I open her door, then carefully help her in and to her bed. She hasn't looked at me once, she's just looking down. I sigh.

"Baby.. please look at me?" i ask gently, im sat on my knees on the floor in front of her. She looks up and her eyes are wet and sad. "Im so sorry" is say to her.

"Its my fault, i just felt wierd and i was being mean and disrespectful and you can yell at me when im being those things-"

"No, its never ok to yell at you baby and im sorry that I did" i say and she looks at me and nods. Ok how the fuck do i solve this. "Aria?" she looks at me briefly then looks away. "Why cant you look at me baby? please?" i ask her gently. She seems fragile right now and i just want to help her.

"I um, have my period, isnt that weird for you?" she asks me, doing her cute head tilt.

"No baby, sure i dont actually know anything about that but why would it be weird?"

"Its not.. gross?" she asks me.

"No babygirl" i assure her and she nods. "What else is wrong?" i ask. I know there is more.

"nothing just a uh, nightmare" she says. I should've been here. "Nick" i look up at her. "Can i go to the store now? the cab guy is probably cursing me right now"

"Im taking you" i stand up and kiss her before she can protest. The whole way down she kept saying how mean I am being to the cab driver.

When we were out, i see the cab so I give the cab driver some money to make her feel better.

"Better?" I ask her.

"Yes thankyou" i open her door and she sits in. She still looks timid and cautious. I dont know whats going on. As im walking around, she gets out of the car. "I- we cant go" she says. I furrow my eyebrows.

"Why baby?" i ask her. She just shakes her head and walks back into the building. What the fuck is going on. She looks to be contemplating something.

We walk into her apartment and she drops her bag.

"Niccolo" she whispers, her back to me. She then turns to me and her eyes have tears. I try to reach out to her but she steps back. Fuck. "You have to leave, we cant do this its not g-good and it- I just wont be-"

"Baby talk to me, why are you saying this?" Im so fucking confused. "We're together baby, i want to take-"

"No. No because then you'll leave and i cant d-do that again please just, i dont want to hold you back, and thats what ill do, i have baggage and this just wasn't a good idea, ive never been happy, and when i am and i realise i am, it goes away. Im meant to be alone Nick, im supposed to be alone and i have to live with that" she's breathing very fast. I want her to finish because i want to hear all of what she wants to say. "I cant be left to someone else when you decide you dont want to be with me anymore, i cant get used to this, this luxury of someone driving me and buying me dinner and the only thing that makes me happy, because this is so good but i know that the pain is really hard and i, please-" she breaks down and starts sobbing, letting out little hiccups.

I quickly wrap my arms around her shaking form and kiss her head again and again. I cant see her like this. Never fucking again do i want her thinking she's alone. She holds so much pain but she still manages to brighten every fucking room she enters.

I keep kissing her head and tell her its okay.