"I think we should really go back to our room." He said getting up from the chair. I pouted holding my arms up asking him to pick me up.

He smiled then picked me up in his arms. From the terrace to our room I was being carried in his arms. On reaching the room he placed me on the bed, I held his hand pulling him on top of me.

Don't blame me for this stupidity.

I am wasted.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, he sighed "What are you doing?"

"I love you."

This time his smile faded, he stared at me for sometime. I could feel my heart racing at the moment "I'm sorry if you don't-"

Before I could complete my sentence his lips were on mine. And my heart nearly stopped when he kissed me. It was not like the way we kissed at the billiards table or like the way we kissed in the terrace, this was completely different like it meant something.

His hand slid around my waist pulling me closer, the way I felt when those arms were wrapped around me was not something I can explain but I felt being loved for the first time, being cared.

His lips moved down to my neck sucking on my sweet spot, he pulled down the straps of my top with my bra upto my chest, sucking hard on the area just above my breasts.

Suddenly he stopped, I looked at him in confusion "What if I am not the guy you think?"

"What?"

"I married you for my own reasons because I wanted something from Simon."

I pecked his lips "I don't care, I love you. I don't care about the reason you married me, all I know is we are married and I need you to be with me for the rest of my life."

"I am selfish. The marriage was for my selfish reason, Olivia die-"

"Shh... Stop talking please."

He stared at me for a moment then took off his tee "You won't regret it later, right?"

I shook my head.

Within seconds my top was removed with my bra and I was half-naked in front of him. He leaned down towards me his lips roaming all over my body making me feel hot, he kissed my lips again while his hands pinching both my nipples. Leaving my lips he moved down to my breasts, his tongue drawing circles on my right breast while his other hand rubbing my clit from over my shorts slowly. He held my nipples in between his teeth making me moan in pleasure, he increased the pressure on my clit.

"Rafael." I moaned.

He sat on his knees then took off my shorts then my panties slowly.

I looked down at him taking a deep breath, he adjusted himself in between my legs and I was completely naked lying on the bed. Spreading my legs apart he went down and started sucking on my clit.

My eyes closed automatically in pleasure, I licked my lips. He sucked hungrily while I started moving not able to take too much to keep me steady he held both my thighs, and continued pleasuring me with his mouth, it felt so good. I clutched onto the bedsheets tightly as I felt fire burning inside me, he was eating me out so well.

"Oh My God!" I muttered arching my back. He groaned pushing his tongue further into my core. My eyes rolled back and I started shaking as the build up inside me was making way to an orgasm. He licked all my juices.

Sitting up in between my legs he once licked his lips and said "So damn sweet babygirl."

I could feel my face turning red, he came up towards me and connected our lips again. I kissed him back, his tongue entered inside my mouth exploring my mouth, I sucked on his tongue. His took my lower lips in between his teeth, then sucked on it hard. He stopped sucking and started placing soft kisses on my cheeks, lips, jaw. Pulling away he took his sweats off.

I gulped hard feeling nervous as hell.

Taking out a condom from the drawer, wait how does he have a condom?

"How do you have condoms in here?" I asked innocently.

He smirked "I specially kept it for this moment."

I rolled my eyes.

He smiled and pecked my lips once then whispered "Always have them for safety, didn't know have to use it on you."

I blushed.

He placed it on his member then started rubbing his member on my entrance painfully slow, making me impatient for more "Please." I cried wanting more of him.

"Please what babygirl?"

"Please."

"Say the word." I can't believe he is doing this to me.

I am getting really needy for him and he is making it worse.

"Please Daddy."

I could feel him smirking "That's like my girl." With that he entered me making me scream in pain at first, I clutched onto his hands tightly, he kissed on my lips "It's fine baby. You'll be fine."

"I-It hurts." I stuttered.

"It'll be fine Hazel."

Slowly he started moving inside me, I felt hot tears streaming down my cheeks. Once he was sure that I am fine, he sat back on his knees holding both my thighs, pulling me closer and started thrusting inside me.

"You feel so good babygirl."

He increased his pace, thrusting harder into me while I was a moaning mess. My eyes closed enjoying each and every moment. He squeezed my breasts hard with his hands moving faster in me. Our body moved in rhythm with each other. The room was filled by our moans, slapping of skins against each other.

"I-I'm go-" Before I could complete my sentence, he pulled out of me. I looked at him in confusion "What are you doing?"

He changed our position getting me on top of him. Again he entered me "Start moving."

Spreading my legs I started moving my hips, his hands rested on my ass he groaned in pleasure "Just like that babygirl."

I continued moving my ass around his member, he slapped my ass again giving it a squeeze "Ah!" I muttered.

"Come for me babygirl." Saying he held my ass tightly and increased his pace, thrusting into me harder and faster making me scream.

"Fuck!" I leaned towards him lying on top of him, he hugged me while still thrusting. Soon I experienced another release, he came with me. Breathing heavily, I just laid on his chest unable to even move an inch.

He removed the strands of my hair from my face, his chest too was rising up and down "That was amazing."

Pulling out of me, he made me lie down on the bed while he discarded the condom rolling to his side of the bed then pulled me towards himself holding me in his arms, I closed my eyes.

I woke up holding my head, it was hurting like hell.

Last night I drank too much. Not too much but four or five glasses were enough to get me drunk.

Opening my eyes, I found myself in Rafael's arms, nothing new.

But I felt something strange underneath, looking down I found a blanket covering my body again nothing new.

But I could feel Rafael's body touching mine, without clothes body to be specific. That scared me.

No. I did not.

I looked under the blanket just to find myself naked. Rafael too was naked beside me sleeping peacefully.

Fuck!

Fuck!

Fuck!

I am never ever drinking again!

I was trying to get out of his hold carefully not wanting him to wake up but he felt me moving and his eyes started opening slowly. Once his eyes met mine, I covered my face with my hands hiding on his chest.

After sometime I guess he too realised what happened last night.

"Shit!" He muttered.

I didn't move an inch, it's so embarrassing. Oh Sweet Jesus! Kill me already.

"Hazel?" He called but I didn't reply.

"Hazel?"

Again no reply.

"Hazel let go of me." He said finally getting annoyed.

I slowly pulled away once our eyes met, he looked extremely angry. Picking up his sweats from the floor he wore them and made his way towards the washroom.

Wait, does he regret it?

Well his reaction was enough to answer my question. He does regret last night but I don't. Though I was not in my senses but still I do not regret it. I mean I know we both were drunk and all but still I don't.

I sat up on the bed only the blanket covering my body, feeling disheartened. Rafael came out of the washroom few minutes later, it was pretty clear he was avoiding my gaze.

Finally he turned to me but still not meeting my gaze "Please change your clothes, there are few more places to visit." with that he disappeared in the closet.

He is behaving like nothing happened last night.

All I want to do right now is to slap him hard.

Getting my ass off the bed, I went to the washroom.

Here I am least interested in whatever he is explaining to me about the place all I did was to stare at him thinking about last night.

When he noticed me staring he stopped explaining but looked irritated, rolling my eyes I made my way somewhere trying to discover the place on my own but he did followed me keeping a good distance.

Few minutes later he came beside me walking with me. I didn't even look at him.

Why should I? If he wants to act like a jerk then I too can be the bitch.

"Do you regret it?" He asked.

"What?"

"Last night. Do you regret last night?"

"If I would've been regretting it then I wouldn't have been trying to get your attention all this while." I replied crossing my arms over my chest.

"You don't regret it."

"Do you?" I asked not sure what his reply is gonna be.

"It was indeed my best but Hazel it's wrong."

"Why is it wrong? Why do you always say that? We are married Rafael." Before he could even answer, I spoke again "Is it because of Olivia? Do you love her?"

This time he looked really angry, holding my arms tightly he pulled me closer to him "Listen to me Hazel, don't ever bring her in between us ever again. You don't know anything about her."

His hold on my arms tightened "Y-You're hurting me, Rafael."

Finally he realised what he was doing then he left my arms. Not uttering a single word, he made his way outside.

Who the hell is Olivia? And why did her name make him so angry?

***************************************

In the evening, I was sitting in my room just when Simon called. He guessed I was sad by my voice so he kept on asking what's wrong.

"Can you tell me something?" I asked him.

"What?"

"Why does Rafael doesn't let anyone come closer to him?"

"It's not the thing Hazel. If he's pushing you away that means he doesn't want to fall for you."

Is he pushing me away because he too feels something for me?

"Why does he not want fall in love?"

Simon took a deep breath then said "I shouldn't tell you this but I think this will be for the best."

"What do you mean?"

"Rafael has a past, a very bad one and it's related to Vincent."

"How is his life related to Vincent?"

"Rafael loved a girl, her name was Olivia. They both dated each other since high school, he could do anything for her. When he asked her for marriage, she said yes, at that time he was I guess 24."

I felt a bit jealous. That's really for a long time they dated each other.

That Olivia girl might have got all this nice side of Rafael, all the love from him.

"Then something happened which destroyed him. On the day before their marriage Olivia went out for shopping but didn't return ever."

"W-What do you mean?" I asked in a horrified voice.

"Olivia was killed. No one knew how did it happen. Rafael just found her body on the street covered with blood. Though he had a lot of money but couldn't do anything because he didn't know who was the killer. But one more person died on the same place, the same day, it was one of my men. I didn't know Rafael at that time so I didn't care about the girl. After that when we became friends I got to know everything about Olivia."

"How are you so sure that it was Vincent?"

"It had to be Vincent no one else is so professional with those brass knuckles, knife those marks were found on Olivia's body. Rafael went through a lot after her death. She was his only love after that he pushes everyone away from himself. He doesn't believe in love anymore."

That letter on his desk. He still loves her that's why it's always there.

Is that the reason he doesn't like me touching anything on his table?

"Haze?" Simon called pulling me back to our conversation.

"Yeah."

"Do you love him?" He asked.

"N-No what are you even saying. I don't. I-I was j-just curious."

He chuckled "And now you are lying. Great."

"Bye Simon. Take care."

"You too."

I hung up.