It has been a month now since I have been staying here and a month since he asked me to continue our marriage, I didn't say no but I didn't say yes either. I still have doubts whether it's gonna work between Rafael and I.

Rafael told Dad everything about him being in the mafia and that he took revenge from Simon but one thing he told Dad which at that time surprised me was that he is gonna give up on the mafia. Later when I asked him about this he replied.

"I can't give up on it, I am the leader now."

"You love it, don't you?"

He nodded "I love to feel the power it gives me."

When he said this he had a smile plastered on his lips, like he lives for it. I didn't ask him to give up on it either because we don't share the same relationship anymore. Yes, he visits me everyday, even he sleeps with me everyday but we are not husband and wife anymore... not yet divorced but I just told him I need time to think. Everything that happened has caused a huge damage to me and I am trying to cope up from it, Rafael understands it so he didn't force me either.

When Connor came to know that I didn't leave and the note was all a set-up, Rafael got a good one from him, yeah like seriously Connor was so mad at his so deary Vincent. Rafael even apologized to Connor, all I could do at that time was try hard to suppress my laughter, he looked so funny.

In the evening as usual Rafael visited, we were seated on the couch having dinner.

"You'll stay for the night?" I asked because he always stays even if he says no still he just falls asleep in here.

He shrugged "I don't know, have so much work left. My head is all messed up."

I chuckled "Then we can watch a movie, if you want? It may help you to relax."

He nodded and smiled widely "So horror it is then."

My eyes widened "Hell no! Not horror. You know I am scared."

"I'll be there with you."

"You won't be there tomorrow, what if I get all ghosty vibes alone. No. No horror."

"Then I ain't watching."

"Why? You always do this to me, such a jerk."

"I know. I don't like romantic movies."

"Okay... how about superhero movies?"

He shook his head "Kids stuff."

"But I watch superhero movies."

"Did I say you are a grown up?"

I hit his arm.

"Okay we can watch any action movie."

He shook his head "I've watched all, so we are gonna try a new one."

I know why is he doing this.

He loves to scare the shit out of me.

"We watched a horror movie few days ago."

He smiled "We can watch again. There are lot of those movies."

I don't know what fun does he get when I climb onto his lap while watching the movie. But then he holds me in his arm till the whole movie is over.

"So done with the discussion. We are watching horror movie." He picked me up in his arms and made his way towards the bedroom.

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In the morning, I made pancakes for breakfast. Rafael fell asleep in here again last night, when Dad called on his phone I picked it up and as usual he just chuckled and hung up. Rafael was so tired last night that till the movie was over he was already asleep holding me in his arms.

"Morning." He came into the kitchen wearing the sweats and a black tee, he took a seat on the stool.

I served the pancakes in two plates and gave him a cup of coffee.

"I fell asleep in here again." He said.

I chuckled "Your work?"

He shrugged "Have to work harder today."

I bit my lips. I have to tell him about it, this will be good for both of us. I have been preparing myself to say this to him for many days now but each time I stop myself.

"I need to talk about something." I said.

He nodded sipping coffee from his cup.

"Actually I... no. It's that you and I... I mean we... like-" My heart is beating so fast, damn. Why is it so hard?

"You and I, what?"

I closed my eyes biting my lips.

What am I doing? Why am I unable to say it?

Don't think Haze.

Don't think too much.

Not now. Just say it.

Taking a deep breath I continued, not once looking at him "Rafael I think we should s-stop."

His brows furrowed "We should stop, what?"

"Seeing each other."

"What?" He seemed totally confused.

Gulping hard I raised my gaze to look at him "You have a life and I too want to live mine getting out of this place. I want to live freely."

"I haven't stopped you from being free."

"I want to go away. Away from all of you, all these past memories. I was thinking of moving to Los Angeles, there are few people I know there and also I have searched for few places to stay in there, I don't think I would have much problem in adjusting."

He stared at me blankly for sometime "You want to leave me?"

I didn't answer but I guess what I said meant leaving him.

"Why do you want that suddenly?"

"It's not suddenly Rafael. I've been preparing myself to tell you this now for a long time just wasn't getting the right moment."

He remained quiet listening to me.

"Let's not create anymore problems, I am really tired. Let's just stay away from each other."

"Is it because I killed your brother?"

I shook my head "No. It's because of what relation our family share. It won't work between us Rafael and we won't be able to forget them."

"What is wrong with you? Weren't you the one who said hatred is not stronger than love."

"I did believe that but I think that only works in stories not in real life."

"Hazel why now? We were fine till yesterday. Why?"

"It's better if we do this now because sometime or the other we have to discuss about it."

His jaw clenched, he seemed angry this time "Let me know if you need my help with anything." Saying he got up from the stool.

"Breakfast?"

"Not hungry anymore." With that he just left.

I thought he would try stopping me but instead he is angry.

I got up from the stool and cleaned the plates.

I don't know what's wrong with me these days, I vomitted thrice in five days. I think I know what's the matter but I don't want it to be true. I am leaving and if I am pregnant how am I going to manage? A child alone... no that's too much.

In the evening, I went to the penthouse to tell Dad about me leaving. I have visited the penthouse many times to spend time with Dad, he asked me to get back with Rafael but I told him I can't.

When I reached, a maid opened the door. Not seeing Dad anywhere I made my way towards the kitchen, as expected Deborah was cooking in there.

"Where's Dad?" I asked.

She turned to me "Oh dear, you are here. I was trying something new don't leave without having it."

I smiled and nodded.

"And the old man went for walking. Got a good scolding from Rafael this morning, so finally got his lazy ass up from that couch and went for a walk."

I giggled "I'll wait for him."

She nodded and went back working, as I was exiting the kitchen she spoke again "I completely forgot to tell you."

"What?"

"Did you see the poolside?"

I shook my head.

"Rafael didn't tell you?"

"Tell me what?"

"He brought a girl few days back and I think today he is going to ask her for marriage."

My heart literally stopped at that point. What in the world?

A girl?

Marriage?

"What was her name, shit I forgot... wait... yeah someone named Olivia. He even took the day off to prepare everything for the day."

I didn't have anything to say, it was just the morning when I told him I was leaving and he is already going to ask another girl for marriage.

So in love with Olivia.

Was I wrong? I thought he would wait for me but no instead he is here preparing to ask someone else for marriage.

"That child too deserves happiness, hope she keeps him happy, she seems to be a nice girl."

Nice my ass.

It was my choice to leave him then why the fuck do I feel like crying, he can do whatever the fuck he wants with his life.

"A-Are you sure it's Olivia?" I asked again.

She nodded "You know her?"

I shook my head "Just asking."

She smiled "He isn't here, I guess he went himself to get some gift for her, she must be really special. Just go and see the poolside, it looks beautiful."

I nodded smiling.

Yeah, she is really special to him.

I am not going to the poolside, especially to get myself jealous.

I sat in the living room impatiently, struggling with my thoughts.

How does the poolside looks? Has he really made so much effort that too for Olivia? He has never done anything special for me, why her?

Struggling whether to go or not, finally the jealous Haze in me won the struggle and I went to the poolside.

My feet stopped as soon as I reached, as Deby said it looked really beautiful. He did so much for her. In the center it was written 'LOVE', lights all over the place, but still the place didn't look that special, it looks dull there should've been more lights. But still atleast he made this much effort for his deary Olivia.

She'll be lucky to have him. As for me, I can only get this special feeling in my imagination, no guy will ever do something like this for me.

"What are you doing here?"

I instantly turned around listening to that voice. Rafael stood at a distance looking straight at me. He looked breathtakingly handsome with black pants and a white shirt, the first three buttons of his shirt was undone giving a nice view of his tanned chest, his hair set but messy at the same time.

"Why are you here?" He repeated when I didn't reply.

"I came to see Dad."

"Well Dad isn't here."

I nodded "It looks good."

He looked around coming closer to me "Does it?"

I nodded "She'll be happy."

"Of course she'll be really happy, did you like it?"

"Yeah. It's very beautiful."

There was a smile on his lips, he too is happy to be with her. Don't cry Haze, you are stronger. "I should go and wait in the living room."

I turned to leave but he spinned me instantly pulling me towards him, he pinned my one hand behind me "Where are you going?"

I bit my lips "Back, Olivia must be here any moment."

"Are you happy for me?"

Why is he doing this to me? This is torture, how can I be happy with you wanting to marry someone else when I love you?

I tried holding back my tears and replied "Very much."

"Is this your way of expressing happiness? By crying?"

He shrugged "I mean people cry when they are sad and smile to express their happiness, you have a strange way of expressing happiness."

"I am not crying."

He smiled then brought his hand to my face, with his thumb he wiped my tears "What do you consider this as?"

"Let me go, your special person wouldn't like to see me in here."

He tucked the strands of my hair behind my ear and spoke "Special person? You know who this special person is?"

I rolled my eyes.

He loves hurting me.

"Olivia. So much special to you. You are so eager to marry her that you don't even care that we didn't get a divorce yet, I just told you that I am leaving this morning and here you are ready to ask another girl to marry you the same evening."

He had a mischievous smile on his lips "So what should've I done waited for you, while you would have all the fun in where... umm... wait... where did you want to go? Yes Los Angeles."

"I ain't going there for fun!"

"Really, you aren't?"

"No. And why are you here with me, wasting your precious time? Let go of me and wait for Olivia, your so special person in double quotes."

I tried pulling myself out of his hold but instead of letting me go he made his hold tight.

"What if I tell you that Olivia is not the special person, I was waiting for?"

Okay... So he has some other girl for himself, not Olivia... Fucking great!

"What if I tell you the special person I have been waiting for is right in front me, in my arms."

In his arms? Right now it's me in his arms.

My eyes widened "W-What?"

He brought his face closer to me "What if I tell you the person I am about to ask to marry me again, is you?"

All I did was to stare at him with the same shocked expression.

Leaving me he moved away from me and stood at a distance with hands in his pants pocket "Do you want to see the surprise?"

"Surprise?"

He nodded "I prepared a surprise for her."

For her... He is just playing around with me, fucking jerk.

"What surprise?"

He pointed at the back, I turned to see what he was pointing at but as soon as I turned around the light went off.

"Rafael?" I called. I walked straight not able to see anything, I didn't even have my phone it was in my clutch that I left in the living room. Suddenly I bumped into something, I touched it feeling some kind of flowers, the light of that particular place switched on. It was a table decorated with flowers and lights and on the center some bouquet like thing, the flowers were beautiful.

Something caught my eyes, a black envelope, I picked it up and opened it there was a letter inside.

No! This was all supposed to be for Olivia. Why me? He isn't stopping me.

Few lights switched on again, I looked down the path had lanterns leading to one corner. I walked towards that side, it was decorated with balloons and two tables had cupcakes and another one had a beautifully decorated cake.

I was searching for something looking around the place, in the balloons there was one was transparent balloon and the thing I was searching for... another black envelope, I looked around searching for some sharp object to burst the balloon and there was a pin, on it written 'SOME HELP?'

I giggled and picked it up, closing my eyes half I burst the balloon and took the envelope opening it another letter

Again lights switched on making the path towards a table with chairs for two people that was never here earlier, this was additional. I made my way towards the table, there was two glasses and a champagne bottle and in one side a small box, eagerly I opened the box expecting another envelope but instead I found my favourite... chocolates.

All other chocolates were of same size but one was a long dark chocolate only odd one written on it 'EAT ME!'. Picking that up I took off the wrapper and found another envelope... another letter.

There was another one attached to this one.

This time I cried, I cried so much.

No one has ever done so much for me, and this was completely unexpected. No one has ever made me feel so special.

"Stop it jerk! Stop this right now!" I shouted while crying.

Suddenly the lights of the whole place were turned on, I looked around searching for Rafael but he wasn't anywhere, the whole place looked different from what I saw earlier, it looked bright at the same time beautiful.

"Rafael? Where are you?" I called him while crying.

Suddenly I felt hands wrapping around my belly making me shiver, I didn't have to turn around to tell who this was.

"I know this is the worst proposal ever anyone has made but this is all my brain could think of."