Daire's pov-

I stand outside my old home for the longest time. I wanted to knock I really did. But the fear of my own mother was stopping me from doing so.

I feared nothing but that blonde hair, blue-eyed woman. I can meet the scariest person in the world and no one can compare to my fear for the woman that birthed me. I have horrible nightmares about those blue eyes that match mine so well. And for that reason only I was praying that my baby didn't have the eyes that haunt me every day.

"Daire?"

I turn around to see Alfred and Xander standing on the stairs with bags in their hands. I try to smile at Alfred the only person other than my sisters to show me kindness.

"What are you doing here?" Alfred asked walking past me. I gulp as I watch him unlock the door. "I came here to see Colby," I said playing with my rings. "Gravity told me she had a present for me," I said. Alfred turns to me for a second before walking inside the house. Both Xander and I follow behind him.

"You've seen Gravity?" He asked walking over into the kitchen and passing the rowdy dogs.

"Yeah I ran into her at a restaurant, apparently she's engaged now," I mumble playing with the peeling paint on the counter. Alfred nods his head and smiles. "Yep met some rich man a few months ago and he propose like a month ago," He said. "Coffee?" He asked.

I nod my head and walk over to the couch. "How is Hayes," I asked sitting down.

"He's better," Alfred said pouring the coffee into the cup. "He and Amy with to Australia for a little bit to get away," He said walking over to me. I smile and take the mug from his hands. He sits down beside me and pats my back. "How's life going for you, Frost?" He asked taking out a cigarette. I take a long sip from the coffee before responding. "I'm going to be a dad," I said.

"Yo whiteboy, you've gotta give us a warning before you just throw that out," Xander said walking over to us with a sandwich in his hands. "Yeah, my girlfriend is pregnant," I said playing with my hands. "She's about 20 or so weeks along," I mumble avoiding their brown eyes.

"Well congratulations, Frost," Alfred said rubbing my shoulder.

I smile and take a sip from my coffee. "Where is Colby," I asked looking around. Xander swallows his sandwich and smiles wickedly at me. "She's with Janice and she'll be back soon," He said ruffling my hair. "Don't worry whiteboy, nothing will happen to you," He said before walking to the back rooms.

My hands start to shake but I try to hide them in my pockets. I try to smile up at Alfred but fail so I just look down at my shoes. My legs start to bounce uncontrollably and I start to sweat. I lick my chap lips and start to rub my hands together.

"I c-can't wait to see Colby," I told Alfred.

Alfred nods and stands up.

"Hey boys," I said to the dogs as they jump up at me. I scratch one's back and hug the other. "It's so good to see you again," I said rubbing one's neck. Even after 7 years I still couldn't tell the two dogs apart. They both were light brown with white stomachs and paws. I think Alfred was the only person that could tell the two dogs apart. That's why no one but Alfred called them by their names. If I'm being honest I couldn't remember what their names were.

I hear keys start to jiggle and I turn to face the grey door to the apartment.

"Ugh, I fucking hate that soccer coach," Janice groaned as she stepped into the house. "I mean mind your fucking business," She said as she removes her sneakers from her feet. "Like damn get a fucking life and control that damn predator husband of yours."

The barks and growls at my mother and stands in front of me in a protective manner. Something they did since we got them years ago. I owe my life to these dogs saving me from life-threatening beatings.

"What the fuck," Janice said as she drops her bags to the ground.

Colby gasps and covers her mouth with her hands. "Daire," She said running over to me. She jumps into my arms and wraps her arm around my neck. "Oh I've missed you so much," She said into my neck. I wrap my arms around her small body and pull her closer to me. "I missed you more, Minnie mouse," I said pushing her dark damp curls from her face. "Look how big you've gotten," I said. She smiles showing the braces on her teeth. "And you have braces," I said.

She bites her lips trying to hold back tears. "I can't believe your back," She said running her hands through my hair. "I just came to see you, Minnie mouse," I said looking down. Her lips quiver and she glances at Janice who was furious looking at me. "Is it because of Janice?" She asked.

I don't say anything and let go of her. She stands up and backs away from me. "I wanna give you your birthday and Christmas presents," Colby said jumping up and down. She runs away disappearing down the hall.

"It's nice to see you again, Daire," Janice said looking me over as I stood up.

I play with my rings and walk closer to her before stopping a good enough distance away from her. "Hey, mom," I said slightly shaking in fear. She looks at me with so much hatred that made me feel worthless like she's always said I was. "My least favorite son," She said smiling a humorless smile. "It's been a few months hasn't it?" She asked. I nod my head slowly and look down as the dogs slowly walk over to me while growling at Janice.

"I just came here to see Colby," I mumble.

"I'm glad you did, she's been talking about your worthless shit nonstop," She said taking out a cigarette. She lights it up and places it between her lips. "I mean she's being buying you presents with her allowance," She said.

I place my hands in my pockets. "I won't be here long I have to get back home," I said looking at the clock behind her. "She'll be waiting for me," I mumble.

She tilts her head to the side. "I actually met your little girlfriend once as well as her dad," She said exhaling some smoke. "Pretty young thing," She said shaking her head. "Can't believe you are actually still dating her," She said. "Yeah they're having a baby too," Alfred said taking a bite from his sandwich.

"You mean to tell me I'm going to be a grandma?" Janice asked.

I nod my head and bite my nails.

"That's wonderful news Daire, let's just pray the baby is not as worthless as you," She said chuckling to herself.

Tears come to my eyes as I watch her. I quickly wipe them away before she notices them before she calls me a pussy. 'I-I'm going to go see Colby," I said walking down the short hallway. I grab Colby's doorknob and open her door. "Hey, Minnie mouse," I said stepping into the room and shutting the door behind me.

"Here," She said walking over to me. She hands me a small box with newspaper wrapped around it and a blue ribbon. "Thanks, kid," I said unwrapping the paper. I open the box with the biggest smile on my face. "Wow, Colby did you make this yourself?" I asked holding up the bracelet. It was decorated with black beads and a shark tooth in the middle of it.

"I did," She said smiling at me. "I made one for all the boys for Christmas," She mumbles as she hands me another box. "Your birthday picture," She said sitting down next to me. I open it and see a cute picture frame with me and Colby from a few years ago. "I had found the picture and decorated the picture frame for you," She said playing with her sweater.

"Thank you, Colby," I said pulling her into a hug. She wraps her arms around my shoulder and hugs me tightly. "I wish you would come back," She whispers. I pat down her hair and kiss her cheek. "I can't I'm having my own family soon and I need to stay with them," I said rubbing her back.

Colby sniffles and steps back. "You're getting married too?" She asked. I shake my head and laugh. "No Minnie, but I am having a baby," I said. She smiles and wipes her eyes. "I'm going to be the best auntie," She said laughing. I kiss her head and laugh."Yeah, I know."

My phone buzzes and I check and see. "Welp speaking of family my girl is texting," I said standing up. "I need to go but I promise I won't miss your birthday," I said kissing her head.

"I know you won't," She said taking my hand and walking me out of her room.

I walk into the living room to see Janice drinking some wine. "Nice to see you go," She said taking a long sip from her wine.

I sigh and nod towards Alfred. I open the door and give one last wave to Colby before shutting the door and leaving.