" Morning, Elle!!!" Lila shouted through the loud music as soon as I entered her brand new car.

"Hey! How was your weekend ?" I smiled at her as I tried hard not to let my mind wander on that previous menacing text.

She turned down the music and started ranting about how her weekend was, a weekend who could be summarized by long journeys of shopping. I nodded automatically at each word that escaped her lips while admiring the landscape until the school appeared in my sight.

" We have gym class together but I seriously need to pee first. Do you mind accompanying me ? Please!" Lila begged with puppy eyes, I really didn't want to be left alone in the middle of this jungle so I agreed and she took my hand between hers and made me follow her,

The bathroom was empty as I stared at my pale face. I looked like someone who had came from a grave. Lila was the contrary because she always looked fresh and the bright smile that seemed to be always following her matched perfectly with her whole vibe. Waves of joy always exited her being and I envied that.

I took a few deep breaths before entering in a toilet stall too. Lila was talking to me but as soon as we heard the bathroom's door open we ceased talking. I momentarily recognized the voices and it made me clench my fists.

" This bitch... I wanna fucking kill her! I was alone with Carter in this room and she had enter and bother us! He really wanted me! Fuck!" Billie snapped and my eyes widened. Billie was actually mad due to the fact I interrupted them. I frowned at her stupidity because why would I ever want to be left all by myself with Carter, my nemesis?

" Did I mention what happened on Saturday? I went to the supermarket to buy new shoes and do you know who I saw?" She shouted at the top of her lungs and I fought the urge to make an appearance and teach her some manners.

" huh... Carter?" One of her friends whispered with curiosity.

" No! It was Elle and guess what? She was talking to Madden! She was hugging him like a bitch in heat. I wanted to cut her throat, she is such a little slut. Why does she think she has a possibility with him? Or Carter ?" A laugh escaped Billie's mouth and her minions followed.

I wiped a silent tear as I remembered that Lila was hearing everything too. Billie hated me so she could be the one trying to scare me with the messages, right? And the person wearing the " Kiss me" mask?

" I know! Maybe she wanted to buy drugs. That's why she was with Madden." A friend of hers suggested innocently.

Drugs? What...

" He sells drugs but I don't think she would do them... dammit did you look at her ? but then again I didn't think she would be a little slut and try to steal the Knight's brothers away from me." Billie added and after a few seconds, I head the door closing shut and her voices faded away. After I took a minute to clear my composure, I exited my toilet stall and Lila followed too.

"ELLE... what and what and what happened? Saturday and Friday? Were you with Madden?" She questioned with an unexplainable urge in her tone.

I explained what had happened during the party while she was in the W.C. I also told her I had to go to the supermarket Saturday and that was how I met Madden. Sadness and disappointment covered her soft features. She was probably disappointed I had kept those secrets from her. I instantly felt bad because she was being honest and nice to me since the beginning and I couldn't reciprocate it. I knew I couldn't keep secrets but I also couldn't tell her what was happening in my life at that moment. My life was a playground too dangerous for everyone, mostly the few people I cared about.

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The gym was also occupied by the guys. I tried my best not to look at Carter and his friends but I could feel their eyes on me as the teachers mixed the teams.

" Hey hottie! Why don't you come over here, I heard you liked to be passed around." A blond haired guy joked and laughters erupted, this was so mortifying. I suspected Billie for their actions. She was probably the one who told the whole school that I was "pleasuring" Carter and Madden. People believed it and they didn't need proof anyway, when someone said something, even when it was coming from a liar's mouth, people believed it. They loved drama and they wanted their daily tea in order to have their dose of excitement in their boring lives of theirs.

Someone shielded my eyes with their strong but cold hand and I shivered. I couldn't see anything and blush heated my cheeks.

"Madden?" I smiled as a laugh escaped his lips. Madden bit my neck playfully and a moan escaped my mouth before I could stop it. Carter's brother chuckled and turned me to face him. This wouldn't probably help the rumors about me but in that exact moment, I didn't care. I knew that what I possessed with Madden was simply a friendship and I didn't have to justify my actions to anyone.

" How are you? " Madden said under his breath and I noticed the way he eyed me up and down. I was wearing shorts and an oversized shirt so I didn't know why he was looking at me like I was in a red tight dress. I looked like I had just woken up.

" Better now that I'm talking to you! Thank you! What about you? " I answered in a shy tone and looked at my surroundings. I noticed Lila with her thumbs up.

" Good. I was wondering would you like to—" Madden started after clearing his throat twice but a small guy patted on his shoulder and made him stop what he was about to say.

" Man... I need it now. Please. " His pupils were dilated and his eyes red. He was also shaking and seemed like he could barely stand.

" NOT NOW! Don't you see that I'm busy? " Madden whisper-shouted, making me take a few steps backs. Why was he suddenly so mad? And what did the small guy want?

Drugs.

It could be the only reason. I didn't believe Billie when she mentioned that he was selling drugs but in that right moment I actually didn't know what to think or believe anymore. Madden was too sweet to be selling devilish things. He wouldn't be that kind of person who made people addicted to poison, right?

" Madden... I'm not freaking kidding I need it. I can't breathe. " The redhead guy declared and wiped his nose a few times in a violent gesture.

" I don't fucking care!!! Leave now. " Madden replied with anger before focusing his attention back to me.

" Anyway Elle I wanted to-" Carter's twin voiced but my eyes were still staring at the little redhead. After a few uncountable seconds he headed in my direction but crashed into me, making me fall with his weight on top of me.

" Ouchh...are you ok? " I asked as he started gulping hard and rolled at my side so he wasn't crushing me.

" Hel... Help me!" He was now muttering and I noticed that he had started spitting white foam from his mouth.

" No! no ! Help! Call 911 please!." I shouted at the top of my lungs and . I kneeled without hesitating to hold his head.

" Elle don't !!!!, " I recognized Madden's voice but didn't even spare him a look.

" CALL THE AMBULANCE!!!! HE'S OVERDOASING!!" I declared with tears blurring my eyes.

Suddenly I pictured my parents in my thoughts, I couldn't let this young man die. Not in my arms. I had to save him, I had to do anything to help his situation. I couldn't change the past to save my parents but I could try to save this young man. I still had a hold in the present. This couldn't be his last breath.

Strong arms circled me and threw my body on his shoulder and frustration and anger conquered me and I started punching my captor.

" PUT ME DOWN!!!! I have to help him!" I bellowed and my eyes found Madden near the boy. I recognized the nurses that worked in our school besides the little boy.

" Carter? Let me go! Please! I can't let him die!" I tried to convince him but he didn't put me down, in the contrary he tightened his hold on me. I punched his back with my small fists with all the strength I possessed.

I closed my eyes to calm me down. Where was he taking me? As silence welcomed my ears I reopened my heavy and teary eyes.

The boys' locker room?

He finally put me down and I stared at him with fury. I tried to head toward the exit but he didn't let me as he blocked path with his arms.

" Are you deaf ? I told you to let me! " I shouted. I was down, I couldn't play his games anymore, I pushed him back but he didn't move as I excepted.

" Elle! Stop and calm down! You couldn't do anything! After what happened with your parents it's..." He whisper-yelled and ran his hand through his hair with an unexplainable frustration.

" You're funny. First you and your friends lie to everyone in this damn school by saying I was the one who murdered my family! Now you're saying it's bad to try to save someone?" I screamed and stabbed him with my finger, his breathing halted.

" I would never do something like that. Not to you, Elle."He admitted and made us switch of positions so my back was now against the door. His face was so close that I could almost taste his breath.

" I didn't say those things, but I know who did it... I will talk to her and take care of her." He promised in a growl and stared at me. Talk to her ? Who ?

Billie.

" What do you want from me Carter? I'm not your toy. I can't... " I whispered trying to hold back my tears but failed miserably.

" Shhh... come here." He hugged me and sat on a bench, making me lose my balance and fall on his lap.

" I'm so sorry for having overheard you. I didn't mean to... I'm so sorry! " I repeated as I cried all the tears I had left.

He gently took my chin between his fingers and licked my tears. A moan left my lips unintentionally.

" Carter... please." What was I begging for ? I didn't want him to stop but I also didn't want him to think he was forgiven.

" Relax...Forget everyone. It's just you and I." He kissed my throat, collarbone and cheeks, making me shiver in pleasure.

Just you and I.

Before I could comprehend what was going on, I straddled him, my legs circling his waist and I started to suck on his neck.

He took my face between his big hands and leaned towards me to kiss my lips. I knew we shouldn't, I knew I would regret but I didn't care in that moment. All I wanted was to kiss him to forget what had happened and to forget all the dark thoughts occupying my mind.

One of his hands touched my skin under my hoodie while his other one held me by my butt, without thinking I started moving my hips going back and forth, once, twice. After repeating my moves a few times I noticed a bulge on his pants. Our breaths marrying each other.

" Carter... I-"

" Don't let my brother touch you ever again. I don't share." He declared before pulling away and adjust his shorts who where too tight.

He finally left, leaving me alone with my thoughts.

Carter Knight is the owner of my first kiss.