes closed by themselves.

"Carter... stop! I pushed him away!!! I would've never kissed him! He came home last night and he wanted to "talk" to me... and then we were talking and all of sudden he did it." I promised after clenching my teeth while my eyes started burning. My statement made him take a step back.

"I will fucking kill him, Elle. I swear I will." He replied with his eyes closed as he dusted his hair.

"Carter!! Please don't! Don't hurt him! He's your brother and my friend!"I almost yelled as laughs came from downstairs.

"Brother or not he isn't allowed to touch my shit and he fucking knows it." He leaned on to whisper in my ear and a spark of shivers came to life momentarily. I hated the way he talked about me, like I was his plaything. He was always so possessive but he never proved me he really liked or cared about me. I was so confused and I couldn't continue following this pointless path.

A wave of anger welcomed me and before I could notice I pushed Carter hard, taking him off guard and making him stumble backwards.

"I'm not your plaything, Carter. How dare you reacting like that when you don't even give a damn about me? You told me you never date and are not interested in a serious relationship so why are you playing with my freaking feelings? Can't you stop this torture?" I whispered as a tear escaped my eye before I could blink it away. I knew my words surprised him when he narrowed his eyes before shaking his head.

"You think this isn't serious to me, Elle?" He asked with a painful look in his big eyes. Only a couple of times had I got through to the real Carter Knight, and this was one of the few times I actually might have hurt him. Carter took a few more steps away from me while still shaking his head as he looked as if he was fighting with himself. With his own and sinful demons dancing through his darkest thoughts.

"What is this to you then? if you obviously don't think it's a serious relationship. Because like it or not but this is fucking serious. Serious as it gets and if I ever find out someone has touched you again in anyway I disapprove, I will rip their dicks off and make them eat it... without regrets. You are my weakness." I was about to reply even though I had no clue what to say but before the words could form in my mouth he was always already walking out.

"Carter..." I voiced as I recognized Swim by Chase Atlantic bursting out from downstairs. I grabbed his hand after noticing he wasn't going to stop on his tracks.

"Elle" It was meant to be a whisper but it came as a warning.

"Please. Don't leave. We have to talk..." I begged while more tears had a strong urge to exit my eyes. Carter huffed before nodding and heading towards a bedroom. I followed him like his own shadow, scared he would change his mind and leave me without further explanations.

"You really changed my life Carter and you're one of the most amazing things that happened since my parents' death..." I added while Carter closed the door, the music fading away. He crossed his arms still not meeting my eyes. "I also don't want to pretend I don't care about you anymore because it would be a lie... and one of my biggest fears it's knowing my feelings aren't...mutual."

"What made you think I didn't care about you? That you weren't important? That I wouldn't kill and die for you? To be honest I wasn't ready for you... No one was." Carter finally added after clearing his throat and meeting my eyes.

"Why did you start bullying me Carter?" I added and took a few steps forward, ignoring the effect his previous words had done to me.

"I...I didn't want to fucking feel! I thought if.." he started before closing his eyes. "I thought if I pushed you away and treated you in that way you would stay away from me...and it fucking didn't work and I regret everything I did to you. I'm aware I don't deserve you Elle... and the worst is that I don't give a fuck because I can't imagine a world where you aren't the middle of it... a world where you aren't mine. " Carter announced and I finally gave up fighting my tears.

"Carter...I..."

"I'm scared Elle. I'm scared of losing you...my world is dark and people in it are always in danger...but I'm ready to take this chance and try everything with you. Well if you want to take that risk and I will always try to protect you,Elle. You just can't forget my world isn't a fairy tale, it's mostly a battlefield."

"Carter..." I repeated before hugging him hard. I was so relieved he finally opened up, I needed that. Honesty was one of the most important things in a relationship. I knew there were still a lot of things I needed to know but for tonight it was enough...

Carter started kissing my face while his fingers travelled all around my curves. " So... it means we're..." I cleared my throat to try to find the correct words.

"Dating? Yes. You've always been mine though...and I'm completely yours, Elle Taylors." He formalized as a big smile appeared in my face. A wave of euphoria made its way in my body and I started kissing Carter back, my hands grabbing his hair while he started taking my shirt off. Our touches became desperate as soon as our kisses dared to go further. I also knew he wasn't treating me like I was made of porcelain as soon as he pushed me in the bed. His eyes glued to my chest still covered by a red bra.

"Carter..."I said in a tone full of lust but was interrupted by someone knocking on the door, making me cover my chest instantly.

"Carter!! The the girls agreed for tomorrow so we are leaving tomorrow at 10am..." I recognized Sawyer's voice.

"Did you seriously disturb me for that? Are you fucking serious, Sawyer? Give me a reason why I shouldn't kick your fucking ass." He demanded after exhaling hard and I narrowed my eyes, what were they talking about? Did I miss an episode?

"Oh man huh...because you love me?" Saywer joked as I looked at Carter fulminating.

"Get. The. Fuck. Away. It's your fucking last warning. Next time you are only allowed to bother me if someone's dying." Carter ordered before taking his sweatshirt off. His stunning chest making me lick my lips before I could control it. Sawyer let another laugh escape his lips and I heard his footsteps showing us he left.

"What was he talking about?" I asked while scanning his face with my eyes.

"Tomorrow is Sawyer's birthday and he wants us to go to his vacation house, it's two hours from here. He wants to stay three days..."He announced and sat in the bed next to me. His hands started caressing my belly and I prayed not to melt.

"Oh! That's a good idea! I'm in!!" I nodded.

"We will be safer there too...Meanwhile Jason is still trying to find some things about the masked man." Carter explained and I completely agreed. My nan was still out of the town and I didn't want to be alone by myself so leaving Haverhill for a few days was probably the best choice. Carter's fingers were starting to torture me so I decided to straddle him and between kisses and caresses, I couldn't get enough of him, he was my purest heroin.

"Fuck...you're killing me." He roared with his eyelids closed.

"Carter...I want..." I started while his fingers took my bra off.

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