I think my ears are permanently damaged from Lucas screaming and yelling through my speakerphone. I told Lucas everything that happened in the last couple of days. I should really keep it to myself but I know Lucas wouldn't tell a soul and he always tells me about his love life so it's kind of fair.

"Woahhh back up, he almost kissed you, trapped you, and held your waist? How are you not dying from butterflies down there."

"Lucas!" I gasp.

"Sorry, but let's be honest even I can feel the butterflies down there and I don't even have a kitty." I start laughing at his comment. "Just be careful. I've seen what he's done and man that boy is a player."

I let that sink in. Lucas is right he's just trying to play with my emotion and I'm not going to let him. Lucas start talking about his boyfriend, Ryan. Their relationship seems to be going great but if he ever breaks my bestie's heart I'll cut off his little friend.

Later that evening I stayed up thinking and thinking. All these questions took over my brain. I don't know how I feel about him now. I mean I can't stop thinking about not just the moment of us almost kissing but him. Him and his annoying mood swings, rude attitude, those brown loose curls, that cute smile, his hot and toned bod- ughh I can't think straight! I take a nap to hopefully let the stress wash over.

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Theo's pov:

I can't seem to think straight. All these thoughts and questions kept me up all of yesterday night when I came back from her place. And I was acting like such a wuss. I never told anyone about my dad. I usually told everyone he wasn't around. I was becoming soft and not just for anyone but for Athena?

I never knew all that stuff that happened to her. I'm such an idiot for acting like a dick to her. When we were talking I felt this connection between us that was undeniable. I felt like I can talk to her about anything. I never felt this type of connection and I have hooked up with plenty of girls yet none of them compare. This is stupid I shouldn't even be thinking about this. She just a friend with daddy issues just like me. I try to convince myself but again this feeling was undeniable.

I need her to hate me. I can't fall for her. I need to think of ways for her to dislike me, to be mad at me. I need her to yell at me, to get so mad that she scrunches her nose in the cutest way. She needs to cuss out my name. I like it when she says my name. Damn it, Theo this girl got you whipped. I pace around my room to think of ideas but no luck.

It's now Sunday night and dinner was ready so I head downstairs. We eat with some music in the background. My mom suddenly speaks up.

"I think Athena is good for you." What?

"How? She's just my tutor." I try to stay cool.

"I'm not talking just about grades all though she doing really well with that too but I'm talking about your mood. I see that you're more relaxed and happy when she's here. And I know Gracie can agree with me. Right, Gracie?"

"Yesss! She so nice and prettyy." Gracie shows her biggest smile. I smile at her.

"What I'm trying to say is that she's a great girl. I don't know if you can see it but I can. And I'm not saying to date her but if you guys do end up together all I can say is I might approve this one." She chews on her broccoli. I just nod slowly.

I get in bed and think about what my mom said. She's right. I am happier and relax when she comes over. I hadn't even thought about it but I've been using Gracie as an excuse for her to come over. Holy shit. All this shit I've been doing just proves that I want her. I don't even notice it but I think of ways just to see her or touch her. Like yesterday I don't know what came over me but I felt the need to hold her waist and lean in first.

All this shit is stressing me out. I text Lauren for some relief. She doesn't answer but I hope she responds soon or I might go crazy. This girl is driving me crazy who what of thought the girl would be Athena. I go to sleep trying not to dream of those beautiful hazel eyes staring at my emerald ones.

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