"so you have a fixation on this James Clay" I tease Summer stopping by the bus stop.

"No, I like his caring nature and the fact he is also one of the best basketball players in school," she says standing in front of me playfully glaring at me.

"It still sounds like you a fascinated by him" I shrug nonchalantly.

She narrowed her eyes at me " I am choosing to ignore those words " she says before smiling lightly" It's time I say see you later since the bus is coming towards this direction" I pull her into my embrace before letting her go.

"Okay see you soon and please don't mope around staring at the blank TV while you keep thinking about today's event," she says giving me a nor nonsense look.

Yeah, you heard her right, These past few weeks have been great with me keeping myself busy by working a morning shift at the restaurant and an afternoon and evening shift at a pizzeria which is possible because Chole looks after Wilmer when I am off working.

Then today was my off day which had to be the same day as the event I keep avoiding thinking about.

Summer came over this morning to find me still dressed in pajamas while seating on the couch staring at the blank TV placed on the wall with my emotion all over the place.

I bit inside my cheek stopping my mind from thinking about it too much with my eyes locked with Sam who silently waits for my answer" Okay I promise to stop thinking too much about it " I sigh audibly feeling like I am been castigated by Emma.

"That more like it just see today as a day your love gets set free like the birds flying freely and loving someone deserving," she says taking deep breaths with her hands reaching above her head in a flying gesture.

"always dramatic " I sigh once again as the bus comes to a stop in front of us" see you soon" I wave goodbye as she gets into the bus doing the same.

I wake the short distance home as Summer takes the bus towards the restaurant walking into the house welcoming the quietude since both Chole and Wilmer are in Chloe's room sleeping.

I took a seat on the couch doing exactly what Summer advised me not to do.

My eyes flick between the TV remote and TV scared to turn the TV on knowing every TV channel would surely be showing the big ongoing event today.

I shake my head shaking any thought of him from my mind before walking into the kitchen to dish myself something to eat.

Pulling the fridge open the doorbell rings signaling I have a visitor, closing the fridge I walk towards the door pulling it open.

I gape befuddled by my unexpected visitor " What going on?" I ask stepping out closing the door behind me" Why can't you just let me be, do you love pushing it in my face how Chance idolizes you so much that you had to come here before driving towards your wedding," I say pushing my hair backward feeling agitated by her presence here.

"Shiloh I am not here to cause trouble or to infuriate you but I am here just to tell you the truth and the reason why the wedding between me and Chance is never happening" she explains dolent with pleading eyes.

"Don't take this the wrong way but I don't care if you came here looking dismal bearing good intention, it's too late for an explanation because I left Chance for you already"

"I am happy now living with my son so please go back to your wedding I am sure Chance is waiting for you at the altar don't keep him waiting for too long and I wish you both a happy married life," I say before taking a step back towards the house.

"There is no wedding happening today because Chance called off the wedding," she says hastily stepping me from opening the door.

"I don't care just leave," I say not looking her way.

"Just please listen to what I have to say" she pleads eloquently.

I cogitate over my option before deciding on letting her into the house " so what do you have to say?" I ask sitting on the couch as she does the same sitting on the couch opposite mine.

I study her appearance, she is dressed in a side spilled kneel length black and nude color gown, her blonde hair resting on her shoulder and her face looking flawless with a light touch of makeup.

I avert my eyes from her as she starts speaking" Chance never loved me, our engagement is just a business arrangement " I listen quietly not wanting to stop her from speaking.

"Because Mr. Colt found out about you being pregnant and wasn't too happy about it so he threatened to kill you and the baby only if Chance refuses to accept his proposal" I meet her gaze shocked that Mr. Colt could do this and the fact Chance or Mum Elaina could not tell me about this nerve-racking information.

" Chance had no choice but to acquiesce but I had a choice because my Dad gave me the option to agree or not after Mr. Colt brought the business proposal to merge our companies by getting married but I agreed because of a reason I had"

"What were your reasons?" I found myself asking from curiosity.

She meets my gaze staring at me quietly for a few seconds before speaking" because I love him" I should be surprised but I appear not to be because I know she loves him because no girl would act the way she did that night if she didn't.

"I love him but he never did, since we were little kids he never liked playing or speaking to me," she says wistfully " I accepted the proposal immediately because I had hoped maybe he would come to love me if not now but later during how marriage"

"Little of my hope crushed the moment he told me about you, he made it clear he would never see me as his wife or even make it up to that stage but I was determined to get him to love me even though it means getting him to marry me" I blink feeling vehement as she keeps talking with a glimmer of tears in her eyes.

"I don't know how to feel about all this" I confess watching her wipe the tears under her eyes.

"I know it sounds selfish but it hurts when you know the one you love would and could never come to love you," she says with tears running down her cheeks.

I never imagined Sam I came to know the last few months, the Sam who always looks confident and beautiful would ever look heartbroken like the way she looks right now sitting in front of me.

I move towards her taking a seat beside her before pulling her into a hug as her body quake with sobs.

I rub her back gently waiting for her to calm down, she pulls away from me wiping away her tears before taking deep breaths" Thank you. That night you saw us arguing was the result of my desperation, I could not tell him about my love so I made it seem I am only agreeing to this because since I was the only daughter and being a female and next in line to be CEO of a big company I needed a husband to handle the company while I go on pursuing my career"

"Even though he was always with me but still he was never there because he keeps thinking and talking about you I could not handle not being the one on his mind so that night I made a public announcement fixing the date of our wedding" She laugh unhumorously avoiding my gaze on her.

"And you know the rest, he was so furious that night but immediately I saw you standing in the living room looking confused and heavily pregnant with his child I lost all hope of ever having him, it hurts so much that I couldn't take it anymore so I lashed out all my anger at you," she says with her gaze downcast before meeting my gaze.

" Shiloh I know I have wronged you in many ways because of my selfishness but please you have to speak with Chance, give him the chance to explain" she pleads.

"I-I" I try speaking or rather try explaining the reasons I can't just do what she asked of me but she cut me off.

"I know you are angry and hurt and I also know he doesn't deserve your forgives after the way he treated you but he needs this because right now he is miserable"

I raise my hand cutting her off" Sam, I get you are feeling sorry for what you did but it difficult knowing, after all, this relationship going on between you and Chance was a lie and it started just because he is trying to protect me but at the same time he hurt and broke your heart in the process" I say feeling guilt clawing at my heart.

I stare at her feeling defective and guilty because I know how it feels to have unrequited love, I also know how much it hurts.

"Don't" she says shaking her head in a no gesture" don't feel guilty, I caused my heartbreak because I knew from the very beginning he would never love me but I chose to give all in, " she says with a smile not reaching her eyes.

"I am here because I know you deserve to hear the truth, I don't want you to forgive him only because I am telling you to but because he deserves it, he deserves to know his son and your son needs a complete home" she gives encouraging smile before standing to her feet.

"I will be leaving the state tomorrow to pursue my modeling career I don't know if we will ever get to see again but I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me, I don't want to be the girl who finds love after breaking someone else chance to happiness" she pulls me into a hug before whispering into my ear" Shiloh I am sorry but I am not a bad person just desperate for my share of love"

She smiles warmly before leaving me to my thought.

A lonely tear run down my left cheek. Am I a bad person for not giving him the chance to see his son but he never made any move or interest in seeing Wilmer.

This is just so confusing, I just want the best for my son but it is difficult in finding the right way to go about it with false truth surrounding our life.

"Is everything alright?" Chole's voice came from up the stares snapping me out of my thought.

Wiping my face with my palm before meeting her gaze as she walks down the stairs with Wilmer resting in her arms.

"Yeah just feeling bored and tired. Was he crying?" I ask taking Wilmer from her placing a kiss on his forehead.

"No, he just woke up missing the presence of his Mum already," she says with a smile on her lip.

"Does Wilmer miss Mommy so much " I whisper while flicking his baby nose with the tip of my finger.

He makes a baby laugh while gripping my finger in his little chubby fist.

'Please forgive me for not having the strength to give you a complete family' I say silently before making a silent prayer to God.