"scarlet eat something first and after that we will go " kristian said as he pushed more food in my plate , i felt my stomach churn as i tried to swallow my food , Noah was looking at me with his sleepy eyes i smiled at him and kissed his head gently

"i don't feel that hungry , and it's already 8 pm we need to get mateo some clean clothes and i want to see ben " i said as i pushed my chair and called for Claire to help me help clean Noah up and get him ready for bed

"mommy ?" Noah called as he hugged me from behind , i turned around and bent down to look into his eyes

"what is it little darling ?"

"mommy won't sleep with Noah tonight?" i felt my heart break a bit as i gently ruffled his hair

"i am sorry baby , but tonight i have to stay with uncle ben , Claire will stay with you okay ?and hen mommy comes back i will go to see you right away. " Noah nodded his head and kissed me on my cheek before he went with Claire to his room , i saw kristian stare at me as i walked towards the entrance to wear my jacket .

"please scarlet , Can't I convince you to stay here tonight and we will go first thing tomorrow morning , you look really pale my love , i don't want you too fall sick " kristian said as he tried to stop me form leaving the house , i looked at him with determination in my eyes

"ben is my brother , and he is in that bed because of me , the least i can do is be there when he wakes up love i hope you can understand that. " after a second kristian nodded his head and held my hand as we walked out of the house together , the ride to the hospital took 20 minutes since the streets were full at this time of the day , i tightened the jacket around my body as i went inside the hospital with kristian circling his hand around my waist, the smell of antiseptics was worsening my nausea and i was starting to feel sick to the stomach , i took a deep breath in as we almost reached ben's room

i saw mateo and Adam sitting there and talking with another guy that i didn't know , the guy was tall and huge in size , he had a big tattoo covering his neck and a small scar on his eyebrow making him a bit intimidating , the three guys were talking seriously and the mood was obviously not that good , the moment mateo saw us he stood up and signalled something that i didn't understand for the man , i took a glance at him and saw him eyeing me carefully

"hey?? you're already back i thought you would rest a bit before you came ?" mateo said as he stood before us , i gave him a small smile as i handed him the clothes that i brought over for him

"scarlet insisted on coming as soon as possible , so we took a shower and came back " kristian said with a sigh

"scar are you okay ? you look pale. " i nodded my head with a small smile

"Hmm ! is ben awake yet? can we go and see him ?"

"he woke up a couple of minutes ago but he was to drowsy so he went back to sleep, the doctor changed him to a normal room so if you want you can go in but try to be quite " i nodded my head eagerly as i ignored everyone and ran inside ben's room

i took a deep breath as i saw ben laying on the bed with a couple of wires in his hands and the machines beeping above his head , i stared at him as tears welled up in my eyes , i stood beside his bed with a broken heart , i gently held his hand in mine trying to give him as much warmth as i can , tears slipped from my eyes as i imagined the pain that he was in , i knelt beside his bed and closed my eyes as i hugged his hand

" don't cry , i am not dead " a hoarse voice said making me snap at him , i looked at ben and saw him smiling at me as his other hand slowly reached my head and gently patted me , i felt the tears fall down harder as the relief washed over me , the fear that i had finally getting washed away as i cried like a baby in ben's hands

"i am sor-sorry , it's all my f-fault " my voice trembled as i continued kneeling beside his bed

"shut up , it's nobody's fault and i am okay so calm down "

"but y-ou got hurt. . ."

"hey look at me " ben said with a stern voice, i lifted my head and wiped my tears as i sniffled

" i am fine , and so are you , that's the most important thing isn't? so stop crying already " i nodded my head and slowly stood up

"you're up? how are you feeling ?" Kristian's voice came from behind me i turned around and saw him standing at the door with a smile

"i feel like shit , but the nurse is cute so i will live " me and kristian laughed at his carefree attitude , i felt kristian wrap his hand around my waist as he stood beside me

"thank you man , i can never tell you how grateful i am to you "

"hey! she's my little sis before she became your wife , i did what i had to do " ben said with a smirk making me smile and blush

"well you know the doctor is better looking than the nurse " mateo said as he joined us with our little laugh

"i am not interested in straight men " ben said as he yawned and winced a bit in pain

"you should go back to sleep the medicine you're taking is stronger than you think , it will be better if you rest as much as possible " mateo told ben as he checked on his IV bag

"then maybe we should leave and let him rest " kristian said as he pulled on my hand

" i want to stay here , i will sleep on the couch "

"no one is allowed to stay here scar " kristian said with a sigh

"why not ?" I frowned as I looked at both of mateo and kristian who were exchanging looks

"because ben needs rest and it's the hospital's rules, come on now love , let's go home and sleep and we will come back first thing tomorrow morning " i wanted to protest but when a wave of nausea hit my stomach i frowned as i frantically ran to the bathroom while covering my mouth , i banged the door open and crouched down on the floor as i puked my guts out in the toilet , i felt my tears well up again as i heaved again and again

kristian sat behind me and helped me lift my hair of my face and patted my back

"are you okay my love ?" i nodded my head as i stood up slowly with Kristian's support , he helped me walk towards the sink so i can wash my face , and gently tapped my face with some cold water

"is she okay? what happened ? " mateo asked as he handed kristian a bottle of warm water , i took a sip of the water and felt the disgusting after taste of my earlier puke , god i was dreading the next couple of months so bad

"call for a doctor , fast mateo " kristian told mateo as i leaned on him while closing my eyes to rest them for a second , trying me best to keep myself awake

"no need i am okay!" i pushed myself of kristian and gave him a weak smile , i leaned on the sink for a second before trying to walk , the moment i took my first step i felt the whole world turn upside down , kristian screamed my name as he held me in his hands before i fell to the floor , i felt kristian left me up and run out of the bathroom while he talked to mateo who was in a frenziedly calling for a doctor , i wanted to calm him down but my eyes wouldn't open so i decided to give up on trying and just let the darkness take me away . . .

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"kristian i swear i am okay !" scarlet said as she laid down on the hospital bed , i frowned as i helped her fix the pillow under her head

"You're getting checked if you like it or not "

"but i know..."

"scarlet stop talking and rest until the doctor is here. mateo already went to get her"

" please just listen to me for a second , i swear i have my reasons. " scarlet said as she pushed herself slightly so she can sit down , she leaned closer to me and held my hand in hers , i saw her eyes look at me while begging , i wanted to say okay but i couldn't do it. i couldn't risk her health

" love let's just..."

"oh for god's sake kristian i told you i have my reasons "

"what reasons?" i felt my temper flare up and my voice getting higher

"I. . . I can't say now " she hesitated and diverted her eyes away from , she was hiding something and i knew it , my heart started to beat fast as a thousand thoughts went into my mind

"then you're getting checked " i said as i stood up and started walking towards the door

"alright , alright i will tell you " scarlet screamed as she held my hand before i moved away , i took a step back and looked at her

"sit down first " she pulled on my hands , letting me sit by her side , i took a deep breath as i saw her staring at the hand that was holding mine

"babe your scaring me , you know you can tell me anything !" i said with a whisper as i lifted her face to look into her eyes , she looked at me with a smile

"i know that, it's just... i didn't want to tell you like this. . . i had a plan and it was ruined " she stopped talking as a small smile bloomed on her face

"what is it ?" i asked her again eager to know what's going on

"well do you know how i wasn't able to eat well for the last couple of days ?"

"yeah i was planning on asking mateo about that you . . . "

"it's because i am pregnant "

"what?" i asked in a whisper , not believing what i am hearing , scarlet grinned as she looked at me with a blush , she took my hand and laid it gently on her stomach , i stared at her with bewilderment

"i am pregnant " my world stopped as i stared at scarlet like a fool , my brain crashed down unwilling to process what the hell was happening , i looked at scarlet dumbfounded and suddenly the hand that was laying on her stomach felt heavy , afraid of hurting the fragile life that was growing inside of my wife i retreated my hand right away but unknowingly that small reaction caused scarlet to frown

"kristian ?" i looked up and saw her look at me with tears in her eyes and a frown on her beautiful face , the shocked state i was in disappeared all of a sudden as i registered everything that is happening and realized that my response was getting misunderstand by scarlet

i jumped of the bed and hugged scarlet as tight as i can holding her in my arm and breathing her in with every breath

"God i can't thank you enough my love " i whispered in her ears and felt her shiver in my hands as she held me back and gently laughed

"thank god i thought you weren't happy " i pulled away and looked at her with the biggest grin ever

"scarlet , this is the second happiest moment in life "

"what's the first ?" she asked with a small smile

"the moment you became my wife and my life . . . "

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to be continued

P.S

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