I am currently pacing in front of the delivery room waiting for any news, a few minutes ago the baby was brought out wrapped in a white cloth but still no news about Shiloh.

I run my hand through my hair agitated " nurse is everything okay in there?" I ask a nurse leaving the room with a tray in hand.

"Just relax sir," she says softly trying to walk away.

"dammit if one more person tells me to relax one more time I won't restrain the impulse to break down this door and make sure everyone in that room loses their job " I snap getting a wary and sympathetic look from the people around.

The nurse flinches away from me before walking away in fear.

I punch the wall in anger and frustration before checking my front pocket for my phone then dialing Emma's number " finally he notice the world doesn't revolve around him" she says sarcasm lacing her words.

I sigh feeling irritated by her " Emma I d.."

"Chance why you are calling?" She asks cutting me off.

I run my hand through my hair facing away from the door" I brought Shiloh to the hospital because she was having labor pains" I explain.

"Is she alright? " she asks warily.

"I don't know Emma. No one saying anything" I say on the verge of busting out in anger " please call the others because I am not in the right mood to have a proper controversy "

"Okay," she replies before hanging up.

I put my phone back into my pocket taking a seat on a bench resting my back to the wall just opposite the delivery room.

I place my palm against my forehead tiredly trying my best to relax.

After 30 minutes of waiting and watching people pass by a man wearing a lab coat comes out making his way towards me " Doctor what going on?" I ask standing to my feet.

"You must be Mr. Cristian," he asks politely but I am not interested in this formality.

"I just need to know what going on in there and not you trying to sweet-talk me" I demand.

"Okay. The baby is alright we just need to examine the heartbeat and brain for any mental and physical disabilities " he says.

I sigh relieved " but there was a complication," he says softly making me tense up " she lost a lot of blood during delivery but the bleeding stopped immediately the baby came out..." He explains.

I cut him off before he could explain further " so where is all this leading to?" I ask urging him to summarize everything.

"She flatlined. we were able to bring her back but she slipped into a coma" he explains studying the expressions on my face " she out of danger but we still need to monitor her for any complication "

I tug my hair with my shaky hands feeling the need to pouch something so badly " please do anything to save her" I plead almost in tears.

" We are doing our possible best," he confessed before a frown appears on his face, " I notice her body was in a state of trauma and very weak also noticing the fact she most have experienced bleeding during pregnancy which may also be the reason for losing consciousness," he says thoughtfully.

She never told me about expressing bleeding but then again why would she when I treated her so badly " Thanks doctor" he nods before walking back into the room.

I sigh turning around colliding with something hard before I could understand what was happening causing, discomfort to my jaw.

I groan from the impact making contact with the hard fall " you asshole" Louis curses pointing his fingers at me angrily with Emma trying to hold him from causing a scene while Damien rests his back on the wall looking calm.

" shit Louis what this for " I push myself off the fall flinching from the soreness of my jaw and lips while encountering his glare with mine.

"Grow some balls man that nothing compared to what Shiloh is going through just because you think it the best way out," he says spitefully before taking a seat on the bench.

"screw you, you act like you know nothing about what going on" I scoff in mockery wanting to punch him so bad.

"I am so close to beating the f**k out of you if you don't shut the hell up and accept you messed up big time" Damien snaps glowering at me.

I blink knowing how the truth can be a painful slap to reality " take, wipe the blood from your mouth" Emma says.

"Thanks," I say taking the white napkin from her before wiping the blood away.

"I promise you if Shiloh leaves this hospital I will make sure you won't come anywhere near her and the baby" she promises before walking towards Damien.

I seat myself on the floor resting my back against the wall beside the bench while tension grows between us.

I felt defeated by regret and guilt clawing at the back of my mind pulling me into the reality that everything happening to us is total my fault.

I am a coward and an asshole for behaving this way with her. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket before pulling it out, Sam's name flash on the scream building up my anger.

Samantha. The next time I see that b**h I will make sure she pays for creating this mess.

I did everything I could to make this work for her but she chose to be a backstabbing vixen.

I spent a lot of time with her, I made sure we were seen together like going on a modeling show, charity event, and acting like a lovesick couple.

I had to deprive myself of seeing Shiloh just to make her happy but was it enough? No, she had to set a date for our wedding without letting me know she even went as far as telling the public.

The phone ring three more times before stopping getting an irritated look from others as if I care.

"Shiloh" I hear a gasp from Emma gaining my attention.

I watch as they roll Shiloh on a bed out of the delivery room " where are you taking her?" Emma asks curiously walking towards them with tears rolling down her cheeks.

"Ma, please step back, " a nurse says polity urging Emma to leave the way.

Damien made his way towards her pulling her away letting the nurses take Shiloh away.

Emma clings to Damien burying her face into his chest while sobbing while he pats her hair soothing her.

I avert my gaze from them towards Louis seating on the bench with a fit of anger directed towards me.

Before I could say a word to him I hear Mom's worried voice calling " is she alright?" Mum inquires staring down at me looking worried.

I avert my gaze looking anywhere but her. I felt ashamed and disappointed in myself to even explain the reality of my mistake, a mistake she warned me of.

Emma came hugging her before pulling away letting her hug Damien and Louis before explaining everything to Mum.

" son is everything alright?" Comes the voice of the last person I would like to see right now.

"What are you doing here?" I say calmly not wishing to set my eyes on him.

"I was with your Mum when she received news from Emma," he says warily.

"And you came to see for yourself if she died," I say with anger lancing my words.

"Chance, why would you say something like that ?" Mum asks bewildered.

"Please, Dad just leave, " I say fighting the tears from winning before meeting his eyes filled with regret.

I laugh silently seeing the regret in his eyes" honey.." he says trying to get Mum's attention but I cut him off before he could say something else.

"Mr. Colt I said to leave" I yell standing up from the floor feeling irritated by his presence here.

"Relax you are inducing a scene here," Mum says trying to get me to relax.

"You think I care, just tell this man to leave" I grit out.

"Honey let him be, it's my fault anyway" he glance my way mumbling the last sentence before placing a kiss on Mum's hair before walking away.

Mum watch him walk away before focusing her glare on me " what was that about?"

"You should ask your loving husband he would be more than thrilled to answer all your questions" I scoff sarcasm lacing my words.

"Mr. Chance Cristain I didn't raise you to speak rudely to me or to your father" she warns getting serious with me.

From the corner of my eyes, I saw Emma, Louis, and Damien's eyes focused on us watching the scene unfolding.

I so wanted to ignore her but I would get it big time if try something as disrespectful as that" Mum I am so furious with my father right now, he emasculates me because of his thoughtless reason and preference " I say as calm as possible even with the vehement of emotion running through me right now.

Thanks to the perfect timing of the doctor's Mum end the conversation promising to have this conversation later" she has been set into a private room" he says with a smile on his lips " and she is also now allowed to receive visitors, her room number is 23b on this floor."

"Thanks so much, doctor" he replies with a nod.

"Doctor, may I have a word with you?" Mum says gaining the doctor's attention.

"Yes Mrs. Cristian"

Mum nods before flicking her gaze towards Emma now sitting on the bench between Damien and Louis" Emma please call Shiloh's parents to let them know she is in the hospital" Emma replies with an okay before leaving with Damien and Louis.

I left Mum with the doctor making my way to the room Shiloh is in. I hesitated at first before going in.

My eyes focus on her immediately, she was placed on a bed with a heart monitor connected to her finger, a blood pressure cuff, and an iv in her arm.

I walk towards her before taking a seat on a stool placed beside the bed, she looked so pale, with heavy bags under her eyes and her lips looked parched.

I cup her warm hand in mine feeling the tears build up" I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've got to be this way" I place my head on our joint hands letting the tears fall" B-but it hurts me more t-t-than you think I wish it wasn't like this anymore"

I felt weak sitting here with her warm hands in mine not being able to hear her voice or see that beautiful heartwarming smile of hers " this all my fault. I did this to you...to us"

"I am very sorry I know I hurt you so much, please forgive me I don't wanna lose you. I love you" I plead desperately for the suffocating and hot feeling in my heart to go away.

I felt so scared and lightheaded like the air was being knocked out of me when she left the house. I could not bring myself to let her walk away, it weakens me to even think of the possibility of her walking away.

I raised my head from our joined hands before flicking my eyes towards her face which was deprived of the smile which always hunts my mind " I'm sorry for breaking your heart mine is breaking too... I lost the right to ask you to stay"

My eyes skim over her face dreading the thought of ever losing her and my baby " I'd be devastated if anything happened to you due to my decisions" I squeeze her hand softly before letting it go.

I was too focused to notice someone walking in before feeling a hand rest on my shoulder" Mum" I stand up from the stool letting her seat.

She smiles sadly with tears in her eyes while staring intensely at Shiloh" she is a very strong lady but I am scared about how she may react after learning the truth "

I tense from her words " what truth " I ask warily.

"It's nothing," she says sadly wiping the tears away.

I stare at her worried deciding to drop the subject for when we get home.

"You know she had an anxiety attack yesterday," she says abruptly" she was so scared of losing the baby" I stand beside her quietly listen to her speak.

"Chance I am so angry at you, you never treated her right" she glances my me.

"I know Mum but I had my reasons," I said feeling embarrassed.

"And are does reason valid enough for her to get this much hate from you?" She raises her voice slightly.

"Mum let just go home" I place a kiss on Shiloh's hairline " I love you," I say softly before stepping back.

"Why are you in a hurry to leave?" She asks before kissing Shiloh goodbye.

"You need to hear the truth from Dad," I say opening the door of the room for her to walk out.

Mum says goodbye to Emma, Damien, and Louis while I just received a glare from them.

I drove Mum home since she came in Dad's car. I call to instruct someone to get Shiloh's car from the church.

Immediately we got home we made our way up the stairs towards Dad's office knowing full well he would be in there.

I open his office door letting Mum walk in before walking in, as expected he stands with his back towards us sipping a glass of whatever he chooses to have this time.

"Is she alright?" He asks with his back towards us.

I take a seat on a couch in his office across from Mum " she is in a coma but responding well at the moment " Mum answers.

He sips from his drink before taking a seat beside Mum " Chance I didn't like that stunt you pulled at the hospital " he warns placing his empty glass on the glass table between the couch.

I scoff " And you think I give bullshit about what you like" I retort gaining a warning glare from him" why don't we start by telling Mom about the plans you have towards me" I taunt with a smirk in place. I know am trading on his last nerve right now but do I give a shit? No.

"Chance stop this and go strength to the point" she scolds.

"Okay. Dad came to know about Shiloh's pregnancy before I could tell him about it, he called me to come over to the house" I say before snorting " he threatened to kill Shiloh and the baby if I don't agree to get married to Samantha " I say sternly.

"Colt is this true?" She meets Dad's gaze stunned.

"I wasn't planning on doing it" he sighs looking guilty, " I said it just to make Chance stay away from Shiloh"

"Bullshit" I snap harshly hearing the lies coming from him" you sent someone to spy on her, you even attempted her life when I refused your offer"

"Colt how could you think of something like this with all the mistake you made against her " Mum raised her voice angrily.

He runs his hands through his hair angrily" like I just said I wasn't planning on doing it, I was just doing a favor to Dalton (Shiloh father) by separating both of them and at the same time clearing my conscience"

I gaped openly at him stunned " so you are saying all this was a lie. All this was just a big fat fable and I was just a puppet you used to clear your conscience" I felt like the biggest fool.

"I am so disappointed in you Colt," Mum says blinking back the tears while Dad meets her gaze looking regretful " Chance listen carefully to everything I am about to say okay," Mum explains seeming serious.

Different feeling clouds my brain listening to each words Mum explains as well as the little Dad adds " this unbelievable, Dad how could you do such a thing ?"

"Chance you can't tell anyone most especially Shiloh and also it wasn't your Dad's fault" Mum explains wiping the tears off her cheek.

I scoff" I just hope your conscience is cleared because you just made me indignant with me myself" I stand to leave the room.

This just too much, learning I stayed away from Shiloh just because I was saving her from nothing.

I made the short distance towards the bar located beside the kitchen grabbing two bottles of tequila and a bottle of vodka with a glass on a tray before walking towards my room.

I just want to feel unfeeling to the pain in my chest and if getting drunk would help then why not take as much as possible.

I place the tray on the small black wooden table at the front of the bed before taking a seat on the bed.

I opened the bottle of tequila filling the glass up, I gulped it all at once before taking three more glasses before feeling my phone vibrate in my jeans pocket.

I fling the phone across the room in anger seeing it was only Sam calling" what going on here ?" Mum asks coming into the room glancing at the scattered pieces of the phone at the corner of the room before meeting my gaze.

"Just go away," I say filing the empty glass, she made her way towards me attempting to take the glass away.

I gulp it down before she could take it from me " Mum just go away and let me be" I groan" I need this feeling to go away because it stings so much"

"She was going away from me and you know what she said before leaving" I laugh at the irony of everything," she said I won't hear from her again"

I stand from the bed with the empty glass still in my hand swaying a bit " Mom, I have lost her already just because I was trying my best to keep her alive" I throw the empty glass against the wall watching it break against the wall.

" she holds onto you for so long, she loves you and was ready to do anything for you that she forget her self worth just to make you smile, every single day all this went unnoticed and unappreciated by you," she says before taking a seat on the couch watching me curiously " what did you expect?"

" I know, but I was too much of an asshole to see how much my decision affected her mentally and physically she cared so much about me," I say with my gaze downcast.

I felt embarrassed to even face Mum because she warned me to think about my action. she told me the verdict of my actions would be unbearable.

" He played me for a fool," I say angrily" do you think she would ever forgive me even after knowing I did this to save her?" I ask finding the courage to meet her gaze.

" I hope he is so happy with his achievement because now I won't be able to see the love of my life or experience the feeling of being a father to my baby" I raised my voice hoping he hears every word.

I bang my fist into the wall feeling intense anger towards myself for believing such a painful lie.

"Chance you have to relax.." She tries saying.

"I can't relax knowing Shiloh and my baby is still at the hospital "

"I know but you have to know Shiloh is a very strong woman, she will surely survive this," she says softly placing her hands on my shoulder " destroying things when angry won't solve your problems" she advises before pulling me into her motherly embrace" just give her some space when she wakes because she would need it " I reply with a nod.

"I just hope it is not too late to correct my mistakes"