Chapter Thirty One: Good Morning, Boyfriend.

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" I think we should get divorced." You said

Jungkook didn't know what to say, he was speechless and shocked and just stared at you trying to figure out if you were serious "... what are you saying. Y/N ?"

His eyes were giving a glare that was freezing your bones, like being nude in the middle of a hailstorm, where every chunk of ice was a frosted dagger cutting into your skin. You knew it wasn't anger or hate but you understand his confusion, Just a moment ago you were promising to love him and take care of him and now you're asking for divorce.

But there's one thing you'll never do............. break the promise.

" Jungkook...." You paused and looked down at the ring again biting your lips " I have been thinking of what you told me the other time. "

Jungkook with his black emotionless eyes said a after a long silence " I wish you'd tell me what you're thinking Y/N because what you're saying now somehow doesn't seem very good to me."

You chuckles, The chuckle that replies is that soft, rolling thunder that billows across the dark skies on a stormy night and it sure made the confusion inside Jungkook fade away.

She won't leave me. he told himself.

" beside the fact that I said I love you, What exactly makes you think I am here with you? ........and for you..... Well in other words, Do you believe I will even if i wasn't your wife ?"

The man just stared then hardly swallowed when he realizes that you were waiting for an answer " I don't know what to say." He said honestly, little words but enough to gave you a glow inside, His voice was like no ordinary voice, The low rumble of his voice is comforting as it carries you off to a world where sound is the power that could change everything wrong in the world.

You smiled " It's okay. I don't know too " your hands were frailty and caution, shaking gently as you reached for the hot coffee to take a sip then looked outside to the road " But the only thing I know, Is that I will keep my promise as long as I feel your love to me and I want you to believe that.........." you turned to look at his eyes, his beautiful eyes. I see it, I do. When you say that his eyes are beautiful, its the truth, for it's not about colors or shape, it's about the loving sweet essence that is so clearly there. " That I am with you because I love you as well, Not because of this......." You pointed with your chin to the ring that sat lonely at the table. " I want us to live like anyone else in love, wake up next to each other..... laugh together and even argue......... but sometimes.." you chuckled and looked down shyly not believing you're actually saying this, It was always hard for you to express your feeling but you found it so easy to talk to him " I want you to come back home knowing that I am there, not because I have to be there because I am your wife and that's where I live but because....... You know that I love you and I choose to wait for you. " You looked again at him only to have your heart skipping a beat of what you saw.

You could see a couple of tears forming in his eyes, the look gave you a warmth and safety. In that moment you found your home, your place to find company when the cold winds blew.

You watched as he looked away immediately embarrassed that he lost in emotions next to you, the man took a deep breath then reached for your hands " If that's the case, I'd gladly divorce you Miss Park."

You brightly smiled " And then maybe when day when you feel ready to start a family, you'd surprise me with a proposal."

He laughed " But seriously, next time when you're about to say beautiful stuff like that don't start your point with those awful words you said first, The thought of losing you is the biggest fear of my life. I don't want to even thnik about it, Deal?

" Deal." you laughed back. " Drink your coffee now, it will get cold."

" Alright." he smiled and pulled away to grab his coffee, you couldn't look away from him, the man was extra handsome, hot really even with the smallest things he do he has that effect on you, is it possible to be turn on watching a man sipping his coffee?

What?

WHAT?

The thoughts brought heat to your face, Jungkook noticed your cheeks that went suddenly became kissed pink like a spring rose, the blooming color so cute against your freckled skin. you looked away and finds a distraction at the outside world, suddenly the cars moving seemed interesting.

There's a kind of blushing that shows the soul, a sort of compliment to the eyes and the delicate sweetness within. It shows a connection, that the smile and shyness come from some deep emotion... and that's a beautiful thing, that's something real.

" Why are you blushing suddenly ? " He smirked when you jumped at his question " Oh your reaction tells me I am the reason....... Interesting."

" Don't be so full of yourself." You smirked back. two can play this game. " I just saw someone way hotter than you..."

" Oh ...." The man raised his eye brows then looked behind but there was no one and this made you laugh.

" I am sorry, that was harsh I guess..." you laughed

With that you two joked and enjoyed your coffee before going back to the car.

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It was around 9pm when you finally arrived home, Jungkook took you to a nice restaurant for dinner and then drove home.

" Ohh we're finally here...." He throw himself on the couch and closed his eyes.

You stood there awkwardly watching him not knowing what to do exactly but to stare at him.

"Am I that handsome that you can't stop staring" the handsome young man said making you roll your eyes.

" Is that a question ? "

" Not really....I know I am hot " he laughed then stood up walking toward you making your heart skip a beat as he walked closer and closer till he was right next to you, As he leant foreword your pulse raced. A small lock of hair tumbled in front of your face, resting just in front of your cheek, but with one swift slide of his thumb, it was brushed out of the way. Looking into his eyes you saw deep pools of brown that displayed his soul. His lips touched your cheek. Time stopped.

Your heart came to a halt and your breath caught in your throat. Your fingers locked together now similar to puzzle pieces. As the soft skin of his mouth left the side of your face, the exact spot where they had come into contact burned and tingled. A hot blazing fire pulsed through you. A small grin crept onto your face and your cheeks painted themselves rose red. He pulled away silently, but your eyes locked, having a private conversation of their own.

Oh how you make me feel....

He's your worst mistake, in the best way.

" I love you " He whispered into your neck, his words interspersed with kisses, slow, lingering, wet kisses that weakened your knees and sent desire coursing through you. "I love you so much. I'll love you for ever."

"..I.... " You snaked your arms around his neck, hiding your face in his chest " I ...what if you.....m-meet someone bett---- "

" Never." he told you, cupping your face in his hands " This isn't just some attraction that will fade Y/N. I have never been sure about something like I am sure about my feelings for you. This was destined. How can I convince you. What can I do, to make you believe me"

You read the sincerity in his eyes and your racing heart calmed a bit. "Just love me" you whispered. "Love me Jungkook, and don't ever stop"

Tears flooded his eyes as he tenderly kissed your forehead. "I'll never stop" he whispered. "We will be together for ever. Believe me, Y/N"

"I do"

His face broke into a smile and he lowered his head again, covering your lips with his. You strained against him, matching his ardour, pouring yourself into him as he took greedily from you, giving himself in return.

"...Jungkook " You moaned into him as you broke apart for breath. "I love you so much Jungkook."

His eyes clouded as he took in your parted lips, your rosy cheeks, the passion darkening your eyes. "You got a bad deal Y/N" he whispered.

"Jungkook?" You were surprised by the sadness in his voice.

" It's not going to be easy. My past, My job,...... dangerous things like what happened the other time are likely to happen again........none if it will be easy. But I can't let you go. I can never let you go. And no matter how difficult it gets, no matter what happens, you have to remember I love you. I'll never leave you. "

You reached out a hand and caressed his cheeks, running your fingers over his lips. "You said you'll protect me"

" I will."

You nodded " I will protect you too."

" I know you will baby." He playfully pinched your cheek and laughed " Let's take a shower before bed."

You froze when he walked past you toward the room.

It's gonna happen, isn't it?

Tonight......

Your heart wasn't breathing in a normal way and you know it.

It's his fault.

Totally.

You swallowed hard then walked slowly toward his bedroom, the door was open and Jungkook was next to his closet choosing what he'll change into after the shower.

" By the way, the hot water heater of the main shower is broke.." He said without looking at you as he grabbed sweatpants.

" So......"

" So .....we'll have to use the shower here, you can go first-- ....wait what's that look? " His face turned into a smirk " Want me to come with you ? "

" I....I'll g-go first." You blush hardly then walked away to the guest room to grab clean clothes still can hear the man's laughter.

You grabbed a big size blue shirt and a matching short and walked to the shower, Jungkook was reading some files when you entered the shower.

the only thing you were thinking about while showing was what will happen next.

Nervous yet excited you were.

More nervous to be honest.

were you really ready to give him yourself ? you already gave him your heart but are you ready for ..........the other thing?.

When you finished your shower, Jungkook walked in.

You could hear the sound of the water when you lay down on the bed looking at the ceiling, Many different thoughts were fighting inside of you.

Mark suddenly came to your thinking.

You said you love him yet every time things intimate you'd stop him, you remembered feeling scared and hesitant.

then you remembered his words, he blamed you.....

he said because of this he walked to find someone else.

What if this happen tonight?

Will Jungkook----------

You shook the thoughts right away.

Jungkook is never like that jerk.

What I felt toward Mark is nothing compared to what Jungkook means to me now, I didn't love Mark.......Now I understand this.

I understand this now that Jungkook showed me what Love really means.

You smiled to yourself and closed your eyes remembering how you met Jungkook and all the things that happened.

The next thing you remember was opening your eyes in the morning only to see the beautiful man lying beside you. I slept?. He was in his deep sleep and there were slight furrows in his brow. He wrapped his arm around your waist tightly as if you were going to leave him.

You ran your hand into his messy hair, "I love you, Jungkook" You whispered while smiling to yourself.

" You were so mean last night." He slowly opened his eyes.

His voice was cold. You quickly withdrew back your hand feeling awkward, "Um, I...I...," before you could say something he cut you off.

"Why aren't you in your room?" he quickly sat back and pulled himself away as maintaining the distance between us and you cringed at his behaviour.

You didn't move from your place and kept watching him, his every moves. His expression was fixed and cold as what it used to be, " What d-do you mean?" You said hesitantly. You didn't know what happened after you slept but........

He rubbed his temple frustratingly, "What...... I mean since when we sleep together ? "

And now he seemed annoyed. Is he serious ?

Did I do something bad last night?

Oh..... Is he ?

You swallowed then cleared your throat, " You're mad at me because I fell asleep ?" you asked again, your throat began hurting as a sign of up coming tears.

He stared at you with a fixed expression on his face, "Should I?"

You frowned and kept quiet as waiting for him to say he was joking. Every passed second your heartbeat was rising up and down and tension filled the air between you.

You looked down biting your lips. is he really..........

Suddenly you heard a soft laugh and you quickly looked at him, "Jesus, Y/N, look at your face," he was laughing at you, "But still beautiful."

For a few seconds, you were gawking him like a fool, didn't understand his reaction, but finally, you realized, "I thought you were seriously angry with me, I almost start crying, Do you think this is funny? " You rolled your eyes and sighed.

"Not this, but your face is funny," he said while grabbing your face and kissed you softly, "I'd never be angry with you."

You bit his lower lips on purpose.

"Ouch! Y/N, what are you doing?" he whined and pulled away

"Laugh at me, I'll do this again."

He immediately laid you on the bed underneath him, "You don't know what does it mean?" He pinned your both hands to the mattress, "The more you become harsh with me the more I become desperate for you," he whispered softly and kissed behind your earlobe and you moaned in response.

Then his hands moved around your waist, trailing up your stomach, "While I was away, You missed me, Y/N?" His rage breath blew over bare skin of your neck as he continued his kisses down your shoulder.

"Yes..," you breathed.

He looked into your eyes, his eyes were soft and lure, "I love you, Girlfriend " it was an unexpected word for you. It was the first time he called you 'Girlfriend.'

How beautiful it was to hear these words, "I love you too, Boyfriend" you kissed his lips.

" But still, it was mean of you not to wait for me.." He smiled at you and didn't take off his eyes of you. you were blushing under his intense gaze.

" I..I am sorry." you whispered

He smiled before He knelt before you, taking your hands in his, staring steadfastly into your eyes.

"Baby" He whispered, skimming your hands with his lips. "Will you do something for me?"

" ...w-what?" You whispered back

"Just surrender to me. Let me love you" He moved a hand to your face, tracing your pouty lips for a moment.

You looked at him in surprise. " But Jungkook" You said huskily. " I do... I mean..."

"This is different Y/N" his voice was silky soft. "Will you let me just show you? Will you trust me babe?"

"Hmmm" you whispered nodding, suddenly inexplicably shy, wondering just how you were going to be tormented now.

He smiled

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