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Chapter 32:

"I love you."

But I didn't utter those words out first. My lips parted trying to search for words to gather and say but I couldn't. I was speechless. His eyes watched me carefully and cautiously.

"Say something." His thumb caressed my cheek once more before leaving it there.

"W-what?" I stuttered out, my ears had to be deceiving me. This whole thing felt like a dream.

"I think I love you." The pad of his fingers went behind my head to secure me in place but he changed his mind again. "I love you."

I closed my eyes for a brief second, my emotions getting the best of me. "I-" I couldn't even get the words out before I felt him slipping away from me. "No." I grabbed onto his arm, pulling him back to me. "Landon-"

"I shouldn't have." His voice was pained, his eyes were casted down. "I wanted to and now it doesn't even seem-"

"Look at me." I brought my finger under his chin before moving my hand to rest against his stubble, he stared at me as if hoping for me to say the words back and he looked almost.. scared. "I never got to say I love you too." His lifeless eyes came back to life at my words, after releasing a short breath.

His lips twitched before seeing a grin start to form.

I can feel him relax against me, his rough smooth lips pressed against my forehead. "You love me?"

"Of course I do." I was just too scared to tell you first, was it too soon to know?

His lips trailed down, kissing in between my eyes, to the bridge of my nose and he lingered against my lips that were waiting to be adored and cherished. "I love you." He repeated again and my lips broke out into a smile.

This time I took the lead, attaching my lips to his and he was shocked at first before he recovered- far too quickly- wrapping his right hand around my waist and my body sunk into his. "Wait." I broke away but his lips never left my body, as I turned to look to see the divider between the driver and us were still up.

He didn't care at all. His left hand came up under my chin and firmly turned my face back to him and he kissed me ferociously and impatiently and our champagne-minted breaths mingled together.

His right hand that was around my waist loosened as it trailed up my body, my dress riding up, and I didn't stop him. I pushed on his shoulder gently for him to lean back against the seat, hooking my left leg over him. I didn't know who I was at this moment but he made me this way about him.

He swore under his breath, feeling my fingers comb through his hair before he kissed my arms, I felt his tongue on me and a nerve-wrecking chill ran down my spine. He pressed me forward and I felt his hot breath whispering against my breast and my left hand left his hair to place behind him against the seat.

He was all over the place with my body, he didn't seem to know where to start first. His hands were placed on my thighs, rubbing them to soothe my ache but his lips were at my neck, leaving love bites I'm sure.

"Landon." I broke away to look at him and I found his lustful hovering eyes already on me. His lips were swollen and smeared with my lipstick but I didn't care and he knew it was only going to get worse.

"Yes?" He sounded impatient with me and his voice dropped in octave and it made my legs tighten, I felt him shift under me. Oh.

I shook my head, I don't know what for but he didn't wait for me to decide. He surged forward, attacking my lips and a squeal released from my lips, my right hand pulling on his hair as if that would help my fall but he didn't let me. His legs parted, getting more comfortable and I readjusted myself but a painful groan fell from his lips. "I want you." His voice came out in a rasp against my lips. "So fucking much." And the next words were my undoing.

"Then have me." He broke away from the kiss this time, and he looked different. Almost animalistic, and I bit my lips nervously but I couldn't and wouldn't take my words back.

Scooting forward with me on his lap still , he hit the button and the divider slid down. "How much longer until we're home?" He asked the driver.

"Ten minutes sir."

"Make it five." He didn't wait for the man to try to comprehend what he just said as he watched the divider go back up with wide eyes.

We could tell he heard him right, once we surged forward from the cars acceleration.

"Buckle up." He ordered me, patting my side for me to get off him to sit in my abandoned seat. "Just wait." And those five minutes felt like torture, it's amazing how time knows how to speed up when you're in a hurry but not when you're waiting.

We hit a bump but it was familiar.. we were here. Landon exited the car, not waiting for the driver to get out to do his job. "That's okay, thank you." I heard him talking to the driver, before opening my door.

Fixing myself, I reached out for his hand and he took it. "Thank you." I thanked him before turning to thank the driver as well.

I saw Landon hand him a folded tip, before guiding me into the house without another word. A little part of me was scared of what would come next. And a bigger portion of me wanted to find out. He let me in first before stepping in and closing the door.

My eyes followed him, he walked not too far in front of me before turning to face me. My hand clung onto my mini purse.

"Landon-" He shushed me and my lips closed on command. He stalked me like he was a lion and I was his prey that he wanted to devour. I took a step back from his approach and his lips twitched into a sly grin.

"Running already?" He asked. Both of our fronts touched and we both could feel my breast rising and falling.

His right hand came to rest at my hip before he slammed me to the door, the impact didn't hurt to my surprise as my eyes stayed glued to his. "Take off your heels." Lifting my right leg first, I reached down to slip out of my heel- my eyes never leaving his- and I did the same with the other.

My body was burning with need and he didn't make it any better as I went from almost chin to shoulder level. Life was not fair.

He took them from me, along with my purse, before he disappeared and my eyebrows raised. "Where are you going?"

He didn't answer me and I was left to watch him and I released a sigh before stuffing my hands in his jacket. He was giving me enough time to calm my nerves. My eye began to itch, probably from the mascara and my hand quickly went up trying to soothe the ache.

"Why am I still standing here?" I mumbled to myself but before taking just a single step, he came back into view and as if being caught I quickly went back to my position.

"So-" Before I could try to apologize, his lips crash down onto mine, silencing me from talking. He was a man on a mission alright. My hands quickly made route to wrap around his neck but he stopped me, his grip on my wrist were enough to make me cry out- but not in pain. Pinning my hands above my hand, my back was met with the hard cold door again.

He kissed me harder than before, making me dizzier. My body yearned for him in every single way, my back arched into him trying to press myself to him. Keeping my hands clamps together above me with his right, he moved his left hand down to man handle my chin trying to keep me in place.

I felt his tongue sweep across my bottom lip before pulling it between his teeth- biting it. He was a drug that I was slowly becoming addicted to and no rehab could cure me. He released my hands and they quickly went to his broad shoulders, as he hoisted me up and my legs instantly wrapped around him. He groaned against my lips. "Tell me to stop."

Breaking away from the kiss, I let my head rest against the door just soaking him in. "No." He wanted this just as much as I did, so who was I to stop him?

He closed his eyes for a spilt second, digesting my answer before he stripped me from the door. Once he started climbing the stairs, I knew where our next destination was going to be. My heart was running a marathon every step that he took.

Opening the door to his room, it felt different. Everything was still the same but I knew something was going to change, tonight.

Placing me lightly on my feet, I didn't face him but instead I turned away from him. I wasn't scared, but it all felt surreal. Placing both hands on my stomach, he pressed my back against him so my back could meet his front. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." My voices cracked and I cleared my throat twice. "Nothing I'm fine."

"If you don't want to-" His hands connected with each other around me and I leant my head back against his shoulder, turning my head to look at him.

He must have read me right as he descended down to connect our lips together again.

Turning in his arms, my hands went around his neck and into his hair and he released a harsh breath, before bringing his hands around mine to place them by my side. At first I thought I did something wrong, but he had something else in mind.

Disconnecting our lips from each other, his hands started at my waist and slid up until he slowly, painfully stripped me from his jacket- it landed with a soft thud.

Goosebumps started to rise on my arms from the heat that was stripped away from them and my skin was slapped with the coldness. "Turn around." He gently caressed my arms before I turned for him.

I didn't feel his hand on me but hearing the zipper and feeling my dress loosen made this even more real for me. It hit the floor, laying with his jacket.

I was thankful that I was wearing a matching set and not just slapping anything on because hearing his groan at the sight of my body, made it all worth it.

I didn't turn back around to face him instead I took the courage to walk forward until I reached his bed, looking over my shoulder- he was already unbuttoning his suit shirt.

The moonlight was our light tonight, but I was his light that he wanted to see. Sitting on the edge of the bed, I watched him hungrily as his shirt made a pool with our clothes. His approach was careful, as if he didn't want to scare me away but I felt the opposite.

I feel like everything's changed now, the pull I felt towards him was indescribable at this point.

He placed his hand on my cheek, his thumb drawing circles and I turned my head so my lips could kiss the inside of his palm. His other hand lifted my chin up to meet his hazel green eyes to my brown ones.

Kneeling down until we were at eye level, he had a slight smirk on his face before he pecked my lips once, and with my eyes closed I tilted forward waiting for more and that's when I knew he was teasing me.

"Landon." I really was not in the mood to play hard to get right now with him.

"Hmm?" He placed both of his hands on both sides to me like he did when I was in his chair, and I slowly ran my hand up his abs and chest.

"Kiss me." I demanded him, he knew I needed him but he needed me too. His eyes searched mine, and my new found confidence my eyes didn't lose his.

I leant forward, pressing our lips together and he released a groan before I felt his knee come between my legs and I took that as a sign to lean back and he followed after me, until my back hit the soft luxurious sheets.

I wrapped my arms around his muscular ones that caged me in as he took from me what I was giving him. His tongue was working mysteriously and that's when I realized he has been holding back on me.

He released my lips in order for me breathe but it didn't seem to help at all. He kissed down the valley of my breast and I squirmed underneath him. He followed my movement after I heard his sweet laugh of how nerve wrecking he was making me feel.

My legs started to close once he reached down to that area and I was suddenly self-conscious, my thong barely covering me.

He stopped me though, and I felt self conscious all over again. "You're beautiful." He murmured in between kisses. I felt his strong certain hands run over the straps before he slowly pulled it away from my body.

I saw his eyes roam over me and I sat up on my forearms watching him. His eyes connected with mine before a devilish grin struck his face and he pounced me. "Oh.." My head flew back feeling him connect with the most intimate part of me and my hips bucked.

His hand clamped down on my stomach, stopping my movement has he continued to work his tongue on me. "Landon.." I moaned out, my hands working there way into his hair. He released me with a faint pop before he travelled back up, capturing my lips again.

I hummed against him, my hands covering his cheeks as he deepened it, he didn't stop there. His hand traveled down in between my legs. "Tell me what you want." He played me like a violin and my back arched into him.

"Please." I hoarsely begged him, my legs began to tighten and he pulled away from me.

"Tell me." He pressed, his hands going behind my back to unclamps my bra in a swift movement. Lifting it up, he captured one of my breast his mouth. I couldn't stay still anymore as my body twisted and his rough hand came to stop me, but I couldn't control it. "It's okay." He released me with a pop, before attending the other one with the same ferocious need.

He continued to work my body with his hand and mouth and I felt my body almost locking up before my eyes widen. "W-What.." I didn't know what was happening to me and I was becoming frightened.. was this normal?

"Let yourself go." He loomed over me and with one flick of his hand I came undone in his hands. My mind felt like I was on cloud nine and my body shook twice, before I realized what was happening to me. I just had my first orgasm with Landon Hale.

"Hmm." I hummed in contentment before I felt his finger slip out of me and my eyes lazily trailed after him seeing him slipping out his suit pants and he was left in his boxers- showing his massive bulge. In my mind I was freaking out but I couldn't express it, as I turned my body half way still trying to soak in the feeling.

He climbed over me like he was a lion before he opened his dresser drawer to pull out two condoms. "Don't fall asleep on me now baby." He turned my body back and I tried to form words. Spreading my legs open, he settled in between them and I felt him rub against me and I moaned before rubbing against him myself. "Looks like I brought the freak out in you." He chuckled.

I didn't pay him much mind, my hands slipping into his boxers and his once laughter died away before he turned putty in my hands. He rested his forehead on my shoulder as I heard the pleasing sound of his groan.

I wasn't experienced but something came over to me just do it and my thumb pressed on the head before feeling my way down and his hips bucked. "Fuck." He pulled away abruptly and I was left to think I did something wrong but he slipped out of his briefs.

Then my eyes caught all of him and my eyes widen.. should I call it quits now? It was a good run while it lasted.

I started to retreat away but his hand clamped down on my ankle and he pulled me back to him and I laughed at how serious he was being. "Something funny?" He mocked me and I shook my head no.

Tearing open the condom, I watched how he put the rubber on before he settled over me. "If you don't want to do this tell me now." He asked me again and not wasting anytime, my hands rested on his shoulders before I gave him my consent.

Feeling his tip at my clitoris I tried to brace myself but he stopped me. "Loosen up baby." He laughed at how serious I was taking this. Adjusting myself under him I tried to clam down. "It's going to hurt." He warned and I nodded my head before I felt him push inside of my wet heat.

Oh my- I tilted my head back before gasping at the pain, how big was he for it to feel like he was ripping me apart? "I'm here." He coated me with his reassurance and I looked at him my eyes pleading with him and he rested his forehead against mine before I squeezed my eyes shut, there was no going back now. "I'm here."

He fully pushed inside him to the halt and I tried to readjust myself. "Feel it." He kissed me gently. "Tell me when you're ready."

Trying to register that he was inside me big and proud and getting over the pain was making me converse with myself that I could do this.. I could do this.

After what seemed like forever, I opened my eyes to see him looking at him with so much wonder that it made me feel brave and alive. "Y-You can move." I whispered out. Sliding out, the pain returned before he pushed back inside me for the second, third time and after the fourth one, the pleasure started to sweep in.

Wrapping my arms around him, I brought his lips to mine in a much needed kiss. "Y-You can go faster now." I moaned out, my back arching off the bed and he took that opportunity to slide his hand under me and brought us closer up to the headboard so he didn't have to stand anymore.

He thrusted into me again but this time it was more powerful and charged with what he was holding back from doing to me and inhaled a sharp breath as he continued to do it over and over again. The mixtures of sounds filled the room, our fleshes slapping against each other and I released my hold around his neck before my right hand slapped the headboard, clawing it down and his pants for air liberated me as kissed again in a bruising kiss.

"Don't stop." My legs wrapped around his hips as we continued to move together. "Please." My hands went under his arms to hold him to me. He kissed down my throat, before he increased the tempo in which I thought he couldn't do and my legs tightened before my mouth fell open, my tongue coaxing my lips.

"Fuck." He murmured out and I could feel the sweat building around us, he was really holding back from me. His hand came to wrap around my throat and our eyes connected and it tipped me over the edge.

The same feeling from earlier relinquished in me and I cried out before turning my head to bite the pillow that was next to me to muffle my cries. "Landon.." He slowed down and my body jolted before still feeling him moving inside of me.

"I love you." He turned my head. "So much." My eyes closed, hearing his words. He loved me. And that was all that mattered to me in this exact moment.

My hands rested on both sides of his face and I could see it in his eyes, he was telling me the truth. "You're mine." My voice betrayed me as it cracked but he heard me. With one final thrust he emptied himself into the condom inside of me with a groan and he rested himself on his elbows, not putting all of his weight on me.

I clung to him like a baby would and we both tried to calm our breathing. "I didn't hurt you, did I?" He asked once we sounded okay to talk.

"No, just the complete opposite." I smiled, my body full of contentment. Sliding out of me, I didn't watch him as I closed my eyes, turning my body to rest on my side.

Hearing the water faucet running, I soon realized why when I felt him cleaning between my legs and I sighed feeling the warm water soothe me.

And I was knocked out cold by time he came back to bed.

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My eyes flutter open to someone pressing light kisses to my neck. "Landon." I whined, trying to go back to sleep.

"Wake up baby girl." He whispered taking my earlobe into his mouth and I felt him bite down.

"No," I whined again, trying my best to ignore the sensation that coursed through my body.