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Chapter 9

Zane’s POV

I watched as she walked back over to the guy she was with before and it made me feel disgraced at how she chose some other guy over me. I couldn’t even have fun anymore knowing that she was with him and my distraction was all over Kyle. I didn’t have the heart to go and get another, knowing that Kyle would just chase that one away too.

I sighed and started thinking about my alpha female. My dad won’t be handing over the pack till a couple more years when I learn the responsibility of becoming an alpha but I still need to be seen with a mate and get her known. Who could a possibly choose? My wolf inside me growled at me, he wanted its mate leading beside him not some second choice.

But Marissa just wasn’t the kind of person that was right for the position. She really is beautiful and smart, but she can’t be a leader and the pack comes before anything else. I hope she’s happy one day because I never meant to hurt her. But here she is, always up in my mind and making me feel all sorts of emotions because of her actions.

I was in a bad position right now, and I'm surprised that she hasn’t told anyone yet, I know I threatened her but that girl never listens to anyone. I looked over in her direction to see her smiling and talking with that guy as if she actually enjoyed his company, like I wasn’t across the bar from her sitting alone and wondering what if. Like she didn’t have a mate. That’s what hurt to most, the fact that she knew her mate was here but she still could easily continue on another guy like her mate didn’t even matter.

But what right did I have to say any of that? She wasn’t mine and I don’t want her to me mine.

Marissa’s POV

Kane was really nice, and really cute. But of course my stupid brain had to label him as a friend only and to be honest I think he sees me the same way. “So can I have your number? I know I haven’t known you for long but I like you already” he asked at complete ease, making me sure that he didn’t like me. And I'm kind of relived that he doesn’t, It just makes a mess when one person likes the other and the other one doesn’t like them back.

“Sure” I smiled, we exchanged numbers and right after his friend decided to walk up. “Hey who’s this?” he asked smiling over at me. “That’s Marissa and don’t bother trying to get her, it really won’t work” he said making me laugh. I guess his friend was one of ‘those’ guys. “Zach” he said shaking my hand.

“nice to meet you, and know Kane it’s getting late so we can go when you’re ready” he said nodding and taking a seat beside Kane. “Whoa, you’re actually giving me a choice? Well I'm going to dance with Marissa for a bit more then we can go home” Kane looked over at me with the question in his eyes.

I nodded and got up, letting him lead me back to the dance floor that I have already fallen in love with.

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A hour later I was starting to get tired. Me and Kane walked off the floor together back to Zach who was talking to Zane of all people. “Well I think I'm done for the night” he said to Zach. “Alright then, I’ll be in the car” Zach then turned back to Zane and started to say bye.

“Well thanks for a fun night Marissa, I will definitely be using that number” Kane said with a wink which just made me laugh because I knew he was joking. “I’ll be expecting a call” I warned jokingly. He leaned over a kissed me on the cheek before walking away with Zach.

The smile was still placed on my face when I turned to look at Zane who was staring back at me lie a blank face. It was actually just awkward, I cleared my throat and started to walk away. “Marissa wait” I don’t know why I even stopped for him but I slowly turned around and raised an eyebrow.

“Can we please just try and be friends here? I don’t want us to be like this” he pleaded. I shook my head at the dry amusement there. “We weren’t meant to be friends Zane, we were meant to be so much more than that but because of you we are like this” I shook my head and walked off. I was tired and it was time to get home. I found Kyle sitting at the bar with some girl, although he looked like he was about to fall asleep. So I decided to be the nice person I am and save him.

“hey Kyle, we’re going to go now” I said politely, I already knew that Kyle was much to nice to ditch her like that, he would sit there bored out of his mind just to not seem rude. He eyes shot up and thanked me silently. “Ok, it was nice meeting you Carry” he practically dashed off towards Zane and told him we were going now.

Well I guess we really are going now then. I just have to get Derek to drive us…… he looked pretty damn drunk by the way he was dancing all over a girl on the dance floor, yup time for him to go home too.

I walked up towards him and tugged him off the floor as he staggered along with me, I ignored the annoyed look the girl shot me as I dragged him back over to where Zane and Kyle were. “Ok time to go and hand over the keys, your not driving.” I held out my hand waiting for him to hand it over.

I was a bit tipsy myself and I don’t know if I should drive but I definitely don’t trust Zane since he was at the bar all night, and Kyle? Well I don’t even know what he did tonight. “You’re not in any better shape than me” he slurred and lazily pointed his finger at me.

“None of you are fit to drive, I will” Kyle just took charge and took the keys right out of his pockets. Derek just shrugged and followed us as we walked out of the club. Kyle took the driver’s seat while Derek stumbled over in the passenger seat. I groaned but didn’t say anything because it would take way too long to argue with him and actually get in the back.

I reluctantly climbed in the back with Zane. I sneaked a glance over at him to find him looking over at me. I have him a weird look before avoiding my eyes from him. Things between us weren’t angry and sad anymore, they were just plain weird tonight, with the looks and the words and the jealously.

Kyle wasted to time as he pulled out and sped down the road towards the pack house. I looked out the window as Derek just kept mumbling weird things. “Monkey, I want a donkey so I can name in monkey” he mumbled which just earned him weird looks from everyone. he was really stupid when he was drunk……..

I hoped out of the car as if my life depended on it when we pulled up to the pack house. I had a fun night but that car ride was just plain awkward, I could feel Kyle looking at me through his mirror and Zane was staring at me, not even trying to hide it. I looked everywhere but the two of them- and Derek who was just mumbling random crap which no one paid any attention too.

I rushed through the doors and up the stairs. I was itching to get out of these shoes and clothes anyway. A tank top and some shorts sounded pretty good about now. Tomorrow was Saturday which meant a had a whole weekend to relax and get over some of my ‘issues’.

But of course the night was not a peace because Kyle walked in my room as I was changing my shorts. “Need something?” I asked as I finished changing, I didn’t care if he saw me in my underwear because it was basically like a bathing suit.

“Nothing much just came to check up on you. Had a good time tonight?” I nodded at his question. “Yea I did, I am definitely going out more often, I didn’t realise how much fun it was” I sat on my bad and patted the space next to me for him to come and sit.

“Well I think I should tell you something” he said as he took a seat beside me. “And what is that?” what was he acting all nervous about anyway? “I kind of know about you and Zane, if you need anything just tell me. I just wanted you to know that I know and I'm here for you” a sad smile appeared on my face as I leaned over and pulled him into a hug. “Thanks Kyle, I’ll be able to handle it I think, with the help of you and Sean ill be able to get through it for sure” I reassured him. I wasn’t going to let my life go down in flames just because I won’t have a mate. I have too much pride for that.

I was still hugging Kyle, as he held on to me tighter. I already care about him a lot and I know he does too. I'm glad I found someone like him. I jumped in surprise when a growl came from the door of my room. I just rolled my eyes when I saw it was Zane. Why did he come around so often now anyway?

Zane’s POV

I saw as Marissa practically ran into the hose and up the stairs. that was like the worst night of my life, this mate thing is starting to weigh heavily on my mind. There is no rush for a mate but a girlfriend would be nice, just to keep my eyes off Marissa and every single thing she does.

Derek came stumbling in after me with Marissa’s phone in his hand. “I think Marla forgot this” he slurred. Wow he can’t even say her name right now. “Sure I’ll give it back to her, why don’t you go to bed” I patted him on the back and sent him up the stairs.

I groaned at the thought of having to face Marissa again, after she brushed me off numerous times tonight I don’t have high hopes for what's going to happen next. I walked up the stairs nervously too hear her talking in her room with someone. I couldn’t make out what they were hearing but the door was slightly cracked open.

Well I did have a reason to be here, I pushed open the door to see her hugging Kyle. I lost all common sense and growled at both of them. only then did they sense I was here. Marissa jumped in surprise when she heard me but rolled her eyes when she saw me.

Kyle just looked over at me calmly and let go of Marissa, although they were still sitting awfully close. “So I see you’ve already moved on then” I said rudely. I can’t really control hat comes out of my mouth right now, even know I wish I could. “Don’t worry about it Zane I'm sure there is plenty of girls lining up to be with you, after are you are way too good for me” she said sarcastically.

I eyes had already shifted colours and I could feel my wolf itching to get out. I took a deep breath and calmed myself down, I didn’t want to have another fight with her tonight, well not right now anyway.

“I just came here to give you back your phone, you left it in the car” I said calmly while placing it down on her desk. All the anger that I had evaporated and was replaced with a feeling of longing. I wished I could be Kyle right now, I wish so much that I had her in my arms. But it was much more difficult than what I want. I sighed and walked out of the room.

I walked in my own room which was only a few doors down and threw myself down on the bed. Right now I'm at a crossroad between telling myself I want her so much, and the other half of my brain telling me I can’t, I don’t need her. Damn mate connection was making me go crazy, and I'm not sure if it’s just because of the connection of I'm finally realising who she really is.

Kyle’s POV

I walked out of Marissa’s room and over to Kyle’s because he was still one of my best friends and I know he was stressed right now, after seeing me with Marissa like that I didn’t want him to feel like crap, but in a way I am helping him realise that he wants her.

I walked in his room to seeing him lying on his bed and staring up at the ceiling deep in thought. “Hey” I said softly. His head snapped over in my direction. “I just told her that I know about you and her it wasn’t anything” I assured him. The number one bro code is that you do not go after a girl that is your bro’s. And no matter how much he denys it she is his.

“I don’t care you can do whatever you want with her” he didn’t even look at me when he said it. “You do care and stop acting so stupid. I'm trying to be here for you but you’re not letting me” I was already getting frustrated with him. “I don’t need your stupid support why don’t you go and give it to Marissa?” he said angrily. “What the hell is your problem? I can’t tell you how but you are going to lose her please just do us all a favor and hurry up with your messed up mind!” god I wanted to tell him so much about Marissa being sent away but I couldn’t. not unless I wanted my whole family banished from this pack.

“She’s not going anywhere” he waved off my warning to easily, he’s going to lose it if she is sent away. I don’t know if his father will tell him, but if his father knew he rejected Marissa then he will probably still send her away, assuming that Zane had a actual reason for rejecting her other than ‘she can’t lead’

“Goodnight Zane” I shook my head and walked out of his room. I had to figure out some other way to save the both of them……………..