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I have decided to un-publish 'The Athena System' as I don't have enough time to focus on it as my main work is Lovely Villainess. The Athena System also had some plot troubles that I would like to address at a later date before republishing. For those who liked it, I'm sorry but it will probably be republished after the end of Lovely Villainess is I decide on that as my next work. Thank you for understanding! (｡◕‿◕｡)

I will be going on vacation and I do not know if I will be able to update, so I will be publishing this chapter in advance. Thank you for reading Lovely Villainess. Love you guys! Please don't forget to like, comment, and follow me for more updates! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ ✧ﾟ･: *ヽ(◕ヮ◕ヽ)

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It would take quite some time to reach the palace, I didn't bring anything but father had a stack of paper work that he was looking over. I was glad the he was distracted with his work so I could sort out my thoughts after the memory I received.

Unlike in the memories before that had overwhelming emotions, this one had a painful numbness. I not only felt the emotions in the memories but also the physical pain. I looked down at my hands, opened and closed them a few times to try and get rid of the ache that seemed to linger.

I felt a sense of emptiness settle within me, like a bottomless pit that couldn't be filled. Even though I felt empty, my whole being felt heaviness weighing me down. I wanted to feel nervous or scared with the feelings that weren't mine but there was no ripple within my peaceful mind. Although it was peaceful there was a disquieting feeling it gave off.

I calmly moved my gaze to look at father working diligently, only then did I feel a ripple within the emptiness. I couldn't quite put my finger on the emotion, it was too complicated, too blurred, too...

I slowly raised my hand to touch my neck, my throat throbbed where it was previously detached from. Although I knew I should feel terrified, I could only feel regret.

Regret that I wasn't dead.

I knew these feelings weren't mine, and I should fight them but it only seemed tedious.

I leaned my head onto the window and watched the scenery passing by. I didn't want to loose myself, but I also couldn't find it within myself to care enough. Conflicting emotions were within me, a part of me wanted to disappear while another wanted to fight for life. In the end I was able to override the emotions of Alina, but at the same time I felt a drastic change within me.

I felt tired in many different ways, but I was soon lulled to sleep buy the rocking of the carriage. I hoped for a dreamless sleep to rest my weary mind, luckily my wishes were heard.