"I hope you enjoyed today's stream guys! Remember new merch will drop soon on my merch shop at shopCMmerch.com! The new video comes out tomorrow! I'll see you guys in the next stream. Bye guys!" I end the video and my tense shoulders relax. I yawn stretching my arms.

"You tired already?" Jayson's voice comes out through my headset. I give him a subtle laugh, "Maybe a little".

"Isn't it barley like, what? 10:30 PM over there?" He questions. I look over to my clock and see it's 10:34. I've been streaming for 3 hours? Hmm, time flies when I'm doing something I love.

"Actually it's 10:34 PM," I correct him. I could hear him laugh a bit. "Yeah yeah, but anyway I'm going to log off. I need to get some sleep I've been streaming with you since 3 in the morning my time," He says his voice sounding all tired.

"Okay, we'll have a good sleep Jayson," I tell him.

"I'll talk to you in a couple of hours, bye." He hangs up the call and my headset goes dead quiet.

It's been quiet these past couple of days. I feel like my dorm is emptier than usual. It feels cold to me for some reason. I stand up from my gaming chair and leave my little make-shift office. I turn off the LED lights and close the door behind. I should really go to sleep, but every time I try to fall asleep I can't. I feel like I'm missing something.

I groan to myself and then go to my drawer and grab a unicorn onesie which is very oversized but I like it because the size of it makes me feel safe. I go to the bathroom and turn the shower on. I undress and take my hair out of my messy bun.

I touch the water to make sure it's not too hot. I get in and let the water, fall on me. I feel my once tense body now relax with the warmth of the water. I tilt my head back just a little and rest it on the tiles of the shower.

Last week I signed so Zane wouldn't be my dom. It's been quite awkward. I still sit with all the littles and doms, I just sit far away from Zane. I feel his stare on me most of the time while sitting there.

As of right now, I don't have a caregiver. The headmistress said she would allow me to not have a caregiver for the rest of the year as long as I keep up with my studies and keep myself healthy. The headmistress seemed a bit disappointed when I signed the paper to removing Zane as my caregiver. But I did what was best for me.

I put my head back into the water and shower my hair and body, as soon as I was done the water started getting cold so I turned off the shower and got out. I grabbed my towel and dried myself. I put on my onesie and brushed my teeth.

I leave the bathroom and drop my clothes in my hamper in my room. I jump onto my bed and lay there staring at the ceiling. I turn my head to see the clock and see it's already 11:30 PM. I sigh and then get up. I pull out the sheets and turn my night light on. I go over to my light switch and turn off the lights. I run to my bed and lay down covering myself in the sheets.

I close my eyes and try to fall asleep but I can't manage to fall asleep. I roll over to my other side and see if I get comfortable like that to fall asleep but I don't. I grab my phone and lay on my back.

I open up my Twitter and scroll down reading tweets people have put. And things they've tagged me in. I watch a couple of edits people have made of me and respond to people's comments and tweets.

Slowly but surely I start to fall asleep...

I yawn and rub my eyes. I don't want to wake up...I'm so tired. I groan and grab my phone turning off my alarm clock. I cuddle back into my blankets and stay there.

It's going to be so awkward going to breakfast today. It's been so awkward this past week. I grab my stuffie and hug it for comfort and reassurance to myself.

After a moment I finally get up and get out of bed. I ten and stretch before going over to get my uniform. I get my uniform and go to the bathroom.

Turning on the water I get in and take a quick shower. I get out and dry myself putting my uniform on and put my hair into a braid. I quickly brush my teeth. I look myself in the mirror to see if I look presentable.

I walk out of the bathroom and grab my school bag putting it over my shoulder. I walk to the front door and put my shoes on and grab my keys. I put the keys in my bag and walk out closing the door behind me.

I make my way down to the dining hall. As I walk I see all the littles with their doms or caregivers. Kinda sad seeing this...I don't have a caregiver anymore. But it's fine I can manage myself...I guess...

I walk into the dining hall and walk over to the line and grab a tray. I get my breakfast then head over to the table. As I walk to the table I only see one spot open which was next to Zane. I groan in frustration.

I really don't want to sit next to him but I also don't want to sit alone. I really need to grow a pair. I roll my eyes subtly and then make my way towards Zane.

Before sitting I look at the seat then sit down placing my tray down.

"Hey..." he says softly to me. I look at him then go back to my food. He doesn't deserve a simple hello from me. He leads me on to thinking we had something but then goes off to be with Olivia.

Yup seems to me like he doesn't deserve my attention.

I get a strawberry and eat it. I always sit next to Avery...why didn't she save me a seat?

"So uh...how have you been...?" Zane tried to talk to me. I ignore him and his question. I take a bite out of my breakfast sandwich.

A few minutes pass and Zane speaks up again, "are you going to the dance...next month? I'm pretty sure All the littles are going shopping in the mall...you should go,"

Right there's a dance coming up. I don't really don't want to go. Big crowds aren't really my thing, especially when there are sweaty people involved.

"Yeah, you should come, Carmen! It'll be so fun!" Alex said while chewing something inside his mouth. Elijah tells him to close his mouth when chewing and Alex does as he was told.

"My mommy is gonna take us," Justin says and lays his head on Quinn's shoulder. I shrug my shoulders, "I'll think about it,"

They all go back to talking and I could feel Zane staring at me. I go back to eating.

I hear footsteps coming our way. I look up to see Olivia. She smiles at us, which looks like the fakest smile I've ever seen. What is she doing here?

She never sits with us...

"Hi daddy," Olivia sits on Zane's lap. The table gets silent...