Jungkook sat on the couch in the living room fiddling with his fingers for hours. He was nervous. He was scared. He did not want to lose her...again.

Jungkook has been sitting in the room waiting for Y/N to come out of her room for quite a long time. All the boys and the girls were here except the one. Even Irene and Kai were here and as always they were bickering.

"It's fine Jungkook! Chill" Taehyung tried comforting but Jungkook was way to caught up into emotions to get affected by those comforting words

Everyone was lost in their world and they did not notice the additional presence that had entered the room.

"What are you doing here?" She said in cold voice

The noise of voices dropped with that cold tone. Jungkook's head shot up as he looked at her with soft eyes but the latter had enough.

"Y/N...." He whispered

"Leave" She said straightforwardly

"P-Please listen to me o-" Jungkook was cut off

"Get out!" She said in an angered tone

Baekhyun who was in the kitchen came rushing to the living room to see his sister with coldest look he has ever seen in her face. Her lips said something while her eyes potrayed clear desperation of her soul, but her body and mind had enough. Her head shot towards him and Baekhyun shivered at the look.

"What is he still doing here?" Y/N asked harshly

"Y/N talk it out with him" Baekhyun said

"That's not the answer to my question. Anyway why is he still here?" Y/N asked emphasising on each word

"Cause he wants to sort things out with you Y/N..." Mae answered

"Sort what out?" Y/N asked giving a amused expression.

"He still loves you Y/N" Taehyung answered

"Love? Me?" Y/N asked sarcastically and then laughed

"You call this love?" Y/N said pulling her t-shirt showing the scars on her necks and hands

"Tell me you call this love!? Then tell, who the fucking hell treats the one they love this way?!" She said loudly

"Y/N..... I am sorry..." Jungkook said

"Are you? Oh my god did Jeon Jungkook just say sorry to me?" Y/N said sarcastically pointing her fingers at herself

"The slut..." She completed

"No...no.. please don't say that" Jungkook whispered while shaking his head as tears dropped down his eyes

"Don't do this please...." He begged but she couldn't be less bothered

"Do what? I am just restating your quotes" She said

"Y/N trust me we have seen him suffering for the past few months because he felt guilty. Please don't do this to him" Irene said

Y/N stood there with amused expression as she started clapping leaving everyone confused.

"Wow Jungkook, is that how much you hate me? I mean the only two friends I had you have even bought them under your spell...nice" Y/N said nodding his head as a sign of recognition.

"No Y/N listen to me please, I understand how you fee-" Jungkook got cut off again

"NO YOU DON'T! YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL AND THAT IS WHY YOU HAVE BEEN THIS INSENSITIVE TOWARDS ME ALL THESE YEARS!" Y/N snapped as tears ran down her eyes

Jungkook flinched at her sudden raise of voice but he did not feel upset about it. That's because he knew....he deserved it.

"You don't know how it feels to be humiliated, told you're not the worth your life for four fucking years continuous!! You don't know what it feels like to be slut shamed!! You do not know what it feels like to be raped several times without anyone watching or coming for help while you scream your lungs out!! You do not know shit so shut the fuck up!!!" She spat at him.

She started shaking as she cried. Everyone felt broken watching her that way. Jungkook felt his heart shatter to million pieces.

"I-I was r-raped by f-four guys at the same time" She stopped as she cried

Jungkook's tears flew down his eyes.

"And after that I started bleeding down there but they could not care less" She said wiping her tears

"Then you know what happened they started to burn my body with cigarettes they had and made cuts over those burn marks" She said gritting her teeth as the pain flushed through her mind

"But I don't blame them you know..." She paused

"How can I when you were the one who started it? When you were the one who initiated the movement! When you were the first one who attempted to rape me! You might have done it as well, if your drunk ass didn't pass out!!" She said as she harshly poked her fingers on his chest while pointing at him.

Jungkook looked down at her with guilty eyes. She was looking at him with hurt and disappointed eyes.

"You're fucking selfish Jungkook! So fucking selfish that just to get what you want you make other people go against the barrier and unfortunately I was that barrier once. You wanted to ruin me and you did! Why are you here now? To watch the show, how I have gone insane from trauma? How well you have succeeded? Well congratulations! You're at the right place and this is where you get your achievement award. By watching me suffer"

"Y/N...I am sorry...." He said looking down as tears made its way down his face.

"Hey! Why are you crying?! It's your happy day! You accomplished what you wanted. Oh wait! Happy tears they are. Right!" Y/N said as she mocked him trying to hurt him in every way possible. His defeated expression made her heart clench but she had enough of this.

"Y/N please just one more chance....I-I promise I will make it up to you...we can work this through" Jungkook whispered almost begging

"NO WE CAN'T JUNGKOOK! DON'T YOU SEE?! ARE YOU BLIND?! YOU CRUSHED EVERYTHING INTO PIECES!? EVEN AFTER DOING ALL THIS YOUR TELLING ME WE CAN WORK THIS THROUGH?! HOW FUCKING MORE SELFISH AND INCONSIDERATE CAN YOU GET?!" She yelled at him as frustration seeped through her veins. Her nostrils flaring as tears of hurt and anger made its way down her face. Her hands clenched into fists as she looked at him.

"It's all your fault my life has become this way! You are the root of all this! You're the fucking worst! I fucking hate you!" She spat as she started to hit his chest.

Jungkook just looked at her crying while cursing at him. Suddenly her hitting stopped and she fell down to the floor breaking into loud sobs. She started crying out loud.

Everyone looked at her shocked. Baekhyun broke into tears seeing his sister in this condition.

Jungkook fell down to his knees infront of Y/N who was curled up beside the sofa with a hand on her head as she sobbed. He went behind her and hugged her from behind.

"I am sorry...I am so so sorry babygirl...I am really sorry" He said crying into her neck.

Hearing his words it made Y/N cry harder. Baekhyun came and sat beside her and the other did the same surrounding her. Jungkook held the fragile girl tightly afraid she would fade away if he let her go.

"Why did you do this to me?Why..." Y/N said crying

"I am sorry... I am really sorry..." He said crying harder

Y/N covered her face crying. As much as she missed him but she knew he should not get everything that easily. She did not want herself to be treated like an object. She was not one. Her self respect should have a position. Love was an emotion she felt deeply for him. But she now understood what people meant when they say that people step their feet into the pool of mistakes with more interest than what shall give them peace. That's exactly what she did. She stepped into his life.

Her self-confidence and self-esteem was crushed by him in every way possible. He broke her in ways that was unexplainable and nothing he does can make up for his mistakes. Forgiving might be an easy task. People say big hearts forgive people despite the grave mistakes they do. But do big hearts forget? A grudge still remains inside them unknowingly and they mask it as a bad memory. Y/N might forgive him but she can never forget what he did to her. She loved him. Unconditionally. But the pain and betrayal she felt was way beyond any abuse he had done to her. He questioned her character and framed her for something she did not do. Not once, did the fact that she could not have done it cross his mind. That's what hurt her the most. He thought of her that lowly to believe she was capable of doing such in a heart beat. She began to squirm in his grip.

She tried getting out of Jungkook's grip but he only held her tighter. She cried as she felt the tight grip and the sobs. She felt broken by the state of the situation. She just wanted to give into his warmth but she knew that this time she had to stand her ground. She wanted to be treated like a human and not sone robot, which we kick when it's not working and start to take care when it is.

She harshly got out of Jungkook's grip and got up. Jungkook hurriedly got up to get her back but she yanked his hand off. Jungkook looked at her surprised

"Don't touch me! Leave" She said sternly looking at him with bloodshot eyes.

"Y/N-" Jungkook got cut

"GET OUT!" Y/N shouted

"Chubs calm down. It's not good for your health" Baekhyun said trying to calm her down but she wouldn't budge

"It's either me or him" She said looking at Baekhyun

"Chubs..." Baekhyun whispered

"Choose. If you want me to stay then he can't stay. I give you a day" She says

"And what if he chooses Jungkook to stay?" Yoongi challenged making Y/N look at him

"Then I would forget the fact that I ever had a brother. And if he does..." Her words halted.

She looked at Baekhyun.

"Then thank you for the stay, I'll find my own accomodation, be it the streets!"

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