All week Zane has been taking care of me while I've been sick. He hasn't let me lift one single finger since he enter my dorm. Zane has been getting me food and helping me as I'm dying on this bed.

On the first day he was here I was gonna make him go back to his dorm but he managed to convince me to let him stay in the couch just he can make sure I'm alright and taking my medicines on time.

He looked so uncomfortable on the couch. I woke up one night and saw his legs dangling at the edge of the couch. I kinda felt bad, key word kinda. Then I just went back to bed.

He left back to his dorm yesterday because I feel all better now. He offered to clean my dorm well more like getting a cleaning lady to clean it but I declined I could do it myself. I get out of my bed swiftly and grab my school uniform.

I go into the bathroom and turn on the shower. Once the water is hot I go in and the water falls down on me. It feels nice, having a shower in the morning.

Zane almost found my little streaming office but luckily it was locked so he couldn't go in. He look suspicious of the closet when he was here but some how managed to convince him it just had a bunch of old stuff in there I didn't want anymore and just can't bother with throwing away.

I got out of the shower and dried myself putting my uniform on. I brush my teeth then put my hair into a high ponytail. I go into my messy bedroom and grab my bag putting it over my shoulder. I put on my shoes then leave my dorm locking the door behind me.

I walk to the elevator and press the button to go down. The elevator dings and it opens its door. Zane and Olivia are in there standing next to each other. Zanes arms are crossed and his face looks pissed off like he wants to punch a wall. He seems so tense and uncomfortable. And Olivia looks like she's ready to murder someone. Oh trouble in paradise I see?

The only Carmen would have taken the stairs down but now I just bring my shoulders back and stand tall walking in proudly with myself. "Good morning," I say simply. I know saying good morning to them would piss Olivia off. Which I find funny so obviously I have to say good morning!

When I said good morning Zanes eyes lighten and he got less tense. As if my voice had something to do with him calming down. I shrug it off and as soon as the elevator doors open I walked out. I went straight to the dining hall and get a tray to put my food on.

I get two hash browns, a fruit bowl, an omelet, and sausages. I don't sit in the table with all the doms, honestly just can't stand Olivia she gets on my nerves. And I'm pretty sure some brain cells have died just hearing her talk.

I sit in a table in the corner by the windows. I have a perfect view of the quad area. All the littles come to sit here with me because they also got fed up with Olivia. Their doms would come too but they don't want to leave Zane alone I guess.

"So Carmen what are you planning to do for winter break?" Kelly questions me as she drinks her orange juice. I shrug my shoulders and take a bit out of my omelet

"I'm not sure I'm probably just going to head to my parents and be there with them." I tell her. She nods at me and then Avery speaks up, "well the dance it in a week so we need to go shopping tomorrow or today guys because then the stores are gonna be filled up with people and I hate waiting in long lines,"

"How about we go tomorrow because I'm going to be busy with my daddy today. We're going to run a bunch of errands I guess with uncle Zane," Alex says moving around his potatoes on his plate.

That's actually really great. I promised Jayson and Natalie I'd record a video with them today but I obviously I can't tell them that.

We eat our breakfast peacefully and then the bell rings. We get up and they all go to their mommy's and daddy's. I go over and put my tray in the dirty plates section.

I head over to class but then get stopped by Olivia. She has her arms crossed and is standing like one of your typical mean girls. I raise an eyebrow at her confused, "what?"

"What do you mean what? You dirty skank you're sleeping with my fiancé, Zane" she says to me. Fiancé? I look down at her hand and see a ring on her hand.

"Yeah surprised? You better back the fuck off he's mine! And if I see you near him ever again I promise I'll make you regret it!" She says to me.

I chuckle a bit. I kinda like see Olivia mad it's funny. Her right eye gets a bit twitchy and she looks like a crazy person. I smile at her, "oh sorry was I suppose to be scared of that? Honestly I feel like you should see a therapist it's getting kinda pathetic that you keep telling me to stay away from your so called man when he comes after me,"

She gets furious at the comment it looked like she was going to hit me. I was prepared for it, there's a camera above us which will catch everything. But then she stops and storms away.

I roll my eyes. Great now I'm late for class!

I head over to my dorm. I'm going to record a video with Jayson and Natalie before dinner. I get to my dorm and open my room dropping my things onto the floor then head over to my office in the closet. I unlock it and turn on everything.

I hop onto discord and turn on my recording stuffy. We start the video and spend about three hours recording.

It's 5:46 PM when we finish recording. Natalie has left the voice chat and it's only me and Jayson left on it.

I groan into the mic "I have to go dress shopping tomorrow,"

"Dress shopping? For what?" Jayson questions me. I could hear him play with a fidget toy.

"Well there's this dance coming up in two weeks and apparently I'm going!" I say sarcastically at the end.

"Who are you going with?"

"With Avery but technically her date is Casey. So in other words I'm third wheeling behind her and everyone else," I say typing a couple things down on my computer.

"That's just sad, maybe you should find yourself a date. I mean you and that Zane guy aren't even together, and it'll be good for you to meet new people," he says to me. I could hear him move a lot in his chair.

"You're right but I don't want to date anyone right now. And even if I go alone I think it'll be refreshing for me."

"Hmm...so anyways what are you going to do for break?" He ask.

"I was planning on just going to spend break with my parents and possibly visit my brother," I say the last part kind of sadly. Jayson is able to detect that quickly.

"How long has it been since you've gone to see him?"

"It's been two years...I just...I don't know I can't bring myself to go. I say I'll go every break but I don't, but I think this year I will go," I tell him.

"You know you don't have to go alone if you want Liam and I can fly over so you won't be alone," he tells me. I know he would do it if I ask. He wouldn't give it a second thought, neither of them would. They would just get on a plane and come here if I needed them. I would do the same for them too.

"No it's fine, I have to do this on my own. It hurts but I have to do it," I say.

"We'll just know we're all here for you." He tells me his voice calm and comforting. He always knows what to say to me.

For the rest of the time we just talk about any random conversation we think of. We have a nice to time until finally I decide I'm tired and need some sleep. I say bye and log off leaving my office and locking it. I go to my room and put my pajamas on.

I get into bed and sleep the rest of the night away...

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