《Meum Miraculum》Chapter 21
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I huffed setting down the large bowl of chocolate cake batter, I ran the back of my hand over my forehead, probably smearing chocolate batter all over myself, but at least it smelt good.
Marcus, the chef gently grabbed the bowl from me, his face holding that small sweet smile, that it seemed to permanently have on it. He was a sweet elderly man, who seemed to love cooking and even though he looked frail, this man could whip fifty eggs at once, I had seen it myself.
Sitting in my room, I tried to focus on the book I was reading but found my mind running anywhere but on the two characters in the book. After incessantly failing to follow their quick romance, I finally gave up. Throwing the book on my bed I walked out intending to find Adrian but instead walked in on Marcus preparing a cake.
My grandfather had loved to bake and although we lost him while I was very young, I still remembered the excitement I felt while helping him create the sweet delicacies that were still a weakness of mine. Convincing Marcus to teach me to bake wasn't too difficult, but even in my excitement I had noticed the flash of worry in his eyes at the idea of me cooking. I guess word of my horrid cooking skills had gotten around, but being the sweet man Marcus was he allowed me to stay.
I had wasted about three batters by now even under Marcus' close scrutiny I managed to screw it up, but I was not going to give up, I wanted to learn to bake. I missed learning, even this reminded me of school, and though at the time I had never appreciated it but now that I didn't have it anymore I missed it more then I could say.
I missed the way it felt to finally solve a difficult equation or stressing over tests with friends, the excitement on the rare days I didn't have homework. I even missed fighting to stay awake while my teachers spoke. I missed how it felt to come home to my parents, the way my mom would would bring me up my favourite snacks. Them usually being very unhealthy and how she would press a kiss to my forehead telling me I should go to sleep, not stress about my work, it was okay to get a mediocre mark if I tried my best. I missed the way my dad would make me my favourite tea as I studied into the late hours of the night. I missed how when I was young my dad would stress with me the night before the assignment was due because we both had spent our time reading books together and now had barely any time to do the work.
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Tears sprang to my eyes as I reminisced in the happy memories, the memories I wish I had treasured more. All the things I had taken for granted not knowing they would be taken away from me. The tears ran down my cheeks as I fought to stop them, as the thoughts of all the dreams I had came rushing back. I had wanted to become a psychiatrist and live in the one place that was free of the werewolf tyranny. The one place I would be looked at as more then a potential werewolf mate, the one place I wouldn't be the inferior species, but all chances of that were gone. I was stuck here as the mate of the most powerful man to ever live, forever.
A warm hand placed itself on my shoulder and I turned to see Marcus his smile gone, concern in his eyes as he looked at me. I smiled at him reassuringly although it didn't seem to work through my glassy red eyes, and my tear streaked cheeks.
"What's wrong Ms.?" He questioned softly and I shook my head at him, I had told him many times to call me Amara but he was stubborn.
"Marcus please it's Amara." I tell him and he narrows his eyes at me, the same way my mom would before scolding me, just seeing his expression makes my heart heavy. More tears begin to pour out and before I know it, Marcus wraps his arms around me, resting my head on his shoulder cradling it with his hands, the way a father would his child, and I couldn't hold it in any longer. Silent sobs escaped me as my body shook with the force of them, tears pouring out of my eyes. It had been so long since I had cried, that at feeling Marcus' parent like concern I had completely broken down. Perhaps I wasn't strong, I was weak and I was sad, that was the truth, I was starting to crack, my defence that I had tried to hold up since the first day that I had cried here was cracking. The truth presenting itself in the worst of ways, I missed my old life, I wasn't cut out for this, I wasn't what Alaricus Knight needed. I just wanted a simple life to fall in love the human way, to live my life out simply but happily I never liked extravagance. I preferred the small things in life but nowadays I was too lost to see them.
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"What's wrong with her?" Alaricus' frantic voice rushed in my ears, as I felt my body be transferred into his hold. His strong arms wrapped around me as he held me to his firm chest, rubbing my back to calm me. He stayed silent, seeming to know that was exactly what I needed, and I heard Marcus leave, and my sobs got louder. This is what my reality was everyone left, except the one man I wished I had never met. The one man who caused everyone's absence, this man never left, and neither would he ever let me leave.
I yanked myself out of his warm hold, and taken by surprise Alaricus let me go, looking bewildered at my angered gaze.
"Why are you crying love?" He asked me softly reaching out to pull me back into his arms, the yearning to comfort me clear in his eyes. The instinct to protect and comfort his mate was coming out and it only angered me further.
"Because of you." I shrieked, my voice steady despite the storm inside.
"Me, love did I do something wrong, I-I thought we were fine, just yesterday we were fine." He said softly trailing off in thought.
"Everything, since the moment I met you my life has been wrong, and god I can't take it anymore, I can't take living here like this anymore I feel trapped I miss my old life, I miss having hope." I said, my once strong voice now soft, sounding broken as I went on, and his eyes softened, pain clearly displayed in them as he looked at me.
"Amara, baby please I didnt want to take anything from you, I really don't. I want to give you everything, but I can't let you go, I've told you that. I'm sorry but I can't." He says, and tears begin to pour out of my eyes, as I feel my heart begin to ache as I realize those words don't affect me like they use to, I had gotten use to it. I knew he wouldn't let me go, my hope was dying out and that was the worst thing that could ever happen to me, for without hope a person was nothing, absolutely nothing.
"I hate you." I told him quietly, although I was lying truthfully I hated myself for being so weak, I was disgusted with myself. I was the one laughing with this man, cuddling with his wolf while my loved ones suffered as inferiors. Were suppressed in a world that was ruled by werewolves because of this man, he was too powerful for anyone to take on, and yet I couldn't bring myself to hate him anymore. I was a vile creature, I was betraying my own. I turned away to go back into the room I had stupidly come out of, but not before I saw the pain in his eyes. Saw how they were slightly glassy, as if he was fighting to not let the tears show and despite my anger, a slight tinge of guilt nudged at my closed off heart.
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8 150How He Fell
C O M P L E T E D ☙❦❧"Who would ever love Medusa?""The blind," he whispered. ☙❦❧She was a daughter worth nothing in a family worth everything. They didn't want her and she was hurt.Neglected. On the other side of the same spectrum stood him. Being taken advantage of does a number on many. A childhood is something almost no one forgets and he'll never forget his. So he took his anger out on the punching bag in the abandoned building each night. He can't hold all those frustrations in. Two people broken beyond repair. One too scared and one too angered to just want to be any longer. But one day, they stumble upon each other. And Maddox Lohan knew he had to save Evelyn Moreau from the same fall he would not be able to escape.But was it fair? To show someone a life worth living when he himself did not want to live? ☙❦❧1/11/18 - 10/17/19 [ COMPLETED ][ 4 pre-chapters + 35 chapters + epilogue ]#1 in young adult reads (8/12/19 - 9/20/19)#1 in boxer (8/23/19 - 9/19/29)#2 in teen romance (05/01/20-05/03/20)#29 in teen fiction (03/13/20-03/15/20) Cover by @xtruebeautyxCopyright ©
8 258I'm falling for my Ex Fiancé - (BOOK 2)
"Lana i want you to be on my wedding day, there's no excuse I don't want to hear it anymore. You graduated from med school a few months ago and i know you're running out of you excuses stocks" she said as i smile."I'll be back sooner than you think, and i promise I'm going to be there Diana" i said while staring into my best friend's face on my laptop screen."you promised okay, see you there bubz" She said as she hung up the video call.I called Gabriel's number then after a few rings he finally picked up, "Hey sis""Hey, Are you busy?""Not really, why?" "Can you keep it as a secret?" I asked him."Of course" he said."Prepare the jet for next week, I'm going back home" i said as i smile.~I was working in my office room until my secretary walked in with a big smile on her face, ugh she smiles a lot it annoyed me."Sir Mr. Blake is here" she said.Blake was one of my bodyguards and he had been following me around since the past few years."Let him in" i said.He walked in with his normal bodyguard suit and an earpiece on his ear, "Sir" he said.I ignored him while kept typing on my laptop to prepared a presentation for a meeting with a very important client,"She's back" Blake said and it made my head popped up to looked up at him."After 6 damn years?" I asked him."She's back in town sir" he informed me."Agatha cancel all the meeting today" i said to my secretary that was standing on the door. "Got it sir" she said before walking away."Blake, prepare my car" i said."Got it sir" he said before turning around and left.Avalana, it's been 6 fucking years since you left me. And I'm here still waiting for you to come back as i promise you back then. I'm going to make you mine again.
8 117Finding My Luna (Sequel to ICBTAM)
Today was supposed to be one of the happiest days of my life. The day when I say 'I do' and join myself to my mate for the rest of our lives. However that's drowned out by what's still missing. Myself.I stare at my reflection in the mirror and it's almost like I can see the part of me that's missing. Rafe has claimed that he doesn't care that I can't reach my wolf, that it's a problem that we will solve, that everything will be alright. He can't help me with this though. The Moon Goddess told me it was up to me and me alone, she's given me clues, only I still have no idea what to do.I feel like my soul has been lost along with my wolf, and even though Rafe smiles and kisses me and tells me it's alright, I can't help but think that he's somehow disappointed in me. Disappointed that I can't be what he needs. He needs a Luna, and right now, that's not who I am. And I'm worried that the pack sees that too.I won't give up hope though. I won't stop trying until I've found Kali, until I've found my Luna.********************The dust has settled following Rafe and Katarina's recovery. However, neither one of them have been able to relax. Rafe is still on edge about Nolan and the other rogues still running free, and Katarina is consumed with the dread of her missing wolf.She's scared of the unknown and at the moment, the unknown surrounds her. Her child, her wolf, what she and her mate are. All of it is new to her and none of it is normal. Whatever that's supposed to be.Katarina has decided that she won't rest until she finds her wolf again. She will search for her no matter the cost, but when that cost could be her child or mate, will she truly do whatever it takes?Maybe the Moon Goddess has a twisted sense in fate. Or maybe it's other forces working against her.Find out in Finding My LunaCover inspired by @_iiiinfinity_
8 238✓ Mianite One Shots
Mianite One ShotsI will not be adding more one shots in this for I don't feel comfortable writing about real people anymore.#9 - Mianite (01/08/2021)#4 - Dianite (01/10/2021)#2 - TomSyndicate (1/10/2021)
8 107My Boss & Me
Janice has just landed a job as a secretary for the son of a well-known and respected publisher, Markus Turner, it isn't her dream job, but this is her foot in the door. The problem is Janice and Markus may have had a one-night stand before her first day. With that comes drama, hatred, and betrayal.
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