It has been months since we started dating, and now its the start of the end of the year. His birthday month. My relations with my dad improved, though we still are on only-talk-when-work terms. Yes, I am his daughter and a lot of chaos was caused when I mentioned it to college authorities to repeal my scholarship. I can't be studying for free when I was not an orphan anymore.

But I always had the support of Tae, my friends and my family. Yes, my family.

1st December, 6:00 PM

Savage Sasha

Savage Sasha:

So. Whatcha doin?

Me:

Studying

Savage Sasha:

Lol 😂

Me:

What happened to you?

Savage Sasha:

Eh?

Me:

Come on.

I can easily identify your tone

Usually you're like, "hey gurl,

are you alive?" 😂😂

Savage Sasha:

😑😑

Me:

So.. continue..

Savage Sasha:

U remember Ronan?

Me:

Ryan's friend?

Savage Sasha:

Yeah. He proposed me.

Me:

Wait what?

How? when ?

Savage Sasha:

Just 5 mins before.

He just joined our company

as an interior designer.

He said he had feeling for me

since long but he was forced

to go to the west for studies.

What should I do?

Me:

Idk

Savage Sasha:

He is really sweet but so was

Ryan. And more of it, he was

Ryan's friend. What if he turns

out to be like him?

Me:

Ronan was never like Ryan.

They were like two opposite

poles. I don't even know how

they were friends.

Savage Sasha:

Does this mean, I should try

dating him?

Me:

Maybe.

Savage Sasha:

Well I thought so too..

He is good looking.

Me:

You beauty digger 😂😂

Savage Sasha:

No!!

He was really sweet.

Me:

Hope he is better.

Don't rush this time to marriage, huh?

Savage Sasha:

Yeah 😓

Me:

Byee... I gtg.

Savage Sasha:

Byee.

1st December, 6:40 PM

Prince Charming

Me:

Ukw??

Prince Charming:

Yes ik

Me:

No you don't.

Prince Charming:

You knew it.

Then why ask?

Me:

😗😗

What happened to you now?

Prince Charming:

Nothing

Me:

Tell me. Maybe I can help.

Prince Charming:

I want to

*Deletes message*

Me:

I already saw it.

What is it that you want?

Prince Charming:

Never mind what I want.

Me:

Oh just cut the crap and get

to the point.

Prince Charming:

I want to meet you. I want to

see you.

Me:

Should I video call?

Prince Charming:

Not as a call or as a text.

I want to hold you, I want to

feel your presence near me.

I want to breathe you. I

want to fucking realise that

you are not my fantasy.

You are real!!

I knew what he meant. I knew it so well. I felt the same but he saying this set a pang in my heart. He is usually the once who is cheerful among us.

Me:

Oh. You're horny 😏😏

Prince Charming:

I am not joking.

Not even a fraction.

Mistake. I did it! That sounded insensitive of you Kaylie. I slapped my forehead and sighed.

Me:

Sorry ..

Prince Charming:

Its okay. Forget this.

What were you telling?

He would never accept how low he is feeling but it is more than clear from the way he is texting. It made me anxious, what should I do?

Me:

Nm.. Sasha is dating

Prince Charming:

Congratulate her from my side

Me:

Sure

Bye💜

Prince Charming:

Bye

Fanboy

Fanboy:

What's my bitch doing?

Me:

Something you can't do -

using my brain!

Fanboy:

How can I even expect an answer

from you!

Me:

U gotcha ma bitch

Fanboy:

Well, I wanted to ask something.

Me:

Materialistic world. U never

message me first if u have no

work.

Fanboy:

Cut the chase.

I am proposing Dan today..

Me:

Dont mind me I'm FREAKING

OUT!!

Fanboy:

I want your help!

I've got the ring, bouquet, cake

and everything. I've booked a

cabin... Anything else.

Me:

What r u wearing?

Fanboy:

Black tuxedo suit

Me:

Nuh uh.

The most essential-

1. Smile

2. Confidence

3. Love

And you're it

Fanboy:

U are worst at this advicing

shit. I'll go to Sasha for help

Me:

😑😑

Jamless Jimin

Me:

Hey Jimin, u there?

Jamless Jimin:

No I am not checking on him.

Me:

Noo

Jamless Jimin:

I am not being the mediator

Me:

Noo

Jamless Jimin:

I'm giving you no tea of

him.

Me:

Noo

Jamless Jimin:

Ok. Now this seems new.

Whats it?

Me:

Finally.

Is he somewhere near you?

Jamless Jimin:

And here we go again

Me:

Are you speaking or not?

Jamless Jimin:

*Texting.

Me:

Jamless Jimin:

Woah. Girl calm down.

No he is nowhere near me.

Me:

Cool. So. Its a secret okay?

Jamless Jimin:

Me:

😑😑

M coming to Seoul for his bday.

Jamless Jimin:

Really??

Me:

Yes.

Jamless Jimin:

Are you sure? Students have

such money?

Me:

I have that much.

I had my art displayed in a

gallery!!

Jamless Jimin:

Oh wow.

He must be super excited.

Me:

No.. he doesn't know.

Its a surprise.

Jamless Jimin:

Wow!! Now thats a bop!

Me:

Uk.. i'm still not used to bts

using their own memes.😂😂

Jamless Jimin:

They are just so good.

Me:

Yeah they are.

Jamless Jimin:

Army's are so talented.

Even I read some fanfics and

they were absolutely amazing.

Me:

U READ FANFICTION??

LIKE YOUR OWN FANFIC?

Jamless Jimin:

Yeah so?

Me:

Nothing.

Jamless Jimin:

You're so weird.

Me:

So. Coming to the point.

I'm booking my tickets for

28th December.

Jamless Jimin:

Cool

Me:

U can't tell him, okay?

Jamless Jimin:

You don't have to repeat it.

I know what's a surprise.

Me:

R u sure?

Jamless Jimin:

Why are people doubting me?

Me:

Cause u got no jams😂

Jamless Jimin:

Fucking Get lost

Me:

😂😂

5th December, 9:00 PM

Incoming call: Prince Charming

Accept / Decline

[Heyya!!]

[*Smooching sound*

I love you]

[Are you drunk?]

[Yup!]

[Are you proud of it?]

[Yup!]

[Where are you?]

[Somewhere u can't be]

[Yeah but where?]

[In my room]

A wave of relief rode over me. He's safe.

[Kaylie?]

[Mm?]

[I want to ask something]

[Hmm]

[Am I betraying Armys by dating you?]

I gulped that felt like thorns in my throat. Is he? Will our relationship be accepted by Armys? I know there are people who will support him at any point like me. But, there's a great number who probably won't like it. His voice sounded so weak and hurt. What should I say now?

[Why aren't you saying anything]

[Cause.. cause you are not in your senses]

[I am not that drunk.]

[I don't know what to say...

Sometimes I just forget that you

are a world famous idol]

[Hah! I wish I could once

forget that I am an idol and

really do what I want to]

[What is it that you want to do?]

[I want to officially announce

our relationship]

[Umm-]

[Don't worry I'll not do it.

It would become such a hassle

for you. But the thing that I

am lying to people who

always supported me, doesn't

feel right]

[I understand]

[So. What should I do?]

I inhaled deeply. I clearly had no idea what I should say. His clear tone was suppressed with a sort of heaviness as it was still shaky due to the alcohol influence.

[Are you there?]

[Yeah. I'm there. Announce it if you want to. I would handle what comes in my way. Don't worry about me]

[Crazy]

[Huh?]

[You're so crazy. I can never

risk your life. You don't know

to what extent people can

go and how dangerous

they can be]

[Oh dude. I am dangerous as hell.

I'll just hold them and punch them

and they'll land kilometres away]

[Haha! What are you? A super

woman?]

I can't explain how relieved I felt when he laughed. It was as if a boulder lifted up from my chest, but it was still heavy. I am not letting him come back on this. Not until I have an answer.

[You know? Patrick proposed Danny]

[Wow. Really?]

[Yeah. And she accepted it.

Even stepmom agreed of their

relationship.]

[Thats great. I wish I cou-]

I know whats coming up now. Kaylie, use your brain. Change the topic

[You know, Sean asked me out]

Fuck. This was not supposed to be out. Wrong timing.

[What? Who's Sean? What did you

say? And why are you fucking

telling it to me now?]

[Calm down there. Sean is

my classmate. And obviously, I

refused it. And I didn't tell you

because I forgot]

[You forgot? You did not!

You intentionally did not tell me]

[Yeah, you know me so well

ma love. I just didn't want to

bother you when it meant

nothing.]

[Oh crap. Now I don't know

whether I want to kiss you rn or

throw you off a cliff]

[Can I choose?]

[Haha. But seriously, what

did you say?]

[I said that I am committed.]

[You told him?]

[I didn't tell him that I am

dating you tho. I just told

him that I dating someone.]

[Is he troubling you?]

[Not at all. He is a nice

man]

[Whatever]

[Wait. Are you jealous?]

[Obviously he can see you everyday]

[You don't give me a chance

to tease you]

[What a liar. You tease me all day!]

[Haha. Is it babyboy?]

[Look]

[*laughs out loud*]

[*Laughs unintentionally*

I was really sad a minute before]

[Aww my baby was sad?

Should I sing for you?

~Baby you light up my world

like no body else. The way you

flip your hair gets me overwhelmed.

But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell

You don't know

Oh, oh

You don't know you're beautiful]

[DON'T EVER SING AGAIN!

Bahahahha!! I think my ears

are bleeding]

[Woah!! I was singing for you!!

You just wait!

~~If only you saw what I can see

You'd understand why I want you so desperately

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe

You don't know

Oh, oh

You don't know you're beautiful

Oh, oh

THATS WHAT MAKES YOU

BEAUTIFUL. OH OH ]

[Stop!! Stop it!!

BAHAHA]

[~YOU DON'T KNOW YOU'RE

BEAUTIFUL. OH OH]

[You're such a bad singer!]

[Oh for fuck sake. It was grammy

level voice. I'm just not getting

any platform. Oh by the way, you

can support my singing talent]

[Never. Bahahaha]

[Why?]

[Baby, I love you. I really do.

But that isn't talent. Thats

practically screaming]

[Woah. You just don't realise.

Just wait and watch]

[Haha sure]

[*Chuckles*]

And yet we continued bickering till he fell asleep on the line and I ended the call, leaving me alone with my thoughts. What should we do?