Paying the real ranch hand she hired a couple of hundred thousand pounds for him to stay the hell away from my girls and gave up the job seemed like the greatest idea at the moment so I did just that.

But, fuck me when she handed me that list of her. It was so bloody long it was barely a list anymore, the damn thing could be a book titled How to get an ex the hell out of my life: 101 she knew what she was doing. But, I wasn't going to let her win.

I would stay in this bloody farm for the rest of my life living as her little bitch if that meant I could be closer to her.

" She better marry me after this. " I grunted, slamming the axe on the wood cutting it in half.

The sun was burning my skin, I could feel myself slowly getting burnt as sweat started to drip down my forehead. I could also feel her intense gaze on me, the kind of gaze you looked at someone when you wanted to jump their bones, the same one I had been giving her.

She thought she was being slick staring at me from that little window from her kitchen thinking I wouldn't notice.

She didn't know I could feel her every time we were in the same place, those hazel eyes were the only pair that could burn into the back of my head and made my skin crawled underneath her watch, her aura lingered in the air surrounding me and suffocating my breath.

I smirked at the thought of her checking me out but at the same time annoyed that she had to do it secretly, all she had to do was ask and I would be hers forever. But, no she had to be difficult and do it her way.

" Excuse me? Are you new here? " a small voice hit my ear, snapping me out of my thought.

I turned my head back and then I was met with a tall blonde woman staring at me with her big chocolate brown eyes. She had this seductive smile on her face and eyes seeming to get more and more hooded with lust and desire as she checked me out shamelessly. Her expression screamed fuck me.

I winced at the thought before clearing my throat awkwardly. God gave me strength.

" No? " I cocked an eyebrow at the woman.

" I have never seen you around here before. " she said as she suddenly brushed her hand up and down my arm like it was the most casual thing ever.

Okay. This woman needed to chill because I was starting to get irritated and when I got irritated blood tended to spill.

" My fiancée is very possessive of me. She barely let me out to see the world. Today is one of those rare days. " I explained, pointing to the window where Anastasia was standing with her friend.

" You're her fiancée? " she asked, looking slightly shocked but dropped her hand to her side.

"Happily engaged with a three years old daughter and a child on the way. Our wedding is in two months and you're invited. " I grinned.

Talking to the unknown lady and making small talks were dreadful as fuck and felt absolute hell but I knew she was watching so I just went along with the obvious flirting because I was that desperate to know that she felt something at all, to know she still wanted me as much as I wanted her.

I laughed awkwardly scratching the back of my neck as the woman told inappropriate joke to an engaged man with no shame in the world.

I waited for Anastasia to react in some sort of way but she never did and I didn't dare take my eyes off the lady fearing she would catch on with my act. I was starting to lose hope when I heard footsteps approaching us.

An instant smirk made its way to my lips as a hand was placed on my shoulder turning my body backward.

She was here, fuming and pissed. Her cheeks were tainted red, I could almost see smoke coming out of her ears.

" You, meet Anastasia. Anastasia, my new friend. " I said pulling my fiancée to my side by her waist.

She cocked an eyebrow at me weirdly. " I lived next to Eliza for years, Nick. I know who she is. She's our neighbor. "

" Well that's convenient, isn't it? " I smirked, placing my arm around Ana's shoulder, she brushed it off all while giving me a glare.

Eliza and Ana talked for awhile sharing pleasantries and I silently prayed to god that she wouldn't mention anything about the so called engagement or I would be as good as a dead man.

Ana stood a few feet away from me while Eliza seemed to get closer and closer until her arm was brushing against mine. I was about to take a step away when I saw the corner of Ana's lips quirked into an uneasy line, her eyes burning as she glared daggers at the poor girl who seemed oblivious to the whole thing.

I smirked, throwing my arm lazily around Eliza's shoulder and gave it a light squeeze. " It was nice meeting you, Eliza. "

The girl grinned up at me before saying her farewell while Ana grunted our a small goodbye probably a polite way to tell her to fuck off. We both watched Eliza walked away to her house in silence but I could feel the anger radiating off of her which somehow satisfied me and gave my soul a peaceful feeling.

" She's a nice girl, isn't she? " I hummed, wrapping my fingers around the axe again.

" Your job is to do things around my farm. Not do my neighbors. Do you want me to fire you? " she glared, crossing her arms over her chest.

My eyes followed her arms as they rested on her chest and lingered on the neck line of her thin sun dress as the swell of her chest was pushed up giving me a full view of her breasts. I imagined the time when I had those softness between my palms, the same flesh used to squeezed in my hands and the ones that drove me insane because I could barely fit them into my mouth. The thought of touching her, tasting her again. Fuck.

Bloody hell. This woman was definitely going to be the death of me.

" My eyes are up here. " she snapped, dropping both of her arms down to her sides. Damn it.

" I know. But, your breasts are down there. " I sighed, sadly tearing my eyes away from her chest.

I watched her jaw dropped in shock at my blunt confession, eyes widened and lips parted. Fuck those luscious lips. Everything about her was turning me on at this point. I was a fucking pathetic loser, a horn dog at this point.

" Close your mouth before I kiss the shit out of you. " I grunted, turning back to cutting woods.

I was playing a very dangerous here. I needed to prove to her that I was here because I loved her not because I wanted to fuck her. I already lost control once when I kissed her. These feelings got to stop before my plan fell into dump.

But, god fuck me for losing control. She turned me into a horny teenager. She was there, looking as delicious as the last time I tasted her tempting me. She was so close to grab, too far away to touch, my fingers ached to explore all inches of her every time she was in sight, skin burning to make contact, and limbs urging to tangled up with hers.

" Why don't you go kiss Eliza? After work of course. I will murder you if you mixed work with pleasure. " she said sternly.

I turned my head back, cocking an eyebrow at her sudden change. " What? "

" You heard me. "

" Anastasia please, I'm here to build a family with you not to fuck your fucking neighbor. " I sighed.

" Are you jealous? I won't breath in the same air as her again if that pissed you off. " I said, staring at her.

" You're free to do whatever you want. Don't waste your time trying to build something that would never happen. Don't let me stop you from finding your happiness. "

Every words was like a bullet drilling into my flesh. I handed her my heart with two hands. She took it, cut it into million tiny pieces and delivered it right back at me on a fucking silver platter.

" Please, Nick. Just be happy. " she whispered before turning her back, walking away.

I wanted to shout at her that I was happy with her but I didn't. I let her walk away, again.

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