Chapter 27

Marissa’s POV

I sighed and looked at myself in the mirror, what should I do? I cried for about one minute before I decided to get a hold of myself, I wasn’t the type to give up and just let things happen. Should I tell Zane what’s happening? And was Kyle ever really my friend? Did john simply feel sorry for me? and what was going to happen to me and Alex is I went away for two years. I would miss out on the one amazing guy I could possibly have a life with. I didn’t want to give up everything here, and when I made that promise at the beginning I thought it was simply for training. I have the right to choose my own fate, he cant do that too me! the more I think of it the more I wonder, what am I going to do with my life anyway? I'm graduating this year and I have to apply for collages, I’m smart and all but what do I have a passion for? It’s not like I'm ever going to be alpha female or anything.

“Marissa?” my mom called softly through the door. Kyle probably told her I was crying. I looked at myself in the mirror, my hair was dishelved, my makeup ran down my face along with the tears and my eyes were as red as my face. I masked my face before opening the door. My mother had a worried look on her face as she took me in. “Oh honey what’s wrong?” she gently pushed my back into my room and closed the door behind us. I walked over and sat on the bed as she stood and looked at me.

“What happened? Kyle came to me and told me you were in your room crying and to come and check on you” she said with worry clearly coating her voice. I guess he knew I wouldn’t want to see him right now, my mom was the one person I couldn’t blame for any of this. She was here when I needed her most of the time and I understand she has to go away and everything. “Well it’s a long story and I just found out” I spoke, my voice was mostly calm but cracked in some places. “it’s ok baby we can get through this together” she soothed. I cleared my throat and began to tell her everything. And by that I mean everything I’ve kept hidden and bottled up. About my mate, about john, about Kyle, about my brother, I told her everything that I’ve delt with myself and it felt good to be able to share this with someone.

“I'm so sorry. I haven’t been here for you and this is my fault. If I would have been home then I could have helped, you weren’t meant to have to deal with all of this on your own” she sobbed out. she pulled me into a hug as tears streamed down her face, I know she feels guilty right now. she feels like she wasn’t being a parent to me but I don’t blame her for anything. She did her job of raising me and when my dad died the also had to keep up the financial part of it too. my mother may not have been home with me but she did take care of me.

“It’s not your fault mom and it’s ok. I’ve managed ok and now I’ve got Derek with me. I just need to get through this one final thing. And you’re here now that’s all that matters” I spoke to her. I pushed my feelings aside and made room for hers, it was easy to see how much this didn’t only affect me but also her.

“You know what? You’re going to enjoy your birthday. I'm not going to let something so easily ruin your day baby. You told me you didn’t want a party so I didn’t throw you a party but I did invite some friends of yours over for later which will happen after you come back with Dustin. You’re going to go out with him tonight and forget all your problems, you’re not going to let anything ruin your perfect day. I know this because I know you. So be strong and we can deal with this later.” I smiled at my mom; she always knew what to say to me. I nodded and smiled at her, she was right. The day went so well so far and I was eighteen now. I had nothing to be sad about. I had one week, ne week to live my life and have fun, but I also had one week to fight it. One week was not one day so I could have my day today.

“Thanks mom” I hugged her and she nodded. “I'm going to leave you to get ready, when you’ve cleaned up then come down stairs and I’ll give you the birthday present I got for you” and with that she got up and left, closing the door softly behind her.

I didn’t know what to make of it, but I had to change too. I took off my grey and white sweater, along with my black jeans. Instead I pulled on a pair of white jeans and beige long sleeve. I put I scarf on and pulled out some old uggs. It was getting colder out so I could bring back out my favourite boots. I didn’t curl my hair again; I straightened it and re-did my make up a lot lighter. I lifted myself out of my dark mood that the bad news had out me in and decided I wouldn’t let it affect me.

I smiled at my reflection and walked down the stairs to meet my mom. I saw her humming softly while cooking a pot of soup. “Ready” I popped in the kitchen and smiled brightly at her. I saw a smile also light her face when she gazed upon me. “Good, I think your going to like this one” she gushed. She grabbed my hand as she walked past me and dragged me out the front door in nothing but our socks, my warm feet touched the snow coated ground and I shivered.

“What did you get me that’s all the way our here?” I asked with a laugh. she pulled me along to the side of the house, the house was huge so it was quite a way around. There in that open field, sitting on top the snow was a brand new car. it was nothing fancy or anything but it was still a brand new car. I screamed and jumped up and down in excitement, I can’t believe she bought me a car!

It was pained a sleek black and it was nice. It didn’t looked overly expensive like my brothers and it was prefect. It was just what I needed, something simple but good looking. “I cannot believe you bought me my own car” I breathed out as I walked towards it. I looked back at her too see she had a smug smile on her face, she tossed me the keys out of her pocket and watched as I ran up too it. This had just turned my whole day around again. I have my own car! I don’t have to catch rides with anyone anymore and I can go wherever I want when I want. “Thank you so much mom” I trotted over too her and hugged her tightly. “I knew you wouldn’t ever think of getting yourself a car but you do need one” she laughed and told me.

“This is so perfect thank you” snow danced around in the sky and floated all around us and on us. it was a perfect moment, but that’s when all the shock started wearing off and I remembered that I stood here in nothing but a shirt and some jeans, not even any shoes. “We should get back inside now, I'm definitely taking my car out for a test drive tonight though” I took one more look at it before walking back into my house.

It was like six thirty now and I was going out with Zane at seven. So I guess I had half an hour o kill, I was still on a high from the car. That helped turned my day around. But I shouldn’t have let that kind of news ruin ,y day in the first place, I deserve a break and I guess I could deal with that later.

I sat in my room and turned on some music. I hummed along with it and relaxed on my bed. i sat there for a good twenty minutes before Zane knocked on my door. I could smell and sense him from outside; it was like our bond was becoming stronger instead of weaker. I never used to be able to smell him of sense him. I'm not too sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing, but I pushed that aside and answered the door.

He stood there looking handsome, with a slight smile on his face. His brown hair was neatly laced on his head, it looked like he ran a comb slightly through it but his hands had been ran through them more often. He had on a light black jacket over his green t-shirt and his blue eyes stood out on his face. I smiled at him as he handed me a bouquet of flowers.

“Thanks” I took them from him and slid in into the vase right by my door, it was luckily empty. “So I was thinking we can go to dinner and then we could do something else, anything specific you wanted too do?” he asked. I walked out of my door and walked alongside him down the stairs, and outside.

“No not really, whatever you had planned is good” I smiled politely and got in the passenger side of his car. He was clearly making an effort here for some apparent reason. “You look really beautiful tonight” he breathed out as he started the car. “Uh thanks” I mumbled. I didn’t really expect him to tell me that. “I have something I want to tell you tonight, it’s really important” he looked over at me and made sure i was listening. “Ok I just hope it’s not more bad news” I mumbled the last part under my breath but I caught him taking a second look, which meant he had also heard it.

“What happened today?” he asked curiously. I had his complete attention even know he was driving. “Nothing much” I dismissed it. He gave me a look but turned his attention back towards the road. We rode in silence till we pulled up at a restaurant littered with lights all over it. “I know it’s not really personal but I didn’t want to take a chance that you wouldn’t like it” he said nervously.

“it’s ok it looks great” I assured him. as I stepped out of the car he took my hand in his, I looked over at him surprised but he simply smiled. I'm not sure if I want to know what’s going on with him tonight. I don’t want his pity tonight, I have plenty of happiness in my life already. “You don’t have to take pity on me you know” I spoke up too him as we entered the restaurant.

“What makes you think I'm taking pity on you?” he asked with a surprised look on his face. “Well you complimenting me and taking my hand and stuff, its ok. Your already doing more than you should” I explained. I don’t like people feeling sorry for me anyway. I would rather deal with the situation than people trying to make it fake and better for me.

“I'm not doing that out of pity Marissa, I’m doing it because I want too. And the restaurant is French, I know you like French food” we talked as the waiter led us towards out table. The restaurant was pretty elegant. There was a dimmed light hung above us and the table was a dark wooden colour with a white table cloth over it.

“here are the menu’s, I’ll be back to take your order in ten minutes” he placed the menu’s on the table and walked off with a polite smile.

“I have something I need to tell you too” I decided I should tell him that I’ll be leaving in a week. Even if it won’t affect his life he should still know. “I don’t think mine will affect you much though” I shrugged, it was the truth.

“Ok well you can go first then” he offered. “Ok well I just found out today so I didn’t keep anything from you” I started off first. He nodded and waited for me to continue. “So you know how I’ve been training with John and all” I started off.

“Oh please don’t tell me you have a thing for John” he groaned and almost looked at me pleadingly. “no I don’t, and that’s none of your business anyway” I gave him a quick glare then returned to my story. “Well it turns out your dad had this ultimate plan to train me then send me to WFA. The same school that John went too” I explained. I watched him and waited for his reaction. His face had a mirror of shock on it, but I still didn’t tell him that I’ll be leaving in one week, “Oh and your dad set the departure for a week from today” I added in. I took a sip of my water and looked back up at him. his face was picture of horror.

“And you don’t have any choice in this? No way out?” he asked. He looked almost mad at what I’ve been mashed up in but this doesn’t affect him nor involve him. “Nope the only way out is if I find a mate or something then I could change. And it’s two years then I can come back and do whatever I want”

“You have found your mate! All we have too do is tell my dad your my mate and then you wont have to go” he exclaimed as if it was perfect. “I'm not going to blow up the whole secret and ruin your life just because I don’t want too go somewhere. I'm not going to make you accept me just for the sake of something like this” I shook my head and looked up to him.

“No Marissa that’s what I wanted to tell you. I’ve fallen in love with you and I want you as my mate. I was so stupid for giving you up and I’ve finally realised what I’ve done. I want you so much that it hurts, I want you to accept me as yours. This could fix everything and we could live together happily” there was so much glow and excitement on his face that it almost made me believe him.

“Really? I think your just saying that because you don’t want me to have too go. It’s ok and I don’t expect you to step up and save me. you owe me nothing Zane” I wasn’t going to let him take the fall for me and then he would have to live un-happily with me for the rest of his life. I was somewhat shocked at his confession then I remembered that I just told him the only way I could stay and now he was probably thinking this is the perfect way to make it up to me.

“No Marissa it’s not because of that. I really do love you please just believe me, I wouldn’t joke about something like this” he pleaded. But right now I wasn’t too sure, should I believe him or not? more importantly what does this mean now?

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