well it's about time i uploaded this story. my computer was having some problems but i still wanted to upload today so it's a bit short but another will be posted soon. so comment and vote!

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Chapter 5

Marissa’s POV

I walked out of the room with Kyle and Sean, Zane trailed behind us and said nothing. “so Sean did you want to move in now? me and Kyle could help you with your stuff” I asked. He had left the rest of his stuff in boxes at his apartment so it would be pretty easy to just pick it up and leave. “no it’s alright, I'm going to stay the last night with my dad and I’ll come over here in the afternoon, plus I still need to discuss a few things with alpha john” he said and I knew what he was talking about, he needed to discuss the current situation and more likely about his parents and his past. “ok then so what do you guys wanna do now?” I asked. I was not talking to Zane and I think he got the idea even know he was still following us.

“uh I think I'm going to go now, my dad will be getting off work and I need to spend a little time with him since I wont be seeing him much when I move in here” he said motioning towards the door. “ok well since we came in my car I’ll give you a ride back then” Kyle said walking towards the door with him. “I’ll be back in a bit Marissa” he said before walking out the door. I waved bye and noticed that Zane was still behind me. “uh did you need something?” I asked somewhat politely. “no not really but I think we should talk” he said calmly. I gritted my teeth together in frustration. I didn’t want to talk to him right now but I also knew that their was some issues that we had to sort out sooner or later. “yea fine” I said.

“ok great let’s go to my room then” he said and walked up the stairs in front of me. so I guess he followed us that whole time just to tell me that we needed to talk? Well this must be some kind of important talk if he basically had to follow me just to tell me. we walked in his room and I took a seat on his bed while he took a seat on the other side facing me. “I just wanted to say that I never meant for anything to be this difficult and I never sought out to hurt anyone. It just kind of ended up this way. I have nothing against you it’s just that we wouldn’t work together” he said. he was basically rejecting me again, just in a nicer way.

“Zane you already rejected me and you don’t have to explain why.” I said with a sigh. It was hard to be mad at him while he was trying to be nice. “well I just wanted you to know that I don’t hate you or anything like that. And I do care about you just not in a way like that. I care about you as if you were a member in my pack. and I don’t think you should be hanging around Kyle too much” he resorted at the end. Who the hell was he to tell me who I could and couldn’t be friends with?

“uh ok, and no I will hang around Kyle if I want too, he’s actually being nice to me right now and it’s nice to have someone I can trust around me” I said back, my voice was a little snappy but in all the message was the same – I will do whatever the hell I wanted-. “You’ve known him for one day! Don’t even pretend like you know him, he’s my friend and I know what he’s like. He’s not your kind of person Marissa!” his voice lacked control as frustration and something else leaked out. “Yea true I have known him for one day and I can’t completely trust him yet but I think I will be able to in time, and you don’t know what kind of person I am so don’t tell me he’s not my kind! You haven’t known he for long, maybe a couple days and even now you still don’t know shit about me so don’t try and judge me” I said angrily before getting up and walking out the door, slamming it on the way out.

I walked back into my room and threw myself onto my bed, why the hell did I have to have him for a mate! Why wouldn’t it be someone who I would get along with! Me and Zane have kind of a difficult understanding. None of us hated the other and it’s not we couldn’t stand to be around each other, we just couldn’t be mates. Well I would be fine with that, it’s him who ‘can’t’. I need to get over it eventually, because I will not be one of those broken girls who only cries and becomes cold to everyone around her. I know it’s hard to bear with the connection and stuff but that doesn’t mean it’s impossible.

I hated when people acted like losing a mate was the end of the entire world. Ramona – one of the older people in our pack – had just lost her mate in a fight. They loved each other but she is still going on without him even know she misses him. it’s true that mates have a strong connection of love but it is not forced. It’s simply something that brings us more together. Right now I was just o mad at Zane to even think about going over there and trying to get back on good grounds. Because half the time at school and stuff he acts like a complete jerk when he doesn’t have too. And now he calls me over and explains in the nice way why we can’t be together. This was so freaking complicated!

Zane’s POV

I was hoping to get her to stop hanging out with Kyle so I could get her off my mind, but no she just had to be so strong willed. Things were difficult and it’s not like we wouldn’t see each other. Shit happens and this is one of them. I hate how she is always on my mind! I'm still kind of disgusted with myself for fooling around with that girl at lunch. She’s no Marissa but she was the closet thing that would take my mind off her. I hate having to fight the bond. But it seems like it’s not just the bond. She’s still in my head and even when I'm not around her she still affects me.

I got up from my bed with a groan and headed down the stairs. there had to be something entertaining to do in this house. and then it hit me. “Derek!!” I called from the top of my lungs. In less than a minute he was in front of me with a raised eyebrow. “Wanna go out tonight, I need to get out?” Derek was one of my best friends and we some of the best times together. I never told him about his sister being my mate and I didn’t plan on it. I don’t know what his reaction will be, he doesn’t exactly like her but she still Is his sister. Maybe when the time is right then I will tell him.

“Yea we should, we should invite my sister along though” he said seriously. Why of all times does he choose to be nice to her? “And why should we do that?” I asked back rudely. “she seems kind of down today and as a brother I haven’t really been there for her and I'm just starting to realise how bad I’ve been treating her. she’s never lost it with me and that’s respect for her right there, I kind of want to start making it up to her and build a real relationship like we’re supposed to have. You know what I mean?” I gaped at him. “why the sudden change in mind?” I asked, he had never talked about his sister like this and I wanted to know why now…..

“Well I saw Justin and Katie fighting and I realised how they were, they fought but they made up quickly. And if I don’t make it up to Marissa I might just lose the only sister I have. I’m sure she has a breaking point and I don’t want to see her reach it” he explained. But Justin and Katie really? They always fought….. they were two twins in the pack and they were sort of alike. They relied on each other most of the time. I guess Derek thought about it too. “fine invite her if you want, but just because you had a change in hear doesn’t mean I will” I said giving in. yea I didn’t really want to see her but I didn’t exactly want to screw over Derek either.

“don’t expect you too, and ok we’ll leave at 10:30 then because Kyle and her still has to talk to your dad” I nodded and walked away. I had some time to myself now and I needed to make the most of it. I wouldn’t be having much fun tonight seeing as how Marissa would be there with us and no matter what girl I was with or dancing with my attention would always be drawn back to her. I don’t want her but I don’t want anyone else with her either.