“Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right

I go back to December all the time.”

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You don't realize how fortunate you are till misfortune hits. You don't realize how easy everything was till things get harder. You don't think of how much you have till you don't anymore.

"Do you think Alpha Harris would accept your offer?" Reece asked as I was at the door to leave. I was going to Alpha Harris' pack which was a few miles from ours, to ask for help.

I didn't want to reply to him. Especially after talking to Olivia's wolf, when she had told me that the kidnappers had kidnapped Olivia because they think that she's the Luna and she has the access to some stone.

I couldn't help but blame him in the back of my head because had it not been him, and his flirtatious ways, my mate would still have been safe. Although, I knew it was my fault more than his, I couldn't help it. It felt like he did it and I hated him.

"I can hope." I said bluntly, before getting in my car, leaving Reece behind.

I didn't have any time to wait. It killed me to know that my mate is out there... somewhere— detained and I could do nothing about it.

She lied me. Her wolf, she lied when she promised that they don't hurt her when she talked to Lupus. It was a relief to think that she's safe and no one is hurting her.

But as soon as her wolf left, we started feeling her pain. Because of the bond, I felt her pain. It was like a buzzing feeling at my wrists at first that soon progressed into unbearable pain that spread throughout my body from the top of my fingers to the root of my hair.

I screamed out in agony as my heart started aching for it's mate. It was from silver. I could tell. When we get trained, we are acquainted to various kinds of pains. So that we can identify the cause of our pain and accordingly find a heal for it.

Because bullets can be laced by poison or silver, we can only treat ourselves if we find what it is.

But her pain was from silver. I could tell. Your nerves scream in pain and your blood vessels begin to rupture. It didn't happen to that extent to me, because I was feeling just a part of it. But I could only imagine the extent of pain she would have suffered.

I ached for her. And it hurt so so bad. Not the physical pain, but the mental aspect of it.

It took hours for the sensation to go away, and I did nothing to stop it. I didn't try to break the connection, I didn't try to block Lupus of. I just lied down on the floor of my room and I went through it because, first, I knew that I deserved it after all that I have done to her. I deserved every bit of that torture for scarring her, and for physically hurting her that day. I was ashamed of my deeds and I took this as a punishment.

Even though I knew my sins weren't cleared yet.

And secondly, of course, I went through that all because it made me feel like I was there...with her... and she wasn't taking all the blows alone. It was like, I was there to share her pain and I was there to protect her somehow. It felt right to suffer with her. It reminded me that even if I had lost everything, I still had something and that was our bond.

And of course, the pain assured me that she still was there, somewhere, alive. Waiting for me to come.

I remember how a tear or two left my eyes. Not because of the physical pain, but because I was so damn scared. I was petrified. I had no idea how much more her she had suffered and why she was lying. I had no idea if her kidnappers were willing to do more or not. I just... I had no idea.

My chest felt how and my heart ached once the pain went away because now it was replaced by unquenchable fear and insecurity.

I had to be quick and find her. I had to fight for her and bring her back, in my arms. Just make sure that she's okay. Because if anything happens to her, I'd never be able to forgive myself.

I hated my pack members. They selfish pieces of shit. When they thought that Olivia was a regular pack member, they refused to help.

It was only once I told that she is their Beta female, that they agreed to help, if we got enough men. So basically, they wanted assured victory to fight.

What kind of a cowardice is that?

We had to send Olivia's wolf with a message that they had to wait till we could get enough army to attack.

It broke my heart to basically ask to her endure that pain till the assholes in our pack grew some balls, but I had no choice.

I am the beta. Not the alpha. I have limited powers. I couldn't help but wonder if I was the alpha and Olivia was the Luna, everyone would have been eager and honoured to help us. But now what? No one wanted to help.

It made me realize how unfair authority is. And how we let the powerful rule over us and manipulate our thoughts.

We never put ourselves in others shoes. What if someday someone from the ones who refused is taken away? Would they feel nice if their own pack refuses to help them.

At this point I couldn't even imagine how hurt she would have been to realize that no one wanted to rescue her. That no one wanted to risk their lives for her. I just wanted to gather her into my arms and protect her from this cruel world who could get so selfish.

'Oh and that is coming from you? Asshole. Don't forget that you hurt her.' Lupus said in my head and I felt a jolt of regret in my heart.

'How can I forget? You keep on reminding me.' I said, sadly and he scoffed.

I don't think he'll ever forgive me. Heck, I don't think I could ever forgive myself.

For what I did to her, I could never forgive my own self.

I remember hurting her in the classroom on that day. That day when she was taken away. How could I?

Looking at my hands, I felt disgusted. I didn't want to think that the arms that were made to protect his mate, ended up hurting and paining her.

I am the one who deserves to be tied to silver chains. Not her.

But no point crying over spilt milk right? I can't reverse what I did but I can save her now. I can now bring her back and take care of her till all her wounds are healed. Even if she refuses to see my face, and tells me that she has nothing to do with me anymore— I'd take care of her and fight for her, because that's what she did for me.

And because she deserves it. Because she deserves everything I never gave her.

It's been 7 days.

Literally. 7 days since I have been traveling from pack to pack for help but no one is ready to help because they fear the infamous pack of rogues that has washed out most of the packs in southern America due to their power.

Werewolf community has now reduced to a bunch of wussies who can't fight for each other. I figured.

Alpha Peters were the only one who were close to accepting my offer, only because our pack had promised them a share in our weapon finances. The werewolf committee assigns a weapon budget to each pack in order to check the growth of metallic weapons (which is highly discouraged) and it was hard to buy a lot of weapons because of that. You can share that budget with a pack as a sign of gratitude and that's what we were willing to do.

But he had not completely accepted my proposal and I was still trying to convince. So I decided to call Reece. Since he's the future Alpha and a lot better negotiator than me, he'd have a better infiuence.

"Dude, I get it. Don't worry, I'll handle." He told me, as soon as he got there and I nodded my head.

I was naturally extremely stressed out about this entire thing because first, it's been a week and I haven't talked to Olivia's wolf and also because we didn't have much time in hand.

"Try your best." I request him, even though I had to, as I left the room. But in this time of crisis, I had to.

He nodded and entered the meeting room where Alpha Peters were waiting for him.

I sighed and walked down the hall to the gym. I have been training hard these days. I have been trying to grow as much muscle and power as possible so that I can knock off as many enemies as possible.

I was almost there when I fished my pockets for my phone to realize that I had left it in the meeting room.

Groaning, I turned around and started walking back. I hate how forgetful I am when it comes to phones.

I was at the door of the meeting room, to push it open when I heard something that made me halt and eavesdrop.

"You don't have to do it, Alpha Peters." Reece said in a cool voice and I could clearly hear him.

Alpha Peters replied in a second, sounding confused. "But I thought you were her to negotiate...?"

"Oh, forget about that." Reece said, dismissingly. "It's just that he's my beta and I don't want to disrespect him but that doesn't change the fact that he's going crazy and irrational. Ever since his mate has been taken away, he thinks we can beat the ferocious rogue pack with half of our army already injured and no Gamma. If you help us then you'd be the one at loss and we might still lose causing you to lose your kingdom. So I'd, as a fellow Alpha and well wisher, suggest you to not get into this and decline. I'll tell him that I tried my best."

"Oh...okay..." Alpha Peters began to trail off but before he could complete his sentence and Reece could spew more venom, I burst inside the room, slamming the door open and grabbed Reece by his neck in anger.

"YOU BASTARD." I growled loudly, pressing his neck with a pressure that made him cough.

He hit my arm to free his neck and aimed for my nose but I blocked his punch and tried to hit him in the stomach. He dodged at the end moment and elbows my ribs, causing me to groan in pain and back off. But I didn't stop and punch his jaw.

He staggered back and blood came out of his mouth which he spit on the ground. I lunged to punch him more but he grabbed my arms and blocked me.

"What the fuck is your problem, bro?" He asked me and my eyes burned with anger and disgust.

He had the audacity to ask that? After what I heard? I didn't care if he was the Alpha and if it was not allowed to hit him. He could banish me from the pack if he wants, because honestly I didn't want to work for this pack of backstabbers anyway. I had trusted him. I didn't know he was this poisonous.

"Because you are a son of a bitch," I growled again and grabbed his collar, pushing him towards the wall.

"Tell me, huh," I said, "tell me why you did this. And what else dirt you have caused."

He first pretended to be shocked and tried to deny everything, but soon he realized that he was not exposed and could do nothing about it so he sighed and confessed.

"Listen Chance. You are still my Best friend and I do care for you. But this was for my mate and I had no other choice. So yes, I did use your mate. I used your mate to protect mine so that it was her that the rogues took away in place of mine."

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