" Why do you smell so fucking good? " he asked nuzzling his nose into my hair.

I tilted my head up to meet his eyes and gave him a small smile. The side of his lips quirked up in return before he leaned in and pecked my lips.

I missed waking up next to him with our legs tangled and naked under the sheet of his bed.

I didn't know what to call it, I didn't know what was happening between the two of us but I liked it. It was so much easier to just enjoy the moment we were having, to act like nothing else mattered, and to pretend that it was just us.

It was definitely just us. Him and I against the whole fucking world.

" The dark alley of downtown London before dawn is mesmerizing under the star lit night. Feel like taking a stroll with me tonight, sweetheart? " he hummed making my eyebrows shot up in excitement.

" Nicholas Evan Salvatore, did you just ask me to go out with you? "

" Some people needed to be dead by the end of the night and you & I seem to make the dream team. It's a date, yes. " he said smirking at me.

That had to be the most romantic thing someone had ever said to me. My stomach stirred as the string of butterflies hit me full force and my heart fluttered in awed. He knew a way to my assassin's heart all right.

" I believe you just won my heart. " I said rolling my eyes as my lips quirked into a small smile.

" I thought my dick won it all the way back to my birthday night and the nights after that. " he cocked an eyebrow at me.

This fucker was just. Unbelievable.

" Low blow, Nick. "

He chuckled kissing my cheek softly before trailing light kisses delicately down my jaw to my neck. His mouth sucked the skin at the nape of my neck making me moaned out loud causing a smirk to form on his lips.

" Why did you stop? " I asked grumpily.

" You and I need to talk. "

Here came the moment I dreaded most even though this conversation was much needed.

" You left without saying goodbye. " he whispered softly as his fingers fiddled between my hair.

I stared into his eyes and all playfulness was gone. The hurt in his eyes scared me but what scared me even more was the fact that my heart shattered seeing him liked this, vulnerable and lost.

Hurting him was unintentional, I didn't realize me leaving would effect him this way. I didn't know it would have caused him pain, after all I was just another girl he fucked around with and I wasn't that hard to forget.

" You wouldn't have let me leave, Nick. " I sighed running the back of my palm across his jawline.

" You left me when I was dying on that bloody hospital bed after you spent the whole fucking day avoiding me without any damn reason. I would have died all while wondering what the fuck did I do wrong. "

" You were so cruel and so cold, even for a monster like me. " he breathed out and my heart shattered all over again.

Fuck. I wasn't ready for this conversation.

" The man caused your accident. I didn't want him to breathe another second on this earth. "

" That wasn't the only reason, was it? What did I do to make you want to run for the hills? " he asked.

I took a deep breath in closing my eyes for a moment. I sat up slightly against the headboard before pulling his head up and lied it on my chest. He pressed his face onto my breasts, his arm draping over my bare stomach under the duvet pulling me closer to him. I ran my fingers through his hair while my free arm held his head in place. I started my confession when I felt him relaxed against me as his hot breath fanned my chest steadily.

It was about time I told him everything, every damn things I felt about him.

" It wasn't you. It was me, I was the problem. "

" Everything about you overwhelmed me. You made me feel a certain way. Everything else around me doesn't matter when I'm around you and I hated it. I didn't like what you were doing to me. I have never felt this way for any other man before. I wanted all to stop. " I sighed.

" It was stupid to run away. I thought it was what I needed because I didn't deserve someone like you. I never will. "

Liked stabbing a dagger into my own heart, I continued as he listened to my words patiently.

" The distance between you and me, I thought it was what we both needed then we could just move on with our lives. I wasn't good for you. God knew how wrong I was when I thought I could forget someone like you. "

" You wouldn't leave my head. I tried everything. I smoked, drank, and anything to make my heart feels the way it did when I was next to you, to get you out of my head. Nothing worked. " I chuckled humorlessly.

Pouring my heart out to him felt great. It was like a brief of fresh air and like a fucking mountain was lifted off my shoulders.

" And then it hit me, every feelings you caused inside me. I think I'm falling in love with you. "

I confessed without thinking. Then the whole world suddenly freeze the same time his body stiffened in my arms. My heart threatened to jump out of my rib cage. Fuck.

That was stupidly embarrassing. I was so fucking dumb. Why the fuck did I have to blurt that last part out. I felt like jumping out of the balcony right now as the silence lingered in the air.

" Forget what I said. " I blurted.

He tilted his head up pressing a light kiss on my breasts before holding his hand up and ran his thumb across my lips.

" I don't know if I want to kiss the hell out of you right now or shove you off a fucking bridge. " he said, a grin broke on his face.

" Can I pick? "

" No. Shut up and listen to me. " he narrowed his eyes at me.

" You are enough. Fuck, you're the best thing that could ever happened to me. So, don't you dare say that you don't deserve me ever again because that is my decision to make, not yours. "

" I took one look at you and I knew I was screwed because I would do just about anything to make you mine. "

" You are the most beautiful creature I had ever seen, your body is my aphrodisiac, your mind god it was deliciously improper and I fucking love it, then there is your soul I have never wanted to get more lost in the mystery that came with you. Everything about you is fucking perfect. "

" Every time I look at you everyone else disappeared and I just want to scream to the world that you're mine. "

" And, I just want to slowly fuck you while whispering in your ears how much I need you, how much I want you. "

" I want— " he stopped. He tore his fingers from my face and ran it across his hair. " Never mind what I want. We both know I made it clear long ago. "

" What do you want, Ana? " he asked, his voice was quieter.

My eyes flashed into his. They were ringed with lightning, the storm dancing across his grey orbs even in vulnerability he was alluring. Like a thunder storm sweeping me off my feet.

His speech, it was everything I wanted to hear from him and only him. I felt the rush of loves rising in my stomach the same time guilt stabbed daggers into my heart. I really didn't deserve him.

" You. Always you. " I smiled as silent tears fell down my cheeks and he kissed it all away.

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