I stir awake on the bed hearing whispering going on around me and a feeling of someone running a hand through my hair.

"She had a mild anxiety attack. It made me so frightened and confused" Emma says with a shaky voice.

"How is she now?" Mum Eliana says sounding worried.

What? Mum Eliana? What is she doing here? " I called Dr. Anna, she said it's normal for her to have anxiety and depression during this last month of pregnancy, she just needs a good amount of rest free of pressure," she says wistfully.

I snap my eyes open to find myself laying on the settee with my head placed on Mum Elaina's lap while she glides through my hair looking worried.

I avert my gaze towards Emma seating on the armchair with tears rolling down her cheeks feeling guilty for making her so anxious " I am sorry for making you appall " I say my voice coming out raspy.

"It's okay dear," Mum Eliana says softly with a warm smile.

"Let me get you water," Emma suggests before leaving the room towards the kitchen.

"How are you feeling right now ?" she asks warily.

"I am feeling good "

"Don't think about what Sylvia said okay because I won't let any danger come on you or the baby?" she says smotheringly.

I was about to ask if is okay but Emma walks in with a jug containing water and an empty glass, she placed both on the table before helping me into a seating position" Thanks" I say taking the glass of water from her.

I gulp down the content hungrily before asking for more " are you still up for shopping or would you like to take more rest" Mum Eliana asks.

" shopping. Just give me a few minutes to get ready" I say standing up.

I took the jug and glass towards the kitchen before walking up the stairs towards my room.

I took a shower while changing Emma walks into the room making herself comfortable on my bed.

I pull my hair into a ponytail glancing at Emma who keeps sighing and whispering under her breath " what going on with you?" I inquire curiously with a raised eyebrow.

Emma usually does this when she has something unsettling on her mind and doesn't seem to have a solution to it.

She sighs once again before resting on the headboard" Remember I told you about the fashion gig in London" she asks.

"Yes," I remember she told me about a fashion gig being hosted in London. She and her Mom are important guests making this a big next level for her career.

" I just find out it on the same day Damien leaves for Italy and I don't know what to do because it's important to me, " she says frustrated running her hands through her hair.

I seat on the bed beside her " how long is he staying?" I ask warmly.

"He is staying for a year to help his Dad manage the company over there, " she says sadly " this the longest we will be apart from each other and I am already missing him since he declines all my calls, he believes am choosing a stupid show over him which isn't true "

She looked grim and frantic just from talking about it, I understand how she feels but I am very confident Damien loves her and he will surely come around" you guys just need to talk this out and find a solution," I say trying to ease her worries.

She and Damien do have misunderstandings but always sort out their issues and this one won't be different.

After talking with Emma, me and Mum Eliana left while Emma went over to Damien.

•••••••••••••

I wake up at night by 2:54 am to yelling coming from the living room.

After analyzing between staying in my room or investigating I choose the latter not before grabbing a hairbrush with me for protection.

I know, you must be thinking how can a hairbrush possibly protect me but maybe my nonexistent Naija skills would help.

I left the room walking silently towards the living room, I know for sure the voices coming from the living room can't be Damien or Emma because Emma specifically told me she was spending the night in Damien's family house.

While Louis I don't know. I won't be surprised if he is unfazed by the noise because Louis can sleep through an earthquake.

Walking into the living room I gasp seeing the state of the room, the settee, and chairs pushed around the room while the glass table had a slight crack even the two flower vases which were placed beside the TV were scattered on the floor.

Between all the chaos Chance and Sam stood eyes locked intensely as the tension builds between them with Chance sending a murderous glare towards Sam while Sam looked scared and hurt and a flash of something I can't detect.

I stared astounded making my way towards them" What going on here?" I question my eyes flicking between Sam, Chance, and back to mess in the room.

Sam avert her gaze towards me before smiling not in a benevolent way " oh you finally came to join the party, we were just talking about you" she says malevolently.

Before I could reply Chance beat me to it " nothing. Return to your room now" he orders tugging at his hair softly.

I focus my glare on him. What gave him the nerve to treat me like a child when he and his fiancee chose to throw a tantrum in the middle of the night," why love? doesn't she deserve to know all this is going on just because of her" she says maliciously.

I stare baffled by her words" what's your problem? You keep blaming me for your insecurities, " I say through gritted teeth.

"My problem is you," she says spitefully pointing her index finger at me " you keep coming in between me and Chance's relationship..."

I cut her off before she could continue " stop accusing me because I never came between you and Chance " I say trying to keep my anger at bail while Chance's eyes flick between us contemplating whose side he is on and we all know who he is gone choose.

"I made sure to never interfere, I stayed away even when it stings me doing so, just because he loves you so much and not me," I say making a hand gesture.

She laughs vehemently creating no space between us bringing her face so close to mine" you must be so naive to believe his lies " she says before taking a step back " you keep flaunting that bastard in you trying to act innocuous when you are nothing but a desperate bitch looking for a father for your bastard child" she says distastefully.

My handball into a fist by my side with my gaze focused repugnantly on Sam. Chance tried speaking but raised my hand cutting him off.

"I can take any insult and belligerent attitude from you but when you cross all boundaries and point a hand towards my child I won't flinch to break that hand, " I say angrily making my promise known.

"You want me to leave right? fine I am leaving right now" I say throwing my hands in the air " I was planning on leaving immediately you guys got back but I guess this is a perfect time I wish you a happy marriage life, bi**h," I say before turning away from them towards the stairs.

But before I could make it up the stairs she pulled me back raising a hand to hit me on the cheek.

I hold her wrist before her palm could make connections with my face. No way am I letting one more person hit me for saying the uncomfortable truth.

My long nails dig into her wrist gaining a painful groan from her, Chance move towards us but the look he got from me made him stop moving knowing I would not hesitate to force my anger on him.

I hiss angrily focusing my gaze on the pissed lady glaring intensely at me " I am a very nice, loving person who put everyone feelings before hers but I can cause a problem for those who cross the line when it comes to my family most importantly my baby and trust me you won't like seeing me furious" I say with fury burning in my eyes.

I release my tight grip on her wrist as she tries pulling her hand away, she flinches touching the red print of my hand on her wrist. I almost felt bad.

I push those guilty feelings away " The first thing you should know about me is that I'm not you a lot more will make sense after that" I gave her a once overlook before walking up the stairs towards my room leaving a stunned look on her face.

I pack my things into two large bags then my baby bag containing everything I would need during labor and my phone before changing from my pajamas into a blue and white dress reaching my kneels before leaving the room.

"Baby, Mommy is so sorry for doing this okay but I should have done this before it got to this extent" I whisper while pulling my two bags down the stairs with my baby bag hanging on my shoulder.

To my relief, Sam wasn't in the living room because I have no clue the level of my anger towards her.

My gaze locked on Chance seating on the couch his hair disheveled looking so disgruntled " where are you going with your bags?" he asks distracted walking towards me.

I choose to ignore his question continuing my walk towards the door " Shiloh get back upstairs with those bags because I won't let you leave this house especially not this late at night" he demands sounding bored stopping me from moving.

I close my eyes letting the tears roll down my cheeks with my back still facing him.

I wipe my tears away before turning around" I always keep telling myself you never loved me at all because it is far less terrifying a prospect than the possibility you did, you truly did. But all of a sudden and for no particular reason, you stopped" I say laughing slightly at the end trying to hide the pain in my eyes.

He tugged his hair roughly looking frustrated and angry " please let not do this right now,"

"Okay," I say before walking towards the door.

"Okay. I am sorry for what Sam said, " he says.

I sigh why is he doing this, he should be satisfied and cheering because I am finally leaving him in peace.

I turn around to call him off before gasping in shock finding him standing so close to me I could feel his breath on my neck sending my heart into overdrive.

I lift my head focusing on his hazel eyes looking hunted and swimming with regret and fear, locking me in its depth of sensations.

"I care about you, please don't go, I promise to stay here with you " he pushed a lock of hair behind my ear before placing his forehead against mine.

I blink feeling my words trapped between my tongue, I glop at him not knowing what to say or do but I guess I don't need to because he locks his lips with mine.

My eyes grow wide while his eyes remain closed savoring the taste of my lip on his.

Finding my strength I pushed him away breaking the kiss feeling disoriented with my feelings and most importantly confused with his change of attitude.

"Stop playing with my feelings it making me feel so frantic," I say breathing hard " you've made your choice and there's nothing I can do, " I say concisely.

"But you are the one I chose, " he says softly.

"No I don't think you want me in your life anymore, and I have to find a way to live with that," I say placing an index finger on his chest emphasizing each word, " you said you would still be there for me, but I don't want to be a mere courtesy -- a slave for your guilt"

He tried holding my wrist but I pulled my hand away from his chest staring into his eyes with confidence and determination " you won't hear from me again after today, and I don't want you to worry I'll be okay because I have to be "

I walk towards my bags checking through the little purse attached to one of the bags bringing out the money I promised to give him for the car before walking towards him with his eyes following my every movement.

"I promised to pay for the car so here it is," I say giving him the money but he didn't make any move of taking it.

"Shiloh I don't need this I just need you here with me please don't give up on our love" he pleads with tears running down his cheeks.

I felt a pang in my heart seeing the tears rolling down his cheeks but I can't anymore it's just too late, my heart has been broken so many times by him to just forget.

I turn away letting the tears out before walking towards my bags on the floor " we are the example of why not to fall in love because it always ends up with broken and shattered pieces of your heart" I say before placing the money on a couch.

I walk away towards my parked car outside.

I placed the bags in the car then stared one last time at the house before getting into the car driving towards a place where I would find closure and peace.

I park in the parking lot of the Church before getting out leaving my bags and phone in the car then making my way into the church.

The light in the church was dim with a few people, some prying while some sleeping but all in all it was peaceful and quiet just what I need at the moment.

I will just be staying here for a few minutes before leaving.

I take a seat on a long bench placed at the back directly opposite the altar.

I stare silently ahead not knowing the perfect word to start with before speaking " it was hard. It was hard for a long time and is it is " I say softly wiping the tears under my eyes.

"I've never imagined my life would turn out this way " my voice break sounding pained " please tell me why every decision I try taking always harms me in return," I say let the tears roll down my cheeks.

"I know you are angry at me right now but please direct me on what to do from now on because I am so weary and in trauma," I say putting my hands together in front of me in a pleading sign while closing my eyes.

"And Lord Jesus also protect my family and friends not excluding Chance, always put a smile on there countenances in everything"

"My family and Chance's love were taking from me and you can still take anything away from me, take it all if you may but please -- please, let me keep my baby with me," I say pleading desperately.

I say the Lord's prayer before opening my eyes, I wipe away my tears before standing.

I walk outside and to my surprise Chance is standing beside his car with his gaze downcast " how did you know I was here? And what are you going here?" I ask stunned before walking towards him creating enough space between us.

He averts his eyes towards me " I put a tracker on your car which led me here to get you" he shrugs walking towards me.

"Don't come any closer," I say glaring at him, taking my instruction he stops walking towards me.

The chilly breeze of the night blow around us, we don't have an audience since we are the only ones in the parking lot.

" I am here because I can't bring myself to let go and we both know you have nowhere to go," he says.

"Chance just leave me alone I am seriously demoralized with your mood swing," I say trying to sound calm " I don't have the strength to argue right now"

" Then stop being an emotional bi**ch right now and get in the car let go back home," he says angrily before changing into regret.

"Home?, that place never felt like home to me because you kept shoving it in my face that my stay was only temporary both in your life and in that house," I say through gritted teeth.

"Don't blame this on me because I specially told you to lock down all your feeling for me" he says harshly.

I felt hurt hearing those words from him" I love you" I said firmly blinking away the tears threateningly to fall " with all the shattered pieces of this heart, I love you. And if that is not good enough then don't drag this out, let me go" I said confidently watching his eyes shine with regret but I don't care anymore.

" if I can't have your heart then you can't keep mine prisoner. That's how it works, Love. You don't get to have it all" I say my breath coming out of labor.

"Shiloh..." I cut him off groaning as my face scrunch up in pain " are you alright?" He asks worriedly.

I would be laughing so hard seeing him look anxious for me if I wasn't in so much pain right now" I'm alright" I force out before feeling water roll down my legs as another painful contraction hit me" Chance the baby. Take me to a hospital" I cried out blowing air through my month trying to ease the pain.

I smack Chance's hands away as he tries holding me" go get the baby bag from my car" I say placing my hands on his car holding myself from falling.

Chance took the car keys from me before rushing towards my car parked two cars away from his before running towards me with the bag with him.

He picked me up bridal style before placing me in the back seat and placing the seatbelt over me.

He drives towards the hospital going fast while trying to soothe me from crying in pain.

In no time we reached the hospital, Chance rush into the hospital to get a nurse while I kept crying to get the child out of me.

The door opened before Chance placed me in a wheelchair looking in a panic state.

The three nurses helped in taking me into a room where they placed me on a bed before sending Chance out.

I breathe hard clenching the sheet tightly with sweat rolling down my face and neck, A male doctor walked in before standing in front of leg pulled apart by one of the nurses with a blue cloth covering my exposed thigh" young lady you have to push when you feel the next contraction okay" he says warmly fixing his hand glove properly.

I nod feeling so weak to even form a word, feeling the next contraction I push holding tightly to the bed.

I breathe heavily " try it one more time" he encourages with hands concealed between my thigh.

I push one more time feeling exhausted" okay one last time"

I push on his instruction before closing my eyes feeling exhausted and a strong urge to take a nap.

The doctor sigh as I felt something slip through me but I am too weak to concentrate on anything other than to close my eyes and sleep.

"Doctor we are losing her" a female voice announces sounding alarming.

Ignoring the reason for her distress I close my eyes welcoming the consoling darkness.