16th July, 4:16 PM

*Dispatch: BTS's Taehyung engaged? Kpop idol xxxxxx spotted out of Bighit official. Pictures attached*

Taebae

Taebae:

Kaylie..

Me:

You don't need to explain.

I know these people can be

frustrating. I've been a fan

for so long now.

Taebae:

Noo..

Me:

Hm?

Taebae:

It was all done by my family.

Me:

What do you mean?

Tae look!

Dont scare me.

Taebae:

I'm sorry

Call Taebae?

Yes / No

[WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?!

HOW CAN THEY DECIDE

WITHOUT YOUR CONSENT?

AND ARE YOU OKAY WITH IT?

DO YOU EVEN LOVE ME?

OR WAS IT JUST A PRANK?]

[Calm down. Well you're cute

when you're angry]

[HOW CAN I FUCKING CALM DOWN?

I thought everything was getting be-]

[I was kidding!!]

[what? WHAT??]

[I just thought that you were taking it way too lightly. Am sorry... I didn't mea-]

[You think I am cute while am angy?

Then get ready.

CAUSE I'M GONNA BE FUCKING GORGEOUS.

Are you fucking insane? Or am I a joke to you?]

[No, I was ju-]

[SHUT UP. Will you just SHUT UP? or better still BYE!!]

Call ended

Anger was flashing in my veins, I squeezed my eyelids, trying to calm down the rage penting up - it's different. I am furious, I had been many times, but I want to be angry; its so complicated.

It hurts but it hurts so good? No. It is not how being hurt feels, I don't know this feeling. Its new to me. I sighed at myself being happy while angry, what's with my mood?

And suddenly the songs, the poems made sense. They were made for him.

He softens me in ways I could not believe anyone ever could.

Storms run through my veins whenever he lays his deep brown eyes on me, even on a video call and I feel calm when I hear his soothing voice. Untill him, I was burried under the misunderstanding that i am hard to love but he makes it seem so easy. He does it so effortlessly.

I picked up my phone that was beeping like it would explode any moment.

Taebae

Taebae:

I'm sorry!!!

Please answer the call.

I didn't thought you would think it to be true.

I thought you would not fall into the trap.

I was insensitive.

Please Kaylie, I am sorry.

Me:

Aren't you kidding too much

nowadays?

Taebae:

I'm sorry 🥺🥺

Me:

It's okay next time I'll be careful

of the playful assassin.

Taebae:

No really I never thought that u

will fall in the trap.

Me:

I am still angry you know?

Taebae:

I'm sorry I hurt you so many times.

I made you cry..

I made you angry..

I don't know

I don't know how to love you.

Do I hurt you?

Me:

No. You didn't hurt me.

Don't undermine yourself, Tae.

It was a prank, like we always

do with each other.

I was stupid to fall into the trap.

Yes, you did made me angry but

it's okay.

Now tell me. I know things won't be

easy there as well.

Taebae:

Me:

Ugh..

I can't even be angry on you.

I said its okay and even I am

sorry, I was quite rude.

Taebae:

It happens.

About the agency. Yeah, its a bit

hectic. So its a secret but actually

her contract with her company is

declining and she is joining

Bighit, starting as a trainee. So, she

came there.

We are clarifying our part. But she

isn't giving a statement. Her manager

is still finding 'appropriate words'

Me:

Omg, she is leaving that company?

Wow. I really liked her. Hope she

does good there too.

Taebae:

Really? This is what you have to say?

Me:

You want me to be angry?

How dare she? How can she do it?

I absolutely hate her!!

Taebae:

Wtf 😂😂

Me:

Chill. You'll be fine. But why its

always her in all the rumours?

Taebae:

Is someone being jealous??

😏😏

Me:

Is someone trying to be cocky when he is already is at fault?

Taebae:

😬

Me:

😂😂

Taebae:

So. When are u shifting to the hostel?

Me:

2nd August. The session starts on 5th August.

Taebae:

Cool

Days on, I'll be busier.

But, I'll try my best to contact

you.

Me:

Are we getting something new 👀

Taebae:

Yeah 😉

Me:

What's it?

Taebae:

Nah

Me:

Pweese

Taebae:

Nah naa na

Me:

Taebae:

Are you bribing me?

Me:

Maybe.

*Inserts winking selfie*

Taebae:

Me:

Ewwww

Thats creepy!!!

Don't do it.

Taebae:

😚😚

Me:

Time for me to get lost.

Byee 💕💕

Taebae:

Bye 💜

TAEHYUNG'S POV

I felt something today, I felt confident.

My muscles moved in sync calling Sasha with a broad smile as if plastered on my face.

[Hel-]

[I love her!]

[Huh?]

[I love her. I truly do. I knew from the way her eyes slightly drooped from not enough sleep the night before that I was in love with her. I knew from the way her fingers softly intertwined

with mine that I was in love with her. I knew from the way her laugh made a pitch black room suddenly fill with colour that I was in love with her. I knew from the fact that friends and family noticed me being happier lately that I was in love with her. I knew from the moment we met and she cried on my shoulder because she felt so safe that I was in love with her. I knew that from the excitement that filled her and I when we first saw each other that I was in love with her. I knew from the way her humour reached unknown heights that challenged mine that I was in love with her. I knew that from the happiness she gave me that I was in love with her. Since I met her I was in love with her. She resonates deep within me, each day a little farther in. She makes a home out of me and I hold her softly each time she does. I couldn't ever not be in love with her.]

[Detailed huh? You just spoke it in a breath. Good job. Be happy guys. My wishes are with you]

[Thanks]

Call ended

END OF TAEHYUNG'S POV

1st August, 5:00 PM

Taebae

Taebae:

Done packing?

Me:

Almost.

Taebae:

What's left?

Me:

You. Come here and make your

self comfortable in my trolley bag.

Taebae:

🤦

Me:

How's you?

Taebae:

Was good, now better😁

Me:

Cheesy.

Taebae:

😂😂

3rd August, 2:00 PM

Taebae

Me:

.

Woah. This place is cool.

My roommate's name is Stacy.

And she looks like a really

sweet but pampered girl. 😂

4:00 PM : The food here is not great.

6:17 PM : I remembered, I am still an

orphan

8:00 PM : I am not going back to him.

I am done.

10:00 PM : Am I right?

12:00 AM : Should I reconcile?

Taebae:

Sorry sorry.

I was busy.

Me:

Have you eaten yet?

Taebae:

Just going to eat.

Me:

Are you crazy? Just go and EAT!!

Are you a kid?

Taebae:

I'm on a diet.

Me:

Fuck that toxic diet!

You gotta eat to survive.

Taebae:

I've gained weight.

Me:

You seem perfectly fine to me.

Go to the mirror and look

at your handsome face and

perfect physique!

Taebae:

I'm perfectly fine with the diet.

You tell. What about your dad?

Me:

I don't really know.

Taebae:

Don't run from it

Me:

I am not running from it

I think bout it each day.

But I just can't come to a conclusion.

I cannot just forgive him!

Taebae:

Then don't!

Me:

Huh?

Taebae:

But talk to him.

Let him make an attempt

to prove his sincerity.

Then decide. Even after that, if

you're unsure, then leave him be.

You said, he loved your mom, right?

I know he did a mistake, or I should

say, a sin! But he must have felt

pangs in his heart too. I am not

justifying him.

Me:

It must be so easy to say right?

Ask me!

A little child left all alone.

Ask me how many time I

burnt myself trying to light the

gas stove.

Ask me how I've tried to hold

back my tears each night.

Ask me how it felt being awake

each night, fearing nightmares

of loneliness.

He was not there when I needed

him, how can he just pop up

out of the blue and expect me to

resume life from where he left?

How can I possibly just forget a decade

of heartbreak?

I think, I got my answer. I cannot

forgive him.

Taebae:

Are you sure?

Me:

At least for now.

Am working on that artwork

for Sasha's gallery right now.

Taebae:

Show show 👀

Me:

Nah na na

*Someone having deja vu?*

Taebae:

Oh come on!

Me:

Not until I finish it.

Taebae:

Oohkay 🤐

Me:

Are you sure about that diet thing?

I've heard about those

toxic diets of kpop idols.

Taebae:

Is ever so stoic Kaylie caring

for me??

Like wow!!

Me:

Stop joking around.

I am pretty serious.

Taebae:

Don't worry. Its not any toxic

diet.

Me:

Lets see.

If you become sick or something,

I'm gonna burn down that industry

Taebae:

You're gonna make me jobless 😂😂

Me:

Oh ya, right.

Then I'll just hand choke your

dietitian.

Taebae:

I support no violence 😂😂

Chill babe, its just a diet.

I am accustomed to it.

Me:

😗😗

If you say so.

Take care. 💕

Taebae:

Me:

😂😂