It sure has been a looong time! I will try to update at least once a week from now on. I hope you enjoy this chapter.

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I woke up in bed in bliss. I stretched out my slightly sore body, then turn my neck to the right and see Nicolas peacefully sleep. His dark hair messily scattered and his pale skin glowing in the morning sun. He really looks like an angel, but only in disguise. I look at his face and my face heats up as memories of yesterday flash through my mind.

He starts to move around, alerting me that he is waking up. I wanted to hurry and get up because I couldn't face him, especially after yesterday. Instead of feeling the soft rug on the soles of my feet, I feel Nicolas strong arms around my waist. Nicolas hands then start to rub my warm thighs. The soothing touch provides me pleasurable shivers down my spine. I wonder why he was able to have such easy access to my sensitive thighs. I then realize I was wearing his shirt, that was loose and obviously too big on me.

I bite my lip, suppressing a moan. It shocked me how nice this felt, I was beyond embarrassed when I noticed there was a grin on Nicolas plump lips.

"Morning love, how about we repeat last night." His voice was raspy and deep, as expected since he just woke up. I bite my lip, it was very tempting. It was ludicrous how comfortable I was getting with Nicolas, allowing him to touch the places that I had no idea that can bring me so much pleasure. I quickly remove his hands from my body and get up. I face him and nervously speak my response.

"I am going to eat breakfast that Helen prepared, do y-you want me to bring your breakfast to you or.."

"That would be lovely. But unfortunately, I have to work. Sophia will bring me my usual. And what will you be doing today?"

He gets up towering over me, I look up and give him a curious look. I was wondering why he was looking like he wanted to devour me whole. I offered him a smile and in return, he kisses my forehead. I was speechless with how handsome he looked, and his perfectly toned body was making me unintentionally lick my full lips. Nicolas narrows his eyes, a dark look in eyes.

"Maybe I should take another day off, how can I go to work with that expression that is basically begging me to fu-". I interrupted him before he continues his obvious dirty statement. I quickly put some space between us and tell him with conviction.

"I am going to school and sort the mess that formed because of the situation with Samson. I'm going to be busy all day." I basically run past him and didn't even wait for him to reply to my statement when I walked towards the bathroom. I really need to put some distance between us. Why I am I swooning for him and allowing him to touch me so sexually. Sure he is really good with his hands and his physical features are very distracting. I'm not supposed to be okay with this whole arrangement, just because he is being so patient and gentle does not mean that his past actions are just.

I continue to think of my shameful acts even while taking a bite of Helen's mouth-watering waffles. Nicolas walks in the kitchen looking sharp and expressionless like usual. He catches me glancing at him and I quickly look away.

I pretended to look uninterested at his presence and start shoving more waffles in my mouth. I smell Nicolas musky and woodsy cologne, letting me know that he was sitting next to me. I still didn't bother to look at him when he spoke to me.

"My mother is coming over for dinner to discuss the wedding that is happening in a month, I just wanted to remind you since you are busy today," I mumble my reply avoiding looking at him directly.

"Yeah I know and I will be on time". I was too busy focusing on chugging my orange juice so I can hurry and leave that I didn't notice the irritation that was in Nicolas's face. His voice was cold and annoyed by my dismissive behavior.

"I find it very disrespectful that you are not looking at me when I am talking to you Renmen! Look at me when you respond to me!" I slightly jump at his demanding and deep voice. I whip my head toward him, afraid to face the consequences.

"Yeah ok...sorry, sheesh". I rolled my eyes, getting up, more than ready to leave. I flinched when Nicolas roughly snatched my arm. I looked up at him in fear, he looked angry, well his true nature is showing off. I am definitely not surprised. He then suddenly sighs to calm himself and his firm grip was still on my arm.

"Did I do something wrong? Why are acting so distant and here I thought that we have gotten closer. You sure were enthusiastic yesterday. Are you okay?"

His words were irritating me and his face is irritating me. Everything about him is really making my blood boil. His hard grip on me is making me wince and uncomfortable. His roughness towards me only reminded me of his all past wrongdoings and I snapped. I yelled at him and surprising him.

"Will you let go of me!" He releases me, his brows are raised up in astonishment and a frown etched on his face. I continue my angry rant, looking straight to his eyes.

"You want to know what's wrong with me, it's your whole existence in my life! Just because you were nice to me and less controlling after the horrible incident does not mean anything. By the way that would not have happened if I was never involved with you in the first place. I am still not ok with this whole arrangement, I am just a very unlucky person. I don't even know why I let you do all those things to me when I don't even have any feelings for you. Honestly, I wished I never met you!" I quickly grabbed my stuff, heading out of the house before he could reply to my harsh statement.

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I poked at my food, I really did not want to talk to his mother. It was torture to plan a wedding that I did not want to have in the first place. My silence and the grumpy expression on my face definitely made the older woman next to me uncomfortable. So she had to make a statement.

"Are you okay? Because I asked you what kind of wedding you are visioning. I can definitely see an outdoor wedding, I'm feeling a soft atmosphere. Colors definitely soft green and peach...." She continues, I regret paying attention to here. I look up at her, a deep frown on my face. She stops and then offers me a soft smile.

"Ok, Renmen, based on your expression. I really don't think you are in a good a mood like you don't want to marry my son at all. Is there something you want to tell me". Okay so yeah I should definitely just expose her son, tell her how horrible he is to me and why I am really marrying him. But it probably won't be that surprising, because she probably knows how shady her son is.

"Sorry, yeah I just don't feel very enthusiastic about the wedding. Your son and I are having arguments. Yeah...an outside wedding sounds fine. Can I go now?" Her response only fuelled my irritation. She will never be the person I would ask for help or comfort. I internally screamed at what she said.

"I always had a feeling that my son was probably forcing you in this marriage. He always wants things his way, he gets his temper from my ex-husband. No matter how much I try to give him advice he never listens, so stubborn. I am sorry if he is abusing you in any way". I get up, tired of her words and knowing nothing she says will fix my situation. I leave, not before telling her that I don't want any part in planning the wedding.

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As days went by Nicolas and I continue to have arguments. The tension between us growing. I have been avoiding him like the plague and as the wedding drew closer it only made me edgier. I thought bringing distance between us and avoiding him would make Nicolas lose his interest, but his obsession with me will seem to never die down.

I needed to leave this house and be somewhere else. I was tired of the same routine, being near the man that holds my life, it felt suffocating. I took a bite of the delicious lasagna that Helen made, at least her food was a bright part in living with the cruel man.

Suddenly my phone notified me that Amy was calling me. A smile was planted on my face. I quickly answer, ready to hear Amy's soft voice.

"Hey Renmen, how are you my sweet?" Her cheery voice made me happy, I didn't have many friends, but I would rather have a few than a lot. You never know who would backstab you, speaking towards my experience with Samson.

"Honestly, I am bored out of my mind. I'm eating dinner right now and how are you?". I had an extreme interest in her reply.

"Oooh okay. Glad you eating dinner because you definitely need energy for tonight sweet cheeks. Have you ever been to a club Renmen, I already know the answer to that." a soft chuckle slipped out my lips. I was kind of nervous when she mentioned "club", but a good nervous tingle went through me. I will do anything to leave this house.

"Of course I never been to a club! Do you know who I am? Sheesh, but honestly why not. I would do anything to leave this suffocating house". I usually shut down her requests to go out, what do I look like going to a male strip club? To be honest, I am a very boring person, I don't know why Nicolas has such a high interest in me. I can easily hear the surprise in Amy's voice.

"Wow, I am so excited! Now you better not back out on me. I want to see that big ass shake all night because you work too hard and you deserve it. Honestly, let's have extreme fun." I smile kind of regretting saying yes to going out. We continue our conversation. After 30 minutes we hang up. What does one wear to the club? Do I have proper clothes? In the end, I decided on wearing skinny jeans that clung to my thick thighs and a dark blue short sleeve Armani dress shirt. I threw on a jacket, also.

I was elated but extremely nervous to tell Nicolas I was going out tonight. It was currently 8:30 pm and I was supposed to meet Amy at the club around 9. I knock at the office door, playing with my fingers nervously. He answers with a harsh tone.

"Come in Renmen". I walk in, making sure to close the door behind me. Silence is in the air, I look down at the office desk instead of his face. I softly mumbled to him about what I wanted to do tonight.

"I'm going out with Amy". I was waiting for him to speak, even though it was an only a few minutes until he spoke, it felt like hours. I wanted to leave so bad, I haven't intentionally spoken to him in a more than a week.

"What have I told you about eye contact when speaking to me? I can't hear you either, how do you expect me to pay attention to you? Now, let's try this again, what do you want". Every word that fell out his mouth only led me to believe he was in a foul mood. This was not going to end well, I had a gut feeling.

I did what he told me. My hands balled into a fist by my sides, I glared into his eyes. And informed him once again.

"I said I'm going out with Amy tonight". He smirked at me a teasing look in his dead eyes, he was obviously amused by my glare. I was not very scary with my short stature.

"Okay, where are you going exactly?". I couldn't look at his eyes for too long, I quickly glance away and looked at him when I replied.

"I am going to the club". He got up suddenly, my curious eyes followed his movements. He stood in front of me, the distance between us not as far as before. His arm was crossed in disapproval, his towering figure intimidated me to no end. I look up waiting for his answer.

"That will be a no, you can leave now." I kind of expected that, but I was pissed. Anger increased by the minute within me. A scowl was on my face and I wanted to scream at me. I wanted the men outside guarding the house to hear me. But I calmed down, I'm not going to act like him. Yelling at him will only make thing worse.

"You can't do this to me. You are not being fair, I am an adult. I can't be in this house right now with you or I will go insane. I just can't, please just let me go."

"Renmen, you were kidnapped and held hostage not long ago. You should know by now how I am. I am trying to be lenient nowadays. But the club? Are you of your mind? You know how risky that is?"

"So you basically want to keep me hostage in this house like Samson did. You're basically acting like him, you are no different than him." I could tell that hurt him because he sneered at me. His face red in anger, veins popping out his neck. I actually never seen him this ticked off. He spoke, the volume in his voice didn't increase as I expected. I think the lack of volume in his voice, only makes him more terrifying.

"Don't say something you will regret. You are obviously not thinking, now leave my office. I don't have time for your foolishness this night." I was angry with the way he was dismissing me like this, not even bothering to think about my request. I didn't budge a bit, I just barked right back at him. I was so close to tears.

"You are acting like a child Nicolas! Can you listen to me, for once? You will never change. I am not staying in this house tonight okay?. I don't care what you say or what you do, I am leaving!" I swiftly walk away from him, aiming towards the door. Nicolas painfully grabs my arms, I flinch and whimper when I spot that Nicolas' arm was raised. His hand was prepared to slap me. That hand was ready to express how angry he was. I instinctively squeezed my eyes, submissive to him, stupid enough to not move away or block him. When nothing comes to my surprise. I open my eyes and Nicolas lets me go. His words brutally stab me repeatedly, only reminding me how evil and heartless this man can be.

"Oh I see you getting bold nowadays, I just let it slide because what you been through. You don't seem to know your place, or who I am. Yes, I love you. And my love for you is the only thing that is holding me back from beating the shit out of you. Fine, go out, I don't give a fuck. But you better be back before it's morning, and that is 1 am. If not, there will be consequences that you will face. Do you understand?" I know I should have looked at him when I replied. But I was terrified, my mouth was agape from shock. I wanted to cry, but I bite my lip to keep it in. I am in pure hell, and this man was my torturer. I only nodded. He grabbed my chin and if looks could kill I would be a goner.

"What did I say about eye contact? Are you deaf?...eye contact! I am not going to repeat that again. Now, be back here before morning. My driver will take you so he will know what ridiculous club you are going to. Have your ring and phone with you at all times. Clear?"

"Y-yes" I fearfully stutter out my response. Past anger replaced with raw fear, I will do whatever he says. I just don't want to face the consequences, anything but that! I defeatedly left, trembling from the situation.

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