I couldn't focus on my notes as she looked as cute as ever, even more so when she adorably whined to get my password and I had to hold it together when she mocked me about it being 1234. I heard her type in the background as these notes were not making much sense to me. She was squinting her eyes at the screen. I don't know what she's looking at but I hope it's her paper, meaning she didn't lose it.Cute.I thought when she bit her lip, but I soon saw something was up. Trying to focus on my notes was not going to happen as I watched her read, her face becoming more clouded by the second. Oh bells...She lost her paper. I wanted to get up and hug her but before I could push my chair back she ran off, tears rolling down her face and the door of my bedroom slamming behind her.

Baby... My face fell as I sighed, pushing back my chair anyways. I hated that she was upset over not finding that paper. I would be upset too if all my effort was proved to be a lost cause. Maybe I can try to find it? I looked over at my closed bedroom door, when I sat down behind my laptop, entering my password and unlocking the screen to an email. "Fuck!"I instantly cussed when I saw which email it was and most importantly what it said, rereading it even though I already read it a thousand times before. Why was I so stupid to leave it open! I pushed a hand through my hair to calm my nerves but that did nothing. She wasn't supposed to find out! Fuck! I cussed more while rubbing my face with both hands and my heartrate accelerated like a high speed train leaving the station.

It's not w-... She just didn't need to know!I panicked even more so when flashes of her running off with tears falling down her face swirled through my head. Of course she's crying! You asshole. Do something about it.I shoved my chair back and rushed over to my bedroom. I took a deep breath, calming my thoughts, before carefully sticking my head inside the room. My eyes wandered over her as she clearly was in tears, my heart breaking at the sound of her sobs. Baby.

"Bells?" I whispered when I gazed over her, my eyes lingering on the blue velvet box clenched between her hand. She wasn't supposed to see that either. "What are you doing?" I said as I walked into the room, getting closer to her with each step, also with each step a loud heartbeat going through my head. She has seen it I'm sure of it. I kept my eyes on the box as she continued to cry. I couldn't help but smile at the memories of buying it for her. "When I went out to get you those Lilac shoes I walked past a window and I saw this..." I whispered carefully but she just squeezed her eyes shut, my heartbeat now pinching my throat shut.

"Lukas don't, please..." She almost begged me to stop but there was no way back now, she needed to know...

"When I saw it, I knew it was perfect... Like it screamed your name from across the street." I chuckled at the thought. I took a step closer to fold my hands over hers so the both of us were holding the box. This tiny box meant the world, as it was my ultimate promise to her to make her happy for the rest of her life, sealing it with the biggest label we could give ourselves. "I got it because I knew that I was going to give something like this to you one day. To ask you..." I whispered before briefly pausing so I could study the look on her face. She looked up at me, tears still flowing from her kind eyes, a soft smile clouded with sadness covering her face. "I was definitely going to wait until after your graduation and when timing was right but I just had to get that ring already... It was, is, the ring." I whispered once more, my hand leaving hers to cup her face, my fear fading a little as she melted into it. "I never stopped you know..."

"What?" She whispered, her voice breaking like glass.

"Loving you... I never stopped loving you." I said confidently as my gaze held on to hers, just staring at her like she was the most precious thing on this planet... Not like...She was, is.

"Did you?" She suddenly scoffed pulling her face away from my hand. "Clearly not enough since you're moving to the other side of the fucking planet to get away from me! I saw the email Lukas. You're leaving me." She raised her voice, hurt audible in every vowel and syllable as my hand fell to my side. "So this!" She raised her voice more as she held the box between us. "This? This is all lies?" She widened her eyes at me, completely in distress and in a state of panic and I couldn't blame her.

I tried to cup her face once more but she took a step back, making me grimace at that rejection. "Bells, Baby, I was hurt when I applied... It was after that voicemail and...-" I tried to explain but she wasn't letting me.

"And it doesn't matter... You're leaving." She cried, more tears coming down her face as her voice sounded more desperate and hurt than before.

I sighed and shook my head, my hands rubbing over my face as I tried to explain. "Bella please... Listen to m-"

"Don't go!" She suddenly begged, her expression going from angry and hurt to filled with despair. What?Bella I-. We both stared at each other, both of us speechlessly trying to find words. She shook her head and sighed, briefly closing her eyes before opening her mouth to speak while all I could do was wait for her words to either hurt or hurt me more. "I mean you have to go..." She actually wants me to go?"But I don't want you to go!" What? I shook my head and frowned my brows at her confusing message. "I can't stop you from going... If it's your dream than I don't want to be in the way of that." She shook her head while she squeezed the velvet box in her hands. "But I would be lying if I said that the thought of you leaving isn't ripping my heart out." She sobbed and all I wanted to do was stop the tears from falling down her face, to silence her sobs and to hold her in my arms.

"Bells...-" I whispered as I gently shook my head, my feet glued to the hardwood floor.

"No listen to me Lukas. You have to go! But I can't let you leave like that... not without telling you how I feel!" She whimpered, holding the velvet box tightly to her chest as if she never wanted to let go and she didn't have to...

"Bella...I-" I tried to silence her once more but again she shook her head until I was the one being shushed.

"Please Lukas, I just need you to know that you were the best thing to ever happen to me, you still are and I can't stop loving you!" She sobbed before trying to wipe the tears from her face and I decided to help her, my hand cupping her face as my thumb caressed the tearstains from her cheek. When her face melted into my hand again I felt lightheaded, anxious to hear her the rest of her words. "I can't stop loving you. Trust me I tried, but I can't. And it kills me that you don't feel like that anymore, so much so that you desperately want to get away from me. You're leaving in a few weeks and you didn't even tell me? Why? Were you just going to leave without saying goodbye?" She looked up at me, another wave of tears falling down her face. "So much for forever huh? Again!" She raised her voice with hurt laced trough every letter. "Why would you keep this from me! You knew it would hu-"

"Isabella, stop talking..." I cut her off with a smirk on my face.

"No you shut up, let me talk for once." She shook her head away from my hand, scoffing. "What was your plan? To just lea-" I sighed mid-sentence as I could see she was hurting herself with her own thoughts and words. I grabbed both sides of her face and pulled it to my lips, silencing her with a kiss.

"Shut up, you talk too much!" I grinned against her lips and even though she was mad about it, she softened into my touch, her free hand sliding over mine on her face. I pulled back to look at her teary eyes and the pained expression on her face. Oh Baby don't cry... I leaned in to brush my lips of hers, once again feeling her mouth melt into mine. "I declined." I whispered against her lips before letting my forehead fall against hers.

"What?" She faintly said under her breath, her mouth instantly parting with confusion. She closed her eyes and briefly shook her head, I could tell she was going over all of it in her thoughts, not able to find a lot of words to respond.

I brushed my thumb over her cheek to grasp her attention while softly brushing my nose over hers. "I'm not going. I'm not leaving you, not even if they were to offer me all the jobs in the world." I whispered to her, her green eyes instantly grabbing my gaze and not letting go.

"Why?" She just softly whimpered as if it was another lie she was hearing.

I took a deep breath as I was going to have to convince her it was the truth. "Because I was hurt when I sent out that email. I wasn't even happy when they replied... It didn't make me feel anything..." Is shrugged my shoulders while her eyes intensively studied mine. "When I applied, I just saw it as a good excuse to walk away from all of this, from the hurt, from you... I thought you couldn't stand me... That you didn't want anything to do with me anymore. It was a great excuse to start over without thinking about losing my lifeline and anchor." I whispered to her before softly kissing her lips, to feel if she was still breathing because while I talked she just looked at me with wide eyes, tears stinging in the corners. Her lips however welcomed mine and soothed my worry. "You say you don't want to be in the way of my dreams... Snowflake I don't want to start over on the other side of the world." I lightly shook my head against her forehead. "I want to start over here, with you." I spoke softly while brushing both thumbs over her cheeks. The moment my words entered her consciousness she finally closed her eyes, tears escaping them so beautifully. "I have never loved someone, not even myself, but you, I love you. You're my dream Isabella." I said, saying whatever I had to say, only now realizing tears of my own were making their way down my cheeks.

"Lukas." She whimpered in my hand, a soft sob rolling over her lips. "So, forever still stands?" She whispered before letting out a breath she had been holding. I nodded, closing my eyes to push my tears down my cheeks. Forever. "I love you and I won't ever stop." She whispered before throwing her arms around my neck, my hands instantly letting go of her cheeks to wrap my arms around her waist.

"I love you too. And I don't even think about stopping." I felt myself smile as a weight fell off our shoulders, both of us taking this as the final push towards our endgame. There was nobody else, there will never be anybody else, she was my endgame and now she knew I meant it. Before I could do anything else than gaze at her beautiful green eyes she pulled me into her face, her lips ferociously seeking mine.

Her lips longingly claiming mine made me step towards her, our bodies colliding with each other. I kissed her back, my tongue brushing over her bottom lip, waiting for access. I didn't have to wait long. Her tongue welcomed mine after softly taking my lip between her teeth. Fuck she knows how much I love that. She kissed me like she missed me and fuck I know she did. If she missed me for a fraction of how much I missed her, she must have suffered.My hands on her waist couldn't help but go under her T-shirt, her skin hot under my touch.

The manner in which she kissed me so passionately made me groan against her lips. I was already out of breath and my heartrate was through the roof and that was only after sharing a kiss. I needed to breathe so I pulled back slightly only to trail kisses down her cheek and the side of her neck, settling my lips in my favorite spot which always guaranteed me to hear the longing in her voice. The room spun when I heard a soft moan escape her, causing me to take a step forward. Doing so, her back collided with my drawer, the noise of that not startling the both of us.

She welcomed the kisses in her neck as I pushed her into the drawer, her hand instantly settling into my roots, softly pulling them just the way I like it. "Wait." She whispered into the side of my face and it instantly made me pull away from her neck. I looked at her trough hooded eyes and a parted mouth, her lips plump and blushed from biting down on it. She smiled, showing me the velvet box she was still holding on to. "I don't want to lose this." She chuckled before halfway turning in my arms to put the box on top of my drawer. I carefully watched her and when she turned back to me the flame in her eyes was burning brighter than ever, her desires clear.

She instantly and harshly pulled my lips back to hers, her tongue not waiting around as it begged me for access. Fuck yes. I let her mouth take mine with determination as I had a plan of my own. My hands swiftly went under her legs and pulled her to and wrap her around my waist. A giggle escaped her shiny lips the moment I did, her eyes playful and filled with mischief. Our gazes didn't want to let go of each other until mine was pulled towards her lips once more as she whispered something I had been longing to hear. "I want you." My heart skipped a beat and the already hard rock in my pants twitched as her words entered me.

I smashed my mouth into hers and her hand settled for the back of my head, her fingers putting me on edge as they pulled at my roots once again. I longingly cussed under my breath as I pushed us into the drawer, Bella's yearning moans instantly fogging my mind. Oh fuck. I stopped making love to her lips a second as the sensation of my hardness pressing between her legs felt like I was on a cloud. Chills instantly went down my spine, weakening my muscles.

The lack of my lips on hers made her shift her attention to my neck. She sucked my skin until I could do nothing but groan into the side of her face, my desire pushing myself into her once more. I felt the vibrations of her hums against my skin and it was driving me insane. Her legs around my waist tightened, pressing herself against me more, if that was even possible. I want to feel her around me so badly.

I was desperate to feel what I was doing to her as the humming coming from deep inside her throat was already giving me some idea. I turned us around until my back was pasted against the drawer, giving me access to whatever I wanted to feel. While one of my hands held her up around me, the other softly caressed her back before slowly and seductively sliding down the back of her sweatpants. They gave me enough room to slide down over her butt cheek, firmly grabbing one of them as the playful look in her eyes returned. "Look at me." I whispered to her before brushing my nose over her cheek. I slowly trailed my fingers down between her legs, the feeling of her panties under the mercy of my fingertips made both of us suck in a hasty breath. She did because my fingers were undoubtedly causing her to tingle all over and I did because I felt how soaked she already was.

I took another breath when I rubbed her moist panties, making her whimper wildly with each stroke. "What are you waiting for." Bells breathed while pushing her forehead against mine. Her words pushed my fingers past the hem and into her wet entrance. Oh fucking hell, she's... She's perfect. I teased her circling her entrance with my fingertips until it made her buck her hips into them, her breathing now hard and sounding like music to my ears. The soft moans she released with each breath were making me twitch, having to silence her with my lips before I couldn't think straight, which I already couldn't. Her lips brutally claimed mine and her teeth played with my bottom one as both of us were easily losing our breath. "Do you want me?" I teased against her lips when I stopped circling her wetness. He mouth was parted and she looked more flustered than ever. Her mouth looked just as wet as her desire on my fingers. She pulled her lip between her teeth as words lacked her, nodding with greedy eyes while her chest moved up and down, completely out of breath by my actions.

I smirked as the nod she gave me was more than enough to slide a finger inside her core, instantly making her draw in another breathless breath, her voice vocalizing a soft whimper. She kept looking at me with hooded eyes and a parted mouth while I thrusted my finger inside her and slowly retrieved it, doing it over and over to drive her insane. Her fingers tugged at my roots more and more with each thrust and the moment I slid a second finger inside she pulled my head back, burrowing her face into the crook of my neck, her lips pressed against my skin to muffle her sweet and unsubtle moans. I love that sound, I love that I'm the only one privileged to make her produce it.

My second finger joining her, plunging both of them deep into her, made her legs around me shake and I knew she was already getting close as they kept making her moan into my neck. My harness was also throbbing against her sensitive spot, wanting to dive into her wetness like my fingers. As if she read my mind, one of her hands traveled from my hair down between us until she reached the waistband of my sweatpants. I hissed with pleasure the moment she slipped her finger inside, brushing over my tip poking out of my boxers. "Fuck Baby." I breathed against the side of her face and it made her look up, her lips instantly searching mine to silence me. Her sweet sound was now vibrating against my lips with each trust of my fingers and I was going insane, wanting more, wanting her all to myself, deep and slowly.

I took a few steps, while her lips moved against mine, carrying us to the edge of my bed. I slowly lowered her, my fingers still going in and out of her, ultimately laying her down on the bed. She didn't stay put as her tiny hands pushed me up by my shoulders, signing me to stand up straight. She took my wrist, pulling my hand away from her core. She whimpered at the sensation of my fingers leaving her slowly. What is she doing. I gazed down at her as she made me stand at the edge of the bed and between her legs. She looked up, her eyes burning with want like a wildfire. She guided my hand towards the back of her neck while I enjoyed the sight before me, her wild hair and eyes, her breasts in that white T-shirt, her nipples hard and showing.Fuck she's always a sight for sore eyes. Such a tease and a turn on too. Her hand let go of mine, instantly going to my lower back to pull me closer. She pressed her lips against my abs just at the hemline of my pants, one of her fingers relentlessly teasing me. "Bells..." I took a deep breath as every muscle in my body tensed the moment she grazed her tongue along the hem.