I stare at Ryder's sleeping face, trying to memorize every detail of it, just in case the plan doesn't work.

I reach out with a hand and lightly stroke his cheek, not trying to wake him. I just want to stay here in his arms forever.

Damn, I'm really sappy nowadays aren't I? This is why I wanted to stay by myself, so nobody would care if I disappeared. But meeting Ryder has been one of the best things to ever happen to me so I don't regret letting him in.

I only want his safety.

Fuck, this plan better fucking work.

Suddenly, Ryder grabs my hand and flips us over so I'm under him and he's hovering over me.

I yelp.

He stares down at me and bursts out laughing, giving out on his arms and letting himself lay completely on me.

I smile.

"Don't scare me like that! What the heck?" I say, pushing on his shoulder. I still grin, despite my statement.

He takes a deep breath and gets up off me, sliding to the floor on his feet.

"The boys brought our stuff last night." He says noticing our suitcases on the ground.

I nod.

He stretches and turns to look at me.

"So what are we doing today?" He hops in place as if he's getting ready for a game.

I chuckle.

"Let's go...on a date." I smile at Ryder and his face lights up even more.

"Yeah... let's." He turns his head to the side, trying to hide his wide grin from me.

So cute.

He nods and heads towards the bathroom, looking back at me with each couple of steps he takes, still grinning.

I wave as he slips into the bathroom. He winks and the door finally shuts.

I sigh. My hand plops down and I let my head fall back into the pillow.

Why is keeping this from him so hard? I'm going to tell him, just after I'm gone.

It's fine.

I turn and put my face in the pillow. I scream as hard as I can into it, cussing out Caleb, my father, his stupid group, my mother, and even myself.

I take a deep breath.

These couple of days are going to be fun and hopefully not our last.

So stop thinking about the bad things, shut the fuck up.

Ryder is the only person who matters right now. He's the one I want to be happy with.

The door opens and I jump up, blinking rapidly as Ryder comes out the bathroom with only a towel around his waist.

His abs glisten in the sunlight from the window and I bite my lip.

Damn, I really know how to pick them, don't I?

His eyes meet mine and he continues walking towards me. He passes his suitcase and comes to sits on the bed next to me.

His eyes trail down my face and settle on my lips. He looks up at my eyes and then down at my lips, constantly switching.

I scoff.

He pauses looking into my eyes.

"I'm sorry." He says.

My eyebrows scrunch up in confusion.

"What?" I ask.

He scoohes closer to me and grabs my hand. I try to ignore his abs and the fact he's practically naked under that towel. Well he is naked under that towel.

"I'm sorry for everything. When we first met, I was an asshole. I was only thinking about myself when I kidnapped you. I kidnapped you. I-I just-there's no excuse for what I did. There's no excuse for any of it and I've never felt so bad for something in my life." He avoids my eyes and clenches his teeth.

My thoughts stop completely.

"Ryder...you-"

"Rose, I don't know why you love me, or how you fell for me after all the stupid shit I've done to you. You can beat my ass, stab me, anything to make you feel better. I've grown in the time we've been together and I'll do better, I'll make up for everything. I was really a dick. Please forgive me." He lets out a shuddering breath and his hands holding mine, tremble.

I smirk.

"You're right you were a little dumbass when we first met. You still are that dumbass but you're my dumbass now. You made realize how weak I was, mentally and physically. I couldn't even fight off your guys from taking me. I couldn't fight you off when you wanted me either."

His hands tremble harder.

"Rose, I'm so sorry. I won't touch you ever again if you want. Just please-" I cut him off and place my other hand over his shaking ones.

"Listen to me. You woke up something in me that was waiting for someone or something to kick it in its ass and tell it to start cooking. I'm not that weak girl anymore. I always tried to push others away because I was weak. I didn't want to deal with the pain of losing them because I knew if my father came around, I would run away. But you made me want to fight him."

He stares at me.

I smile and take a deep breath.

"So I'll keep on fighting until the day I die. For us."

Ryder suddenly hugs me to his chest and buries his face in the crook of my neck.

"And I'll be right there, fighting him with you. With everything I am."

I wrap my arms around him as well. His body shakes just as hard as his hands were, and he breathes heavily.

I feel a happiness spread within me.

I hope so.

This plan depends on it.

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1/23/18

So... I'm late. But I wont be ever again so dont sorry about it I'm sorry I was a bit busy.

Anyways, how you guys feel about Ryder apologizing????

As always i love yall thanks for the suppprt.

Ciao.