Saturday, 3:35 AM.

Me:

Do you know I am meeting

Ryan's mom tomorrow.

Shyboy: Why?

Me: He asked me for help

He and Sasha broke up.

Shyboy: why???

Me: I don't know.

Shyboy: Are you Okay?

Me: No I am not

Shyboy: It's gonna be okay.

Me: Huh!! What the fuck am

I doing? Just making me more

pathetic?!

Shyboy:

Just because you have

a job in the morning time

doesn't mean everyone is

awake!!

Me:

😳

Shyboy:

By the way, why am I shy boy?

Me:

I missed you🥺🥺

Shyboy:

😳😳

Me:

I missed you so freaking much.

😭😭

Shyboy:

Me too

Me:

I am sorry!

Forgive me😭

Shyboy:

Me too.

Me:

But you don't need to.

It was my fault 😭😭

Shyboy:

I didn't think what I was

doing, I was only thinking that

if you could accept money

from Patrick, then why not

from me... I'm sorry.

Me:

Patrick is my brother.

Shyboy:

😳😳

Me:

Someone was jealous 😏😏

Shyboy:

No I was not!!

Me:

Shyboy:

I wanted to ask you

something...

Me:

Just ask anything.

Shyboy:

Did you really just

react that way cause I

sent you money?

How did he know? The little hair at the back of my neck raised as my heart started beating loudly like some explosion of energy within. All I could do was to witness how strange it was that he knew.

Me:

...

Shyboy:

You can tell me.

Me:

First it was my stepmom,

who complained why her

son was paying for my

hospital fees.

Then it was Sasha's message

that she'll ask Ryan to

pay for my tuition fees

cause she pities me, she

didn't say it but it was quite

evident and immediately after

your message came, I was not in my right mind, and I texted rubbish.

Shyboy:

I am sorry, I didn't realize.

Me:

Why are you always blaming

yourself.

You know, you are the sweetest

person I had ever seen.

Shyboy:

Me:

🤣🤣

By the way, why were you sad?

Shyboy:

How did you know?

Me:

Your hyung contacted me

yesterday.

Shyboy:

Oh!

I just felt lonely.

Me:

Shyboy:

😂😂

Me:

Just tell me

Shyboy:

It's just sometimes, I feel

there is no on around me.

I feel so empty as if no one

cares. My life seems so forced

as if I am living a fake one,

there is no reality.

Me:

Then let's have a baby!

Shyboy:

Me:

Nooo... I mean let's have a

pet, and he'll be my baby

too.

You know it really helps I read

it on the internet.

Shyboy:

How did you know that..

Me:

That?

Shyboy:

That... I have depression.

Me:

It was just evident..

You talking to an unknown

number..

Blaming yourself each time

Wanting privacy but feeling

lonely.

It was enough for me to tell.

Shyboy:

You can't tell anyone.

Me:

Hello!! Listen!!

There's a man right here

I know but I don't know the name

He is depressed.

Should I be saying this?

🤣🤣

Shyboy:

Me:

😂😂

Shyboy:

So what pet should I get?

Me:

A horse?? 😍😍

Shyboy:

What?? A horse??

Really?

No!

Me:

Why🥺🥺

Shyboy:

Where will I keep it?

Me:

Then a puppy?

Shyboy:

Sounds better.

I'll get it tomorrow.

Me:

Wow, really?

Shyboy:

It's 3 in the morning,

can I sleep, please!!

Me:

Oh sorry😜

Byeee

Instead of all that that has been happening with my life, I feel so refreshed today. It feels as if a boulder has been lifted from my heart. I still have so much to worry about but it feels as if I can do it.

I stretched my self like a cat on my bed and went back on my table, opening the textbook. I will not be able to study today, I have to go with Ryan. The insecurity again lingered over me but I shrugged it off. I had no control over now, I had already made a stupid decision and now I have to pay off for it.

Saturday, 11:00 AM

Shyboy:

I got our baby

Me:

REALLY? SHOW IT TO

ME😍😍😍😍

Shyboy:

Calm down, am sending

the pic

Me:

Shyboy:

You like it?

Me:

Shyboy:

Even my hyungs love him

Thanks for the idea😉

Me:

Shyboy:

😉😉😉😉

Me:

Shyboy:

😂😂😂

I have named it yeontan.

Me:

It's soooo cuteee!!

I love it!!

Shyboy:

Hehe😝

Change Shyboy to Yeontan's dad?

Yes / No